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2005 16 October :: 1.11pm
So last night, me, Jessica, Amanda and Sydney went to Forest of Fear. I liked it, but I'm really into that stuff. Halloween is like my favorite holiday of the year. Even though I dont get free candy anymore. I'm starting to really consider going to Ferris next year. Its like I kinda wanna go away and meet new people, but then I dont wanna leave everything behind. But then again going away is a way to start over. I dunno, what do you think?
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2005 16 October :: 12.08pm
If I get a flower from a guy, Kayliegh shouldn't get one too. It loses all importance when that happens. Which is everytime it happens. Argh!. However it was sweet of him to give me a flower for sweetest day. But Travis is still a dick, for telling us to leave so he could go to the bar.
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2005 15 October :: 6.20pm
I went to Silver Lake today. Oh my damn did I have one hell of a good time. I got to drive a little bit. I went with Brian and his friend Tom as well as Toms brother. Brian got us stuck and we almost tipped over. That was fun. =S So now more than ever I want a truck. I want a Z71. I also want an el camino. Silver Lake is my new favorite place.
I needed to cut loose. And I finally did. Now I am drained because I have been up since 2 yesterday. And I worked last night... Ah sucky sucky..
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2005 15 October :: 11.22am
to my dearest friends...
i love you guys soo much, you dont even begin to realize how much better i feel now after reading all of that. i love all 4 of you with a fricken hard core passion. and im soo happy that no matter what happens, i'll always have you guys....you guys are the best and my favorites...you make me smile real big. i think i've came to a final desision about what im going to do with this whole mike drama thing...and it better work out for the best or i'll be pissed. i love you guys all soo much! thank you...=)
i'm sick of all of the crap i've been putting up with and i'm ready to leave it all behind. it was fun while it lasted but it's been hurting way too much. its going to hurt once he's gone but it will hurt longer if he stays...wish me luck...
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2005 14 October :: 9.51pm
Errrr.... I'm so stupid.
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2005 14 October :: 4.38pm
Yea.. its a brisk 80 degrees here in charlotte NC, Going to the night race at Lowes motor speedway tomorrow. sucks to be stuck in cedar..
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2005 14 October :: 2.33pm
So If I am here, then I must not have gone to my doctors appointment. Which is true, I slept until 2:15. I set 2 alarms. Slept through them both.
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2005 14 October :: 6.04am
Hey everyone its Heather, well i'm doin really good down here its fun, but i miss ya'll a lot I have a lot of new friends but i miss my old ones :(:( I'm in school right now, but we are in the library so yeah, anywho i dont have much to say ttyl!@
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2005 14 October :: 4.01am
My Kind of hell
DMV Employees
Circle I Limbo Bill Gates
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind The Pope
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow Bill Clinton
Circle IV Rolling Weights Democrats
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled River Styx Qusay Hussein
Circle VI Buried for Eternity River Phlegyas Uday Hussein
Circle VII Burning Sands Saddam Hussein
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement Osama bin Laden
Circle IX Frozen in Ice Design your own hell
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2005 13 October :: 9.13pm
:: Mood: depressed....
i hate myself...
im such a bitch. i fuck everything up that is perfect in my life. why? fucking why? why cant i just have a good thing and except that something in my life is awesome and not screw it up? is it that fucking complicated? i mean honestly...why am i so complicated? he doesnt deserve me...im too fucked up. he deserves better, everyone deserves better than me. i should just give up and be alone...forever...this love shit sucks big balls...
this all hurts soo bad...=(
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2005 13 October :: 4.32pm
well i was playin outside with sam (yes my little brother) and we had a great idea
were going to try and start a football frezbie team, well actually two (or more) teams of 6 and were gona play at the beach or in back yards.
soo if anyone is intrested leave a comment!!
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2005 13 October :: 1.31pm
Last night I hugged him.
I refused to let go.
I asked him when I was going to get some answers, and it was like he pushed me away.
Then he got sent over to Cedar St. And by the end of the night, everyone I talk to went to Cedar St. There were only about 4 people left not including me at our plant. We ran out of material.
Because we ran out of material, we needed more techs. We needed a die setter. To do multiple changes as once. So that meant all the first shift guys had to come in early. Meaning that Jimmy the die setter was going to be there. And fortunately enough I was on 23. Back in the corner by the molds and all that stuff. Which meant that Jimmy would be spending an awful lot of time back there hooking up the new mold, changing things on it, and what not. So I got about 3.5 hours of seeing Jimmy. In tight pants. He saw me starring. He didn't seem to care too much.
To take my mind off things all I have to do is see a guy in tight pants.
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2005 13 October :: 1.03pm
Im going to North Carolina... See you guys when i get back.
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2005 12 October :: 5.49pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: the donnas-take me to the backseat
im soo sick of all of this...
im just about to give up right now...
i hate him so much sometimes...
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2005 12 October :: 8.48am
Yesterday after writing 4 pages of my thoughts I felt really sick. I felt even more drained than before. It was like my thoughts were giving me just enough energy to get by. I managed to get a shower in last night. That was it. I had to refrain from getting sick in the shower. So I didn't go to work last night. And I slept all night. For the first time in a week or so, I slept. Comfortably, in my own bed. I made it through the night without waking up a hundred times. I woke up wondering if Brian had called. If he had text messaged me. I woke up and immediatly grabbed my phone to check. At 7:20 this morning. He sent me a text asking if I was okay. If everything was alright because he was worried. And work sucks without me. So I called him. Got no answer. So I waited patiently by my phone. Tried to go back to sleep but I couldn't, not until I knew that he knew I was okay. Finally he called back. And I didn't even say hello. I said Please don't worry about me. You've got to stop caring so much. And I broke down in tears. I lost complete control. He kept telling me that he couldn't stop caring because he loves me. One of these days I am going to be in so much pain, I'll have suffered so badly, that I will be so sick from all of it, that I'll die.
I went to the doctor yesterday. To try and figure out why I haven't been sleeping, and why I've been getting sick so much. Well I already figured it out. I already knew. Its from stress. So when I was at the doctor I asked about the Depo-Provera shot. So friday I have my exam and what not. Then 2 weeks after that I get the first shot. Hopefully that will take away from my stress.
Travis called me this morning. He said he was worried. I guess Brian asked him last night at work if he had talked to me at all yesterday and heard anything about my doctors appointment. Which Travis had no idea about. So that was wonderful to try and explain. And he felt like an ass because when I told him of the stress I have been under and explained some of it, he reminded me that at least I have a mom and that I should be thankful for what I have. Because he doesn't have a mom or dad. And so of course I started crying. Fuckin' yay.
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2005 11 October :: 11.06pm
tonight.... i have discovered, i have a frenulum.
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2005 11 October :: 7.14pm
well tattoo convention is this weekend. im really excited, to be around so many artest is going to be really cool theres going to be 57! tattoo shops there tattooing.
after that im going to have to start my apprentiship in Grand rapids at grand rapids custom design. and at the end of this month im going to a tattoo party to do some piercings...i need to get more rings.
well i finilly got my whole band together were gona get together this week hopefully.
oh well. talk to you all later
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2005 11 October :: 7.29pm
I <3 my jess and she <3 me too
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2005 11 October :: 11.06am
I barely eat.
I barely sleep.
I'm constantly getting sick. Or feeling sick.
I hate who I have become since my heart was broken.
I hate the person he is. I hate that he constantly talks about her.
I am so easily annoyed I can't stand to be around myself. So I sit in silence. I am so quiet I scare myself.
I've been so mean to him that I hate myself for being so cold and heartless to someone other than myself. I keep contradicting myself. I want revenge. I want him to feel the pain I feel everyday. Every second of everyday. I want him to suffer. I want him to know what it feels like to lose everything that had importance in your life. To lose everything you ever dreamed of having. To have everything just ripped away from you just like that.
I wish that he'd hurt so bad he'd lose sleep. He'd stop eating. He'd be sick.
I want him to know what it's like to feel this alone on top of all the other things I have to deal with.
I wish he'd understand a little of how I feel. I wish he'd quit telling me that he loves me even though I want him to tell me so much. I want him to actually mean it when he says it.
If he loved me he wouldn't have done what he did. He wouldn't have given up on me. He wouldn't be doing what he's doing to me.
I want so badly just to tell him how I feel. I informed him a little bit. Enough to spark curiousity.
I asked questions I thought I'd get answers to.
Maybe Andy's right. Maybe he hasn't answered my questions yet because he's trying to keep me from hating him, trying to keep me close incase things don't work out with her. He's holding onto me, because he knows I'd do anything, give anything, to be with him again. He knows that if I have the answers I want, it will help me move on. It will help me get over him.
I purposely try to piss him off. So that it's easier for me to push him away. But he knows that I can't stand for him to be upset with me. He knows that if he shows that he's upset with me, I'll apologize. And then he'll tell me I have nothing to be sorry for. Then I will explain why I believe I should be sorry, and start crying. And he'll be right there to comfort me. To put me back together.
I feel like I'm still falling in love with him. I'm seeing a different side of him. A side I should hate because it hurts me so much. Yet I just continue to fall in love with him. Everytime I talk to him. Everytime I laugh with him. Create any sort of memory with him, I fall deeper into love with him. Yet he makes me so miserable.
If I don't talk to him I hurt more.
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2005 10 October :: 11.09pm
Your Animal Personality
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Your Power Animal: Deer
Animal You Were in a Past Life: Panda
You are a fun-seeker - an adventurous, risk-taker.
While you are spontaneous, you are not very rational.
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2005 10 October :: 10.00pm
I got photo bucket now, I put all my senior pics on there and some others. If you want to see them my user name is mindymoo06 or this link should work http://photobucket.com/albums/a178/mindymoo06/?sc=1
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2005 10 October :: 6.59pm
| Your Birthdate: August 16 | 
Your birth on the 16th day of the month gives a sense of loneliness and generally the desire to work alone.
You are relatively inflexible, and insist on your being independent.
You need a good deal of time to rest and to meditate.
You are introspective and a little stubborn.
Because of this, it may not be easy for you to maintain permanent relationships, but you probably will as you are very much into home and family.
This birth day inclines to interests in the technical, the scientific, and to the religious or the unknown realm of spiritual explorations.
The date gives you a tendency to seek unusual approaches and makes your style seem a little different and unique to those around you.
Your intuition is aided by the day of your birth, but most of your actions are bedded in logic, responsibility, and the rational approach.
You may be emotional, but have a hard time expressing these emotions.
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2005 10 October :: 3.52pm
| The Keys to Your Heart | 
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.
In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered. |
| Your Birthdate: January 3 |
Being born on the 3rd day of the month is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life.
The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental.
There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude.
You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression.
Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing.
You are energetic and always a good conversationalist.
You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters.
You are affectionate and loving, but sometimes too sensitive.
You are subject to rapid ups and downs. |
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2005 9 October :: 5.04pm
The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.
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