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2006 8 March :: 7.22 pm
:: Music: Alice in chains- Rooster
wow.. i havent looked at this in so long.. and not liek neone else has hahah.. but yea im goann write in here again mayb.. haha if i remeber.. but yea im so bored.. waiting for james to call kelc back so we can get highhhh.. natick is a shit hole.. mad boring.. never nehting to do butdrugs.. and that requites money.. which i dotn have..
yea so everyhtign suckes.. like always.. still lvoe cj.. he dont love me.. on going story.. mayb one day ill write the whole thing in here so ill remeber.. then again how can i forget.. blahhhh im hungryyyy.. bout to go eat yeaa.. buy
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2005 7 July :: 12.31 am
haha saw this in mandas thing so i tried it
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2005 22 June :: 9.19 am
The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. |
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. |
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
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2005 21 June :: 11.20 am
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i LOVE him with every bit of my heart!! i have never loved neone as much as i love him! i jsut love.. to b around him.. to be able to see his sweet face.. to be able to talk to him like i cant talk to other ppl.. to listen to him laff.. to have him make me laff.. to curl up together on his bed and never want to let go.. to joke around with.. to play video games with.. to play fight with.. to watch him skateboard and know hes haveing a good time.. to make love to.. to watch every movie there is with.. to wake up and know i get to see him today.. to wake up and know hes still right next to me.. to talk to him on the fone till i pass out, or he does.. the feeling of compleatness when hes wiht me.. the thought that there is no one above me.. the way he smells.. the way he looks into my eyes.. the way he kisses me.. the way he holds me.. the way he loves me.. the way he calls me BABY.. the way i can tell what hes thinkign by the look on his face.. the closeness he has for his family.. how every second i spend wiht him makes me love him more.. how when im mad or hes mad at eachother we can only stay mad for 2 mins tops.. how hes not jsut my boyfriend how hes my BESTfreind too.. how happy is an understatement for how i feel when were together.. how we prove opposites attract.. how i can spend evey min. of everyday with him and not get sick of him.. how without him i wouldnt be me.. simply.. I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM!!!!.. and everything about me wiht him..
i love Cj soo much...
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2005 16 June :: 2.54 pm
:: Music: Jack Johnson-"Posters"
hmm
Its been so long since i wrote in this thing but i jsut randmly got the urge to write in here..
TEN DAYS TILL MY BIRTHDAY :-D!!!
well school is amost over, only finals left.. then im off to flordia for 2 weeks :-( i really dont want to go.. its to long to b away i think.. but what can i do?
"All this talk of getting old is getting me down my love.."
I cant believe that i only have two years of high school left.. it makes me sad to think abot.. it seems like it all just strated... and they say these days are the best times of are lives... thats scary.. with all the dram and shit that goes on EVERYDAY over nothing how can these times b the best.. and if they relly are then how much wores can life b?? and what about all these people i love?? am i really never goann see them after high school... that thought of that makes me so sick to my stomach...
all i know is that shit is all fucked up i guess.. and im jsut writing to my slef right now so im goann write my law final wich is worth my time...
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2005 17 May :: 9.42 pm
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2005 14 May :: 12.07 pm
booo
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2005 24 April :: 10.19 pm
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2005 28 March :: 9.37 pm
i dont let him effect me nemore.. im trying to move on from something that was never there in the first place.. im tired of being sad.. and im tired of pretending i ment somethin to him... and its not fair becasue he meant everythign to me... he still does.. but i have to let go of the falseness and move on with my life no matter how hard its going to b....:'(
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2005 13 March :: 1.00 pm
I'm coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go
I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside
I’m coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go
Cause I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside
I never...
I never...
I never...
random found this shong and i fell in love with it....
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2005 8 March :: 8.13 pm
oops
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2005 8 March :: 8.12 pm
:: Mood: sick
this makes me so happy!!
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2005 7 March :: 8.52 pm
:: Mood: sad
"why does the lonely bird follow? and why does the happy bird lead? why does the sky reflect beauty and freedom why do these oceans reflect hate. why does the sun set each day farther away making for a pain we'll regret. why does life keep on going, without regards to me, or people i havent met. why am i destined to feel, like im destined for nothing at all? and why does god let us climb up so high if hes going to let us fall? why does this earth continue turning, and why wont my heart cease to beat? why does the wind keep howling why do we sweat when in heat? why do my eyes slowly follow, your shadow as you enter a room? why am i forced to be different? why am i forced to be doomed. why is this fate all around me? its in me its in you its in hate.. why does it move like a sun beam, with no need to hesiatate. why does my heart reak of depression? and why doesnt the world overflow with tears? after all of this sadness, id figure itd happen over the years. too many people feel sadness, too many children know pain. too much has gone left unspoken.. too much is lost along the way. weve lost so much in translation. theres no hope in ever turning back.. weve stopped at this time lost here in space.. evolution is now what we lack.. why have we begun to regress, and fall further behind in lifes plan? why do the trees grow, the moon shine, the child wish? and why arent you with me today? why do we bleed when were broken? why am i kicked when im down. why can we be sad when we smile? but never happy when we frown? why does the world strive to be fake? why cant we just show whats real? in a world where bigger is better, why is it that we all must conceal? why do my words hit your earlobes so lightly, but your heart and head so strong? because these questions burn in your brain, in this time, in this world, and they have for so long.. your conscience will follow, but why will it never speak? never tell you what to do, what to say what to think, but make you feel bad at the choices you make, and the risks that you take. why does the heart know only one beat, and blue bird sing only one song? the people around you protect you.. and keep walking beside you on this web of life..until finally youve turned wrong.." by Amanda Maltz... my hero and the love of my life
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2005 6 March :: 12.16 am
:: Mood: scared
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fuck!!
tonight was horrable!!! so me and Manda, Derek, and Tim went to burgerking and smart us hey lets go to Memorial or however u spell it and let Lizzy drive.... bad idea.. makeign a logn story short the cops showed up and i got booked... and a nice safe ride home fromt he cops...can't want to find out if im goin to court... :-/ no good:-(
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2005 5 March :: 11.19 am
yea im stupid after i did that logn ass entry i relaized it doent matter how logn ti is there is the same about of entries on the screen... lol
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