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2004 30 September :: 10.52 pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Led Zeppelin- "Fool in the Rain"
BOO!
Well there’s a light in your eye that keeps shining
Like a star that can’t wait for the night
I hate to think I’ve been blinded baby
Why can’t I see you tonight?
And the warmth of your smile starts a-burnin’
And the thrill of your touch gives me fright
And I’m shaking so much, really yearning
Why don’t you show up, make it all right?
Yeah, it’s all right.
And if you promised you’d love so completely
And you said you would always be true
You swore that you would never leave me, baby:
What ever happened to you?
And you thought it was only in movies
As you wish all your dreams would come true
It ain’t the first time believe me, baby
I’m standin here feeling blue
Yeah I’m blue
Now I will stand in the rain on the corner
I’ll watch the people go shuffling downtown
Another ten minutes no longer
And then I’m turning around
The clock on the wall’s moving slower
My heart it sinks to the ground
And the storm that I thought would blow over
Clouds the light of the love that I found
Now my body is starting to quiver
And the palms of my hands getting wet
I’ve got no reason to doubt you baby,
It’s all a terrible mess
I’ll run in the rain till I’m breathless
When I’m breathless I’ll run till I drop, hey
The thoughts of a fool’s kind of careless
I’m just a fool waiting on the wrong block, oh yeah
Light of the love that I found...
i love the mounth of october.. its my fav mounth... mostyl cuz i lvoe fall.. but cuz i love halloween.. and this year halloween is gonna b sooo good....10 days till icp, 30 till fright fest... im soo excited!!!
yea thats my borign randomness for the night i need sleep :-P
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2004 27 September :: 6.46 am
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: none...
hello
lol its been a while since i wrote in here again... seems like i writein it like once a mounth... but i decided to say hello bright and early.. now im off to school
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2004 14 September :: 3.24 pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Oasis-
hehee
lol well its been a while since i wrote in here....
havent been able to really write since scholl started and shit and im not home till later.. then i have homework to do... but today i came home after school.. lol and i dont have ne homework so i decited to write in here....
nothign really new.. im a boring person.. but yea.. yesterday some fucked up shit went down.. lol look at mandas journal if u want the scoop lol... other then that shits been same old same old...
im lookin to change this again.. but idk cuz i like this bg alot... lol but yea...
i have an obsession with the band Keane... i dled a song by them in july( the one in my last entry) and then liek last week Manda sent me 4 songs by them to.. and i fell inlove wiht all of them! lol espically this one...
Keane
We Might As Well Be Strangers
I don't know your face no more
Or feel your touch that I adore
I don't know your face no more
It's just a place I'm looking for
We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a different world
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well
I don't know your thoughts these days
We're strangers in an empty space
I don't understand your heart
It's easier to be apart
We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a another time
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well be strangers
Be strangers
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know
i think im gonna get some grub then hit the sack and take a nap.. haha im soo cool huh!?
I <3 U ALEX!!!
<3 Lizzy
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2004 6 September :: 9.54 pm
:: Mood: high
:: Music: Vertical Horizon-
hmmm
I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
[break]
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
^ love that song for some reason... manda knows the deal LOL
Yea soo schools started back up again... fuckgin can tell u right now i didnt miss it... but w/e i guess its somehting to do insted of sitting on my ass all the time at lest...
this weekend manda and i had fun.. lol managed to get shitfaced last night... hahahaha that was a fun time LMAO!! yea MANDA!!!! and we were high like all weekend.. but what else is new...
well i got school tomorrow (blows) and im soooo burnt out.. im off to bed...
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2004 31 August :: 6.31 pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: Jewel-"Foolish Games"
blah
Yea well in sittin here on my last day of summer at 6:30 talkign to Alex... i know the wost thing to do on the last day of summer!!! im soo mad that school is tomorrow... this summer blew balls i was grounded for most of it,.. and then after that i dont liek we have liek 2 weeks in a row that one of my friends or i wasnt going on another family trip of boringness.. and even whe we were togeth we didnt do nehting of great excitement... but w/e it was summer... now fuckign school is starting up tomorrow and that sux and its kinda good... i miss seein everyone that i dont normally see and believe it or not i kinda miss havein shit todo... lol cuz this sum,mer was borign cuz there was leik nothin to do... but i gfuess schol will b ok for leik the firast 2 days thenim goann want to get the fuck out again..
This year is goann b 1000000 tiomes different then last year... last year i did shit and kida sucked at school.. this yea in cuttin back on smokeign and shit and bing retarted and im goann try and do kinda good in school... lol its goann b soo hard to cut back on getting high i doubt i can do it but im gonna try...
and this year... my god ther better b less drama cuz its fuckin gay to everyday have ppl fightin over stupid shit... i think the best way to stop dram is fuckgin bitches to shut the fuck up and stop talkin shit unless ur really gonna do something.. and the number on way to stop drama is how about not believen everythin u hear.. and stop saying shit that u dotn know a thing about... its really easy...
yeah well its my little bros b day... soo im off to eat dinner and have soo fuckin CAKE :-)
<3 lizzy
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2004 22 August :: 10.49 pm
:: Mood: horny
:: Music: Oasis-"Dont Go Away"
hellooooo
yea well id have say things are FUCKED up.. and ther not getting ne beterr... but on the good side i dont think there getting neworse :-/...
other then that whole fucked up situation tonight was VEY nice lol...
yea well im not in the mood to write nemore soo..
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2004 21 August :: 12.35 am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Matchbox 20- "push"
lalalala
She said I don't know if I've ever been good enough
I'm a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in
And I don't know if I've ever been really loved
By a hand that's touched me, well I feel like something's
Gonna give
And I'm a little bit angry, well
This ain't over, no not here, not while I still need you
Around
You don't owe me, we might change
Yeah we just might feel good
[chorus]
I wanna push you around, I will, I will
I wanna push you down, I will, I will
I wanna take you for granted, I wanna take you for granted
I will
She said I don't know why you ever would lie to me
Like I'm a little untrusting when I think that the truth is
Gonna hurt ya
And I don't know why you couldn't just stay with me
You couldn't stand to be near me
When my face don't seem to want to shine
Cuz it's a little bit dirty well
Don't just stand there, say nice things to me
I've been cheated I've been wronged, and you
You don't know me, I can't change
I won't do anything at all
[chorus]
Oh but don't bowl me over
Just wait a minute well it kinda fell apart, things get so
Crazy, crazy
Don't rush this baby, don't rush this baby
[chorus]
wow it has been a long while since i wrote in this thing...
we got are classes today... and mine suck!!
A1- Bio/ Hinnenkamp
A2- Study
A3- French/ Ruggaber
A4- Intro law/ Mcdade
A5- English/ Mcfraland
A6- World history/ Chute
B1- Algebra 2/ Wong
B2- Study
yea gay... tell me if ur in ne of them tho....
yea well im sittin here with brittany.. and were both bored outta are mindes... i thinkn were gonna go and get soemk food soo yea.... bye
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2004 9 August :: 1.34 pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Jimmy Eat World-"Sweetness"
What you wish for won't come true.
Live with that.
yea well im still trying to change this thing...but the pic i want as a bg will never fit and its drivine me incasne.. i leik this bg tho... soo tis not the big of a deal...
yea soo im a boring person who has nothin write in ther journal... atlest nothign ppl really want to read lol... but yea....
as the summer coems to an end its startin to suck ass... Katie is in nh for a long ass time... Jess is grounded.. this wed i have to go to nh for 3 days... and theres liek absoultly nothin to do in thid gay town.. it sux.. but yea.... w/e
I usually want school to come back... btu this year im nto ready for it yet... i realy dotn want to go back to school im still sick of school and havein no life or time to do nethin durng the school year...bah but w/e to that to lol... im gonna go shower... cuz i have no idea what im doin today
<3Lizzy
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2004 3 August :: 12.20 am
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: Jewel-"Foolish Games"
hmm
Here i go wiht another on of my random thoughts....
i was jsut thinkin.. sitting in my room bored outta my mined... that u cant base life on guessing games.. or wishis,... u cant life life thinking that what u wish on a star someday will come true... i can admit that sice i knew how till this day i wish on the first star i see in the sky and i make a wish.. and i wish soo hard it hurts.. i wish on everythign possable to wish on.. but i think i quit... im teired of not haveing my wishes come true... i wish soo badly that they would and if they did my life would b everyhtign i want it to b... but its not thats easy.. noting is ever easy.. and it sux... but if u think abotu it... just becasu u liek wish forsome to love u on a star or somehtin ther gloing to... what kind of love is that neway... lvoe u have to wish for... thats not right... love is somehting u both have to fell and u both have to wish for for ti to work... if only one of u is wishing on that star ur only half way there.. and thats y it never comes true... wishign on stars has been the basis of my life since i can remebr.. but since i can remember none of my wishes have come true... but idk y... i know its stupid to wish on a star if u think abotu it... but idk the little bit of hope left in me tells me maby that other person is wishing for u 2... and thats what keeps me going... my stars...
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2004 1 August :: 3.11 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: All American Rejects-"One More Sad Song"
hola
Purple Rain
I never meant 2 cause U any sorrow
I never meant 2 cause U any pain
I only wanted one time 2 see U laughing
I only wanted 2 see U laughing in the purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
I only wanted 2 see U bathing in the purple rain
I never wanted 2 be your weekend lover
I only wanted 2 be some kind of friend, hey
Baby, I could never steal U from another
It's such a shame our friendship had 2 end
Purple rain, purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
I only wanted 2 see U underneath the purple rain
Honey, I know, I know, I know times are changin'
It's time we all reach out 4 something new, that means U 2
U say U want a leader, but U can't seem 2 make up your mind
I think U better close it and let me guide U 2 the purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
If U know what I'm singin' about up here, come on raise your hand
Purple rain, purple rain
I only want 2 see U, only want 2 see U in the purple rain
la la la!! u know i was just thinking... u know i dont regret nehting iv evendone cuz when i did it i wanted to and y would i regret somehting i wanted to do?? but if the world was commign to an end i would regret somehting... i would regret doing all the things that i passed up... not nehtign i had done.. what i didnt do but could have... lol idk i guess it kinda goes wiht the point that life is to shoert soo u gotta do what u can when u have the chance... u never know what ur really missing.. yea thats my random thougth of the day....
im excited it looks like its gonna rain today!! i love rain sooo much!! idk what it is but i love each and every drop of the rain... lol so im excited....
its 3 oclock and i got up liek an housr ago
lol its great to sleep all day.. excpt fior the fact that i get home from going otu at 10 and thne i stay up till liek 3 am and im bored outta my minde sitting online talkgint o ppl abotu basicly nothign lol....but hey im goann keep up the tridtion and go get ready to go out...
im off to see the wizard....
the wonderful wizard of Oz....
<3Lizzy
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2004 28 July :: 10.44 pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: Jewel-"Foolish Games"
LOl today was an intresting day...... it started off wiht a gay ass doctors oppointment... but when i got back i went to megs house wiht jess katie & manda... then we met up wiht robbie and jimmy lol and ate some cupcakes (while i waited to get a call form fill.. but my fone didint rigth soo i missed his calls... im sry) lol then jessica and i switched pant in one of the little booths at the highschool lol wiht help from katie who help up stuff so noone saw us ahahaha... lol yea jess we diked it out in the little booth!! LOL... then we procited dt to go get food.. lol wehre jess and i had to change pants out in the fuckin open ahahaha... just a little weird....then aftetr meg manda kaite and jess left i walked home wiht james and reberto who i love deeply.... not very exciting lol but its better then sitting on my ass all day....
How I wish, how I wish you were here
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2004 25 July :: 11.58 am
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: Maroon 5-"She Will Be Loved"
HOLY FUCK
>>I dont mind spending every day<<
>> Out on your conner in the pooring rain<<
OMG!!! lol i havent written in this thing in sooooooooo long!! lol well ther is a reason on the last day of school i got busted for being drunk and trying to sleep at kelcs... lol and since then myu parents took my computer for a whole fuckign mounth meaning i got it back on the 17th.... but i didn't becasue i was in maine wiht brittany for twoo weeks.. and i just got home yesterday so i decited i would write in here now...
there was sooo much stuff that happend since i didnt write in here... like ummmmmmm MY BIRTHDAY!!! lol it was very fun!! my rents let me out for the day and i went to mandas and Kelc and katie and jess were thee hahahah i love them sooo much!!!!!!!! and i got to go out a few days 2 but i had to b in at fucking 8 which was bull shit but w/e now im off and i have my compuert and im soo excited!!!
and while i was in maine i missed Kelcs birthday and if i had my comp there would have beeen a entry that said somehting liek this:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELC I LOVE U SOOOOO MUCH!!! its ur first birthday since i met u(and i have to b in maine :( )and im very happy i met u!!! and i love u to death!!! i hope u have(had) and awesome birthday!!!
lol yes im weird but im trying to get to everythign i missed... and at this point i ant remeber nething else... so... yea... im done....
oh yes and im gonann fix this mess... i hope u like it lol
<3Lizzy
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2004 15 June :: 9.06 pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: none cuz my fuckgin speakers are broken!!
la la la
Well as this year of school slowly comes to and end.. im cant wait for the fuckgin summer!!! im soo excited tommorow i ahve to take my english exam second thingy... and then thrusday i ahve to take geometry btu them im all done!! then school is fuckgin over im soo excited!!... it dotn really feel lkie summer tho, btu i think its cuz its benn soo damn cold for june.. but so far tghsi week has been beautiful and i hope it stays that way!!
its sad to think about it but this summer is gonan b soo different from last summer... like soo many things will b different.. but i alss dont think this summer is goann suck.. its just gonna b compleatly different and thats ok we can go with the flow lol... just think 79 days of beign compleatly free!!! im soo fuckin happy!! i cant wait to get thsi summer started....
well im off to... ummm something
.:Lizzy:.
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