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2004 5 February :: 9.45pm
:: Mood: Pretty good.
:: Music: Opeth- Patterns in the Ivy
yay.
Oh, joy.
Haha, how ironic, with me thinking "NOBODY CARES" every second... well, it happens when you feel like crap, but whatever ::blink::
Twas a quiet day for julia. She wenteth to school and said few words. Others pondered, some gave her thin mints. Those she enjoyed.
She did not enjoy the ICOSAHEDRON OF D00M x__X She and the Di could not find the volume, of d00m of d00m
XD She talkedeth in third person.
[math ::glare::]
my livejournal kicks ass =D
I need a new website ~__~ *sigh*
<3, j
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2004 4 February :: 9.09pm
:: Mood: shame
:: Music: last train home x.x;
But there's still tomorrow, forget the sorrow, and I can't be on the last train home
IIIiiiIIiiiIIii... had a pretty sucky day.
Ashton pissed me off SO FRICKIN BAD today -.-
Go to photobucket.com and type in starkistpixie. It's for you. requests requests requests
here, I took like 10 quizzes. http://www.geocities.com/rainstarfire/quizzes.html
Bad things happened during lunch @.x;
I--I-- I--... ::stutters:: Everyone has a story to tell, no one pays enough attention
talk to me o.o
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2004 3 February :: 5.56pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: lost prophets =D
Rubber duckie, you're the one.
I went to school. o.o;
I... talked to people. I played Jenga during study hall with eunice, di, and april. I talked to laurel. I hate laurel's parents. And there is no doubt about it, they hate me.
=). heh.
So what I'm trying to get at is... another waste of a day.
*sigh*
::hugs::
Everyone needs hugs. I need hugs. ^^
<3, j
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2004 3 February :: 5.56pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: lost prophets =D
Rubber duckie, you're the one.
I went to school. o.o;
I... talked to people. I played Jenga during study hall with eunice, di, and april. I talked to laurel. I hate laurel's parents. And there is no doubt about it, they hate me.
=). heh.
So what I'm trying to get at is... another waste of a day.
*sigh*
::hugs::
Everyone needs hugs. I need hugs. ^^
<3, j
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2004 2 February :: 9.18pm
:: Mood: *~*
last entry was friends only. o.o;
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2004 1 February :: 1.05pm
:: Mood: I don't want to feel
:: Music: foo fighter-ness
Promise me you won't break your promise
@.@
I woke up and got on the computer. It was kind of hard, but, I've decided that I can't hang on to.. some things.. some people, anymore. That's my major character flaw: I hang on to everything I've gotten used to. People, habits, joy, pain, memories... and a lot of it isn't good for me. So I must forget.
I must I must I must
I saw "the perfect score" yesterday, and guess who was there? XD;...
Laurel, Shelby, Maggie, Katy, Jackie, Sophie, John, Andres, Ted, April, Sammy, Mark, Corey, Emily, Gabbi, Jennifer, Karen, Mandy, more people who's name I've forgotten, and a mob of other-graders. XD It was great. we took up like, 2 or 3 rows.
The movie pretty much sucked, but it was fun and bearable. :D
Everyone who's interested, this is my livejournal. It's gunna have all my photos, drawings, maybe poems :D and other stuff. it's a lot cooler than my woohu, heh. ^^
bubye!
-j
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2004 31 January :: 4.51pm
THIS ENTRY IS FROM THURSDAY
Yaoh @.@
She who has not updated for days is here! WooHA! >:| Woohu sure does suck a lot ^.^ Love it anyway.
Yesterday? Stayed home. Slept for eight extra hours. :D. Played a little guitar, and talked to nicole on the phone ^.^ yAy
The night before, I was laying in bed at about 1am and I really wanted a painkiller. But, my dad was still out there reading. Still. So I sat up and just sort of stared for about half an hour.. then, he stILl was not gone, so I went to the bathroom and stared some more. Then I did something pretty weird.. ^^; I started drinking listerine. It was minty fresh. XD;
Yesterday.. well, this is my dad:
*Yelling at me for spending time on the computer
*My mom gets mad because he's yelling at me
*He comes over and says "LOOK WHAT YOU'VE DONE!"
XD. *sigh*
The anime convention is today. Who: Diane, Eunice, Pam, Louisa, Norman **Where: Austin Convention Center **What: Lots of japanese imports, a koda kumi concert, ddr competition, cosplay! **Why: We are the dorks of anime d00m. XD
Love you all.
*~*julia*~*
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2004 31 January :: 3.42pm
:: Mood: frantic
why didn't you wake me up?!
O.O I'm serious, I was asleep no later than 12:30. So why did I wake up at 2:30??!? And where the hell are my parents?
GAH!
Hihi ^^ yesterday was teh anime convention of d00m. It was chouette, and I really liked it =D. Me and Diane and Shelley's costumes turned out pretty good [especially diane's] So everyone kept stopping us for pictures :D!!
Diane>> Sasuke [Naruto]
Shelley>> Ranoa [Final Fantasy]
Moi>> Haruko [FLCL]
We went shopping for animeness in this big room, and I got a big final fantasy poster.. diane got a mini-sasuke [it looked exactly like her ^.^] After a few hours of d00m, jennifer, louisa, eunice and I went to the fancy resteraunt downstairs [marriot] and ate. It was good. There was soup. >:D.
Then koda kumi performed [she was good] and we left. I still have pink hairspray in my ear. Pictures tomorrow.
Guess what's tonight? Many fiends of d00m [many who I don't even know] are going to see "The Perfect Score" =). Butbutbut.. yeah.. *sigh* I guess it'll be fun.
@_@;;
*~*haruko at heart*~*
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2004 28 January :: 7.32pm
:: Mood: sick :P;;
:: Music: meep
Bad--Bubble--Tea
They told me it wasn't the best bubble tea. @.@ gah ^^; Let's go over the day backwards. I just went to get bubble tea, which made me sick XP, on the way home from diane's house, where eunice, manda, and I were doing french2. And we watched FLCL. And played guitar. =D.
UGH, TODAY! UGHH, YESTERDAY!! UU-GGH, this last MONTH!!! >.< I'm doing the worst in two of my best classes XPXP Since diane and lauren and I screwed up on that french skit [a 61. -.-] It screwed up my grade in my best class. And in math, I have an 80ISH.. *siGh* I've been doing pretty crap in school :P I'm a bit sick of just about everything. =/.
I'm booked for the week!
Today-French/Study ass off
Thursday--Game/Art/Dance [new stuff ^^]
Friday--Anime convention of d00m
Saturday--Mondo movie party [the perfect score] which jackie planned.. apparantly, over thirty people are going.
Sunday--Hw, I think we're having a sleepover saturday.
::blah look:: I look excited, don't I? Heh. Well, Laz's stinkin crush is going on saturday, and she's going to be so frickin happy XD;; hehe. It'll be annoying. And I think jackie's is coming too [that's the whole reason for this thing anyway XDD]
Well, as usual, I'll be swept away into this fake-happy rush. I'll be around so many people, I'll think I'm having a good time, and then I'll get a few hours alone on sunday... ::looks away:: You don't just say, "No, I don't think I'll go have a great time with all of my friends", do you? kaplah XP
FRENCH TWO TEST FEBRUARY 17TH O.@ D00000M!
=/. so, that's about it. bad bubble tea wants to eat your soul.
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2004 27 January :: 7.14pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: figure you out [I actually hate this song..]
[ series 1 - your ]
-- Name : julia
-- Birthday : december 30
-- Birthplace : jerusalem, israel
-- Current Location : austin, tx
-- Eye Color : hazelish green
-- Hair Color : blondered ^^
-- Righty or Lefty : righty
-- Zodiac Sign : capricorn
-- Font : o.o.
[ series 2 - your favorite ]
-- Music : rock =D the older stuff is better
-- Cartoon : anime? ^^ FLCL
-- Color : black
-- Slushy Flavor : strawberry
-- Magazine : don't have a fave
-- TV Show : friends
-- Song at the Moment: one thing -finger 11
-- Language : english/french/russian
-- Spice Girl : tell me, who ACTUALLY LIKES THEM
-- Food & Beverage : coca cola and seafood.
-- Subject in School : french
-- Weekend Activity : movies
-- Ice Cream Flavor : coffee
-- Roller Coaster : scream
[ series 3 - what is ]
-- Your most overused phrase on aol : "o.o." hehe
-- The last image/thought you go to sleep with : why me?
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex : Their.. face o.o
-- The Best Name for a Butler : jeeves :D
-- The wussiest sport : figure skating?
-- Your best feature : well, I think I always know the difference between right and wrong [even though sometimes, I don't listen =/..]
-- Your bedtime : Whenever I get tired
-- Your greatest fear : stuck underwater in a sunken ship...
-- Your greatest accomplishment : can't put my finger on it
-- Your most missed memory : new years eve >.>
[ series 4 - you prefer ]
-- Pepsi or coke : coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King : mc D
-- Single or group dates : depends?
-- Adidas or Nike : lame question
-- Chicken nuggets or chicken fingers : fingers ^^
-- Dogs or cats : cats
-- Rugrats or Doug : ?
-- Single or taken : single =/
-- Monica or Brandy : neither
-- Tupac or Jay-Z : NEITHER
-- Shania Twain or LeAnn Rhymes : theyre the same.
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea : stop with the lame questions
-- One pillow or two : two
-- Chocolate or vanilla : chocolate
-- Hot chocolate or hot cocoa : ...
-- Cappucino or coffee : both >:D
-- Boxers or briefs : boxers
[ series 5 - do you ]
-- Take a shower everyday? : yeah
-- Have a(any) crush(es)? : no U_<
-- do you think you've been in love? : maybe
-- Want to go to college? : yeah, i guess
-- Like high school? : ^^;
-- Want to get married : EVENtually
-- Type with your fingers on the right keys? : yes
-- Believe in yourself? : sometimes
-- Have any tattoos/where? : i wish
-- Have any piercings/where? : ears [I used to have my naval ^^]
-- Get motion sickness? : if I read
-- Think you're a health freak? : maybe subconciously? heh
-- Get along with your parents? : not one bit
-- Like thunderstorms? : yes
[ series 6 - the future ]
-- Age you hope to be married : depends, but prolly 30
-- Number and Names of Children : 1, if I ever get the urge to adopt one. her name is Zeah.
-- Where do you see yourself at age 20? : I can't
-- Descibe your Dream Wedding : with the one person who will never hurt me
-- How do you want to die? : old age?
-- What do you want to be when you grow up? : commercial artist/animator/designer
-- What country would you most like to visit? : france
[ series 7 - opposite sex ]
-- Best eye color? : green/brown
-- Best hair color? : black
-- Short or long hair? : not too long, but long
-- Best height? : taller than me
-- Best weight? : depends on height
-- Best articles of clothing? : o.o
-- Best first date location? : the beach! :D
-- Best first kiss location? : somewhere...
-- What facial feature do you find the most attractive? hair and eyes
[ series 8 - other ]
-- When's the last time you slept with a stuffed animal? : last night ^^; [not always ^_~]
-- How many rings until you answer the phone? : 1-3
-- What's on your mouse pad? : its a mouse pad.
-- How many houses have you lived in? : 1.
-- How many schools have you gone to? : 4
-- What color is your bedroom carpet? : white
-- Would you shave your head for $5,000 dollars? : Sure
-- What was the best time of your life so far? : you know..
-- Would you vote for a woman candidate for president? sure, I'm not sexist o.o;
-- Would you marry for money? : no.
-- Have you had braces? : no
-- Do you pluck your eyebrows? : yeah
-- When was the last time you had a hickey? : Never ^^;
-- Would you live without a computer? : no, I would probably die
-- Do you drink enough water? : i dont know
-- Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: take off
-- What is your favorite fruit? : tangerine :D
--Do you eat wheat bread or white bread? : white
-- What is the last movie you saw? : tad hamilton. stupid chick flick
-- Do you kiss on the first date? : why not
-- Are you photogenic? : maybe
-- Do you dream in colour or black and white? : either one mostly color
-- Are you wearing fingernail polish? : cherry red toes. :).
-- Do you have any dimples? : i dont think so ^^
-- Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most? : sunsets
-- Do you want to live to be 100?: absolutely
-- Do you think women should be expected to shave their body hair? : yeah
-- Do you like salty food or sugary food the most? : both :D
-- Is a flat stomach important to you? : erm, i guess o.@
-- Do you or have you played with a ouija board? : yep
-- Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs? : absolutely
-- When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off? : off
-- Do you believe in magic? : yes
-- Do you have nightmares frequently? : yes
-- Do you like your nose?: yeah
-- Do you think you can draw well? : yes, I do. o.o
-- Do you listen to music daily? : yeah
-- Do you like to watch cartoons? : yes
-- How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet? : i don't count ^^
-- Do you like your friends? : I love my friends.
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2004 27 January :: 6.03pm
:: Music: creatures-311
don't just sit there!!
Hey. My computer's been down XP but yeah, here I am. everything is crap.
my grades are dropping o.o; I wanted to stay home today =/ im going crazy @_< my big downw@rds spiral
I woke up really sore today XP my arms hurt. And my head ~_~
No one knows >.>
I don't really have much to say for the general public. AIM me.
Jan [roger] and magz came over yesterday. We went around riata with my skateboard, jan's bike, and magz trying to catch up behind us =). Then we went to my house and discussed magz' crazy new love interest. XD.
Then they left.
Then things got worse... ~_~
Then it's today.
I wish they... I want...
*sigh*
<3, j
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2004 25 January :: 6.19pm
:: Mood: cold & empty
:: Music: [we were] Electrocute-TON [this song is so beautiful *.*]
omg o.o
I found this, and it's so true. I feel exactly like this! I don't know the real me, and no one else does [though laurel is coming close]. I can't pinpoint where I am, what I want, who I want to be, and why in the world I feel like this. I'm going crazy! ..And doing stupid things.
Uggh. This is so messed up. --no one-- NO ONE!!!
You have wings of STEEL. No one's really
sure why, but at this point in your life you've
shut off emotion to the point of extreme
apathy. You are cold and indifferent much of
the time...or perhaps you're just a good
pretender. Next to impossible to get close to,
even those who do never see the real you. It's
entirely possible that YOU don't even know the
real you. You have a certain fascination or
attraction to destruction on a massive scale -
disasters, perhaps even death or the concept of
the Apocalypse. Because you hold so much
inside, one day you're simply going to snap.
Then the mask will fall away, and your true
wings will be revealed. Until then you will
deal with whatever comes your way in icy bitter
silence and acceptance. On the positive side,
you are fearless and immeasurably strong - not
much can crack through your defenses. You
intrigue people, who can't help but wonder why
you're the way you are. A loner and one who
spends much of their time brooding and
contemplating life and death - you are a time
bomb waiting to explode and create some
destruction of your own.
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~* brought to you by Quizilla
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2004 25 January :: 10.24am
:: Mood: undescribable o.o;
:: Music: *the offspring*
nothing left
I don't know why I still have this journal on my site. I put practically everything in here, and just about everyone has access to it. -.-;
Well, yesterday was.... U.< *sigh* it rained. that's good. arielle took me to a movie, which I enjoyed, but happiness is fragile and temporary.
I have a story, but it's not needed. after the movie I had a long nervous breakdown, and did stupid things. >.>
I need to...
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2004 24 January :: 2.32pm
:: Mood: dazed/wishful
:: Music: low-foo fighters
*frowns* I need to clean my brain @.@
Hey =D
Well, last night was awesome ^.^ me and kae went to the concert at the Parish at like 9:30 [it's on 6th street >:D]. We stayed for a little over an hour, and listened to "empty" n "powderburn"... they were alright. the venue was cool. Then... >:D we went out on 6th at about 10:50, went into some awesome places, got pizza and ice cream ^.^. It was SO cool! In case you don't know, 6th street is tHe street in austin where all the clubs are, the awesome eclectic places, resteraunts, cafes... ^^;. [we weren't supposed to be out of the parish >=) duh] And yeah. w000t!
Don't you hate it when you have this absolutely perfect, blissful memory that you just can't stop thinking about? I keep waking up to it. ><
I woke up at 1:21. :).
<3, j
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2004 24 January :: 2.32pm
:: Mood: dazed/wishful
:: Music: low-foo fighters
*frowns* I need to clean my brain @.@
Hey =D
Well, last night was awesome ^.^ me and kae went to the concert at the Parish at like 9:30 [it's on 6th street >:D]. We stayed for a little over an hour, and listened to "empty" n "powderburn"... they were alright. the venue was cool. Then... >:D we went out on 6th at about 10:50, went into some awesome places, got pizza and ice cream ^.^. It was SO cool! In case you don't know, 6th street is tHe street in austin where all the clubs are, the awesome eclectic places, resteraunts, cafes... ^^;. [we weren't supposed to be out of the parish >=) duh] And yeah. w000t!
Don't you hate it when you have this absolutely perfect, blissful memory that you just can't stop thinking about? I keep waking up to it. ><
I woke up at 1:21. :).
<3, j
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2004 23 January :: 8.18pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: electrocute *TON* ^.^
If you don't want to hurt people, why hurt yourself?
Prepare for a somewhat serious entry, that may or may not apply to you.
=/
I'm excited/anxiously sad. I'm going to that awesome show downtown today, with kae [her first concert :D itll be fun ^^ i hope]. But..
I'm so worried about a few of my friends. You special people who I'm the closest too, who always understand, who give me hugs when I feel sad.. and I do the same for you. It seems like some of the people I know so well are heading in a downwards spiral. >< I'm not going to let anything happen to you.
But, If the people I really depend on to stay strong, and always be there.. start to feel like this*** What if we all break down? No one will be there... just, no one. that can't happen.
stop.
stop hurting yourself.
please?
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2004 23 January :: 12.54pm
:: Mood: Rummy
:: Music: Jet- Are you gunna be my girl
But why is the RUM gone?!
Yaoh!
Im going to a concert tonight or else! >:D laz' grounded but I think lauren n karen are comming. Yay! Pushmonkey/Human/Powderburn/Empty W00T!
Yesterday I was about to pass out, so right when I started to type I uh.. hehe ^.^; my mom came home at 8 with painkillers. -.-; And I changed a guitar string XD Yeah. Killing In The Name Of is SUCH a KICKASS SONG!! >:) Hehe.
Events of yesterday *HOME*: My mom wanted a copy of my poem that got published for the contest, so after a bit I said FINE.. then she asked me about my other poetry, and I told her that I wanted my [frickin] privacy, and she said that we're a family and that we should "share" and I gave her my best cold, empty eyed look through all this... I'm pretty good at it now, I think =).
Happy science.
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2004 22 January :: 7.21pm
:: Mood: [meep][headache][irritated at the world][ish]
:: Music: Glory Fades-Brand New
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meep!
omg, I have such a headache >.<;
quote self: "I fell off my skateboard."
Haha. XP No, I didn't. But they believe what you tell them =) hehe, idiots.
It's been a sleepy day for everyone =/ I was going to start dance [jazz] at Lauren's place [and magz and kt's] but it turns out I'm sick ^.^; I dunno.. I really want to take an art class. Karen has one on thursdays @.o I wanna go =D
went sk8ing again ^^ it's alright. I can keep my balance, but if only I could STAY ON IT XD it keeps slipping out in front of me. Pretty fun downhill tho. =D
*kicks self* why do I act like everything's fine all the time??! >.<
silly me o.o;
OMFG! Yesterday I won tix to that local show [pushmonkey/human] on 101x [knew all six songs ^_~] and laurel's parents won't fucking let her go! I'm soOo just picking her up. *glares at parents of d00m* -.-
peter steele does have a good voice :D! hehe.
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2004 21 January :: 9.01pm
:: Mood: frustrated---open minded
:: Music: type o negative- how could she
the higher you go, the harder you fall
It's amazing how you can relate to so many songs when you're feeling emotional =)
Just a thought, for a while..
I went skateboarding.. it was actually pretty fun. I can keep my balance [I didn't fAll once] but I can't stay on it unless there's an incline. ^^; it's really cool-looking, though! heh.
I did something pretty stupid <.< I don't know why.. at all. I just can't seem to get my thoughts in order. Everything is scrambled, and even I can't tell what I'm thinking =/ and oh..my...god.. there are no more painkillers at my house XPPPPP! *gah*
fucking pop ups! I just got my computer to work *sorta* >.< *slaps computer*
yeah.. I'm working on a new site btw. I like ofdoom.tk =D
::stares at you with empty eyes::
*~*lost*~*
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2004 21 January :: 1.03pm
:: Mood: hungry
teehee im in science ^.^ we're doing some computer thing that took me like 5 mins... >.> qu'@ds is all. math XP then lunch yay!
um yeah that's about it. karly says hi.
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2004 20 January :: 9.18pm
:: Mood: pretty good ^_^;
:: Music: rapness xtina [jax' sister] was blasting in the car
*bounce* When I move you move, mm just like that--When I move you move, mm just like that-- =DDD
Hey!
School day? Average. It's very very sad tho, cuz I'm behing 10 chapters in TKAM U_U;; and I have an evil B in math =////! I wanna bring it up <.< >.> cuz b's are a bit sucky. Anyway, I won't obsess because grades are useless! >:D
After school, jax and laurel n me hung out, and went to jax' house to "film our commercial" XD [4 theatre] it's about altoids, and another about the shut-up-o-matic. XD we never practiced, and we did this in 5 minutes. XDDD if only we had a theatre class we cared about *sigh* ^.^; Twas fun.
Then Christina drove me to the game, and I had to cheer XPPP but it wasn't so bad. I found out our mascot is all into AFI and plays guitar goodishly =DD fun rummy! AAAA in the middle of the game laurel's parents SWOOPED IN ANGRILY cuz she 4GOT to call them XPXPXP [im so scared for her ='(] so she couldn't go out with us U_U christina took us out to eat, and BAM that was it :D! It was pretty fun ^.^
except, now I have a shitakiload of hw :'(((
Oh well ^.^
love ya
-joolz
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2004 20 January :: 8.39am
:: Mood: Can't name it
:: Music: Type O Negative- Life is Killing Me
>@_@<
Yo
So it's been a weekend.. *sigh* hope you had a happy milk day. Yesh, I'm up -.- I'm learning "killing in the name of" on guitar and it r0x0rz! >:D
my mom is yelling me at for TURNING ON THE HEATER and USING TOO MUCH WATER and GETTING ON THE COMPUTER TOO EARLY
*sigh* This weekend has been very.. "Big." But I've been feeling creative for the past few days, so that's good =D
Umm.. stuff. later.
-j
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2004 18 January :: 5.49pm
:: Mood: emotional
:: Music: one thing again
;_;
Why does that song make me cry every time?
I know.
*sigh* I'm feeling creative. A little speck of happiness, cuz I've sort of put my thoughts in order
I'm drawing and listening to 101x. And having a really long, "intelligent" [as she put it ^.^] conversation with nicole. And drawing stuff for her. *a moon *ocean at night * and for karly, a prima ballerina.
I need to practice guitar tho XP
Wanna see a PICTURE of me?
OK!
HERE
geocities.com/punkyfunko/moi001.BMP i think. try lowercase and gif. and i know its just ok :P but whatever
love, -j
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2004 18 January :: 2.16pm
:: Mood: Decisive/Undecisive
:: Music: the "no one knows what it's like.. to be the sad man.." you know? i 4get
It's over, NOW, because I SAY it's over
I am going to figure everything out, right here, right now O.O
FACTS
*My parents suck, and there is really nothing I can do about it, because I've been trying for 14 years.
*I have some very good friends.
*I hide my feelings from almost everyone
*I've spent a lot of my life pretending to be happy, so at this point there's two of me: The one everyone sees, who tries really hard to be on everyone's good side, and the me with real feelings.
*Adults do not like me, in general.
*I get attached to people too easily..
I don't want to keep up this act anymore. I'm going to stop giving everything one shot.. Instead, I'm going to give everything my absolute best try. I'm going to be honest, instead of hiding behind a mask. I'm going to be there ALWAYS for everyone and anyone.. I'm not going to give up when i hit an obstacle. I'm not going to let myself be hurt again. Basically, I'm done giving everything a half assed try. I'm going to live life the way I want to, and if I get some bumps and scratches, so be it.
The stupid don't-get-anywhere part of my life is over.
Voila.
Au revoir, mes amis, j'adore toi..
amore! -julie [accent francais]
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2004 18 January :: 11.29am
:: Mood: HATE
SHUT UP
This has been THE worst week ever. By far the worst in this past year.
I am so sick of being hurt for no reason. I'm sick of my stupid fucked up parents, and I'm sick of all my idiot teachers. I'm sick of the closed minded self centered fUcks this world is made of...
I don't care who you are, you have no idea what's going on in my life, I swear, and there's a very slight chance that you care. So fuck you and fuck the world. Have a fucking nice day with your fucking perfect life.
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2004 16 January :: 6.28pm
:: Mood: Alright--- ish
:: Music: "Harvest" Opeth [their comming to town omg!]
I od-ed on something early this morning, but I don't know what it was. HAHAHA Jk
Yaoh!!
Heyhey, the self i show to other people is pretty damn hyper/happy. My other self, if you'd like to know, is doing alright. Very thoughtful. =D
THIS MESSEGE IS FOR EVERYONE. Never, ever ever turn self destructive. If all else fails.. if you have no one to turn to, no solution.. tell ME, DAMMIT! I can't stand it that so many people around me feel like this... *sigh*
So hey, I had a not so bad day =D was really really hyper... stayed after school with jax and magz ^.^ We're going to a movie tonight w/ kester and emily. =D funness ^.^
Saturday>>> Karly's bday party/Pink Floyd Laser Show [THANX LAUREL!]
Sunday>>>Church [=/?] Lauren/Karen stuff your face and watch movies sleepover
Monday>>>MILK DAY!! Making costumes for ushicon and teaching di trigun! ^.^
Yeah. But there's still a lot on my mind.
*sigh*
Be you.
-j
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2004 15 January :: 6.36pm
:: Mood: not as ok as I look or sound
:: Music: White Stripes
Hey.
I realize that I'm really good at making people think im ok. Or perfectly happy. I mean, It's always been like this, i guess... No one know anything about me unless I want them too. It's a good thing, right?
I walked home in the rain =) I love the rain. it's so perfect... *~*
I feel SO stupid... UGGH HOW could i be such an IDIOT?! When you ask impossible questions make sure the answer isnt layed out in bright colored flash cards under your nose O.O
XDXPXP *sigh* well, I've been a clutz all week XP dropped my crap, forgot my hw, and when we did that tiny lil kick in the dance while showing the others i actually TRIPPED. It was pretty embarassing. But, the good thing is i learned that I don't care what people think as much anymore. Like when lauren got onto me about going to the anime convention XD People should just let other people have their interests, and get over themselves...
everyone should just get over themselves! >:|
I'm really sorry everyone ^.^ I've been pmsing all day XD I <3 you all... ^_^
Today I will tell you what I HATE and what i LOVE! >:D!
LOVE: Rain, Cloudless sunny skies, my friends!!!!!, music, ART, drawing!!!, french, anime, dancingessism, getting it right on the first try, chocolate, the song "day that I die", the song "one thing", winning stuff, laurel winning stuff and taking ME! >:D *hint hint* [XD laurel won tix to teh pink floyd laser show YAYAAYYAYAYYYY!] a BuNcH of other stuff i cant think of at the moment
HATE: Not getting it on the first try, figuring out something i thought was smart was stupid, TED AND ASHTON those IDIOTS! Oh my GOD! WILL THEY STOP being such ASSHOLES OMFG!, People who think they know it all.. who don't, being judged, negative attitudes, *sigh* a lot of other stuff but, i really try not too =/
IM SO REMAKING MY SITE ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY! >:)!
BYEBYEBYEBYE o.o
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2004 14 January :: 7.36pm
:: Mood: julianess! @_@
:: Music: same =)
"A friend is someone who knows everything about you, and likes you anyway"
yaoh ^.^
im a bit angry/annoyed in the back of my mind, but i had a fun time w/ euni n di n amanda... doing "FRENCH 2" hahaha yeah right we were rambling on about planes and airports and cheese.. XDXDXD It's hilarious. We never learn anything ^.^
Me and diane get along too well XD we never run out of things to say, so when we need to do some serious work we just end up screwed cuz we talked to much XD
AHAHAHA you SHOULD HAVE SEEN what LAUREL WAS WEARING TODAY! OMFG XD Her blackosity hair, a GREEN soccer shirt, a dark plaid skirt, white tights, one knee high striped sock, and those bOwLiNg shoes that give me nightmares. XDXDXD It was HILARIOUS. Yes, I am telling everyone. Because.. it was a sight to see. Yes, she knows I am telling everyone. ahh, qu'@d!
She has yet another site btw. It's in my gb, i think O.@ oh, sorry.. never updated my linx ^.^;
Oh! I taught laurel, jax, and laasya teh F U cheer. Created by me during a gay lil sevvy game ^_~. XD Mrs Baker heard us chanting it loud and clear.. it's great how she didn't even look up
I have a pretty fun --wait-- lets say, pretty "big"-- weekend. =)! school off on milk day ^_^ meh.. changed my mind about listing all teh events. ^.^;
And W00T i get to be Haruko for that convention! W00TOSITY! PINK HAIR! I get to carry around my guitar and bash ppl on teh head [jkjk] because that's haruko's trademark. ^.^
Well.. Today was a pretty good day, I guess. I mean it ended good. I was all irritated during school @.o Thinking Thinking Thinking. It's really weird, cuz now when I wake up at 5am by accident, I can't ever get back to sleep. Because I instantly start thinking. U_U.
Yes, this is a LONG ENTRY.
Doom is looming
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2004 13 January :: 7.36pm
:: Music: One Thing- Finger Eleven[i fucking love this song]
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I was listening to this song on the way home and.. it made me cry. A little. I remember I was listening to it.. two sundays ago. It made me moody.
It's so my fave song now ^.^
"Restless tonight
Cause I wasted the light
Between both these times
I drew a really thin line
It's nothing I planned
And not that I can
But you should be mine
Across that line
If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn't that be something
I promise I might
Not walk on by
Maybe next time
But not this time
Even though I know
I don't want to know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it sounds"
hearts to finger eleven for kicking ass. ^_^;.
Well, craposity. o.o
went with Di, Eunice, n Shelley to the shopping center on spicewood today.. we got bubble tea and talked. yay =)
bye..
-j
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2004 12 January :: 6.48pm
:: Mood: pretty miserable
everything is fucked
OF COURSE THE NEGATIVENESS COMES FIRST [don't lose hope in my entry ^_^]
well, i cancelled my birthday party. ughh. ;_; maybe I'll just hang out with some of the people who I actually look forward to talking to.. people who know what the fuck their talking about... lauren and karen invited me to a "eaticecreamtoyourjoy" sleepover on friday ^.^; *sigh* meh.
:(. I'm pretty angry. >:| And disappointed in... and in turn, one day and all of them are disappointed. So I missed one game? So I avoided a shitload of homework? So I cancelled my party.. I'm not in the mood. My choices. It's not like anyone would appreciate any of that shit anyway. When you're not there at the games, they give you shit, and when you are, they don't even care. Anyway, now I might actually get some birthday money. fuck.
Now my parents are being all PARENTY and it's terrible... Life isn't fair XP >:(.
selfishness is mean o.o
^.^ my friends are really great *spacey grin thing* *HUGS TO YOU ALL*
OH THE GOOD STUFF haha its just.. in that poem contest thing I GOT PUBLISHED YAY! lol, mrs mulligan is making a big deal about it ^.^ And to think, I actually threw in a poem that I cared about =D i usually just submit school shit. It's cool.
This entry just doesn't end, eh? =).
Laurel, you're going by LAZ now?! XD that's just great. laz. yeah.
I go draw now. drawing is good. It makes me happy.
-JLA
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