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2004 18 March :: 4.16pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Hot For Teacher-Van Halen
::hums the tune:: ^________^
Heyo.
I swear, honetly... very very very soon I am going to call Laurel up and yell at her. A lot. Oh yeah.
THIS was fun. =)
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2004 18 March :: 1.13pm
:: Music: Square Nothing//In Flames
A survey?
heyO O.O
So bored... but I am going to sxsw tonight. I am! Believe it. And I'm going to that show on saturday. Wee! And guess what.. we're crazy enough down here to have our own little award show. "Austin Music Awards." Hehe. It bored me though so I turned it off after a few minutes. SXSW! Woooooop!
Well, Austin IS the live music capitol of the world. Yup ^_~
I feel so sore from that stupid boat =P
I'm bored. Yup.
So this is what I did. Heh.
Bands in my iPod right now:
*T.O.N.
*Opeth
*Soilwork
*311
*Alice In Chains
*Slayer
*Children Of Bodom
*Hatebreed
*Van Halen
*Cradle of Filfth
*The Crystal Method
*In Flames
*Nine Inch Nails
*Slipknot
*Black Sabbath
*Rage Against The Machine
*Iron Maiden
*The White Stripes
*Brand New
*AFI
*Led Zeppelin
*Hot Hot Heat
*Johnny Cash
*Jet
Yup.
List of bands who's music I would add to my iPod if I could figure out why kazaa wasn't working:
*Switchfoot
*Los Lonely Boys
*Metallica [Yes. I've decided to listen to a few. =P]
*Morbid Angel
*Katatonia
*Three Days Grace
*Foo Fighters
*The Who
*More Black Sabbath
*High On Fire
*Neshuggah? I want to hear something. New.
*More AFI
*The Offspring
*Hmm... Can't think of anymore.
BLAHBLAHBLAH yall should listen to loveline. It's so funny.
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2004 17 March :: 8.46pm
:: Mood: unstable
=(...
It's so bad right now... I'm just being honest. Just honest....
I thought about it, what I want o.o
All I want is to spend some time with someone who isn't full of shit. Someone understanding... someone who doesn't ask stupid questions and acts like they know all the answers. I am SO so so so sick of being everyone's shoulder to cry on. I ask for it... I actually love it that people tell me what's on their mind. I love being there for them. But it gets to you! It wears away at you... once again, I need a lot of cooling-off time. But I don't know if I can handle that alone. =P
My thoughts are mixed up... I don't know. I felt very dishonest with the last post up here... you know, seeming like things were fine... Oh, so now I'm complaining. Shit. Can't get it right, can I?
Gah... I'm going to go huddle in a corner. Bleh.
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2004 17 March :: 7.02pm
:: Mood: Furious
-.-
=P
Half of today was SO perfect. Seriously... boat-ing and tubing with karly was awesome. But -.-! Fucking Jessica and Kristen had to be there. Kristen is nice... but she's not my type. She's SO goodie! Ugh. And Jessica would not stop making ugly comments. I felt so out of place and uncomfortable in my body... I don't think it was ever like that before. I was wearing shorts and a bikini top [used to all the time, not for months though] Because.. well, we were tubing =P I didn't even get a fucking tan. Just bruises from slipping on the damn boat.
I'm sorry... I'm making it sound terrible. But lying in the middle of that sparkling lake... it was so wonderful. All I wished for was different company. People who wouldn't ask me stupid questions. Who wouldn't do stupid things. Who would... JUST LET ME BE! Sorry again. This is mostly Jessica's fault. Yeah, it's her. She was being such a whore. And I don't mean you Karly... I like your company =).
*sigh* I need to cool off. I do.
I am SO angry!
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2004 17 March :: 1.35pm
:: Mood: Worried//Blank
:: Music: Um, none.
Sing in the rain, dance with the stars, never forget me, whoever you are
=))
=P
Woke up at er.. 11:30. I feel kinda sick, just like yesterday. Or maybe it's nothing? Blah. Hmm anyway. Okie, last night I was feeling really creative ^____^ I played a lot of guitar, and.. I'm finally not scared to experiment. I can make stuff up. HAHAHA it's been like 8 months? Lol. Stairway to Heaven is a lot of fun. I have it down ^.^.
I also wrote a few pages.... and then, quite random... I remembered that Edgar Allen Poe book I took to my room at age 7 or so. I found it and started reading it... Um, wow. I read that till one. Yup. Then I slept backwards.. Hehe.
Ah, friends. Always just in time, eh? Going "boating" on the lake w/ Karly today... and Laurel won tix to Yellowcard and is taking me next week. Not that I listen to them much or like em a lot... heh, still a concert. They do have a good song. Wee!
SXSW TONIGHT O____O
My dad is getting more suspicious every day. =(
And, been thinking a lot about telling a certain someone stuff. And how to go about that.
... that's exactly what's up. Almost. =)
<3juliya<3
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2004 16 March :: 9.47pm
:: Mood: Content
:: Music: =) Classical crap from the other room
wee =)
Hey-o. Me and Brandi went to that Austin's Park and Pizza place... we played lazer tag and shooting games, and ate. Lol. It was ok. We saw Janet, James, Steve, Matt, Matt, Andres, Morgan, er.. yeah =) Lol. Lotsa ppl. I owned at lazer tag ^_____^ HAHAHA. No seriously. I've kicked ass with that phaser thing the last few times. Mwahahaha. Haha.
=) Then I got home and played a little guitar, and then Brandi and I went for a walk. It's our new thing, hehe... walking around riata. It got pretty dark, and we sat on the benches over wherever and talked about um... randomness! Lol. And I was staring up at the sky... I could actually see the stars. They were so beautiful ^_^.
By the way, did anyone stay up during that storm last night? It was wonderful.
<33 I feel peaceful. hehe. =)
~J~
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2004 16 March :: 10.32am
:: Mood: irritated/blank
:: Music: The Reason-Hoobastank
Stop worrying about me. -.-
=P Heyo. I woke up pretty darn early today. Yep. Brandi is taking me somewhere fun at 11 ^___^ We get to do our walk of d00m in public xD. Yup. Twill be fun. Wee!
Bleh =P I need to go to the store...
Umm hmm.. yup. Stop worrying about me. =P All my life I've always wanted some attention, but every time I got it I hated it. ~_~ So, there.
I wrote a song =) The last time I wrote wrote songs was sixth grade... that's the year I decided I had an "average" voice and ditched choir and flute. Heh. Maybe I'll record it today. ^.^ Haven't done that in a while, either.
Nicole, I really hope you meant what you said...
>>Don't forget that you have to give to take. It doesn't work any other way, unless you're just lucky. How can you expect something else...?<<
Okie. Shower time for Juliya, then fun time. Wee ^.^ Have a thoughtful day.
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2004 15 March :: 8.12pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: No You Don't-Nine Inch Nails
No you don't
*sigh* I was feeling so angry, so I wrote it down. Like breathing it out, you know? It doesn't mean anything, it's just a way to channel my angry energy. But a part of it is posting it here.
--Nothing--
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2004 15 March :: 2.16pm
:: Mood: I dunno. A little ticked maybe? Just bleh.
:: Music: Black Sabbath [NIB I think? ¿]
::stares through you with cloudy eyes:: [EDIT]
borderline
Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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Hey.
Well... first the good news, Adam is back! ^____^ YAY yay YAY
Yep. Very good.
Talked to zarae today. Felt guilty for not calling her.. I have a feeling she's going to be fine, though.
=(.. I have a bad feeling.
Ok, it's not that I'm stupid... I actually have all the right answers layed out neatly right under my nose. The facts is, I don't like the smart answers. I'd much prefer the stupid ones. ...So I am stupid? *sigh* Whatever you make of it.
No, I am not ok.
Well, I wasn't for the last three days. Who knows about today? bleh.
Eunice, you think I put everything in this bloggy? Lol. You're dead wrong... just dispelling the myth.
[x]julia[x]
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2004 14 March :: 10.42pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: stairway to heaven
X_X
Ello... w00p.
Well, I went to church with Brandi this morning.. then we went to the park and climbed a tree and ate fajitas. Lolz. Then I had my guitar lesson and finished up stairway to heaven, and then I came over and watched "IT." creepy ^___^
*sigh*
So untrue, so unreal, or maybe it is and it's just wrong.
will I ever stop? who will stop me? stop what? Stop struggling to live!!
=(.
Sorry I scared ya.
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2004 13 March :: 10.45pm
:: Mood: @_@
:: Music: In My Time Of Need-Opeth
This is such a good song, people... it would really be worth your time to download it right now.
I feel really weird.
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2004 13 March :: 4.56pm
:: Mood: A bit relieved
:: Music: I made up a song ^^ YaY!
I really hope they don't shut woohu down... um I don't think I've put the link up here yet, This is my little photobucket thing. Mon art, mes amis et moi... oui oui. C'est chouette. Amore!
Teh latest pics in "people" is brandi and her dog. Yay! sleepover ^.^
I'm gunna draw something with my program... havn't in ages.
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2004 13 March :: 2.09pm
:: Mood: Mwee
:: Music: I don't Wanna Be Me-Type O Negative
Quite a few in just five days...
='(
it's going to explode in my face and it's going to be terrible and awkward and >><< U_U =(
not a good morning...... it got worse....
Ugh. PLEASE let them forget, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!
I'm going to see Secret Window with Shelby tonight... and then sleeping over at Brandi's. All good fun, but... PLEASE LET THEM FORGET, PLEASE LET THEM FORGET! That's ALL I ASK! X_X
::paces around the room nervously::
UGH!
I was just practicing guitar and now I'm going to pace until 6:30. They are going to forget, please let them forget...
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2004 12 March :: 2.58pm
:: Mood: Floaty
:: Music: er... they're playing music videos
STuDy HaLL O_O
Ello! =P
teh oreos are fattening YEPPERZ!
[THAT was euni.]
=) so it's study hall! had such a floaty week, for no reason.... oh well, you know the reason ^__^
::floats::
Whoo last night I got dizzy though. It was fun. But I haven't really felt any different.
Also... going to bed at midnight and waking up at 6am is FINE BY ME ^_^
fun stuff
Tonight Kae and Lauren and I shall fun it up.... twill be doomish! We might go to the cafe.
Do you know what? Today in math there were 15 minutes left, so Di and I counted to 15 sixty times.
XD...
Diane will upload my latest painting sometime soon. Is what she says ^.^
unbelievable, we BOTH got a hundred on le petite examen de histoire en le matin! oui, c'est magnifique, eh?
love ya. Time for ART! <33
*juliya*
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2004 11 March :: 5.53pm
:: Mood: Apathetic
:: Music: none at the moment. Keys clicking.
nothing =P
Hey hey...
Today was an un-day. I just went with the flow. Acetaminophen, people. ^.^
I'm not at art class, again, because of my dad. [again]. This royally pisses me off... but I realize I don't really care. You know, since I lack direction in life. I can learn how to draw and paint better on myself. Probably better by myself actually, since I've always had a thing for working alone.
Recent Thoughts:
I realized that I am never going to have another friend like nicole. I'll have close friends, I'll have really close friends, I'll have friends with issues [heck I have a lot of those already]...but... I've just been thinking about it... I met her by pure luck.
SO!
Tomorrow I'm going out to eat with Lauren and Kae... then we're getting together to strum our guitars for hours. sounds fun ^^
Saturday>>Secret Window w/ Shelby
Sunday>>Brandi's coming to church avec moi! ^^
<3juliya<3
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2004 10 March :: 11.13pm
:: Mood: Floaty
:: Music: Meant to Live-Switchfoot
dun du-du--DUUU dun du du-DUU
Wow, I've had a REALLY floaty day XDDD Acetaminophen kicks ass. ^.^;
Been feeling creative, and practicing guitar lots. It's getting fuN! w00t...
*sigh* Laurel has really blown a fuse, and so have her parents. I'm fucking sick of them making her live in a box, and her taking it out on the people around her rather than THEM. Like the opposite of me... lol. Anyway, this has been going on for like, the entire grade. It sucks! I don't feel like I can do anything though, so it's frustrating the fuck out of me. ><
"You have to have a chaperone."
WHAT--THE--FUCK??
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*sigh* so I guess no 311 on sunday, there has to be three people according to brandi's mom... =P
Hmm. I want sxsw tix =) And I am so seeing switchfoot on the second...
Hey guys! Guess what. I haven't talked to my dad since last saturday. This is fucking wonderful. ^.^ I thought I'd be sooo grounded, but my mom like forgot after two days. XD. ...=/ the truth has to blow up in your face eventually, though. But... I'll just wait and see.
~Truth~
Gunna go play some more guitar. Love ya.
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2004 10 March :: 11.29am
:: Mood: d00mish
:: Music: James is playing enter sandman in the lab.
d00m d00m d00m
wahey!
Ok so last night... me and Brandi went to the big fat culture fair thing at school to feed. XD [they have food samples from all over the world... it was cool.] After about half an hour, we had grazed the entire mpr, so we went down to the canyon =) It was really fun. We talked about much stuff. I showed her the waterfall =)) When the sun started to set, we went up... then we went to the cafe and got cokes. =D Twas TRES FUN! w00t. Got home at eight, and then I played guitar for quite a while. I can finally sing and play at the same time... and I'm getting better at stairway to heaven. ^.^ And YES I did my homework! W00t! Because of this, I got to spend all of history SLEEPING instead of catching up ^_^! Of course, Perkins didn't care. Je suis tres hereux!
painkillers O.O
XD
=D!
I'm in LA right now. Yup. We get to use the computer. I want my ipod. And and... yeah. I have to work on my project...
Look at my piccys!
This is for Adam...
Painted this for Nicole... everyone gave me a look but that's what she asked me to draw. So I did.. So there. It got cut off.
This is after magz' party a while ago, she just gave me this piccy ^.^
And now, back to my "project."
<3
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2004 9 March :: 5.59pm
:: Mood: worrying about nicole and lexa
:: Music: How Could She-Type O Negative
How Could You? =P great song.
=).
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I am listening to type o. Good stuff. I'm going to the little graders academic fair w/ brandi ^.^ That's where they have all these booths of different countries with FOOD from all over the world.
No one deserves that hell... ::hugs:: for nicole and lexa.
Lexa is coming during spring break! =)))) Joy... it'll be great.
SXSW! I am SO there. And hopefully 311 on sunday. Yeah.
....x.x....
Apparantly I am wispy. o.o;?
*sigh* well the thing is I'm avoiding my dad and have successfully done so for 3 days. making me edgy... In Flames now.
I'll share more when I'm more clearheaded.
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2004 8 March :: 11.17am
:: Mood: d00mish =) fun
:: Music: class talking
xP xP
Ello. I am SO grounded.
from the comp =P but I will use it anyway, you know.
But, I won't be able to be on in the evenings... which is bad... =( bad bad bad
bad for me =P
I'm in Language Arts. We do nothing. fun rummy.
I got a xanga.
doom... *sigh* my dad was gone all day yesterday. x.x
so undoom... stuff is suckingishly. I'll try to scan my watercolors during study hall.
Anyway... bye.
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2004 7 March :: 1.32pm
:: Mood: sleepy/frightened
:: Music: there is none.
=) I'm at jackie's house ='( but I have to go home soon
hey.. this SUCKS so much. so so much.
Yesterday, me and my mom and dad went to get jackie's gift before the party, and I was pissed because there was only crap at where we were at and there was a barnes and nobles across the street. So we got in the car and they were, of course, complaining about how ungrateful I am, and my mom said "from now on we're always getting birthday presents here because they're nice and cheap." And I was like, "NO, we're not, they're always crappy!" [But they are! Every time we can't get them what they asked for, instead we must go to that crap store. This TOTALLY set them off, but I was already in a bad mood and so were they... my dad started yelling and yelling and yelling, but I just stared out the window. I was really trying to not break down in front of them, show them they have no power over me. But he just would not stop! He started taking away stuff, like places I was planning on going, AIM, and such.. and that's when I started crying. That shut him up for like 0 seconds.
And then...
He saw some of them, and he started FREAKING OUT. And my said she thought they were a bit odd. And... they are going to murder me. I'm so scared. I'm going to have such a huge breakdown when I get home... omg it's so not funny... =''(
*sigh* then I finally got out of the car and went into the lazer quest place, and jax and laz were there.. I asked them to hold my stuff and cried in the bathroom for a little bit. Then.. the party was pretty fun, I guess. I won both games =) hehe.. yeah. Guest list: Clemmer, Ted, Laz, Katy, Soph, Magz. And me and jax. w00t.
Sleepover.. I was about to explode. I tried calling nicole, but her phone wasn't on or something. Finally, Jackie let me on the computer and she was on [thank god.] Turns out she smashed her phone with a hammer. XD. X.X Geh. Lol.
So now I'm about to go home.. I mean hell... help =( -.-
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
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2004 6 March :: 1.44pm
:: Mood: optimistic
:: Music: Meant to Live-Switchfoot
today's a good day
heyO!
I'd like to correct something from the survey, I realized it was wrong
[x]first bestfriend: helen wang
Anyway... the weather right now is wonderful. I love austin.
Yesterday was pretty cool... me and lauren went out to eat at dynasty and went to all these cute little shops. I bought some watercolors at joanne's and finished nicole's piccy =D twas fun. Talked to magz for like an hour.
Jax' birthday party tonight! Lazer tag and then more fun stuff. What should I get her? Hmm Hmm
::crosses fingers:: tonight the plan won't go wrong, nikki
g'luck g'luck!
yay lexa is coming! hoooooorahhhhh! w00p w00p
::dances a jig::
I must eat. I must!
amore!
-juliya
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2004 5 March :: 6.44pm
:: Mood: wild
:: Music: Killer is Me-Alice In Chains
livejournal [EDIT]
I've been thinking.. teachers rarely call on me in class. I just get this feeling that they avoid me... unless it's a class with my friends, in which case I'm loud. Still, the thing is.. XD all of them kind of fear me. I think it's because I'm so sassy to adults. Just my nature =P
I HAVE NEVER BEEN STUDENT OF THE MONTH! EVER! ;_;
Well, I'm going out to eat with Lauren and Melinda right now.
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I AM: who knows?
I WANT: no idea
I HAVE: not that much
I WISH: I knew
I HATE: them
I MISS: not much
I FEAR: change
I HEAR: alice in chains
I SEARCH: for the reason
I WONDER: why
I REGRET: nothing
I ALWAYS: am unsure
I AM NOT: free
I DANCE: not very well
I SING: mediocre-ly
I CRY: way too often over the dumbest things
I AM NOT ALWAYS: stable
I WRITE: poetry
I WON: a picture contest in 3rd grade. A cell phone, concert ticketsx2, an ipod. just stuff.
I LOST: myself
I CONFUSE: everyone; myself
I NEED: the reason
I SHOULD: change
MY FATHER THINKS I AM: a bitch
MY MOTHER THINKS I AM: the reason anything bad happens
3 THINGS YOU'RE OFTEN COMPLIMENTED FOR:
1. Being a good artist
2. Being nice to people
3. Listening to people
MAKES ME HAPPY: I don't know
UPSETS ME: my friends, my parents, politics, the world, religious discrimination, sexual-preference discrimination, any kind of discrimination, people being rude for no reason, people being rude, carelessness, ignorance, my clutziness, myself, my lies, my state of mind
THE PRETTIEST FEMALE YOU KNOW: Beanie
THE PRETTIEST MALE YOU KNOW: Nathan Tw.
THE WEIRDEST PERSON YOU KNOW: weird?
THE LOUDEST PERSON YOU KNOW: me/diane
THE SEXIEST PERSON YOU KNOW: shh!
YOUR CLOSE FRIENDS: They know they're my closest friends.
THE PERSON THAT KNOWS THE MOST ABOUT YOU: Nicole and Zarae
What is your most overused phrase on IM: "XD/o.o"
The last image/thought you go to sleep with: nothing
Your best feature: My eyes. they're big.
Take a shower everyday: yep.
Been in love: meh
Want to get married: fuck no
Have any tattoos/where?: nope
SCREEN NAMES: StarkistPixie, The other one's for avoiding you ^^;
SIGN: Capricorn
NATURAL HAIR COLOR: blondish brown
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: reddish blonde
EYE COLOR: hazelish green
FAVORITES
NUMBER: 13, 7, and 3. I will tell you the calculator story someday.
COLOR: black/purple
DAY: friday or halloween
Month: december//october
SONG: they change too often =/ right now I like "Only For The Weak" -In Flames
FOOD: sure
SEASON: all of them
SPORT: hate em =/
DRINK: coke
VEGGIE: tomato
PREFERENCES :
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT? don't care.
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE? hot choco
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE? milk
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: choco
IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU....
CRIED? Yes
HELPED SOMEONE? Yes
BOUGHT SOMETHING? Yes
GOTTEN SICK? Yes
GONE TO THE MOVIES? Nope
SAID "I LOVE YOU"?: Yes
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER?: Yes
MISSED AN EX?: Nah
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?: Yes
TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU CRUSH ON?: She who does not crush
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: Yesh
MISSED SOMEONE?: Yes
HUGGED SOMEONE?: Yes
_____Basics
[x] they call me: Julia
[x] also: Joolz//Juice
[x] sex: Female
[x] my first breath of air: ...
[x] age: 14
[x] status: bleh
[x] occupation: student?
[x] nationality: Russian
[x] best friends: Nicole, Zarae, Laz
[x] most memorable memory: shut up
[x] worst?: =P
[x] first word uttered: "No" in hebrew
[x] first bestfriend: Julia Wilson
[x] college planning to go to: Julliard. =P
[x] future resident of: New York
[x] wedding: nope
[x] children: HELL NO
[x] looking forward to: Meeting Johnny Depp
[x] NOT looking forward to: =/
[x] feeling: stupid//pointless
[x] Listening: hurt-nin [now]
[x] Talking to: nicole and sophie
[x] doing: negative thinking
[x] thinking of: art class today, nicole, my dad, laurel
[x] craving: escape
[x] missing: The past
[x] hating: much
_______favorites_______
[x] song:
[x] radio station: 101x
[x] tv show: friends & just shoot me
[x] channel: WB
[x] site: =P
[x] movie: resident evil
[x] store: toy joy XD
[x] mall: meh
[x] hangout: jackie's house
[x] actor: johnny depp I guess
[x] actress: hmm julia roberts
[x] character: haruko
_______love?_______
[x] love is: warmth
[x] current love: nah
[x] love or lust?: to be honest, it doesn't really matter. love I guess.
[x] best love song: dunno, amber mehbe
[x] is it possible to be in love w/ more than one person @ the same time?: I don't think so
[x] when love hurts, you: ...don't ask
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2004 4 March :: 6.22pm
:: Mood: Irritated//Blahish
:: Music: No You Don't//Nine Inch Nails
short and sweet =)
So new
So true
So real
You feel
So strong
Been long
You've been
So gone
So deep
So bright
Soak up
The light
Open your eyes
You've won the fight
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Hehe, yeah. Out of place, but I like it. I have strep throat. I can't go to the doctor though xP The doctor sucks. I'm just going to hope it goes away =)
I brought home the watercolors I really liked, but I lost my digital camera U_U And I need a scanner for these anyway. So sad.
JULIA'S SCHEDULE [NEXT YEAR]
Pre AP/IB TAG Algebra II
Pre IB TAG English I
Pre IB Accelerated Science
Pre IB World Area Studies
Debate I
Studio Drawing I
French III [ENH maybe]
Business Multimedia//Image Mngmt
=))) Yep. I am insane enough to take on IB. I hear that 300 people start and 30 finish. Creepy. oh well =)
so yeah.. It's mondo gloomy outside. I want to go to art class. kaplah.
splish splosh
well
I love you
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=D byebye
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2004 3 March :: 1.19pm
:: Mood: evil
:: Music: everyone's talking about science.
d00m!!!
Please donate to the Axis-Of-Somewhat-Evil.
::maniacal laughter::
::and stuff::
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2004 2 March :: 9.58pm
:: Mood: sort of happy! =D
:: Music: Alice in Chains-Heaven Beside you
AAA! hehehe
oioi something's good. I'm feeling >sort of happy< and I dunno, sorta peaceful
[[moods ever-changing]]
I've been listening to this song... at the moment I really like it ^^ cool lyrics too.
[[Heaven Beside You]]
Be what you wanna be
See what you came to see
Been what you wanna be
I don't like what I see
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven Beside you...Hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you...Hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Put Heaven beside you
Hell within
And you think you have it still, Heaven inside you
So there's problems in your life
That's fucked up
And I'm not blind
I'm just see-through
Faded
Super jaded
And out of my mind
Do what you wanna do
Go out and seek your truth
When I'm down and blue
Rather be me than you
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven Beside you...Hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven Beside you...Hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven Beside you...Hell within
And you wish you had it still, Heaven inside you
So there's problems in your life
That's fucked up
But you're not blind
You're just see-through
Faded
Overrated
And out of your mind
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven Beside you...Hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven Beside you...Hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven Beside you...Hell within
And you know you have it still, Heaven inside you
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2004 2 March :: 8.14pm
:: Mood: stop asking me what my gd mood is
:: Music: ruiner-NIN
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it's ok *sigh*
listening to nine inch nails, johnny cash, alice in chains =) music muzak musique... c'est tres bien!
I don't think I've ever met anyone who doesn't like music =D hehe
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X.X ...why did I push away? Why would I do that? Why?
this is insane.
It's foggy outside
Really foggy
And it's gray... yeah.
Seriously, I am going insane.
@.@
*sigh*
shutting them out
soon I'll be back to square one
well, you could call it square negative 13
or square five
anyway, I'll be back to that square
[heh]
am I not already?
=P so yeah. hey. what's up. don't worry, everything's fine. and you? well, that's wonderful to hear.
insane
insane
insane
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2004 1 March :: 10.20pm
:: Mood: wired
:: Music: hurt-nin
such a pretty song
[downwards spiral, 1994]
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that’s real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear my crown of s**t
On my liar’s chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stain of time
The feeling disappears
You are someone else
I am still right here
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
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2004 1 March :: 7.38pm
:: Mood: moods.. they're all the same
:: Music: In Flames-World of Promises
how.. could they?
I avoid it as much as possible... but when people judge me I just want to rip their fucking heads off. Unless you know me and I've let you know that you do... keep your fucking labels and "GET OVER IT's" to yourself!
*sigh*
I'm so angry... and no one knows.
everyone sees that image of me that simply refuses to fade
they aren't ok
I try to help
I really, truly do
I hope it makes a difference.
everyone lies, everyone leaves.
and you know it, so fuck off.
and leave.
[[>>>adam, please be ok.. don't let go...]]
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2004 29 February :: 3.05pm
:: Mood: evil >;D
:: Music: In Flames-Only For The Weak
>:D!
I would like to thank Nicole for getting me into metal.
BE SAFE, DAMMIT!
^^;
In Flames r0x0rz =) and so does Alice in Chains. w00t w00t.
You know what.. I really feel like griping about this... XD
First I had to go pick it up, then I had to find out why the fuck it wouldn't plug in, then I had to buy an adapter for $20, install a service package to my cpu [this took an hour.] restart, install the stinkin itunes program, restart, charge it, and figure out how to use it.
XD
but now it works!
XDDDD yeah I'm insane.
in the membrane.
got no brain.
bubye.
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2004 29 February :: 12.01pm
:: Mood: overwhelmed*confused
:: Music: numb//linkin park
xP
So yeah..
yesterday sucked more than ever =P
Since I haven't updated in a while, what I've been up to:
Thursday--Went to that new cafe down the street with Brandi.. we sat and talked for an hour and decided to make it our new hangout
Friday--Many people wanted me to be their shoulder to cry on this day =P. It was alright though.. some things are clearing up. We had a blow off day, a mardi gras party in french. Then, I went to magz' house at six.. to that party she invited me to a week ago... um, kaPLAH. We all went out and I had fake fun. Then we came back. =P the highlight was watching that johnny depp movie. Then, I kept waking up in the middle of the night til 10 in the morning, and I would shoot up and wonder where the hell I was. XD it was pretty odd.
Went to.. well, nevermind.. it's another fake fun story. Got home at 2, and woop woop my mom's ready to have a fight the moment I step in the door. *sigh* well, the rest is history.
I'm sorry I was so selfish.
I wrote a poem =P but you can't read it. =).
Oh, and by the way.. PLEASE HELP JULIA WITH HER LANGUAGE ARTS PROJECT!! it's a 20 question survey [I know it's not great, but I just need some facts] and it's anonymous. Also.. hehe, it doesn't work for some reason, so you have to press enter after every answer you type and go back. *sigh* survey crap is due tomorrow.. xP
http://www.geocities.com/rainstarfire/survey1.html
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