god i hate being alone.

i should have just went with roman to his mom's house.
god some people can be such fake stupid jerks. how am i supposed to be friends with someone who treats me like shit like that. TOTALLY UNRELIABLE. i seriously will not be able to have her in my wedding because i honestly don't trust that something wouldn't "come up" where she'd need to skip out on the big day. god i fucking swear. so fucking annoying. the last fight we fricken got in was because she ALWAYS and i mean ALWAYS fucking cancels on me, but no, she does it AGAIN the next time we hang out. and then fucking doens't pick up my calls or call me back. i'm not a fucking idiot. i knwo you fucking look at your phone like 15 times in 20 minutes and i know you fucking have your phone on you AT ALL TIMES. half the time we hang out you're texting someone anyway. so do you really think you're fucking fooling me or something when you don't pick up the phone and dont return my calls? like i am just supposed to think you didn't look at your phone or you "lost" it again. YEAH RIGHT. poeople don't lose their phone that much and people dont leave their phones at peoples houses that much and people don't "forget" to charge their phones that much. god i am so pissed off because i dont want to fight with you but i have no choice when you treat me like shit!!!!
do you realize we dind't even have any time to catch up when you came over because you "would rather sleep alone" which is a total lie, you just wanted to be alone even though you were "so tired" so that you could call someone else and get on the internet all night. what the hell is that? we didn't even have anytime to talk that whole night and then when you say you're coming back the next day you fucking bail on me and change the plans AND you tell me you're just hanging out with someone else but in fact you are going to a party instead. god that is mean. and then you tell me you'll bring me my stuff the next day "around 2" so what do i do? i fucking wait around my fucking apartment doing NOTHING waiting for you and hmm 2 oclock goes by, then 3, then 4 then i say fuck you and leave to do my own thing but not before claling you only to get your answering machine. funny me, i thought if you wouldn't be able to make it you'd have the decency to pick up your phone for 2 god damn minutes and just tell me you wrent coming over afterall but no you leave me fucking hang ing AGAIN. god i can't believe it

and the time before that the whole time i was at work i was all loooking forward to hanging out and thinking about how we were gonna go on a bike ride and i couldn't wait to get some fresh air and it'd be fun to catch up but then you fucking cancel

god i am done ranting it's not fucking worth my time. GOd i am so pissed at you. you are RUDE and INCONSIDERATE and a LIAR. work on that.

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