man o man is this day hell. its a freakin roller coaster of emotion and i dont know what the hell i want or even need...... i hate hormones, and the way all these freakin things just keep making me moody....arg why is trying to stay un-pregnant worse than actually being? some times i ask if it is even worth it, then i realize i cant afford a child and this cycle continues....

yes i know random rant, but its what i am feeling at the current moment. im very happy on the inside but somewhere inbetween there and here it got all messed up.

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