All About Courtney
You know how in Seventeen magazine they have those "all about so and so"'s, that feature hot guys? Well, I think that I should have one of thos, considering that this is my website and all. I'm not hot, nor am I a guy, but oh well. I'm selfish. So here are my responces to all of the questions that Seventeen asked the guys...

All About Courtney
Name: Courtney
nickname: my family calls me Court or C, but that's about it
sign: Scorpio
birthday: November 5th
birthplace: ...I don't know. Is that bad?
eye color: blue
hair color: blonde/brown
height: 5'0''
dating status: single
age at first kiss: 13
turn-on: funny guys
turnoff: girly guys who show off
favorite book: Whores on the Hill by Colleen Curran
favorite movie: Amélie
words to live by: "There's no design, no flaws to find"- The Shins
guilty pleasure: none of them are guilty! i deserve all pleasures.
first c.d: I don't really remember, but I think it was a Macy Gray one, lol. I think I was 9 or 10.

My pretend family
If I lived in France and had a beautiful French husband, I would name all of my children beautiful french names with accent trémas.

Oldest to Youngest Children
Loïc (m)
Anaïs (f)
Méthaïde (f)
Joël (m)

My husband would be named something really really masculine and serious. Like...Atticus! Maybe he would even look like Gregory Peck. He was a Real Man. But then of course, I would have to have a really really feminine and serious name, too. Maybe something like Esther. I like that name though, actually. It reminds me of Esther Kang, the Korean girl in our school with a kick-ass sense of style. She's so pretty.

I get off topic very easily.

...
Christmas was great. Today I went to the mall with my sister and got a shitload of clothing to replace the shitload of clothing that didn't fit me that i got for x-mas. Exhausting.

I love The Shins. They're hotties. Why aren't there any hotties at school? Maybe it's just me. Maybe I'm too weird.

Today
Today is Christmas eve...pretty cool, I'm excited about tomorrow. My mom said that Cassie and Sabra and Lilly should come over to my house for a weekend, and I think that would be really cool, but Lilly has Hunnukah so I'm not sure if she would be able to come and stuff.

Yesterday night I watched Forrest Gump. I freaking love that movie...for the like last 30 minutes I was crying hysterically. Good old emotional Courtney. It was so sad, because Forrest was like "he's just so smart, Jenny" when he was talking to Jenny's grave about their son. And Jenny was so mean to him all the time! I talk about the characters like they're real people. Sad.

Today I am going to finish wrapping my last 2 gifts and go to the bookstore with my sister to read magazines without buying them. Ah, the good life. I like the shirt I'm wearing. And that's all I have to say about that. Hah!

Finally.
Winter break!

Will will be back next Friday, December 30th. I talked to him today, which was the highlight of my week.

today/tonight
Today I went to the mall with my mom and sister to finish up the christmas shopping...and I did! I still need to get cassie and sabra something, but they can wait because everyone sends everything late in the flock of four. Tomorrow, or maybe tonight if i feel like it, i shall wrap all of them to get it over with.

Tonight I'll be all alone..my mom and dad are going to a party and my sister will be with her friend. so..i dunno what i'll do. i've already cleaned my room (shock!), so maybe ill clean my bathroom. am i weird? because i like cleaning my bathroom. it's peaceful. lol.

waiting for a call from will. i wonder how he's doing.

New Layout
After a long, long time, I have finally made a new layout. I like this one quite a lot...the i-con is model Omahyra Mota. She's so beautiful.

Anyway, this week really hasn't been good. Will's grandpa died (it was expected), and so he's out in Utah and will be until probably 2 weeks from now. I miss him like I would miss my arm or leg.

Im so bored.
50 steryotypes about girls
o for disagree, x for agree

[o] 1. we love axe body spray
[o] 2. we're as afraid of you as you are of us
[o] 3. we try to impress you most of the time
[x] 4. we flirt a lot if we like you
[x] 5. we flirt a lot. period.
[o] 6. the only things we like more than you are shoes
[o] 7. we dont understand "guy talk"
[x] 8. we LOVE hugs
[x] 9. we hate it when you're ignorant (so stop pretending)
[x] 10. we're not that girly all the time
[x] 11. we hate hardcore action movies
[x] 12. we giggle 24/7
[o] 13. we are scared of almost anything
[x] 14. we don't always like the "tall dark and handsome" guy
[x] 15. AIM is our life
[o] 16. you see our myspace layout? its our 865412875th one (not for the html-incapable people)
[x] 17. we are often self concious
[o] 18. our personalities change in high school
[x] 19. we have celebrity crushes
[x] 20. we're scared of clowns
[x] 21. and we're scared of the dark
[o] 22. and we're scared of spiders
[o] 23. we HATE horror movies
[x] 24. we're not sluts!
[xxx25. we sometimes take things a lot more seriously than we should
[x] 26. we run around our house in baggy shirts and our underwear
[x] 27. during sleep overs, we talk about the guys we'd go out with
[x] 28. we aren't very athletic
[x]. we trust you more than our girl friends
[ x 30. we are conceited, we just don't like to admit it
[o] 31. we cover ourselves in foundation
[x] 32. no matter how nice we are, we CAN be bitches
[ o33. we love being scared
[o 34. cuddling is our specialty
[o] 35. we LOVE cars
[x36. we hate a lot of people
[o 37. we cat fight
[x] 38. we scream when we're mad
[o] 39. we squeal when we break a nail
[o 40. we BREAK things when we're mad
[x] 41. we love to talk about our boobs
[o 42. the food in expensive resturaunts always tastes better
[x] 43. bubble baths soothe us
[x] 44. when we dont know what to say on the phone, we sigh
[o] 45. we are serious people...most of the time
[x] 46. our hair is part of who we are
[x] 47. we can eat a lot
[x48. we hate cartoons
[o ]9. our cell phones are our best friend
[x]50. we love the color pink

PARTY
some people are very annoying.

And I'm so excited to go to my mom's cousin's christmas party...because you know what that means? It means
getting all dressed up in a nice outfit
going straight to the food table
eating about a thousand deviled eggs (seriously, last year's party I had like 10)
hanging out with my cousins
having fun!
eating more eggs throughout this entire process
coming home and feeling sick from gorging myself with so much food.

Hooray!

Books! (I'm a dork)
So I finished my old list. You know what that means...time for a new List Of Books I Want To Read!

List of Books I Want To Read by Summer

1) Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy
2) The Bell Jar by Silvia Plath
3) The Burn Journals by Brent Runyon
4) Valley of the Dolls by Jacqueline Susann
5) Angela's Ashes by Frank McCourt
6) A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess
7) The Joy Luck Club by Amy Tan

I've always wanted to see the movie A Clockwork Orange, but the book should be better (because they always are.) so...I might edit my list. But I might not. There it is.

A Realization
I'm like...myself, you know? And I don't belong to anyone.

I can laugh and wear anything I want, I can like someone without going out with them and be perfectly happy by myself. I can talk to Will for hours on end about being single, and I can miss a boyfriend, but I can come back home and laugh at the stupidity of it all. I can dance how Chris dances with Melanie and be a dork. I can humm Romanian Folk Dance, part I. I can be my own best friend.

Because I might be single and have a new haircut; but I am the same, Identical woman. Yeah! Yes I am. I belong to myself. I'm not alone, I have Will; Chris; my cat; Joel; Isabel; and most importantly, my sister. Why did it take me so long to feel this way? To like...allow myself to.

I can read You Remind me of You without crying, watch Titanic and wish for what they have, yet not nessesarily want it.

I'm ok.

Bitch.
I think I'm a bad person. But, then again, my parents are just horrible. So doesn't that even out? If I had decent parents, then maybe I would have turned out to be one of those girls that never PMS noticibly and match their outfits according to what season it is.

And they think I'm such a bitch because I didn't talk to them during my sister's concert. How could I? My dad is an immature person who likes to judge people all the time and thinks he's hilarious when really his jokes are mean and critisizing. My mom works and is really mature but sort of a loser. She doesn't understand anything.

I mean, you think they'd be nice to me considering that my boyfriend of almost 5 months who I thought about every minute of every hour dumped me over i.m, but no. Because that was a month ago...and I should have gotten over it by now.

What the hell else am I supposed to do besides ignore my dad? Agree with him? "Oh, yeah dad, they really do suck. Let's whisper about them loudly when parents are all around, hearing our every move!" He always has to comment and point out everyone's imperfections. "Oh, she has a big nose. He's younger than me??", just to make himself feel better. And there's nothing that he should even feel good about. He can't even provide for our family and sits at home all day doing, generally, nothing. Nothing.