5 things i should do one day when i go to the supermarket:

1)pick up 10 packages of condoms and laxitives. find an abandoned cart. stick them into cart. run away.

2)pick up 10 issues of redbook and 10 of cosmopolitin. drop into random cart. stalk them for about 5 minutes. walk by them, while passing look into their face and say:"hi. i am new in town, and it looks to me that you know where the better sex books are? my husband and i are trying new things now." (do this when i am at a resinable age to look married.)

3) dress in the most gothic outfit possible. walk around the store saying loudly to myself : "SQUIRLLS!! THEY WILL OVERCOME US PUNY HUMANS!!" reapet again and agin. leave store.

4) go up to a person that works there and say:
" Hi, my name is Sue. latly, my shoulder has been very itchy and red. i try not to scratch it too often, or it will turn red and i will look like i have a hicky. Do you know where the soup is?"

5) get a cart. run with it then lift up feet and yell "WHEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM FLYING!" as loud as desired.

i need a hobby.

random thoughts for the random mind
i miss playing the sims. ever since i accidently un-installed it, i miss making them gay and burning them(not on purpose...ofcourse....)

well, the fateful day of St. Valentine has come and gone, without leaving a trace. i wonder what net year's February 14th has to offer us...

i dont like my feet. they are undermousturized and too..weird. they dont smell, though. i am a clean person. bounus points for me!

this didnt happen to me, just an idea that popped into my mind.
He fell to the ground as if in slow motion. as i watched him dying there, watched him bleeding there, i did not pick him up. when i was down, he did not pick me up. when i was alone, he did not pick me up. when i was trying to belive all broken promises that remain so, he did not pick me up. why should i? what is so diferent now, then in the past? maybe it was that this time, i was strong. i was stronger and smarter. smart enough to know that if someone has fallen, and that person is not one you admire, do not pick him up. strong enough to feel the pain he was going through, but not shed a tear.

but maybe i was not strong enough
because i picked him up

and he did not as even smile at me.

Valentines day
Havent updaed in awhile. my computer was all messedup. nothing much has happened, exept these 2 4th graders have very big crushes on me and gave me both valentines, handwritten with my named spelled way wrong. oh well, the thought that counts, right? i also got a shitload of candy. yum.

1.2.3
Three things that scare me:
1: the dark
2: kidnappers
3: The Ring
Three people who make me laugh:
1: Will
2: Jinri
3: Colleen
Three Things I love:
1: My bed
2: my crush
3: my Family
Three Things I hate:
1: OLIVIA ggrr
2:my feet
3: my teeth
Three things I don't understand:
1: Why i cant seem to fully memorize my multiplication tables
2: Life
3: my Purpose
Three things on the desk:
1: hole puncher
2: tissue box
3: lotion
Three things I'm doing right now:
1: reading
2: typing
3: looking at the computer
Three things I want to do before I die:
1: go to the oprah show
2: Live in n.y
3: Go To Africa
Three things I can do:
1: Read
2: Write
3: paint my nails
Three ways to describe my personality:
1: Funny (somtimes)
2: Talkitive
3: Loud
Three things I can't do:
1: Backflip
2: Split
3: Dye my hair

Cancun!
IM GOIN TO CANCUN MEXICO FOR SPRING BREAK YEY!!!!!!! and my bestest friend amy goes every year and we might see each other b/c, i mean,how big can the city be? well it's gonna be fun and i will get a kickass swimsuit for this monumental event.

a poem that i wrote about 1 week ago:

You are the smell before the rain falls,
The voices of all the children laughing.

You are the ground beneath my own two feet,
All of my beauty in this life.

You are the tempo that keeps my heart beating,
And the reason I wake up in the morning.

Yet,
You do not realize this.

You do not look into my blue round eyes,
And see how much you mean to me.

So I continue to hope
You will come up to me,
And we will smile.

But another day goes by without you smiling back.

And I wonder if that moment will ever come.

The moment where,
As I look into your green green eyes
You look back
And we will laugh.

We will smile and be filled with hope.
Being not two,
But one.

Alas,
The day does not come.

So I wait patiently
Listening to children's laughter

Walk painfully,
Feeling the moist ground beneath my own two feet.

And I think of you.

I think about that day,
When I will look at you
And you will look back
And smile at me.

yup yup pretty good huh?

Talent?
getting ready to go to the talent show..well, i mean, you dont really have to get ready at all. its not like im gonna be seeing someone "speical" there. it's just another meaningless fundraiser and scam. to think, these kids actually belive that they have talent. HA! all they do is parade around the stage, doing pointless dance moves. i am only going because, you see, james owes me $2. and he will be at the show. with $2.

update
welp, havent written in awhile. i've been way too busy with my 5 DAY WEEKEND! well origionally it was a 4 day one (teacher workdays YEY), but they canclled school because of the visious snow. (haha hardly) not much has happened been pretty bored, stuck in the house playing Racco with my sister. (a WAY FUN game that i win every time lol) see? you havent missed out on all that much =D

a VERY long survay that i got off of someones website
Who was the last person...
{x} You touched? my mom
{x} You talked to?amy a few minutes ago online
{x} You hugged that hugged you back? my mom
{x} You instant messaged? amy
{x} You kissed? on the cheek? my mommy
{x} You yelled at? my dad as usual haha
{x} You laughed with? Amy
Currents
{x} Current Clothes: sweatpants ansd a sweater
{x} Current Mood:sick...look at my mood above
{x} Current Taste: um...my mouth?
{x} Current Hair: just down
{x} Current Annoyance: my tummy
{x} Current Smell: uh..i duno
{x} Current thing you ought to be doing: sleeping
{x} Current Desktop Picture:nothing
{x} Current Favorite Group: Coldplay
{x} Current Book: Don't Look Behind You
{x} Current DVD In Player: Saving Silverman
{x} Current Refreshment:none
{x} Current Worry:if a certain someone will ask me out...
{x} Current Crush: Nick
{x} Current Favorite Celebrity: uh...i dont care

Favorite...
{x} Food: Canolli
{x} Drink: Vinella Coke
{x} Color/shade: Purple and pink and black and green....pretty much every single color exept pumpkin orange
{x} Shoes: none
{x} Candy: reeses or those mints you get at the chinese food place
{x} Movie: The Ring but it's scary as hell
{x} Dance: th fish!
{x} Vegetable: none
{x} Fruit: grapes!!!!


On preferences...
{x} Chocolate milk or hot chocolate? chocolote milk
{x} Marry the perfect love or the perfect friend? both
{x} Sweet or sour? sweet
{x} Root Beer or Dr. Pepper? both
{x} Sappy/action/comedy/horror? all of the above
{x} Cool Ranch or Nacho Cheese? Cool Ranch!
{x} Mud or Jell-O wrestling? Jello is tastes better so if you happen to get some in your mouth...
{x} With or without ice-cubes? without
{x} Shine or rain? rain..it feeds plants
{x} Winter/Summer/Fall/Spring? summer and fall
{x} Vanilla or Chocolate? Chocolote
{x} Eyes open or closed?closed
{x} Fly or breathe under water? breath under water
{x} Bunk-bed or waterbed? waterbed
{x} Chewing gum or hard candy?chewing gum
{x} Motor boat or sailboat? neither
{x} Lights on or off? on
{x} Chicken or fish? chicken

What's your favorite:
{x} Number? 7
{x} Holiday? my birthday
{x} Place? the beach
{x} Flower?red roses
{x} Scent? tangerine bubble bath by Origins

{x} If you could be anywhere, where would you be? hhmm..good question
{x} What would you be doing? i dont know{x} What are you listening to? nothing now
{x} Can you do anything freakish with your body? i can do a split...and a mean tripod =D{x} Do you have a favorite animal? i like Cows!

Have you/are you/do you....
{x} Considered a life of crime? no
{x} Considered being a hooker? no
{x} Considered being a pimp? no
{x} Are you psycho? naw, im pretty sane
{x} Split personalities? not really...well yes...but no...
{x} Schizophrenic? nope
{x} Obsessive? naw..
{x} Obsessive compulsive? no! no! no! no!
{x} Panic? no
{x} Anxiety? not really
{x} Depressed? not really
{x} Suicidal? nope
{x} Obsessed with hate? nope
{x} Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? no..
{x} Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? no oh my god what kind of survay is this?!
{x} Understanding: yes
{x} Open-minded: yeah
{x} Arrogant: maybe soemtimes
{x} Insecure: eh, i dont think so
{x} Interesting: yeah!
{x} Hungry: not now
{x} Friendly: yeah
{x} Smart: when i wanna be
{x} Moody: slightly
{x} Childish: sometimes
{x} Independent: yes
{x} Hard working: sometimes
{x} Organized: kinda
{x} Healthy: kinda
{x} Emotionally Stable: i guess
{x} Shy: no
{x} Difficult: haha yea...
{x} Attractive: of course! hehehe
{x} Bored Easily: with some things
{x} Thirsty: yes
{x} Talkative: yeah
{x} Different: i guess..
{x} Unique: of course !
{x} Lonely: no
{x} Color your hair? i want to!
{x} Have tattoos? no
{x} piercings? ears..
{x} Have a boyfriend? almost...
{x} Floss daily? no
{x} Own a webcam? no
{x} Ever get off the damn computer? yeah
{x} Habla espanol? nope

MUSIC: favorite?
{x} band: Coldplay, the White stripes
{x} song: Yellow -Coldplay
{x} seen anyone in concert? the final 10 american idols at the patriots center last summer
{x} type of music: rock

Would you consider...
{x} tattoos? yes
{x} peircings? yes
{x} being in a garage band? if i could play anything..
{x} crowd surfing/moshing? sure
{x} dying hair color not found in nature? sure y not
{x} suicide? no
{x} murdering someone: no
{x} being in a school band:naw
{x} doing dumb stunts for a camera? hell yeah

yes or no...

x. you keep a diary: only this now..
x. you like to cook: nopethough
x. you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: yea
x. you're in love: hhmm not sure but i really like him :)
x. you set your watch a few minutes ahead: no i dont wear a watch
x. you bite your fingernails: no
x. you believe in love: yes


Who is...?
the prettiest person of the opposite sex you know: take a guess
The weirdest person you know:Will
the Loudest Person you Know:Will and Olivia W.
Your close friends:Christina, the Amy's, annie, Lillt, Lauren, Will, Jinri....
the Person that Knows the Most about you: Amy n and my sister
Most Boring Teacher: Ms. Schiff

What is...

your most overused phrase on IM: lol
the last image/thought you go to sleep with: well i wouldnt remember now would i?
your best feature: eyes
Inside joke: it jiggles!


Do You...?
take a shower everyday: soometimes but it's not like im a slob or anythng
have a(any) crush(es):only one
think you know you've been in love: huh that question doesnt make sence
want to get married: yes
have any tattoos/where?: nope
piercings/where?: ears
get motion sickness: yes
think you're a health freak: no!
get along with your parents: not my dad most of the time but my mom pretty much yea

CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT? both
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE?didnt i already say that one?
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE? hhmm...
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE? chocolote

( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... )
CRIED? yep
HELPED SOMEONE? i dont think so haha im so evil
BOUGHT SOMETHING? no
GOTTEN SICK? yes
GONE TO THE MOVIES? no
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? no
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? no
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? no
TALKED TO AN EX? no
MISSED AN EX? no
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? this one
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? no
MISSED SOMEONE? not really
HUGGED SOMEONE? yep
KISSED SOMEONE? no
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? kinda
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? no

mr. fishies- the fish that did not exist
oh, mr. fishes
why did you treat me so bad?
never coming up to the glass
and never even looking at me

oh, mr. fishies,
why did you not like
all of the other
fish in your tank?

Mr. fishies,
mr fishies
we may never know

we may never know
the answers to our questions.
we may never know,
why you did the things you did

you were an odd one,
it was no doubt
but it is a fact
that i loved you

and when you died,
i did not flush you down into
the cold cold deps of the sewege
like Fred.

insted,
i gace you a proper burial
and stayed with you
through all of the bad weather

but you still did not answer
my many questions
in
life.

WOW im hyper on juice.white crandberry, to be exact.
*nick is going to ask me out valentines day! nick is going to ask me out valentines daY! Nick is going to ask me out VALENTINES DAY! =D yey! but, if he doesn't i think i will still be able to move on and survive.
you know what?
what?
CHICKEN BUTT!

HAHAHA that joke never gets old.
www.walruses.com is the BEST SITE EVER!!!!!!GO TO IT!!!!!
LOL today whenever brian jumped at recess his boxers were showing! Haha my friends are so evil they didnt want to telll him but i did, because i am just the coolest person ever *hears laughs and caughs from behind me*

NEW
well...my new journal! the one before was alright, but since i changed my sn (ispeaksquirl115) i had no clue how to transfer it.... so here i am.