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So I've sort of been ignoring this journal...which is good, right? I mean, this means I have a life. AND a Fab Four xanga to update instead. ha ha. Well, it's friday. the day of joy. and david cantor is making his very own FLE video! AND IM IN THE CAST! WOO!

I want to be the girl who just got her first bra and all the boys snap it. So she'll go to a teacher in destress and the teacher will assure her that it is infact, normal, for a girl her age to start to develop. hey, that's a pretty cool scene if you ask me. I should tell him to put that in.

not seeing zach is hard.

Ohemgee.
school was alright. i woke up this morning from a really weird dream and im like "whew thank god that was a dream" but when i realized i had school and was like OMG AH!! but school was fun.

soo...I was walking out of school with will because it ended, right? So down the sidewalk I travel and stop bye to say hello to Christina when WHO IS BEHIND HER BUT ZACH! At first I didnt recognize him because he was talking to one of his old teachers and was all in a hat..but then..i saw the skateboard and was like oh heavens its him! So i waved and then when he finished talking to the teacher he came over and we talked and such. it was cool.

then i went to the library with will and we did our homework and stuff...tres fun!! it was awsome. ok well time to continue my very good day by being online talking to my friends.
the only bad part is that i waved to jack today to say hi and he didn't recognize me then he looked at me like i was crazy for saying hi. i mean, i hope he's not mad at me. we had a bit of a tiff last year and i feel awful because it was my fault...but i thought he got over that? idk. he smiled so maybe he was just joking.

ok. welll gtg

first day of school
wasn't as bad as i thought it would be! a lot of paperwork and explaining, need to get my school supplies. all in all tohugh, people in my classes are cool, my teachers are fine...it's all good. weird sitting in the back of the bus. chris' teeth got straighter.

and i kept expecting zach to be in the hallways and stuff...but...he wasn't. dramatic sigh.

i still dont want to go back though...lol

school.
Well, i guess it's that time of year again. school. this summer has gone by way too fast, and i wish i hung out with my friends more instead of staying at home, chillin by myself. oh well. so tonight, got a lot to do. i have to cut my nails and pack my backpack. im definatly not gonna pack it with EVERY SINGLE SUPPLY FOR SCHOOL like i did last year, lol. but, hey? what did we know? we were sevvies.

this year, im hoping, will be fun. although it will be hard not to be in the same school with zach, and he'll be like...surrounded by cooler, taller, prettier high school girls and ill be still in middle school, dolphin racing with will, i can only stay positive. I'm gonna try and get good grades yet still be the social girl i am. ill try to have the teachers not hate me by the end of the year. by the end of last year, ms slevin hated me because i chewed gum too much, mr mathers hated me because well...i was with will, ms p-h hated me because i sort of slept in her class, and ms garrity hated me because i turned in a project three weeks late.

i need to practice my violinnn.. lessons start tomorrow as well. and it's so stupid how we have to bring our violins first day of school. i'm going to have to freaking carry it around and such. pity. but zach said he'll be on at 2 so here i am at 140, sort of waiting because i have nothing else to do? I dont know what to do with myself. i dont want to waste my last day of summer.

anyway, im excited to see chris. i havent seen him all freaking summer, but ive talked to him online a lot and such. of course, he's at his SECOND house right now. by a LAKE. i have one house and its by a pond. hes cool though.

so i guess i should get dressed and brush my teeth and stuff.

what ive done...
Yesterday = poplar tree labor day party with will and christina
Today= cousins came over from 1130-4
Later today= hang out with zach somewhere...maybe?

it has been one awesome last weekend. before..welll...you know. i refuse to type it.

schedule today.
Orchesta practice tonight. I should start practicing my music and rosen my NEW bow hair and tuning my voilin and pretty much everything else.

Went to the mall today with the Fab Four! very very fun. christina bought 2 tops and 1 skirt from aeropostale, and underwear. i bought two shirts from aeropostale. all of us bought ice cream, and joel, christina and i bough cookies. us three also got free samples of drinks. good times...except the boys didn't want to go in any stores like, at all.

joely got his hair cut! will let his hair grow! christina's hair looks the same! she had on a cool outfit, i liked it. everyone got tanner. ummm...that's about it. joel ventured into victoria's secret.

yay
I DONT HAVE TO GET CONFIRMED!!

best freaking day, ever. i am not going to get tied to the catholic church. i am free to beleive whatever the hell i want. yeah sort of a long story but the outcome is the same weather i spend my energy typing it or not. It
is
not
september. the calender lies.

Quiz!
And it's a beauty quiz, too. because I'm just that cool.

Describe your make-up routine: wash my face. put on conceler under my eyes, curl my eyelashes, add mascara. put on lipgloss, do a once-over to make sure everything looks good. curl my eyelashes again. go.

what brands of make-up do you use? Almay, Covergirl, Maybelline, and Sephora brand lipgloss. that was a big investment.

what is your favorite product? Maybelline dream mousse blush. i bought it in south carolina as a present...for myself lol. it is so soft and looks really pretty, i wear it only occasionally though so i won't look too "done".

do you mousterize? yes, my hands with Olay quench (another gift for myself in S.C) and nautrogena balm for my lips before I go to bed.

how often do you wash your face? once a day. if i do it more, my skin gets too dry.

what facewash do you use? Noxema.

ok, back to make-up. what is one product you dont leave the house without applying? mascara.

anything you don't like about your face? my under-eye circles that are really dark and i just hate them. so much.

do you tweeze your eyebrows? occasionally, but im sort of afraid to because i dont want to go tweezer-happy and take off too much.

you rock at applying...mascara.

you suck at applying...eyeshadow.

you wish you could...apply eyeliner.

best eauty trick you know? I read it all the time: brown eye shadow looks great on blue eyes. and i also hear that always take off your make-up and wash your face at night before you go to sleep. always. and i always do. it makes skin stay clear.

would you consider a career in make-up? yeah. it would be fun, and, i like applying it. i could stay in the make-up section of macy's and in sephora for hours.

Synopsis of the past day and some of today.
So, didn't get a haircut today because I'm sick! My dad is freaking out. He's like "You better not be sharing drinks with anyone when you go to the mall! Your immune system is weak!" and is feeling my head for a temperature and checking to see if my tounge is white every five minutes. My dad is cute, so overprotective lol. Even though I tell him he's annoying.

Went on a walk with Zach yesterday! Finally! Ahh it was so great to see him again. I missed him. I forgot how tan Zach is. Anyway, we walked and talked about stupid stuff then we sat down and..uh...then about a half hour later of sitting and such, ultimatly, walked back. It was great, really fun.

Then afterwards, watched some of the VMA's and went online, conversed with Willy. Gotta love Will. He is so supportive and really a great friend, I miss him and can't wait until he and Christina get back the 30th! It was good to talk to him, I thought he would be sort of judgemental but he was really understanding and calm. I shall call him tonight.

Well, that's about it.

Um.
So. Being the cool girl that I am, I played a game of linking xangas (go to someone's xanga, click on one of their subscription friends. continue until you find someone interesting.) today and realized that Mickey is a perv. I mean, like, majorly. He's always talking about balls and gay sex and wanting his friend who doesn't even like him to put out and...such. Glad I'm not friends with him. And he totally dissed The Play, constantly complained on how it took up too much of his time and blah blah Ms. K sucks.

That sort of pissed me off. I mean, no one forced him to try out. I personally think the play kicked some major ass and would do it a thousand times over if I had the chance. I made great new friends and became even closer with people I already knew in it. I worked so hard for that role. Everyone did.

Anyway...I'm wearing nike shorts right now and their pockets are all crazy. When I sit down they sort of turn inside out. Weird. Today, I sort of feel fat.

Sigh. Zach needs to get on so we can take a walk and such. I am absolutely not staying inside all day again. Refuse to. I'm getting a haircut on monday. horray!

Randomness
If Zach and I don't hang up tomorrow, I'm going to die of not seeing him in like...3 weeks! 18 days. I counted.

Ummm...saw my second cousins today. Always fun. Yeah that's about it

I had too much caffine. I shall be up allll night.

My Dream.
I love Allure magazine. I should work for a magazine when I grow up- that would be cool. Move to NYC. I could write articles on perfume and how to maximize your beauty sleep. Then, with my fabulous wardrobe, I could pull a Carrie Bradshaw and gain three new friends, becoming a real life Sex and the City. oh, how i wish that show was never cancelled.

My sister's friend looks sort of like John Heder, but with facial hair.

Books
Last night I finished Lolita!!!!!! Hahah, only took me like...two months. It was really really good, but when you read it it's hard so I had to focus on what I was reading very carefully or I was lost. Poor Humbert Humbert. All he wanted was Dolores.

I loved the Dolores character. But I love the name a little bit more. She had so many nicknames. Dolores was her real name, then there was Dolly, Lo, Lola, and the infamous Lolita. He even called her Carmen, although I dont know why. Ok. Here:

My New, Fantastically Edited List of Books I Want to Read This Year:

He's Just Not That Into You
Crank
The Secret Life of Bees

And now that I have Crank, I should finish that definatly before school starts. Then, Colleen's friend Irma is going to lend her He's Just Not THat Into You, and then I'll try to find my other Border's gift certificate so I can buy the last book.

Woo! I feel smart.

Stuff
I have recently discovered the amazingness which is Mabelline.com, Neutrogena.com, and, well this isn't new I've been on it for months, but I will include Sephora.com. They keep me entertained. I love clothes, so I look at clothes online. And I love make-up even more, so, hey! I look at make-up online. Seriously, I've been enthralled for hours by how many types of mascara there actually are and how to videos on applying foundation. (I don't even wear foundation.)

Anyway...I went to the mall today with my sister. There were these really cute pink and white Newbalences (similar to my old ones) on sale, and they didn't have my size or something but they're going to ship them to me (by mail, not boat. hah! A pun.) in "3 to 8 business days." I also got an IPEX from Victoria's Secret. I sort of wish I had gotten the blue one instead of tan. But tan is more practical, so, whatever. It was very expensive so it is a good investment. (I talk about a bra like I would a car or something.)

I tried on some polo's from Aeropostale but I didn't like the fit. Too weird. I also bought a book, Crank, from Borders...previously Waldenbooks but they changed the company for some reason. Hey, at least I got 3 bucks off from a grft certificate! My lucky day! Woo. Anyway I'm going back again on Saturday with my sister, her to get a book and me to get a shirt maybe.

Ok, I'm done talking about stuff that's boring to my non-existant reader. Yaay!