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2005 28 July :: 8.47pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: These Words are My Own
break =)
im considering a woohu break, as opposed to a xanga break. all the cool kids are doing it, besides, any interesting aspect of my life is going to be non-exsistant until school starts again.
my wrists smell like Burberry Brit and its horribly good. at first...its all citrus-y but now...its vinella-y! I want is soooo bad...but...at a price of $65? I only have $7 in my purse right now! at that rate, i should get it in about 5 years.
so...
i guess this is goodbye!
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2005 27 July :: 10.00pm
:: Mood: sleepy...tired...content
:: Music: Garden State soundstrack
i havent updated in awhile!
just bought the garden state soundtrack when i was at the mall with will about an hour ago...fun fun fun. also got mascara
will and played with perfume for about a half hour and i smell like nail polish remover.
today marks two months....
this soundtrack is just about my favorite c.d. its so calm...perfect make-out music haha
ok well im off.
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2005 25 July :: 8.20pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: hate it or love it- the game
a conversation. talked to zach.
zach: I found my purpose in life
zach: To make a robot!
me: yaay!
zach: Nah
me: why nah?
z:I'd get bored
z: Then he'd be an incomplete robot and I'd turn him on and he'd start screaming about not having a liver
z: And be like, "EVERY MOMENT I LIVE IS....AGONY!"
z: P1cKl3
m: hahaha
m: then i guess you shouldnt build one...
z: And he'd constantly barf transmission fluid
m: eww
m: so you still havent found your purpose?
z: No
z: Maybe it's to push sharks over waterfalls
z: And have lumberjacks standing on the rocks on the waterfall and chop the shark up as it falls
z: How badass would that be?
m: that would be really badass
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2005 23 July :: 7.07pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Brighter Than Sunshine- Aqualung
Missing.
I really have missed Zach the past two weeks, more than I thought could be possible. I missed him more than I missed my mom and dad the first year I went to camp, when I was 8. In a way, though, I liked being able to think about Zach and know with absolute trust and certainty that he would never cheat on me, and he missed me equally. When I looked at Zach's pictures that hung on the wall adjacent to my bed, it comforted me that he might be thinking about me that same excact time. Every conversation I had with someone, everywhere I looked, I was reminded of him. And I liked that because, with my other boyfriends, they were never serious like what I've got now. Because what I've got now is really the best that there is to have and I wouldn't trade it for anything.
Now, I am feeling very anxious. Because I've been on-line all day ever since I got home, and he hasn't been at all. And the song I'm listining to right now reminds me of him...and I want to see Zach in person, not just in the numerous pictures I've looked at for so long as a replacement, photographs of him with curly hair and "emo" eyeliner. I just feel so lucky to be with him...
"Let the rain fall, I dont care
I'm yours and suddenly your mine,
suddenly your mine,
and it's brighter than sunshine."
I love you Zach
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2005 23 July :: 12.47pm
i got back from camp and it prety much sucked...and i reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaly missed ZZach and Will and home and everything!!! i am definatly not going back next year
there was some very nice eye candy...haha....and we wrote nick a love letter, and...had most of my good times with Cassie Lilly and Sabra. i choked on 17 yellow jellybeans.
so...im gonna stay online until zach or will or most likely both get on!
im so glad to be home...
I compleated The Good Earth...what an amazing book! Definatly on my top ten list. Crossing that one off The List, too!
Currently reading: To Kill A Mokingbird and Lolita. Mokingbird is going really well!
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2005 9 July :: 6.05pm
zach signed off...wont see him for two weeks.
gonna go eat and then pack.
bye.
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2005 9 July :: 12.12pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Lua- Bright Eyes
Packing and Books.
soo...i discovered the wonders of zach's xanga today. as far as im concered, he, along with tens of others, does not know about my little woohu secret.
today i'm packing...and im still sort of mad at my mom because i ordered these pants from pacsun online and shes like "oh, they'll get here in time for camp, dont worry!" and theyre still not here and i only have one more day before the departure...
oh, packing. it's annoying like crap but also pretty exciting knowing at this time tomorrow i'll actually be at camp...the place ive thought about basically all year long. ill be on the soil and talking to my friends actually face-to-face. but you dont want to hear about that, ill bet.
currently reading: The Good Earth and Lolita. both are really fantastic so far, and I am pleasently suprised at how much I like The Good Earth, considering the fact that I deleated it off of my list of books i want to read because it seemed a little boring.
Lolita is going well;theres a lot of words i dont understand but the prose is really great, i am proud of myself for being able to enjoy the storyline and understand it.
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2005 8 July :: 12.06pm
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: will's hot eightys music
missing.
2 more days, bitches!
Im gonna miss...
zach
will
joel
christina
jinri
isabel
my sister
my cat
tricky ricky e.
matt p.
riley
chris
and noone else! ahahahaha...
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2005 4 July :: 5.17pm
:: Mood: content/bored/accomplished
:: Music: haha...Jewl, i think? The Alaskin girl.
Yes! ♥
Yes! I finally went to the mall today with my mom and sister and got not one, but TWO swimsuits! One is brown with a pink flower on the top and another one on the bottom, and the second is orange with some design...sort of hard to explain but I like both!
The experience was sort of sucky. My sister is psming like crazzzay so she had a breakdown because shes stupid and she thought we left her when really i just went to the fitting room...haha.
SO. Tomorrow, who wants to do something? I shall call Will and Christina and Joel.
*COPIED FROM ISABEL'S XANGA*
SECTION 1 ABOUT YOURSELF
Known as: Courtney
+ Lives in:
+ FiRST BREATH: November 5
+ School:
+ Hair color: Brown-isshh
+ Eye color: Blue
+ Style: ...normal?
+ Fears: oh heavens.. the dark, creepy spanish guys, creppy guys period, losing someone, and..more
SECTION 2 HAVE YOU EVER...
+ Cheated on someone? Not that i remember
+ Been Cheated on? Not that I know of
+ Fallen off the bed? haha yess
+ Broken someone`s heart? Highly doubt it.
+ Had your heart broken? sure why not
+ Had a dream come true? no
+ Done something you regret? yep
+ Cheated on a test? of course! Christina Chung's the one that got me through math..i swear...
SECTION 3 CURRENTLY...
+ Wearing? jean shorts, yellow button-down polo
+ Listening to? The fan
+ Located? My house. At my computer desk.
+ Chatting with? Zachh
+ Watching? screen
+ Should REALLY be doing? something productive
SECTION 4 FAVOURITE...
+ Movie: Titanic, Forrestt Gump, What's Eating Gilbert Grape, and Amelie!
+ Song: All The Things I've Done- The Killers
+ Group: Hot Hot Heat, Bloc Party, Bright Eyes
+ Store: Aeropostle, American Eagle, Macys
+ Relative: Petie!!!!! my awsome cousin
+ Sport: Softball.
+ Ice Cream Flavor: chocolote
+ Fruit: apples
+ Candy: Peanut M&M's
+ Holiday: Valentines Day *aww*
+ Day of the Week: Now that it's summer, all days are the same.
+ Time of day: OPRAH TIME
+ Colour: purple
+ Name for a Girl: Dolores, Dylan.
+ Name for a Boy: Mark, Jack, Frank.
+ Quote: im not into the whole quote thing.
SECTION 5 WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...
+ Abortion: To quote Isabel, who quoted darling: "If you want an abortion, I say go for it. It's your decision, not somebody else's. And some old fart white guys can't be making the decision for women seeing as they don’t carry the child! When Bush gets raped when he's 16, has to drop out of high school, not go to college, get a job to pay for the baby, and go through child birth because he couldn’t get an abortion THEN he'll understand why they're necessary."
+ Smoking: not for it.
+ Eating Disorders: What about them?
+ Suicide: if your life sucks, why not? im so cynical.
+ Summer: is lovely.
+ Tattoos: If you want one, go for it!
+ Piercings: again...if you want them, go for it! personally for me though, i think that guys look horrible with their ears peirced
SECTION 6 THIS OR THAT...
+ Pierced nose or tongue? tounge
+ Single or taken? takenn
+ MTV or BET? MTV
+ 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek? BOTH SUCK BALLS
+ Sugar or salt? sugar
+ Silver or gold? Silver.
+ Chocolate or flowers? chocolote
+ Color or Black-and-white photos? color is tres good, but black and white is more romantic...
+ Stay up late or sleep in? Both.
+ Hot or cold? hot
+ Sun or moon? sun i guess
+ Left or Right? Left.
+ 10 Acquaintances or one best friend? One best friend.
+ Mustard or ketchup? Ketchup.
+ Spring or Fall?spring
+ Happy or sad? Depends on how I'm feeling.
+ Wonder or amazement? wonder
+ McDonald's or Burger King? mcdonalds
+ Mexican or Italian food? italian desserts
+ Lights on or off? on
+ Candy or soda? candy
+ Pepsi or Coke? Coke
SECTION 7 FRiENDS...
+ Who is your best? Will
+ Who do you hate? people with azn pryde
+ Who is the shyest? None of my friends are really shy
+ Who is the most talkative? willy!
+ Who is the cutest? joel haha
+ Who laughs the most? me
+ Who have you known the longest? annie wong! we went to the same preschool
+ Who have you known the shortest? not sure
+ Who do you miss the most? Zach
+ Who do you go to with personal problems? Will and Christina
+ Do you hang out with the opposite sex? But of course.
+ Which of your friends is the strongest? all are weak..haha
+ Who are you the strongest for? the fab four, of course!
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2005 3 July :: 5.31pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: Brighter than Sunshine
boring stuff and complaints.
Today was frusterating. I cannot find any freaking swimsuit in my size! If they have the small top, theres no small bottem. If theres a small bottem, then there's no small top! My sister and I went to Old Navy and Kohls' (No idea if that's how you spell it) and I was faced with that problem twice. And I really don't want to go into the kid section, because even though I know I would fit into their clothes...well...I'm 13.
I did get pink flip flops, but that's it. And Colleen and I didn't have time to go to the library, so I couldn't get Lolita and we forgot to go to CVS to get some other random things. Oh! There is one sort of good thing that happened to me recently. I finished My ántonia last night. It was a little dissapointing, becasue I imagined that the ending would be differet, but, all in all, I am proud of myself for reading a book on my list of books I want to read! Now I can cross that off.
My New, Fantastically Edited List of Books I Want to Read This Summer
Pure Sunshine
Whores on the Hill
He's Just Not That Into You
Crank
Lolita
The Secret Life of Bees
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2005 1 July :: 4.51pm
:: Music: humoresque- suzuki book 3
haircut
I got my hair cut! its three inches off, layered, and thinned out some. short but not so short that i cant put it in a ponytail...
saw zach yesterday, we went to the mall for an hour with his friend named Doug
and now im off to starbucks.
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2005 30 June :: 2.48pm
:: Mood: clean
:: Music: Can I Change Your Mind- The Killers
Woke up at 140 today...haha the latest I have all summer. My record is 320. Anyway...baseball game. I almost fell asleep and it was fun but sooo boring because there was a rain delay for 2 hours! So we just sat there...for two hours...
Today I'm going to go somewhere with Zach, yaay! Probably the mall although I'm not sure yet.
Camp...is only ten days away! 10 days until "shaving parties", "would you rather" games, the pool, looking and flirting with hot EUROPEAN boys...haha theres american boys too but the international ones are just more attractive haha...france, england, south africa, and australia!
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2005 29 June :: 12.00pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: none.
My family is driving me insane. When I was arguing with my sister it felt like I was talking to a brick wall and my dad is no better.
You get nowhere.
And I'm also PISSED OFF about how I have to go to a stupid baseball game tonight with my dad, his friend, and sister. I dont even know if my mom is going but I hope not. I have to be home from wherever im going today at 330, even though we dont have to leave until 4...and i might do something with zach today and i hate always being the person that has a schedule to abide by. Seriously, why am i so busy? I hate the nationals, why would I want to see their baseball game?
eleven more days...
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2005 28 June :: 10.21pm
:: Music: lets get physical....some girl from the '80's.
Today was sort of crappy...
but will saw jinri at his orchestra camp! so nice to hear from him....even if it's through someone else...
ugh i cant WAIT until tomorrow...zach and i might do something, which means getting out of this house, which means not having to talk to my bitchy sister.
UM. reading back on this journal...im weird.
UM AGAIN...STEVEN AND AMY BROKE UP! *gasp*
12 more days until camp, where I get to see Sabra, Lilly, and Cassie!
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2005 27 June :: 5.14pm
:: Mood: dirty
:: Music: All the Things Ive Done- The Killers
pool
Went to the pool and now my hair is all chlorinie and my skin smells like sunscreen...but...
OH MY FUCKING GOD I HAVE TAN LINES!!! WOOOOOOO!!! HOLLERRR
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