Courtney Rae's Journal

Courtney Rae's Journal

:: 2005 18 May :: 10.18am

last night, andy and i took the tranny out of his '76 chrysler cordoba.

what a bitch that was.

it has 2 crosmembers plus a K-member.

and some weird ass torson bar suspension. plus i learned that chrysler motors dont have a flywheel, they have a "flexplate" wich bolts to the torq converter and the starter teeth are on the torqconverter.

it was just weird.
whoever thought of it should be shot.

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skife

:: 2005 16 May :: 2.02pm

so yeah, i go to the bank today to deposit some money..

and my fucking account is closed.

fuck you independant bank.

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nightshade666

:: 2005 15 May :: 7.26pm

I'm so pissed off. I want to kill everyone and everything. Fuck this shit.
First I was told I'm getting a car, now I'm fucking not. What the fuck. Then Mike tries giving me this lecture about how I should act like a man and respect everything. Bull fucking shit. Maybe I should go fuck some women I met on the internet for a few weeks and lie to the women I've been dating for a year. Then I might be in line for a respect talk.
I don't respect myself. Bingo, and don't you think it's a little dangerous to fuck someone over who doesn't care about what happens to themselves or others. I don't know, maybe I'm just over reacting a little or maybe I'm finally letting go of my sanity, but I want to burn down this house and everyone in it.
I could really care less. I never asked to be born. I never asked for any of this bullshit. They say life's not fair but aren't you supposed to get a break at least once and a while. Fuck this. I think I'm going to go die now.
I have few actual friends anymore that I could call to hang out with, nothing to do, nowhere to go, nowhere to be, no where I want to be.
I've thought about suicide as an option for weeks now. You know, the longer time goes on, it keeps popping up, and it looks better and better everytime. I'd be afraid of the pain, but even that would go away. Then I wouldn't have to worry about anything, or deal with anyone's bullshit. The only thing I would want to do is say goodbye. But how exactly do you tell everyone goodbye without letting them know where you're going?

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skife

:: 2005 12 May :: 10.59pm

so MTV's xbox 360 special was a failure.
I give props to MTV they can make about 7 minutes of footage turn into a 30 minute special.

they had dudes from west coast customs on there modding an orginal xbox.
you'll never guess what they did to it.... airbrushed it and put... thats right a fucking LCD moniter on it..... i'm suprised it didn't roll out of their shop on a set of dubs...
the killers played 2 songs...
the only thing it reavealed is that it will have faceplates and wireless controllers.

fuck MTV
on a side note, it was the first time i'd actually seen music on MTV in awhile.

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Kate

:: 2005 7 May :: 6.01pm
:: Music: Red Hot Chili Peppers - Scar Tissue

Dear friends,
So.. this summer I'm going to Romania. Romania's an overpopulated country in Europe. I heard it's really beautiful there. I'm excited and will be staying for two weeks, July 1 - July 15.

Why and how am I going to Romania? It's a mission trip. I'm going to help out the orphanages there, (like I said, it's overpopulated so many children are abandoned,) and I'll also do street evangelism and dramas. That's the why. Now how? Well.. for $2,786.. everything is provided for. Airfare, accommodations, food, and training. But I'm not rich.. I'm trying really hard to raise the funds because I feel like I should go on this trip and I want to more than anything else I could be doing this summer. I've mailed out letters, asked a church to support me.. I haven't had much luck though.

I know you all have fast food or no jobs, so you're about as wealthy as I am, but if you're willing, a donation would be greatly greatly appreciated. A donation of anything. $10, $5, $1. I don't care, it'll help. So if you can, please, and thank you very much.

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skife

:: 2005 7 May :: 2.23pm

things i've done today.
1. get up at 7:15
2. Take shower
3. Pull the motor and transmission out of my cutlass (in like 40 minutes)
4. Eat mcdonalds breakfest.
5. Operated a $94,000 Caterpillar D3C XL kinda like this one

now for a shower then work from 4-11.

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skife

:: 2005 3 May :: 7.30pm

kayleigh sorry i couldn't make it tonight, i told you i would but i just started feeling like shit about 45 minutes ago.

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skife

:: 2005 29 April :: 12.02pm

chris downloaded the new weezer CD and the new NIN CD.
the weezer one is nice, i'm working on burning it now, i havn't listened to the NIN one yet though.

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skife

:: 2005 29 April :: 11.31am

Prom is tonight, I'm not going because nobody invited me.
i kinda feel like since I started and stopped going to alternitave school that i've lost alot of friends, i know i havn't but it just kinda feels that way.
gravy and jay showed up last night, it was cool i hadn't seen them in forever.
I miss always having people hang out with me, chris kinda lives here but yeah...
going to alternitave was a mistake.
Nate was right...

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skife

:: 2005 27 April :: 3.25pm

this week just keeps getting weirder and weirder

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Nightshade666

:: 2005 26 April :: 3.54pm

So Jordan broke up with me. I'm more relieved then anything. There were times I didn't feel like I could tell her things, and she always thought I was lying to her. She's too much like Connie, and treated most things like they were some type of huge drama. *Shrugs*. Oh well, I think I'm going to stay single for a while.

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