the end is the beginning is the end

the end is the beginning is the end

:: 2005 20 September :: 7.24 pm

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:: 2005 14 September :: 12.31 am

on the writing slump in our journal community
guajira goddess: but whats worse is, no one is around to comment on them when we write them
guajira goddess: you know what i mean?
guajira goddess: like joe and andy arent here to comment
guajira goddess: fay doesnt write
guajira goddess: nicole is a nut
guajira goddess: hell you dont even comment
guajira goddess: hence, since you only talk to me about my entries and dont comment, you dont spark any other peopple to comment
SPNirvana67: hahaha
SPNirvana67: argh
SPNirvana67: and where is mandi?
guajira goddess: morocco probly
SPNirvana67: she has been absent from the woohu world for like 5 months
guajira goddess: yeah and no more ac either
guajira goddess: even kevin and brandy used to contribute
guajira goddess: amy and steph are non existent
SPNirvana67: lol
guajira goddess: why are you laughing?
SPNirvana67: "even kevin and brandy used to contribute"
SPNirvana67: "amy and steph are non existent"
SPNirvana67: i dunno, just made me laugh
SPNirvana67: how we critique the situation
guajira goddess: i wanna write but no one is there
guajira goddess: no one cares lol
SPNirvana67: i do i do!
guajira goddess: i liked writing when i knew everyone would read it and then respond soon
SPNirvana67: i'm used to no one responding to the things i write
SPNirvana67: lol
guajira goddess: so how do we solve this woohu problem
guajira goddess: ??????????????????
SPNirvana67: hm
SPNirvana67: offer complimentary chocolates?
guajira goddess: hahahah cute
guajira goddess: make the journals work
SPNirvana67: "work"?
guajira goddess: yeah like the good ole days

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:: 2005 12 September :: 6.16 pm

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
the lack of updates is making me anxious!! (after clicking on my friends list every day and seeing the same exact thing for 2 weeks.)

i suppose i should act on this and do my own update. indeed, i shall try if i finish my homework in time for milk and cookies before bed.

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:: 2005 9 September :: 11.15 pm

it's worth a try

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:: 2005 27 July :: 3.21 pm

i had a really bad dream.
it lasted 20 years, 7 months, and 27 days.

:: 2005 27 July :: 11.14 am

ATTENTION: MANDI PONZIO
apparently you couldn't see the friends-only entry i posted two days ago that included your icon. allow me to copy and paste:

:: 2005 25 July :: 4.09 pm

MANDI!

okay mandi, sorry it took me a while to get your icon figured out, but my aunt got married on saturday and my other aunt had come in from germany, so we did some family get-togethers and such last week. anyway, you are....

cathleen the cow! when i saw the cow, i thought of cow country. so, immediately i thought of you, out in rural wisconsin, eating cheese and blue moon ice cream. now, the cow bears no resemblance to your pretty face, so don't get your panties in a bunch. the other characters just didn't cut it -- they were too frilly and silly. i guess what sealed the deal was this part: "She was once in a skit with Telly, who teached her what love means." hmm, i wonder who writes these. "teached"? anyway, i found it rather amusing that TELLY (aka VERSTRAETE) would teach YOU about love. oh, where's an alanis morrisette song when you need it? enjoy the theme, amera.

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:: 2005 26 July :: 2.10 am

life and death
if you want to feel.... anything... something.... feel small, alive, lost, or ridiculous.... when you walk outside, before you hop into your air-conditioned, pollution-spewing automobile, look at a tree or a flower or a shrub. notice all of the activity going on around that single plant. flies, moths, butterflies, bees, spiders, etc. are all co-existing on that one area, all going about their business, with no help or instruction from anyone or anything else. these organisms just do. they just are. look at how the world, not the human world, but the earth world - the one composed of lava and rock and limestone and carbon deposits and iron ore and grass and saltwater and pea pods and evaporated water and goats and squid and pineapples and amebas and ants - and observe how everything moves and lives, creates and destroys and re-creates, eats and wastes and starves, flourishes and hangs on by a thread. and these things all just work as they are. they don't need us, or our colleges or our money or our fashion sense or our phone cameras or our jewelry or our drugs.

i was staring at this bee today, and i just relished in the fact that no human being had control over what it did or how it did it or when it did it, and never would. that bee is free. that bee controls so much of its own world and takes an active part in preserving the life around it. all of the creatures around us have continued to adapt to us, the stupidest fucks to ever inhabit this earth, and survive amidst the destruction of everything in their environment. what's the life of a bee like? or the life of a leaf? does a leaf feel it when a giraffe bites down? can a bee smell cigarette smoke?

i find it fascinating. balance. why do people always have to separate gray into two distinct opposites? white. black. why do they have to be opposites? what if they're useless and meaningless things in their ordinary state - but since they compliment each other - when put together, then they become something. what if the sole purpose of white is to create balance with black, and vice-versa? what if black and white are nothing and only exist so that gray can sustain life? it's not about contrasts. it's not about day/night, stop/go, man/woman. everything exists together to create balance, not to create difference or opposition. even while there is day in the western hemisphere, simultaneously, there will always be night in the eastern hemisphere. nothing is ever simply one thing or another, nor is anything ever caused by simply one thing or another; one thing is always a reflection of co-existing complementary things.

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:: 2005 22 July :: 1.25 am

intay
ilyom ily 3araftich fee kan awal yom ib 7ayati.

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