the end is the beginning is the end

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:: 2005 16 February :: 6.42pm

well sorry if you missed that one, it was a winner

:: 2005 16 February :: 10.15pm
:: Music: Radiohead - Electioneering

I go forwards, you go backwards and somewhere we will meet.

I'm sitting on my bed pouring myself a glass of berry juice and thinking "God I hope this doesn't spill. If it does, it'll be so hard to wash out of the sheets." Of course, it spilled right afterwards. Isn't it funny how things like that happen?

:: 2005 15 February :: 9.30pm

Some more quotes
These are for you Danielle - some quotes from the British International Conflict prof. Dr. Stephen Hill

He opened up his PowerPoint for the lecture when someone pointed out that he used a different template;

"I try to mix around the slide colors, sometimes I get flamboyant and throw a green one in."

We were discussing trade relationships and he was talking about Great Britains car industry and how BMW has taken over many of the factories that became private after the Thatcher era. He pointed out that even though Great Britain had fought two wars in 90 years against the Germans, the use of organizations lowers the threat;

"You introduce the WTO and EU and well we don't care about the Germans anymore."

Perhaps you know of Klemens von Metternick the Austro-Hungarian foreign minister in 1815, well this is what Dr.Hill says of his photo:
"Metternick -- looks a bit like a "fancy" boy doesn't he?"

In reference to the French revolution and it's deposing of Europe's monarchs;
"Here's Napoleonic France, chopping the heads off the monarchy."

His question was, "What do we do before the mid 19th century when a country is conquered?" His answer, " We cut up the countries like cheeses." Yes he said cheeses.

We were talking about the end of the 7 week war, when Prussia humiliated Austria-Hungary and it was time to divide up the country.
"Once von Bismark won the Seven Weeks War did he, go all the way to Vienna, say its part of Prussia now, thank you very much? No, like a good classical realist, he did not."

Hope you enjoy - more later

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:: 2005 16 February :: 5.37am

It's 5:39am...
...and I've been working all day and all night, and I'm still awake except for the two hours I fell asleep on my math book.

And foofoo said, "Let there be light." And I'm trying not to watch the sun come up.

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:: 2005 14 February :: 9.15am
:: Mood: sleepy

Yesterday I tried on......wedding dresses.......

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:: 2005 14 February :: 4.57pm

Andy told me to make Valentine's Day thingy...

Happy Valentine's Day, everybody that celebrates.

Oh and Andy, don't forget that conversation we had in drama class on the true meaning of Valentine's Day.

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:: 2005 13 February :: 7.13pm

In trying to come up with an explaination of how i've been feeling the last week or so, i couldnt think of words...hence the "afafhlafihopaihfp..." post. i've still got not much more, but this is what i've got.....

Boxcar Racer "i feel so"

Sometimes, I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger,
wish i could feel no pain,
I wish I was young,
I wish I was shy,
I wish I was Honest,
Wish I was you not I,

'Cause,
I feel so mad,
I feel so angry,
Feel so callused,
So lost confused, again,
Feel so cheap,
So used unfaithful,
Lets start over
Lets start over,

Sometimes,
I wish I was smart,
I wish I made cures for,
How people are,
I wish I had power,
i wish I could lead,
I wish I could change the world for you and me,

'Cause,
I feel so mad,
I feel so angry,
Feel so callused,
So lost confused, again,
Feel so cheap,
So used unfaithful,
Lets start over
Lets start over,

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:: 2005 13 February :: 6.39pm

The Outsider, by Albert Camus

"I'm on your side. But you can't see that because your heart is blind. I shall pray for you."

Read more..

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:: 2005 12 February :: 10.14am

Dresden riad still a raw nerve

At least 35,000 people died in the Allied firebombing raid on Dresden
Holger Apfel sits underneath a map of Germany showing its 1937 borders, including territories lost to Poland after the war.

Read more..

Tomorrow is the 60th anniversary of the Dresden attacks. I wonder if they'll acknowledge it here?? Doubtful.

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:: 2005 11 February :: 3.13pm

i had a scary dream last night
we (me, uncle andy, aunt alice, and grandma) had got a house in the woods on a lake. and there was a boat house on the lake that was shaped like a U and had two doors that are set up the same way as the doors at my house where there is the garage door and the front door. and this house the people who lived there before, their daughter who was like 8 was murdered and so they left. so me and uncle andy notice that the boat is like out in the middle of the lake, and so we go to the boat house to pull it back in because its still tied to the dock, its just on a really long rope. so we go in there and the water is really shallow, and there is only doors on one side, like you cant get to the other side unless there is a boat there to step on. so uncle andy somehow gets to the other side magically and when i look down to see where im going to step the body of the dead girl is down in the water (which is only like 2 feet) and its in a row boat. my uncle doesnt see that the body is there and i dont say anything about it. so i step in the rowboat to get across and slip and touch the slimey dead body, and just keep going. we pull the boat in, go back across, and i go out the door that would be the equivaliant to my front door (the one on the brick patio) and my uncle is like wait i heard something, so i stop in the doorway and he goes toward the other door. as he gets to the door this big dude arm with a red and black flannel shirt and a garden glove reaches in and grabs uncle andy's face and pulled him out the door and i woke up. so it was like 4 am, and i was so scared that i didnt fall back asleep till like 430, and then woke up every about half hour till 930. and as i look back on the dream its really not that scary sounding, but when it was happening i was scared out of my mind, it was weird.

:: 2005 11 February :: 6.23pm

light at the end of the tunnel

:: 2005 10 February :: 5.18pm

For those of you who love a little sap in your lives I need to post part of this e-mail message - from the Moroccan lover (hbibi!)
"I want to tell you that my only dream is to be with you, anywhere, anytime. I am very happy because this is the first time I will spend Valentine's day with my only love in the world. I did not offer it to any girl in the past (yea sorry I'm trying to fix the grammar!) I want to celebrate it with you, all of my life. I can't live in this world without you beside me. I'll create the miracle to be with you."
Alright seriously guys - come on - how could you not gush over that? 36 more days until I see him. I am staying at his house, with his 7 sisters and his mom....lol all I can do is laugh because I am going to be so completely clueless in this situation. First of all that many women should not live together-bad things could happen lol Secondly, yea English?? oh of course they don't speak english and me being the good ignorant american speak limited french and yea 6 words of arabic. Wow, it is going to be interesting. On a lighter note I'm bringing his nieces and nephews Play- Doh the staple of childhood. :)

:: 2005 9 February :: 10.12pm

We went and saw "Hotel Rwanda" tonight for my International Conflict class. I walked out feeling absolutely disgusted to be an American. Most of you will now that I am not the most patriotic American by far but this movie made me want to vomit. I don't understand how we could just not care. "Yes we've determined there have been cases of genocide in Rwanda" - that is one line the Press Secretary for the US says. How do you deem something a "case of genocide" and then fail to intervene? If you haven't seen this movie, go see it. People say it is the Schindler's List of Rwanda, it's so much more than that. I am in such shock right now that I can't write about it.