these donuts are good...
hey...yum. i love powdered donuts. anyways...this weekend was boring. it started out being the perfect weekend then it turned into...blah. i already told all about Friday. Saturday i had a soccer scrimmage...which SUCKED by the way. we only had eight people from our team show up. on Sunday i did nothing. i went to the BX for a little while and then i went home and worked with my guitar, played computer games, listened to music, watched tv, etc. i had nobody to talk to. i tried calling blondie and she wasnt home. i called emilee but she wasnt home either and britt cant talk on the phone. and i really didnt feel like dealing with brian. i dont feel like dealing with him today either....i dont want to go to school. i wanna stay home. but i cant. anyways i gotta go. i haveta finish getting ready for school. FUN!!! (not). ttyl.

-ME

quiz
this is a quiz i took. i thought the result was kinda cool...it does actually decribe me. freaky huh?

YOU ARE APHRODITE

Animal: Dove
Color: red

Aphrodite is the beautiful goddess of love and
passion. She is one of the most influential of
the Greek gods, constantly being prayed to or
asked for help. She is also a troublemaker,
getting involved in all sorts of love
triangles. Aphrodite is the Goddess that all
young girls pray to, to bring them the man of
their dreams.

Aphrodite is admired and sought after for the
freshness that she represents. She often dives
into situations that seem appealing without
thinking the results through, but can usually
charm herself out of any sticky situations.

Aphrodite formed from the sea foam, emerging as an
adult from the ocean.


Which Goddess r u? (4 gurls only) and no im not going 2 make u vote
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fun
omg...yesterday i went to the bowling alley on base with my friends brittanie, emilee, ronnie, jason, and vincent. well actually i wouldnt say vincent is a friend cuz i just met him yesterday and i didnt talk to him much. but anyways...yesterday was the first time in forever that i was actually happy. we were running around like idiots, tickling each other, sitting on each other, taking pictures, just having fun. and then on the way back to my house i sat in the back with vincent, jason, and ronnie. britt and em sat up front...kinda. and i was sitting in the seat by the window in the back and i was goofing around so i put my legs up on ronnie's lap and my feet were on Jason and tehn they started goofing around. they kept tickling me and stuff...it was so fun. yesterday was great. things are wierd with brian...i dunno what to do anymore. he keeps asking me if he has a chance or if he is wasting his time. well he doesnt really have a chance but i dont want to tell him that...so i have just been say "i dunno" every time he brings it up. why cant he be in love with somebody else. cant we just be friends...without having feelings for each other. well actually i donthave any feelings for him, other than being a good friend....but still why cant he just not like me. te whole britt and danny situation is cleared up. there arent any problems with em and amanda. sara made up with court i guess. at least thats what i think...but im not sure. im so confused with that. i havent really gotten a chance to talk to sara about it. anyways i gotta go. ttyl.

-ME

nothing
yeah. im bored. well things are kinda getting better with brian. its hard to explain everything. one of my friends wants to commit suicide. i mean...she can make me mad sometimes...really mad...but i still wouldnt forgive myself if she killed herself. i dont get it...why cant people see that tey ARE loved and that people WOULD miss them if they were gone. yeah...i have thought of it before and i almost did it...but i didnt and i wont...i love my friends and family too much to do that. brittanie isnt ignoring me anymore. so things are getting better with that situation. danny isnt making me made anymore. amanda annoys me at times but i deal with it...i just bite my finger and dont say anything back. things are getting better in ways...but worse in others. anyways i just hope things get better...soon.

a poem
hey everyone. this is a poem that my friend mandee wrote...i accidently mistaked it for a poem i wrote. so yeah..i didnt write it...mandee did. stupid mistake.

Running Out Of Time
Every day I feel as though my time is running out,
Feeling sad enough to cry and feeling mad enough to shout,
I don't know how I'm ever gonna make it through tomorrow,
I stay at home and cry and cry and drown myself in sorrow,
I just don't know how to express these feelings in my head,
the only thing I want to do is sit and cry in bed,
And for the pain to go away is something I would doubt,
the only thing I'm sure of now: my time is running out.

this crap is getting old....real quick
im so sick of this. im sick of courtney being a self centered witch. she thinks she is the only one who has problems and that nobody else can be depressed...well WAKE UP CALL COURT....THERE ARE OTHER PPL IN THIS WORLD OTHER THAN U!!!!!!!! anyways she is treating one of my best friends like crap. blondie helped her with her suicidelness and this is how she thanks her...by saying that she id trying to be depressed?! when i read that i was in so much shock i though i was gonna hell WTF?!?! out loud. tat would have been bad cuz my mom is home. anyways courts not the only selfish person i have to deal with. brian is treating me like crap. he used to like me and he said he still did but i dont believe him. he ignores me now, he doesnt call or call me back when he says he will, he doesnt walk me to my classes anymore, he never tries to cheer me up like he used to. its like im just a piece of dirt on his shoes. i mean come on...u dont treat a girl like a queen and tell her your in love with her and then all of a sudden start treating her like crap. no wonder he cant keep a girlfriend for very long. when i called him at 7.30 he said he would call me back cuz he was doing his math homework (which i dont know if i believe cuz he never usually does his HW). well its alomot 9.00 and he still hasnt called. he cant call cuz i cant get calls after nine. im just sick of everyone treating me life im not human anymore. my friends keep making all of these promises to me and ten they keep breaking them, they are keeping secrets from me, they are lying to me, what happened? i dont get this. actually its kinda a good thing he hasnt called me back. if he had...he wouldnt have gotten chewed out...and i can be pretty harsh when im lecturing or yelling at ppl. its a gift. anyways i g2g. ttyl.

-ME

this shit is getting old...real fast
omg...im so mad right now..and depressed i dont think i can talk about it. im mad at courtney for how she is treating one of my best friends and im just depressed for other reasons. any wys i might tell u all later...but not now.

-ME

uhhhh....hi
uhhhhh...im bored. i have nothing to do. i started working on my guitar but my finger started to hurt and my hands were cramping so i decided to take a break. i will work on it later. i really want to take lessons...i think it will seriously help. i have nothing to do...i finished my homework yesterday...except for my book...but i will read later. i want to change the background on this thing but i havent found one i quite like. well i think im gonna go and work on my guitar some more. practice makes perfect. ttyl.

-ME

nothing...just bored
im bored. not that any of u care but oh well. yeah i just woke up so i havent had time to really think about evrything or process everything that going on but oh well. today i have to clean the bathroom and try to finish by book for my book report. oooo fun! not. and im gonna work on my guitar. im teaching myself how to play. yes im happy because yesterday i was my normal persuasive self and i talked my mom into taking me to the music store so i could get an electronic tuner. its great...britt and i have been trying for like FOREVER to tune the stupid thing and we couldnt do it. but now i finally have a tuned guitar thanks to my QwikTune guitar tuner. lol. anywyas yeah...im gonn teach myself how to play and then im gonna save up for an electric guitar. yeah brian called last night. i talked to him for a little while...not very long though...and britt called me back too. i thought she would be happier about my guitar than she was...after all she did kill her fingers helping me tune it and trying to tighten the god damn D string. anyways thats a whole 'nother story. yeah i talked to blondie online last night for a really long time. but yeah as soon as my mom is done in the shower im gonna take my and then im gonna clean the bathroom...or maybe i will wait to do that later. i dunno. and im gonna spend most of the day with my guitar. well i have stuff to do. ttfn.

-ME

all alone
im so bored. i have nobody to talk to. i tried calling brittanie a million times but she wont answer her phone. i tried calling brian a million times and he wont answer his phone. i got online hoping blondie would be on so i could talk to her...but she isnt on. i feel so...alone. brian never calls anymore and i wish he would. to tell ya the truth...i miss him. not because i havent seen him in alomost two weeks..but because its like i dont exist to him. now i wish he still liked me...then he would always call. and besides even though it did annoy me sometimes...it still made me feel special and important. now its like blondie is the only one who seriously cares right now. i feel invisible to everyone else. anyways blondie is on now...and i dont want to bore you guys to death with my pathetic feelings. so adios.

-ME