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2004 13 January :: 12.25pm
:: Mood: kinda dizzy i think i am high
:: Music: my teacher is saying sumthing i not paying attention!
hey guess what!!
i PEIRDED my belly button!!!!!!!!!!!! I used a safety pin but first i soaked the pin in rubbing alcholhal then i pushed it through, and ya know the stuff you get at claires when you get your ears peirced, well they give you this tall bottle of disinfectent so i am gonna put that on it to keep it from gettin infected. I have the safety pin in right now i will buy a bar bell this weekend! it is soo cool you guys should try it! I t did not hurt but it hurts a little now but it is extremely tolerable! i might sound happy now but once i get over the shock of how cool it is i will calm down and be depressed again that will probably be tomorrow. well i gotta go and do sumthin, so ya hey holla if you are gonna try it!!!
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2004 12 January :: 12.00am
:: Mood: man i have a head ache and i feel like i am goin t
:: Music: blake is watching some game it looks
wooooo
hey guys this weekend i was goin to run away for unobvious reasons and i will not say them here. But ne way life sucked at home so my little neighbor friend and i just started riding off into the countryside. I new a place we could stay. We got out about five miles and she got scared so i turned back, i would have come back before anyone new, i just neede my taste of freedom. oh and i have a fuckin hella bad head ache and i feel like i am goin to pass out, i guess should ea something, nah i ate a few days ago. Well i got to go because i have to look somethin up!
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2004 11 January :: 5.53am
:: Mood: hey my shirt is yellow he he hehe
:: Music: tic toc tic toc tic toc! Aahhh Fuck it the bataries are comin out godbye dads clock!!!!!.....
oops i think i broke the clock that was not the opening for bateries! he he he he
I saw cold mountain yesterday and it had so much bad language wich that did not bother me but what was really icky is like everyone in the movie had sex and stuff but the camera showed everything and it was really gross, and in one part ther were a bunch of naked ladies all goin on this ugly fat guy and one of htose ladies were not as thin as the others and they were naked and you could see and ewwwwwwww! i am gettin the heeb.. ah i cant spell it. ne way ya it was a sick movie ya guys shouldnt see it i got to go ma mom is gettin up, oh and if ne of ya no were i can get some like carnivall glow necklaces tell me.
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2004 10 January :: 5.59am
:: Mood: fahuggacats! ha ha ha
:: Music: ahhhhhhhh tic toc tic toc
hair
I am gettin ma hair died on friday befo ma party so you all gotta come to see wut it looks like because i am not goin to tell ya here! ha ha ha ha ha. I feel like captin hook because whenever i hear that tic toc tic toc i get all angry and stuff and i go mad, because i have been listening to it all morning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well this is a short one but i gotta go and watch tv or something so ya have a great day!
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2004 9 January :: 3.42am
:: Mood: ahhhhhhWTF
:: Music: tic toc tic toc I am goin mad!
hey ya!
Hey all ya how r u all? well for the most part right now i am well still in the wanna do that thing mode but otherwise i am fine. I printed out some pictures of GoOsEr and i looked at thier show's list and our private concert was listed as a private b-day party, it was soooooooooo awsome i even printed it out! So hey guys go to thier site and look at shows! it is www.giddyupgooser.com !!! hey g2g gotta email Carol to death!
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2004 7 January :: 11.43am
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: my mind rambling in my head
hey ya
Gooser will be comin to ma party but i think that it might be a bust, because already there are a bunch of peeps that cant go and if i do not have at least thirty people there i have to cancel!!!! I found my scissors yesterday, the ones that did the first six cuts, well i looked at them really hard and i held them in ma hand kinda like Golum and the ring it was creepy so then i used them to cut te picture of a paper and i glued that on another paper and ya. I really feel like doin it i really do i feel like just endin everything but i know that i cant. My parents might be gettin a divorce, maybe, becasue they are always fighten and my dad takes my moms money and well otha stuff................. well i gotta do the computer lab assignment call me on my celly!!!!!
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2004 5 January :: 12.53pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: blake talking next to me!
hey
I am cold. ya all know how Sara was sayin she is depressed and all but she really is not. i think she is tryin to be, i c'mon oh guys look at me over here i am depressed pay attention to me blah blah blah crap. i really have the the like depression disease andi have to take medication some times. Over the long break since i had no one to talk to, that knife was lookin pretty good. I cant tell wat was oin on right now bu it made me feel like shit. I remember if i even ate anything then except a small salad fo dinner because that is all b=my dad would let me have. Every one thinks i am ich because of the Fancy shit i got, but they have the same things they just did nt get them at one time. I cant tell enough times, i am so not a rich ass bich!!!! i swear we never go shopping, maybe like once ever four months we go and look at clothing stuff, head the word look. You guys always talk about the neew things you get, try and rememba a time befo christmas i did, not many hu, eception baby guini's. I dont give a fuck about life ne mo i want to die i really do! I was in the shower sitting on the bottom of it and cryin while the water hit ma face. i was cryin about things you dont know about and things ya do. I am sorry that you guys are not talkin o me but i guess that is wat ya want. Oh and ne of ya want any of the GoOsER guys email adresses tell me wich one and i'll post it fo ya!
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2004 2 January :: 7.15am
:: Mood: i feel like i am dying
:: Music: dishwashy mashine
hey
umm welll hey ya guys, i have been pretty lonely the past feeeew days, because nowone has called me on my cell fone. i really need someone to talk to right now, but not online or on the fone, face face. actually, i really think i need to talk to sara, but she is gone now at her aunts house, i told her dad to tell her i called, but i guess she just did not want to talk to me. oh well, yesterday i was so board, that i had my guini pig play blackjak on my fone (i no i am not supposed to pplay games but ii was sooooo bord!) so he is playin and he lost every time and on the other hand Pumkin..oh never mind you guys dont want to here that well i gotta go think about something to do today. bye contact me please you guys contact me sara! please......
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2003 31 December :: 7.25am
:: Mood: i feel like sleeping
:: Music: none dead silent, it kinda creepy
hey guys
Hey you guys we have someone to pray for and they really nead it. My next door neighbors. i am good friends with them but they are going through some tough times. Ashley(11) has pnemonia. Josh(7or8) has a really bad asthma infection and it is gettin worse. Tray(2and a half) he is so cute and soooo sweat but he has some sort of cancer and he is going through Kemo soon and he is really sick now and he might not make it. Then there is Derek(1and a half) nothing is wrong with him yet but he is pretty skinny becuase he had a cold last week. Karen, thier mom is under a lot of stress and she is not married, never has been. the kids have three diff dads ash-josh same dad, tray diff dad, Derek diff dad. Also her aunty is livin with them basically and(her aunty is her moms younger sista) Also karens boyfriend also lives with them. lots of stress there. on alighter note, that was really good cheese yesterday! Also about my party and the hall it changed again, my mom got her bunco girls workin on it! they gathered in a room and did a wierd arm thing as they said "Bunco girls unite hu ha hu" it was way wierd! but they will get the job done well they all are incharge of something and one lady Maria is incharge finding the place, and she will know on monday! Oh and two of the ladies 15 year old sons will be coming and they are pretty cool, one of them Cameron, is an electric guitarist, and i think Joey might play the drums, i dont know. I have been tryin to call Sara for the past two days and she has not called me back, Hey Sara so if ya see this,, call me on cell (365-9151) okay! bye guys i have to go and well actually i have to fill out a guini pig form. bye bye i really do love ya guys but when ya talk crap about me it makes me think for like two seconds then im done wit tha hatin.
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2003 30 December :: 7.35am
:: Mood: i dont fuckin care right now
:: Music: my tears on the keyboard
WTF
hey guys i read saras thing, that really hurt, bad, if you want to see what i said read her coments. I was looking for someone to talk to yesterday, someone face to face like i said. so i called Sara's house, but i forgot that she had to work. i had some things i wanted to talk about and there was somethings i wanted to give her. but after reading her journal and seeing how much pleasure she gets in being mean and talking crap about me well i guess it would not have been a good idea. i love ya sierra, but calling me a poser? i know you may be a little jealous that htye are comin to mah party but i said i would invite you and you could take all the pictures that you want. Ronnie i would havve called you to talk to you but i dont have your knone number, but i could find it and you live to dam far away, my grama would not drive me that far, the least she would have done is drive me to sara's house. since none of you have shown much interst in my coments and you have not emailed me or shown any interest in me at all, then there is only thing left to do.......find the knife and sharpen it up........(so i can eat some cheese, i love cheese and it makes me feel good!) Hey ya guys i would not do that even though i may really really fell like i do, i made a promise and i wont break that promise i have to go this is the second time i wrote this, long story gotta go time almost up bye bye, (i am not as happy as i seem)
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