ive been holding off on writing an entry until i found a reason or had something to write about, but i found that i was dragging it out too long- so i'll just write. so basically heres what ive been up to lately.


on friday i went into the city to hang out with one of my best friends from fire island, nick, and some of his friends. i took the train in and met them all at grand central station, and on the way there i was nervous the entire time, which i thought was bizarre because nick and i were so close this summer, i had nothing to be nervous about. i swear that the minute i saw him standing there, all of this excitment got stirred up in my heart, and i jumped and hugged him so tight. just when i had started to distance myself from the "summer obsession", i was reminded of why it had been so hard for me to do so. i remembered all of the memories, smiles, tears, dilemmas, heartbreaks, problems and every other aspect of life that we shared during the summer...and realzied that the reason they were so special was because of just that: we shared them. what made you smile made me happy, what made you cry made tears well up in my eyes- thats just how close we became, and i was reminded of all those things just by having nick within my line of vision. i spent the night hanging out in the city with his friends, who over the past weeks through talking to them and then finally getting to hang out with them, came to love and enjoy the company of each of them. in one of them [who i had met before], i found an amazing, caring person, who loves to listen, loves to talk, and most of all, cares about me. we can talk about anything, from the most serious problems, to the stupidest little stories, but no matter what it is, i find that i can always count on him to listen. in another, i found the guy with the most beautiful eyes, and a potential love in the future- but we'll see how that works out. and in the last, i found a guy who knows how to entertain me anytime, or correct me, whatever the case may be. basically to sum it up, i made 3 great new friends this weekend, who are really great each in their own way, and if this year goes as planned, i hope that these friendships will grow, because i think that having these guys as friends in my life could be a really good thing for me- one of the best i could really ask for right now at this point in time.




in other news, today in school we were informed that mr. smith passed away last night due to pneumonia, as well as a variety of other ailments. although mr. smith didnt really touch any of the lives of the kids in my grade, specifically, i know that he has affected kids in the grades ahead of me, and it was a very sad day for edgemont as a result of that. despite the fact that he retired this year from his position as principal, it never really sank in that he was gone- and now hes NEVER coming back. our grade will never be named. it was so hard today seeing mrs. shirken cry. the ice woman, the shirkenator, showing emotion...thats when it felt the most real. they flew the flags of every nation above the breezeways today and flew the american flag at half staff. although i dont feel like ive lost mr. smith as a person, i feel like our grade has lost the chance to get to know him, because from what i gather, he affected the lives of so many kids that came before us. so, on behalf of the sophomores of 2004-2005, we will remain "the class without a name", but along with that title comes a certain sadness, at least to me, because your absence will weigh heavy on our hearts and no doubt, will affect our high school years.

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