continued
than after we ate dinner kevin and kristen came over... www.picturetrail.com/manfalovesyou ...3*13*04 enough said :-)

I LOVE MY FRIENDS <33333333333333333333

Sammie

My weekend was the best!
Friday night I went to my Phy-phy's
house :-) YAY! After like 5 minutes of
being there, logged on the internet
then went to the mall...Sammi's 1st
time at the Cherry Hill Mall :-) *SCORE*
I met all her peoples...well not all of
them just a few.. They all seem really
cool...(for being stoners lol)...then her
dad picked me her and her little brother
JR up.. We went back to her house and
just chilled there for a little bit, watched
Pirates of the Caribbean...then I kind of
forget what we did then -lol- Steph's mom
and brother went to bed, it was about
midnight when we made breakfast :-)
Eggs, toast and Home fries..it was pretty
good! Before we cooked it we took a late
run to 7-11...got milk bread and other stuff.
Than we fell asleep after that...(we talked to
Loser during cooking time and he said we needed a fire extunguser!) Than Saturday
I woke up at like 8 watched The Sweetest
Thing, and then tried to wake Stephy up to
watch Nemo with me..but she was too tired
so after Nemo JR and I jumped on Stephy, I
molestered her with the Hulk :-! heheh..we
just hung out...then after dinner...well I'll have to tell the rest later because bell is going to ring in a few minutes which isn't enough time to tell you the rest of the weekend! So, BYE!!

<333 Sammie

i got bored in soft. apps since im done
Hmm..I'm in school, and I finished all my work in 1st period so I figured I would write in here since I rarely do.. but, joy I get to go to my brother in laws 27th birthday party...it's scooby doo and dale earnhardt (number 8) themed...that's so stupid..but, my brother in law is like a big kid..he's a loser though lol...Saturday, hopefully I can hang out with Ashley Meisle....hopefully unday I can hang out with Ashley Astor too...But, I love them both, and I hate the fact that Ashley A hates Ashley M because of Mike..ok here's the new names for the Ashleys when I talk about them in here...Ashley Astor is Hun and Ashley Meisle will be Ash lol I couldn't think of anything. But anyway...like I was saying that kind of bugs me the fact that I have friends who dispise eachother....see but, if Mike (I'm cool with him 2) trashes on Ash, than I'll sit there and trash on Christine and Jess...gurr they are sluts...but, anyway off of talking about Christine and Jess I'll get to them later.. Mike and Ash and Hun are all cool with me..Mike and Hun can't exactly hate each other because they are brother and sister, but, they don't have to double team ash..I'm not giong to get into it, because of the fact that when I say something I always get in trouble for it...so yeah, I'll stop talking about that because of I don't want to be hated next, because I'm not taking anysides....But, NEXT WEEKEND IS GOING TO BE FREAKING AWSOME!!! I get to see my Stephy Leigh!!! Yay!!!!!!! I miss her...She's so much fun to be around, and I'm psyched to chill with her again... Hopefully everything goes right this time...and not so much drama happening with rides and such.....of all the people I met from SJC... I miss.....Kiss10, Stephy, Laura, Kevin, Warren, and Hun...that's it wow..and I met like 15 people from there?! Wow...I feel like a total brat now...O.k I typed alot ...well I think I did, so I'm going to go and when I go home, if I can get online I will talk about Jess and Christine :-)


<3333 Sammi

Hmm..I haven't written in
a few days..or a week hm
something like that...but
yeah besides stupid high
school drama my life is
still pretty sucky and a lil
boring but thats besides
the point...Tuesday Kristen
Laura and Jordan decided
to spontaneously come and
visit me :-) yay! don't hate
because they love me...
but yeah then before they
left Laura invited me to
Kristen's that friday for Kenny's
21st kid themed birthday :-)
So than friday rolled around and
I was joined by my love Bridget
and her boyfriend whom in which
i love oh so much Rian :-) we all
hung out..I got forced in the hot
tub I was embarassed because
of yeah Im body concious :-(
But, I had fun :-) I told Bridget
my secret and I guess the way
I was talking it was obvious to
Rian and he was making fun of
me, they were making me blush..
But, yeah..than I didn't do anything
else the rest of the weekend...
Tuesday to Thursday is the S-test
and of course...I get my period >:O
Then this weekend I am going to my
brother in laws surprise birthday
party...and then the weekend after
I'm going to my love Stephanie Leigh
States house for the weekend :-)

Ok I'm done now...


<33333 Sammi

Name: Samantha
What time is it: 4:46 p.m

THE FRUITS OF YOUR LABOR( things you can't live without): Clothes..and the computer

Something important on your desk: the computer lol im addicted to it

When you sleep you wear: shorts n a tee

If you could afford it at the moment, you would buy: an apartment building..just so all my ppl can move in with me

Something you don't have a lot of: uhm..i dunno

If your house was burning and you could only save 3 items what would they be: pictures, the computer 8-), and my movies

MORALS

If there were no side effects, you would enjoy being addicted to: i dont know

A time when you purposly hurt someone emotionally: I never meant to hurt anyone purposly..

A time you accidentally hurt someone emotionally: :-\ alot

One person you have killed in your thoughts: hmm...where to start?

FRIENDS

Three traits you look for in a friend: loyalty, trustworthy, dependable....easy to have fun with

Who makes you laugh most often: Kevin Steph and Kristen

A friend who you can tell anything: Kristen, Stephy, Kristen, and Bridget

A friend you can got to for advice: Kristen, Stephy, Kristen, and Bridget

The best piece of advice you had been given:So much has been given to me..i couldn't tell ya..

Two closest friends:if you mean distance wise..Bridget and Jeanna..if you mean friend wise..why have 2? I have 4

The friend who uses most of your energy: lmao Kristen and Steph

EGO

Your 3 best qualities: I listen alot, I always help my ppls out,
xLOVExDIESxHARDx: you're hott, funny & awesome>:o
I dunno about hott..lol

my sweet poisonX: you put up with all my and kristen's bullshit 8-) and and and you listen to my kevin problems >:o and my "im gunna kill that dirty little smut" problems

Your 3 worst qualities: uhm...

Describe your Ideal self

A compliment that makes you blush: alot...

You are embarassed when: i do something corny or stupid

The greatest physical pain you ever endured: the greatest? hmm...

The greatest emotional pain you ever endured: i dunno

Moment you are most ashamed of: ugh alot

Your best physical feature: uh?

Who/What makes you happy: being with the ppl i <3

Who/what makes you sad: thinking about jay :-\

EMOTIONS

Emotion you hide most: sadness

The emotion you tend to experience most: sadness

The emotion you are feeling most lately: hyper

You have a huge amount of guilt regarding: i dunno

When you are angry you need: to hit something or to talk to kristen n steph to plot death

When you are sentimental you need: when was the last time i was sentimental?

When you are in love you need:..never been in love

MEMORIES

One of your most peaceful memories: hmm..

One of your most tragic memories:losing jay

One of you rangriest memories: is that even a word?

A memory that makes you laugh: remembering the stupid stuff me and my friends do

a memory that makes you happy: meeting my best friends for the 1st time

LOVE

Something someone can say or do that you find extremely attractive: just their sweetness

Something someone can say or do that you find unattractive: being a complete dickhead

Two things appealing about people:depends

A personality trait you find appealing: how kool they are

Your secret passion: eyes

What you enjoy most about having a committed relationship:...:-\

RELATING

DO you have a bf/gf if yes who? :-(

What do you find sexy about them: :-(

A place where you want to have sex: uh...thats my personal business :-x

A strange place where you have had sex: :-(

What drives you crazy (in a good way) about this person: :-(

What music is on when you have sex, or is it the tv? :-(

Favorite song to have sex to ::-(

Describe your mate physicaly: :-(

Describle your mate's personality: :-(

You feel most attractive when: :-(

Favorite thing you like to see your mate wear (clothing wise don't say naked): :-(

What would you like your mate to do more of: :-(

FINALLY

If you had more time alone you would: read

If you had more patience you would: i have good patience

If you could change one thing about your physical appearance what would it be:hmm..my weight

If you had no committments what would you be doing: uhm..

If you could have one super power what would it be: the ability to fly

If you could start all over....: oh my gosh..if i could start all over, i would change all the bullshit that happened between me and some people, i would make sure my best friend didnt kill himself..but than again..as i think about it..why start all over? why change the past..when i may not have the ppl i have in the present..

Tonigt..was the best
Ok, so here's the way
my day went....School
sucked as usual, got
home, ate, did dishes,
then went on the comp.
Talked to Kristen on the
comp, called Bridget and
Rian scared me :-(..than
I argued with my dad..
Then...Rian and Bridget
picked me up so we could
go bowling..Rian, Bridget,
Me, Jeanna and Sean, all
met Warren, Ashley, and JR
at United Artists, took them
in a COMPLETE circle lmao
than went bowling, that was
fucking fun...-lol- I got lap
dances from Ashley -lol- now,
I'm here with Bridget and Jeanna
just talking...So peace fucking out

<33 Sam <33

I'm in school
Hey, I'm in school in my
keyboarding class...I'm
about ready to go to
sleep I'm so exhausted.
Maybe that's what I'll do
when I go home after I
clean and talk to every1
I'm supposed to go bowling
with tonight :-D I'm so psyched
to go bowling with all of the
"cool" SJC losers.. I swear that
chat should be blown up.. But,
that's besides the point, last
night I got into a fight with
Angelo because he's being so
gay, and I don't know why, I
did nothing to him, than again,
I didn't do alot to the people I
used to be friends with. But, I
know who my real friends are,
and I make sure they know that
everyday... Bridget, Kristen and
Kevin, are the 3 people I trust
the most, they know it, I tell them
everything. I know that they will
help me steer in the right direction..
If they can't help me...knowing Bridget
and Kristen, they would be the asses
lost with me lmao! But, that's why I
love them both very much :-)

Hey Kevin...You're still not kool :-P
lol, I can't wait to see Kristen!! I miss
her so much! From spending weekends
with her and staying up all night talking
to her about everything and anything,
pictures with white out..my kitchen table,
and kitchen knives.....It's not possible
to have a bond like ours :-) It's too
precious to break...I see Bridget everyday
in school, but, I haven't actually "hung out" with her for the longest time, and 2night
I am :-) It's so exciting lol I'm so stupid .


O.k there's not alot of time left of 1st period I'll probably write more when I get home...

Love y'all

<3333333333333333 Sam
XoXoXoOxOxO :-*

Today was my grandfather's
veiwing and tomorrow is his
funeral.......it was the worse
today...I needed to be taken
out of the room three times..
once when we first walked in.
Just to see him laying there...
it killed me. I didn't know how
to react, it seemed all I could
do was shake and cry... I know
he's not suffering anymore and
that he's in a better place...but
I wanted to say goodbye......in
person..I'm afraid to see what
I'm going to be like when I go to
the funeral tomorrow....I just
couldn't handle it today...It's not
him, he's too skinny, he's not
smiling...that is not my poppy
he is not the grandfather I grew
up with...he is not the poppy that
taught me how to cha-cha...he's
too skinny...:-\ Uggh...why am I
being so immature about this...
My sister is trying to tell me that
I shouldn't be going tomorrow
because I was such a basketcase
tonight. But, I want to go, I have
to go..I NEED TO GO! I can't let my
grandfather down! He always pushed
me to go for what I wanted...To go
and get what I deserved...I guess..
I just have to remember him always
and know that he is alway going to
be there...maybe not physically, but
mentally and spiritually...Well..I'm
going I have to get up early tomorrow

<333 Sam

Dude...tonight was fuckin great! Well lets start this on friday afternoon, I got kicked outta my table practically but it's all gravy I sit with Jessie, Lex, shawna and Christina...and friday was the best in lunch and omg..I cant look @ a kiwi strawberry snapple the same anymore :-) jessie was drinkin it and lex made her laugh and the look on alexis's face and the fact that jessie spewed her snapple ALL over lex was HALARIOUS!!! so jessies new nick name is gurge :0D

onto tonight! I am hanging out with my cousin danielle :-) shes so fuckin cool! we were crackin up all night! we went into the kitchen to get sodas than when we came back in here the dousche tripped over a box that was like wayy outta her way it was SO funny than she was takin a drink outta her soda and hit me with it :-( lol but than i almost made soda come outta her nose :-D hahah pay backs! lol than she got me again when she let go of the straw and flung soda at me :-) lol but its ok than we were just makin jokes and stuff and we went to go slap hands and missed by like a mile! what can i say i <3 my cousin danielle shes the most fun to goof around with! now that shes killing her straw and theres like an inch left of it lol im gonna ....ok she was just like THE END TASTED LIKE SODA...that because it was in the soda!!! lol i <3 her!!!! we better be as close as we used to be!!! >:o

*BURP* toodles yall!!

<33333 Sam and Danielle <3333333

HHHAAAPPPPPPYYY BBBIIIRRRTTTHHHDDDAAAY KKEEEVVVIIINNN!!!
Hello people! I'm just writing in here to make an ass of myself...embarassing myself worse than the way I am talking to Kevin but hey! Gotta love me! Speaking of Kevin :-) Today is Kevin's 17th birthday :-) so for the 3rd time I am going to sing happy b-day to him :-) 1-2-3 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU KEVIN!!! HAPPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYYY TO YOU!!! :-D I am more excited on my friends birthday's than on my own...wtf is wrong with me? I dunno but oh well! i hope it gets so cold out that the roads are icy and we dont have to go to school 2morrow...also if that happens i dont want no1 hurt >:o Pain= evil ok i g2g im getting yelled @ I LOVE U ALLLLLL

<3333333333333333333333 SAM

A - Age: 15
B - Best Quality: Nothing :-\
C - Choice Of Meat: ...wtf
D - Dream Date: I lost all hope of ever being in a relationship
E - Ex (most recent): Me have an ex? wheres that playing?
F - Favorite Food: NO FOOD >:O
G - Greatest Accomplishment: :-\
H - Happiest Day of Your Life: I DONT HAVE 1 >:O
I - Internal conflicts: trustin ppl i should of never thought i could trust
K - Kool-Aid: CHERRY N GRAPE YUMMY YUMMY
L - Love: no1
M - Most Valued Thing I Own: i dont own it...i never will own it but my best friends
N - Name: Samantha Lynn Robell
O - Outfit You Love: Gimme blue jeans n a white tee
P - Pizza Toppings: pineapple
Q - Question you want to ask: nothing
S - Sport To Watch: figure skating
T - Television Show: Real World
U - Unique habit: ........
W - Winter: cold
Y - Year Born: 1988
Z - Zodiac Sign: Gemini

HAVE YOU EVER
Kissed someone: NO >:O i guess i got cooties
Ran away: planned never did
Pictured your crush naked: no
Actually seen your crush naked: no
Broken someone's heart: nope
Been in love: nope
Cried when someone died: IF U DONT THERES FUCKIN SUTTIN WRONG WITH U >:O
Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: who hasnt?
Broken a bone: nopers
Drank alcohol: yes
Lied: yea who hasnt

WHICH IS BETTER
Coke or pepsi: pepsi
Sprite or 7up: 7 up
Girls or Guys: guys
Flowers or candy: FLOWERS
Scruff or clean shaven: clean
Quiet or loud : depends on how im feelin at that moment
Blondes or Brunettes: brunette!
Bitchy or slutty: neither both suck
Tall or short : dont matter
Pants or shorts : pants

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX
What do you notice first : eyes smile
Last person you slow danced with: Jeanna, bridget, amanda mullen, n dan @ semi
Worst question to ask: What's your name again?

THE LAST TIME
Showered: 10 MINS AGO
Had a great time with the opposite sex: ....
Your good luck charm: dun have 1
Person you hate most: dont even get me started
The best thing that has happened to you today: NOTHING >:o..no im lying when stephy made me smile w/ kevins picture :X

FAVORITES
Colors: light blue
books: The Claiming of Sleeping Beauty...No one to trust
Subject in school: English
Juice: Grape Juicy Juice
Cars : CHRYSLER SEABRING CONVERTABLE SILVER WITH A JET BLACK HOOD!!
Ice Cream: Cookie Dough
Holiday: christmas
Season: Spring
Breakfast food: dun like breakfast
Place to go with your honey: Honey? What Honey?

WHO
Makes you laugh the most : my close friends...especially when we are all together
Makes you smile: Today Kevin and Stephy did
Gives you a funny feeling when you see them : No one
Has a crush on you: :'( no1
Do you have a crush on: secret
Can make you feel better no matter what: The friends that are always there for me~!
Has it easier, guys or girls: i think its in the middle b/c guys do go threw a lot of shit too.. it just may not be at this time in life
Save aol conversations: arguments n ones that are REALLY funny or gimme a tingly feeling
Save e-mails : certain ones
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: no
Cried because of someone's mean words : yea

HMM
Cologne: NAUTICA FOR MEN god that shit weakens me!!
Perfume: Victoria's Secret 'Love Spell', Ralph Lauren, Lucky you
Kiss: >:O
Romantic Memory: >:O
Most recent advice given: Erica's advice on coaping with death

HAVE YOU:
Fallen for your best friend: :-\
Made out w/ JUST a friend: no
Been rejected: yes
Been in love: no
Used someone: no
Been used: probably
Cheated on someone: no
Been cheated on: no
Been kissed: no
Done something you regret: yes a million things

Who was the last person...
You touched: ....no1
You talked to: Im talking to Kevin, joey n Kristen because they are making me smile especially Kevin
You hugged: BRIDGET!
You instant messaged: Joe
You kissed: ....
You yelled at: i dont know
You laughed with: Kevin :-)
Who broke your heart: .......

Do you...
Color your hair: yeps
Have tattoos: no
Have piercings: ears
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both: no
Own a webcam: no
Sprechen sie deutsche: i dont speak german
Habla espanol: si yo habla poco espanol
Quack: DUCKIE!!! HA HA HA i remember when i walked into a wall and quacked at it lol...and when jessie wen BAUK BAUK at a duck ha ha

Have you / do you / are you...
Stolen anything: ya
Smoke: used to
Schizophrenic: no
Obsessive: not that i kno of
Compulsive: no
Obsessive compulsive: no
Panic: depends
Anxiety: yes
Obsessed with hate: no
Dream of mutilated bodies: no
If you could be anywhere, where would you be: With the ppl I can trust the most which is only 4 ppl
Can you do anything freakish with your body: no
What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others: uhhh eyes
Would you vote for a woman candidate for president: HELL YEA
Would you marry for money: no
Have you had braces? still do
Do you pluck your eyebrows: yes
Do you like hairy backs: no EWWWWWWWW
When was the last time you had a hickey: never
Could you live without a computer: yes
Do you use ICQ, AIM, MSN, etc...: n aim
If so, how many people are on your list(s): 66
If you could live in any past, where would it be: uggh too many things
What is your favorite fruit: cherries
Do you eat wheat bread or white: white
What is your favorite place to visit: GA and FL
What is the last movie you saw: bruce almighty
Do you kiss on the first date: i d unno
Are you photogenic: kinda
Do you dream in color or black and white: black n white mostly
Are you wearing fingernail polish: no
Is it chipped or fresh: ...
Do you have any dimples: yes
Do you remember being born: no not one bit
Why do you take surveys: cuz i get very bored
Do you drink alcohol: sumtimes
Did you like or do you like high school: NO
What is the best accent: italian
Who do you want to kiss? ........
Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most? sunsets its more romitatic
Do you want to live to be 100?: maybe
Is a flat stomach important to you: :-\
Do you or have you played with a quija board: its OUJI n yes
Do you have nightmares frequently:yes
Do you like your lips?: no
Do you think you can draw well: no
At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real? 13 lol
How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet?: mostly dress heels lol i dunno
Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday or do you have a variety? same
Do you write poetry: sumtimes
Do you snore: yes lol
Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides: i fall asleep on my tummy
Dog/cat: dog
Do you lick stamps: no i get the sticky ones
Do you use an electric can opener: no
Have you riden in a hotair balloon: no
Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain: emotional b/c physical can go away matter of mins
Do you know anyone who is clinically depressed: yea...
Do you prefer a piano or a violin: piano
Do you like to argue: no
Do you hunt: no i would be afraid of shootin myself or sumone else lol

Hi, it's me again! I'm not too happy either :-\. I just got done talking to my mom, I was telling her how a few friends of mine want me to go with them to "The Extreme" but, I really dont want to go, she said that I should go just to see what it's like, but I myself being the most insecure person in the world wont go! She told me to round up Bridget, Kristen, Jeanna and/or Jess to go with me..But, I don't know, I'm kinda scared to :-\ I don't know what's wrong with me anymore! I'm so confused and out of it that I don't know anything anymore. Maybe being in this house all the time is slowly driving me insane? I dunno...I'm gonna do a survey I got from my Bonnie Boo <333


Y O U ?
{x} what's your full name? Samantha Lynn Robell
{x} what are your nicknames? I lost track
{x} when is your birthday? May 21
{x} how tall are you? 5'7"
{x} what color are your eyes? Brown
{x} where were you born? Philly
{x} where do you live now? Williamstown
{x} piercing? ears
{x} tattoos? nope
{x} what size shoe are you? I dunno
{x} have you ever been arrested? nope
{x} what type of shampoo/conditioner do you use? Herbal Essences or Garnier
{x} do you have any pets? yes yes
{x} what are their names? Sandy, and part-time pet Scooby
{x} do you have any siblings? yerp
{x} what is your astrological sign? Gemini
{x} who is your best friend? Bridget, Jeanna, Kristen, and Bonnie b/c I know I can tell them anything, and be able to trust them

Y O U R P R E F E R E N C E S ?
{x} pierce your nose or tongue? tounge
{x} coke or pepsi? pepsi
{x} simple or complicated? simple
{x} sunrise or sunset? sunset
{x} m&m's or skittles? skittles
{x} rap or rock? rock
{x} is it pop or soda? soda
{x} x or o in tic-tac-toe? x
{x} hot or cold? depends
{x} tall members of the opposite sex or short? taller
{x} sun or moon? moon
{x} high or drunk? neither
{x} kids or no kids? kid
{x} cat or dog? dog
{x} half empty or half full? half empty
{x} sandals or sneakers? sneakers
{x} red car or white car? red
{x} hugging or kissing? hugging
{x} a year of hot sex or a lifetime of friendship? lifetime of friendship
{x} marry the perfect lover or the perfect friend? perfect friend
{x} sweet or sour? sweet
{x} root beer or dr. pepper? root bear
{x} sappy/action/comedy/horror? more like romance n chick flicks for me lol
{x} shine or rain? rain
{x} winter/summer/fall/spring? spring
{x} vanilla or chocolate? vanilla
{x} eyes open or closed? closed.
{x} lights on or off? off

Y O U R F A V O R I T E ?
{x} number? 13
{x} holiday? none
{x} radio station? i dont have 1
{x} place? my room away from everything
{x} flower? rose
{x} scent? i dunno
{x} if you could be anywhere, where would you be? Georgia
{x} what would you be doing there? starting over

C U R R E N T S
{x} current clothes: t-shirt n shorts
{x} current mood: :-\
{x} current taste: hot dog
{x} current annoyance: a lot
{x} current smell: cucumber melon
{x} current thing you ought to be doing: sleeping
{x} current desktop picture: picture of me bridget n jeanna
{x} current worry: when my g-pop will die
{x} current sound: me typing
{x} current fav shoes: ....shoes are shoes
{x} current fav TV show: real world
{x} current fav movie: alot!

L A S T P E R S O N ...
{x} you talked to? Bonnie
{x} you hugged? :-\ I dont remember
{x} you instant messaged? bonnie
{x} you kissed? no1
{x} you yelled at? tim
{x} you laughed with? i dont remember

H A V E Y O U / A R E Y O U / D O Y O U ....
{x} considered a life of crime? no
{x} considered being a hooker? noooo
{x} split personalities? i don`t think so
{x} obsessive compulsive? maybe
{x} panic? yeah
{x} anxiety disorder ? yeah
{x} depressed? yea
{x} understanding? yes yes
{x} open-minded? si
{x} interesting? sure?
{x} friendly? yeah
{x} smart? i dunno
{x} childish? sometimes
{x} independent? A LOT
{x} attractive? no
{x} bored easily? ohh yea
{x} responsible? yes and no
{x} color your hair? highlights

H A V E Y O U E V E R ?
{x} fallen for your best friend? yea
{x} made out with JUST a friend? no
{x} been in love ? no
{x} used someone? no
{x} been used? yes
{x} done something you regret? yea

O N D A T I N G ...
{x} long or short hair? dont matter
{x} dark or blond hair? dont matter
{x} tall or short? taller then me preferably
{x} dark or light eyes? dont matter
{x} hat or no hat? dont matter
{x} pierced or no? i dont care

O.K I'm done, Toodles!

I'm talkin to Kristen Hope :-) and I just told her my secret! See I'm not telling ANYONE else but her...but I'm not sure if it's a definate thing..so yeah, now that he's back with his girly! (Which his g/f is the SWEETEST N I <3 HER!!) -lol- It's not really phasing me! So atleast it isnt suttin like OMG I FUCKIN LOVE U! kinda shit it's more like a itsy bitsy kinda thing, nothing big, like I know I can tell him anything, so maybe I should just get my head outta the fuckin clouds about him but off of that subject...my cousins are startin a buncha shit...all because of dumb shit! It's startin to piss me off what fuckin happens here w/ me and my family does not concern them and they need to keep their noses outta OUR Business! >:O hmm... KRISTEN HOPE JUST MADE MY NIGHT I FUCKIN LOVE HER! OMG!! she gets her License on May 13th and now she can come to my b-day party (Kristen is a V.I.P) O.K im off like a dirty shirt and ima go to bed :-) toodl-oo party ppl!!

<33 Sammie <33

Alot has been happening, my g-pop isnt in the best condition, he doesnt have to much longer to go :-\ This can't happen to someone like him! he has a family! he is loved! he ALWAYS took care of himself! this is bullshit! maybe another doctor can help him! maybe this one isnt doing anything! uggh!!! he cant die god damn it!!!! im gonna take some quizzes to calm down because yeah, if i dont im just gonna ramble on flipping out!

O.k , the depressed stage is beginning to click in and I really hate it. I don't want to be depressed and have to throw on a smile and act like nothing in the world is a bother to me. I honestly cannot take it anymore...December 18th is 2 years since Jay... I just am so upset about anything, and I am so tired of everyones smart ass remarks about me, about what i do, about how i think, just nit picking on me about everything! like the other day i showed sum1 in my family a picture of me and kimmy vandexter @ semi..and they said you would be so beautiful if you lost weight...hmm thanks alot..i love you too..best family i ever had. isnt it? I dunno im just being so attitudal about everything im just gonna go later taters!

ok this week has been ok...just blah i cant type long ill type for alil..my g-pop is in the hospital..he was internally bleeding and coughing and spitting up blood..if they didnt stop it when they did he would have died :-\ i wouldnt have been able to handle that..my g-pop has cancer...and uggh...they say he wont last to christmas....i cant lose him i <3 my grandfather with all my heart he taught me how to cha-cha....bad feet and all...i dont want to sit here and watch him go..i cant do it...my grandfather was a fighter..he faught til the end and pretty much always won...this is a battle he wont win...uggh im gone im about to cry...

<333 Sammie