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2004 14 September :: 9.11pm
:: Mood: cynical
:: Music: Accents Are Over-Rated - InMemory <3
thank god i'm not the jealous type, uh huh....
alright, well i've been using livejournal...but i don't like the layout that much because i want more than one entry to show at a time & some other stuff. plus i DID pay $2 for this one. !! so i might as well keep it.
i'm not gonna update you to the current if you want to read whats been going on recently just go www.livejournal.com/xfatalxbeautyx
so today was alright until the moment i walked into 3rd period. to my surprise i was soon to discover that i'd have to spend the remainder of the year in english class with joe reily. eh, not that i have a problem with him...but theres too much history there, & i'm not trying to remember it--which happens to a lot of people when they have to see their ex everyday for about 40 minutes. which doesn't sound so bad to some people. but to me its like...wtf why me? i'm just glad i'm not the only person in my class that felt that way when we found out he would be in our class.
moving on...as of now i'm waiting for rian to get off work & come over. he's sleeping over, man i'm gonna be SO beat tomorrow. you tend to sleep bad when you share a single size bed with another person. & trust me its not easy. but i just don't have the heart to make him sleep on the couch in my room, especially since we don't get to see eachother much, since i have school & he has work then i have work on the weekends & he does too sometimes. it's kinda hard but i think i'm fine with it. it's not good to ALWAYS be with one another, we tend to fight more when that happens...
so today is exactly four months till i get my license, my dad's gotta take me practicing for parallel parking because i had to do it the other day at the funeral in front of the church & it was bad lol. i used to be so good, but i haven't done it since march when i was in driving school. eh i'm not worried i'll be fineeee.
ok that's enough for now, i'm not feeling very emotional.
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2004 13 August :: 2.20pm
:: Mood: accomplished
my new journal...
http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=toxic_x0_misery
this account probably won't be used anymore... unless i give it to somebody else to use...
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2004 10 August :: 9.03pm
:: Mood: bored
hmm
too lazy to modify my journal here... i'm getting bored with the look of woohu. so i'm getting a new journal. i'll post it up when i figure out what it is and get it all set up.
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2004 2 August :: 3.33am
:: Mood: indescribable
got bored... filled this out. heh
Y O U ?
{x} what's your full name? stephanie leigh
{x} what are your nicknames? stephy, kissy
{x} when is your birthday? april 7th
{x} how tall are you? 5'3
{x} what color are your eyes? brown
{x} where were you born? uhh... mt laurel
{x} where do you live now? cherry hill
{x} piercing? nope
{x} tattoos? not yet
{x} what size shoe are you? uhh... 8 ithink? idk
{x} have you ever been arrested? almost..
{x} what type of shampoo/conditioner do you use? Whatever is in the shower
{x} do you have any pets? yep
{x} what are their names? Buster, n the hermit crab which doesn’t really have a name
{x} do you have any siblings? unfortunatly
{x} what is your astrological sign? aries
{x} who is your best friend? Kristen, Samantha, bridget, Erica.
Y O U R P R E F E R E N C E S ?
{x} pierce your nose or tongue? tounge
{x} coke or pepsi? pepsi
{x} simple or complicated? simple
{x} sunrise or sunset? sunset
{x} m&m's or skittles? skittles
{x} rap or rock? rock
{x} is it pop or soda? soda
{x} x or o in tic-tac-toe? o
{x} hot or cold? as in weather? deff. hot so i can sneak out at night hehe
{x} tall members of the opposite sex or short? gotta be taller than me..
{x} sun or moon? moon
{x} high or drunk? Drunk… getting high is too overrated
{x} kids or no kids? hell no
{x} cat or dog? cat
{x} half empty or half full? it depends..
{x} sandals or sneakers? sneakers
{x} red car or white car? red
{x} hugging or kissing? some of both
{x} a year of hot sex or a lifetime of friendship? hmm... a lifetime of friendship deff.
{x} marry the perfect lover or the perfect friend? The perfect lover IS the perfect friend.
{x} sweet or sour? sweet
{x} root beer or dr. pepper? root beer
{x} sappy/action/comedy/horror? horror deffinatly
{x} shine or rain? depends on my mood.. i like rain at night in the summer when its hot..
{x} winter/summer/fall/spring? spring or summer
{x} vanilla or chocolate? vanilla
{x} eyes open or closed? closed.
{x} lights on or off? off
Y O U R F A V O R I T E ?
{x} number? 13
{x} holiday? new years
{x} radio station? 100.3 probably.. but I don’t listen to music often
{x} place? Sammie’s house
{x} flower? Don’t like flowers
{x} scent? My orange incense… or strawberry..
{x} if you could be anywhere, where would you be? Far away from here
{x} what would you be doing there? Living my life the way I want to live it
C U R R E N T S
{x} current clothes: gray tank, black jeans
{x} current mood: tired, and giddy.. kinda weird
{x} current taste: pepsi
{x} current annoyance: stupid computer being gay
{x} current smell: summer
{x} current thing you ought to be doing: probably sleeping.. it’s 3:15 in the morning lol
{x} current desktop picture: sally.. yay!
{x} current worry: I wanna go see my manfa! L
{x} current sound: crickets chirping outside
{x} current fav shoes: don’t have a favorite? lol
{x} current fav TV show: the oc man.. that and that 70’s show
{x} current fav movie: the scream trilogy, may, dirty dancing, cecil b demented, momento, etc…
L A S T P E R S O N ...
{x} you talked to? erica
{x} you hugged? My brother
{x} you instant messaged? erica
{x} you kissed? mikey
{x} you yelled at? Ehh.. can’t remember.. I yell at too many people
{x} you laughed with? ashley
H A V E Y O U / A R E Y O U / D O Y O U ....
{x} considered a life of crime? yup
{x} considered being a hooker? lmao not seriously
{x} split personalities? no not really
{x} obsessive compulsive? Yea deffnatly
{x} panic? depends on the situation
{x} anxiety disorder ? maybe..
{x} depressed? sometimes..
{x} understanding? yea
{x} open-minded? when i need to be..
{x} interesting? I guess
{x} friendly? not really.. lol unless i like you heh
{x} smart? if i tryed, i could be.. i just dont try
{x} childish? hmm... at times, yes lol
{x} independent? i try
{x} attractive? i dont think so.. but others do..
{x} bored easily? Yea man
{x} responsible? when i wanna be, i am, but when i need to be, usually not... =/
{x} color your hair? i dont even remember my natural hair color lol
H A V E Y O U E V E R ?
{x} fallen for your best friend? thats the basis of my freshman year.. bleh
{x} made out with JUST a friend? lmao yea...
{x} been in love ? yup
{x} used someone? once..
{x} been used? Yea… it sucks
{x} done something you regret? doesn't everybody?
O N D A T I N G ...
{x} long or short hair? as long as its not too long..
{x} dark or blond hair? Doesn’t matter
{x} tall or short? HAS to be taller
{x} dark or light eyes? light eyes <3
{x} hat or no hat? well that depends on the person...
{x} pierced or no? i like piercings... lol but it doesn't matter..
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2004 31 July :: 5.27am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: sublime
something that sexy mikey made for me..
http://www.geocities.com/deathbyfire1128/ My_Sexy_Stephy2.html
it's cute, yay!
<3
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2004 30 July :: 2.07am
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: none
got massively bored... heh took a survey
| [x] The Basics [x] | | Name ::: | stephy | | Middle name ::: | leigh | | Last name ::: | don't do last names | | Age ::: | 16 | | Birthday::: | o4.o7 | | Location ::: | cherry hill/williamstown | | Height ::: | 5'4ish | | Eye color ::: | brown | | Hair color ::: | uh... purple/brown/blonde/etc... | | Siblings? ::: | yep... JR - 5 | | [x] Favorites [x] | | food ::: | candy | | movie ::: | may, american history x, the scream trilogy, dirty dancing, cecil b demented... | | group/ band ::: | uhh... don't really have one | | Tv show ::: | the oc when it's on... or that 70's show.. | | animal ::: | kittys of course | | color ::: | hot pink and black... gotta be together though... | | place to be ::: | sam's house, or kristen's house | | store ::: | it's gotta be wawa... DUH | | shoe brand :) ::: | who needs shoes? | | word ::: | fuck | | phrase ::: | fuck you, kill yourself... | | Famous guy ::: | johnny depp, ashton kutcher or orlando bloom | | Famous girl ::: | angelina jolie.. she's so hott | | boy name ::: | jeremy michael | | girl name ::: | kaylie marie | | pet name ::: | killer... muahaha lol | | car/ truck ::: | anything that's cute and fast... | | music ::: | emo/punk/rock/techno... anything that i can dance to.. | | candy ::: | just about anything... | | gum ::: | winterfresh... or something watermelon | | number::: | 13 | | lyric ::: | i'd have to think about that for a while | | website ::: | eh.. idk | | drink ::: | hmm... depends on what kind of mood i'm in | | alcoholic drink ::: | screwdrivers <3 vodka | | scent ::: | my orange incence hehe | | season ::: | spring and summer... | | [x] Music [x] Pick a song title for the artist | | Something Corporate ::: | hmm idk | | Yellowcard ::: | ocean ave? | | Green Day ::: | time of your life | | J-lo ::: | all i have | | Bowling for Soup ::: | girl all the bad guys want | | Missy Elliott ::: | get your freak on | | Chingy ::: | right thurr lmao | | Outkast ::: | hey ya | | John Mayer ::: | your body's a wonderland | | Britney Spears ::: | sometimes | | Christina A. ::: | genie in a bottle | | Thursday ::: | idk | | Aerosmith ::: | idk | | Bob Marley ::: | no woman no cry | | Taking Back Sunday ::: | you're so last summer | | Sean Paul ::: | "i'm so in loveeee with you boy" *thinks back to samm* | | Ludacris ::: | idk | | The Beach Boys ::: | idk | | Led Zepplin ::: | idk | | Santana ::: | maria maria | | Kelly Osbourne ::: | shut up | | Ozzy ::: | idk | | [x] Have your ever [x] | | Met anyone famous ::: | hmm... i don't think so | | If so who? ::: | | | Kissed someone of the same sex? ::: | yep | | Dated someone of the same sex? ::: | nope | | Sang in the shower ::: | sure | | Talked to a complete stranger ::: | yep | | Prank called someone ::: | yep | | Snuck out ::: | all the time | | Lied to your Parents ::: | mhmm | | Done drugs [ if so what one(s)] ::: | no comment.. | | Drank Alcohol ::: | yea | | Snuck into the movies ::: | yea | | Gotten kicked out of the movies ::: | yea lol | | Stole something *tisk*tisk* ::: | of course | | Beat someone up ::: | if ex boyfriends count.. heh | | Watched Porn ::: | at sutton's house hahahaha oh man... good times... | | Ran Away ::: | several times.. | | Gotten Arrested ::: | yep | | Been on TV ::: | yea | | Been in the Newspaper ::: | not that i can recall | | Shot a gun ::: | yep | | Graffiti'd something ::: | uh huh | | Made out in the rain ::: | deffinatly | | Had sex or done sexual things in a public place ::: | sexual things in public? haha yes.. | | Snuck people over your house ::: | all the time | | Stage dived ::: | nah | | Been in a mosh pit ::: | no | | Eaten something non edible ::: | lmao yea | | Been in the hospital ::: | yea | | Been in the mental hospital ::: | no | | Hit your parents ::: | yea | | Written a song ::: | yea | | Stalked someone ::: | deffinatly | | Gone cow tipping ::: | huh? | | Made your own porno ( you freak ) ::: | haha not yet... | | Skinny Dipped ::: | no comment. | | [x] Random [x] | | Do you have any fetishes ::: | no not really... | | Fears ::: | spiders and geese... | | Who rocks your socks? ::: | sexy mikey *wink* lol | | What makes your all warm and fuzzy inside ::: | being with somebody who makes me happy hehe.. | | What turns you on ::: | hmm... come find out. muahaha | | What are you (bi, straight, lesbian, gay ..etc..) ::: | hmm... not straight, but not gay... | | Craziest thing you've done sober ::: | no clue | | Craziest thing you've done drunk ::: | bottle of vodka to myself, big house party... need i say more? | | Craziest thing you've done high ::: | hmm... idk i'd have to think about it | | Do you sniff your fingers after you wipe your ass? ::: | ew? | | [x] The alphabet [x] Put the first word that comes to mind for each letter: | | | A::: | alcohol | | B::: | bottle | | C::: | candy | | D::: | drugs | | E::: | english | | F::: | fuck | | G::: | gay | | H::: | hyper | | I::: | ice cream | | J::: | joker | | K::: | kangaroo | | L::: | love | | M::: | mike hehe | | N::: | ninja turtle` | | O::: | octopus | | P::: | penis | | Q::: | qqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqq idk lol | | R::: | rush | | S::: | sleep | | T::: | time | | U::: | under | | V::: | vagina | | W::: | water | | X::: | xxx | | Y::: | yea i'm getting too tired for this | | Z::: | zZzZzZzZzZzZzZz |
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poisonedxlove
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2004 29 July :: 9.57pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: dashboard
it's been a while... lol
alrighty... ALOT has happened since the last time i updated.. mostly because i haven't been able to update since lack of internet service at sam's house lol... well.. lets start off with where i left off last time.
thursday, jess left early to go hang out with this girl up the street from her, i talked to mike ireland for the first time since the carnival night, and he wanted to know my last name. he made the BIGGEST deal out of it lol... well i met up with erica and we went up to the mall, and kevin said he'd me us up there... well mike I called me and said that he was at the mall shopping with his sister and mom for shoes... so i told him to come meet me somewheres and we'd hang out... so we met up with him, and kevin showed up.. and we just kinda sat around... jake came up there and scared the shit outa me by grabbing me from behind... i seen megan up there for the first time since school ended... got her number so we can chill and whatever... and well.. kevin got jealous of mike lol... he seriously thought there was something up with me and mike... completely rediculous but ehh.. whatever.. so we leave the mall, mike goes home, and erica, me and kevin went back to my house... erica left at like 11:30ish i guess... then kevin left at like... 1ish and i went to sleep...
friday and saturday, i worked... then came home and did nothing... so nothing interesting to talk about there... except for that jess came up to work and hung out with me lol... and i broke up with kevin... he's changed alot since we got back together and i just couldn't stand all the fighting and trust issues... and he like hates me now, but i think it's for the better.
sunday, i worked 10 - 2... then came home, showered, got packed, did massive chores... and mommy took me to sam's house... when we got there, i was greeted by 2 of my bestest friends, bridget and sam... and rian was there too... and mommy and my brother came in for a little while... then alex and mike b got there... mommy and jr left, and alex, mike, rian, bridget, sam and i went and hung out... outside mostly... rian was in a bad mood and he left... :-/ and so bridget left too... so alex and sam and me and mike all hung out outside on the trampoline and just did nothing... fun stuff.. they left around idk... 11:30ish i guess? then me and sam went in and just hung out like losers til we fell asleep at like 2:30 in the morning.
monday was kinda boring... i really don't think anything happened... we went to get sam's cell phone down in atlantic county... mom, anthony, sam and me... fun stuff... no not really but still lol... we went to mcdonalds too... with sam's aunt... i wandered around on the phone with mike... then we went back to sam's and did absolutely nothing.... boring day...
tuesday was probably the most interesting day lol... sam bridget and i went over to alex's house... mike was there, along with this kid "fatt chris", and this other guy jul... it was fun i guess lol... when we first got there, they were ALL playing video games... like... alex was playing a game on one tv, mike and jul on another tv, and the fat kid on the computer playing a game.. all in the same room.. it was the weirdest thing ever... lol... well we just kinda hung out.... went outside for a while, but then me and bridget and sam came back inside cause we started to walk through the woods and we didn't wanna get bugs on us, and bridget had to use the potty room. it was a good night... ended perfectly hehe... then bridget slept over sam's with me... we stayed up til like 4ish in the morning playing games and being losers....
wednesday was a weird day... alex and mike and the fat kid were gunna come over to sam's, but they didn't... they wanted to play video games instead.. yea... that's how you know you have no life lol... but anyway... me and sam put out the bug torches around the trampoline and hung out outside for a while... called robbie and talked to him for a while... then called mike ireland and talked to him for a while... came inside..... then mike had to go.... so we just hung around... decided to try and fall asleep around like idk... 3 in the morning... well we made out our beds, put on our bedtime music, turned out the lights and layed down and started talking like we always do before bed... and i ended up telling her my entire high school story... starting at the beginning of the summer before freshman year... the summer with courtney and jessica lol... all the way up to now... and just EVERYTHING came out during these like 3 hours of talking... good things, bad things, all of it... and i came to the conclusion that right now, i'm happy with myself. i made some decisions recently that i didn't know if i'd regret or not, and so far, so good... but either way... i can't change what happened so i'm not going to worry about it at all... there's a guy that i've got my eye on... one of sammie's friends... he's a cool kid... so yea... hopefully, all works out... heh... idk.. anyway... we had massive amounts of candy and caffeine and so naturally, the tiredness went away and along came the excessive hyperness lol... it was crazy... we were yelling and singing and dancing and making little video clips... it was so much fun lol... at around 8ish when the baby got there, i took a 2 hour nap..
by then it was thursday... i got up, took a shower... and all that good stuff... decided to scrunch my hair today cause i was entirely too lazy to go through all the trouble of blowdrying/straightening it... then mike came over and chilled with sam and me..... we ended up taking a nap lol... sam was on the chair and me and mike were on the floor.. then mom woke us up at like 8ish to tell me to get ready to go... well of course i didn't move, i was like... dead. lol... but i eventually got up, got my shit together and what not and took it to the car, and me and sam and mike waited for mike's mom to get there, then when he left, i got a nice departing gift heh... then after mom and sam were done making fun of me, we drove me back to cherry hill... i got here at like 9ish... and it sucked.. SO BAD... i can't wait to get back to williamstown.
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2004 22 July :: 3.56am
:: Music: sublime
blahh
omg i am so fucking bored!!!!!!! don't feel like updating.. didn't even do anything lately... went back to sam's sunday... hung out with bridget, sam, rian and chris... then monday hung out with sam bridget and rian... came home tuesday.. hung out with jessica today, she's staying the night. kevin's coming over tomorrow, friday and saturday i'm working, then hopefully going back to sam's house sunday. lol
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2004 17 July :: 5.19pm
:: Mood: empty
:: Music: jewel - you were meant for me
starting over new?
well, a little update from my weekend... started off shitty, and ended perfect.
wednesday, kevin came over at like 3:30ish i guess? idk i was half asleep.. then we went to jessica's house, hung out with her for a while, then raine and julie and carlos showed up, and i was so happy! i love those girls so much. we went to the mall, me and jess ditched practice, and then we went to carlos' for a little while, then to pick up samantha... then we all hung out, took jess home, thayer came over. we started to watch a movie, but got bored/hungry, so me thayer and sam walked up to wawa and back... then kevin took julie and carlos home, we came back and watched grease, and kevin left.. then sam thayer and i started to watch scream but we all fell asleep at like 5 in the morning...
thursday we woke up sometime around 1ish, thayer left, and me and sam went up to toys r us to get my check, i got headphones, we went to the mall, and went shopping, then back to my house, we cleaned, then i packed to go to her house. her mommy picked us up at like 7ish i guess, we went to her grandmothers house for a while, then to walmart where i bought this awesome black mesh long sleeve zip up hoodie kinda thing... we picked up bridget, and we stayed up all night hanging out... some drama happened... which kinda fucked up that night... but we knew that the next night would be so kick ass that it didn't even matter anymore. but basically, kristen made it clear that me and her aren't friends anymore, and it seems as if kevin's going along with it too, so whatever. i don't need people like that in my life that are there to make me feel bad. so if that's what they're all about, screw that... i already know where kristen stands in this, but i don't know about kevin, so maybe i'll give him time and talk to him. maybe. it's basically like this: since me and him got back together, there's been nothing but constant arguing, lying, excuses... and it's really not worth it if that's all it's going to be. it hurts to say that, but it's true. since we got back together, he changed, and i'm not sure if i like it, so idk.. anyway... around like 6:15ish in the morning, we decided to try and sleep, bridget called her dad to go pick her up so she could get clothes and stuff, so she left, and fell asleep at her house. then me and sam both fell asleep.
friday i slept til 1, the baby was there when i woke up, so i got him up my ass all day lol... we chilled around the house watching the baby... got dressed, i wore these awesome boots.. omg i loved them! lol.. they were sam's or something... but yea... we got all ready, went and met up with bridget, then sam's dad ordered pizza... we ate some, then at 7 it was off to the carnival!
on man did we have fun that night. sam's dad dropped us off, and we walked around the place once or twice, then saw alex and his girlfriend amanda. omg.. alex is too funny, and he had this friend mike with him... this would be mike I... anyway.. we hung out for a little while, and walked around, and i met some of sam and bridget's other friends... this guy "winky" lol... some other people... then amanda, alex, mike, sam, bridget and me all rode the carosel horses lol.. fun stuff... mike was on the outside, and there was a bubble machine right next to the merry-go-round, so every time we went past it, mike and i got bubbles all over us.. it was funny. then a little while later, we walked up to heritage(it's like a wanna be wawa...) and there was this other kid mike B working there.. we all spent money there... then mike B said he got off work at 10, so we said we'd come back and get him and we'd all hang out... we went back to the carnival, got cotton candy. alex kept stealing our cotton candy.. it was amusing.. like he'd wait til we weren't paying attention to grab it... then wow.. omg... lol mike and alex asked me if i had any tickets left, and i had 10... enough for 5 of us to ride the teacups lmao... so alex, amanda, mike, bridget and i all got on, cause sam didn't want to. she held our stuff so we didn't have to bring it on the ride with us. well yea let me tell you. these little things were tiny... they were only supposed to have like 3 people in them and we fit all 5 of us. lol... we went spinning SO fast... it was so much fun though lol... then we stopped and went the other way. and i ended up hurting my neck from it lol.... i was so dizzy by the time it stopped... then we went and dropped amanda off at her corner lol.. where her dad was picking her up. then we went to some video game geek place for alex and mike I... left there and went back to meet mike B after he got off work. now let me say that people in williamstown have absolutely NO fucking lawn ornaments... like what the fuck! lol... anyway... we went back to mike B's house, and then sam's mom came to pick us all up... yea... we fit sam in the front seat, then mike I, alex, and mike B in the back seat, with bridget and i sitting on their laps. lol... it was so funny. well we got back to sam's house, and chilled for a while, then went outside on the trampoline. by this time, mike I had my red "robot" glasses, and my cell phone, and he wouldn't give them back grrr lol... we all hung out and talked on the trampoline, but i felt kinda lost cause i didn't know ANYBODY they were talking about... and then we were all playing with our cell phones and just being losers hanging out with other losers lol... it was fun though, then we went back inside to watch the butterfly effect. i sat on the little wicker couch thingy... and i had mike I on my left side, and mike B on my right side... well i got comfortable laying across the both of them... all being comfortable and lazy n stuff lol... it was fun... then they all left at like 2 in the morning... and me and sam stayed up til like 3:30 in the morning just talking about the night and how much fun we had and how i really wanna get to know her friends better cause all three of the boys are absolutely awesome lol... hopefully i can go back there sometime soon when i don't have to work. heh... okay enough writing for now... maybe more later.
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2004 14 July :: 6.01pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: its dangerous business walking out your front door - underoath
we're nothing short of invincible
so, i'm back. i actually wanted to come home so bad i wanted to leave early. i missed my baby, & my friends & it was getting annoying in va beach. anyway, good news..rian got a job *applause* it a good job one in which he can build his future with in being a mechanic. & he gets dental & health benefits & gets 9 an hour, can't beat that. its awesome i'm happy. he can spoil me now..j/k. hes at work right now, i'm bored i haven't done anything productive all day, i slept thru half the day waking up at 1:15, but i like sleeping in. ok so right now theres like a tornado warning? but i have no idea how close any of these places are to me hahah. so i'll just sit here by myself waiting for some tornado to come & tear up my stupid house. it wouldn't matter. wait, i lied i did do something productive, i got rid of a stupid virus i had woohoo. today is july 14th that means its Bastille Day in France & more impotantly it means that theres only 12 more days till me & rians 1 year anniversary!i'm excited, & i'm proud of us for making it thru everything it proves that our love can conquer all<3 well i'm going off to do some other non productive things byee.
she's beautiful as usual...
with bruises on her ego, &
her killer instinct tells her to
be [.aware.] of evil men _*
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2004 11 July :: 11.32pm
:: Mood: beyond pissed
:: Music: sugarcult
man i hate being lied to.
well i know i haven't updated or anything in a while, and that's because there hasn't been a need to. i've been doing the same thing every week. going down to kristen's house, hanging out with kristen and kevin, then coming home on the weekend for work.. then hanging out with my other friends after work.. but this week was a little different. well it started off when i fell asleep in kevin's van when we were talking and stuff... kristen got pissed cause she felt like she got ditched... and i admit, it was kinda low.. but we worked things out, but then recently, things have been different... kevin and kristen aren't exactly seeing eye to eye, and i'm not sure why... and he's been lying to us both, and pulling alot of unneeded bullshit. and i really don't need that right now. we just got back together and i thought things were going fine, and i realized i was being a little clingy, and as i'm trying to get over that, kevin is doing stupid shit to make things worse. things like lying to me and kristen about where he is, and things he's been saying to other people that he thinks i won't hear about... things i won't mention here.. but idk... things aren't really working out right now between me and him, and as much as i want to try and fix things, i'm not sure that he does. because he seems completely content without me, and that's kinda scary... like i know he says he loves me and all, but his actions sometimes make me think otherwise. idk... i'm ranting right now... so i think i'll stop for now... maybe update later.. but for now i'm going to watch a movie.
¿Hey did you get some?
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poisonedxlove
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2004 6 July :: 10.29am
:: Mood: drained
surveyy
_+ full name: stephanie leigh
_+ first crush: this kid tommy
_+ what were u doing 15 mins ago: fighting with my brother
_+ what are u wearing now: baggy pj pants and a grey tank top
_+ Do have a Cell phone?: yea... well i did... i broke it.. i'm getting a new one in a few days
_+ u shy or outgoing: usually outgoing...
_+ sleep with stuffed animals: nah
_+ what do you want from a relationship?: to be treated like a princess
_+ feature you notice first: eyes
_+ looks/personality: some of both
_+ tan or fair: usually tan, but currently BURNT
_+ like flirting?: sometimes
_+ would you ever date a friend: yea
- Relationships -
_+ do u have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: of course
_+ what is their full name?: kevin andrew
_+ what is ur favorite thing to do with that special sumone: just being with him
_+ ever been in love?: yes
_+ who's ur best friend: kristen, samantha, erica
- FAVORITES -
_+ color: baby pink
_+ silver or gold: silver
_+ diamonds or pearls: diamonds
_+ showers or baths: shower
_+ food: candy
_+ current song: sugarcult - saying goodbye
_+ holidays: new years, halloween
_+ animal: cats
_+ drink: vodka <3
_+ perfume: don't wear perfume
_+ cologne: don't wear calogne either lol
_+ activity: hanging out with my friends
_+ fruit: strawberry
_+ do you like to dance: deffinatly
- LAST TIME I -
_+ showered: this morning
_+ went runnin: running after my brother.. this morning
_+ went to a movie: couple weekends ago
_+ wished u were sumbody else: idk?
_+ were depressed: idk
- RANDOM -
_+ where would you love to travel to?: paris
_+ whats ur aim screen name: flawed x dreams
_+what do u want to do with your life?: haven't exactly thought that far ahead, college, good career, nice big house out in the country where there isn't a neighbor for miles, and i want to have horses
_+ last time you went to the doctor: few days after finals ended
_+ do u have a credit card: atm card.. that's about it
_+ do u consider urself a "nice person" ?: no lol... i'm mean to most people
_+ are u stressed out?: sometimes
_+ do u believe in angels?: uh.. no
_+ do u think ur spoiled?: nope
_+ do u like mustard?: sometimes
_+ have u seen the exorcist?: who HASN'T?
- DO YOU -
_+ read the newspaper: no
_+ believe in miracles: yes
_+ like the taste of alcohol: deffinatly
_+ have any secrets: everybody has secrets
_+ wish on stars: no
_+ believe in ghosts: yea
_+ take walks in the rain: when it's summer, yes
_+ sing in the shower: not really
- i.. -
_+ i am: broken
_+ i think: everyone should die
_+ i know: alot of things i shouldn't know
_+ i have: the best friends and boyfriend that anyone could ever wish for :)
_+ i wish: i could do something to make my mom proud of me
_+ i hate: life, people
_+ i miss: rainbow
_+ i fear: geese
_+ i feel: pain.. from my sunburn
_+ i hear: weird tv show my brother's watching
_+ i wonder: how my life will be in 5 years and if i'll still have any of the same friends
_+ i regret: alot of things
_+ i love: my friends, my boyfriend
_+ i care: about not that much
_+ i am not: a whore
_+ i cry: when i feel i need it
_+ i do not: want to be at home anymore
_+ i never: study
_+ i confuse: alot of people
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poisonedxlove
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2004 6 July :: 10.08am
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: offspring
i HATE kids
well to start off right now, i'm about to kill my brother... mom had to go to the doctor, and he ran outside screaming trying to get in the car... got himself in and all, then i had to litterally PEEL him out of the car, he was kicking and screaming, then i got him on the porch and my mom started to drive away, and he fuckin ran down the street after her, so i had to go chase him, drag him back, put him in the front door, and he runs out the back! ugh... other than that, nothing really has been happening... i got massive sunburn all over cause i went to the beach yesterday with my cousins... nothing else really interesting happened though.. i've been hanging out with kristen and kevin all the time except for when i have to work... so that's basically it..
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sk8erch1ck23
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2004 3 July :: 11.34am
:: Mood: good
:: Music: Boys Night Out CD
i know forever isn't long enough to forget the faces & places, that played out your tragedy...
this will be the last entry for a while, because i won't have a computer when i get to the beach. i'm goin to some party today for the 4th of july, then tomorrow i'll be at the beach watchin the fire works, it will be awesome like it always is, afterwards i'll prolly be bored. i spent a lotta money at bush gardens but i don't care cause i got cool stufff..i got an airbrushed shirt that says Bridget & Rian <33 & then i got a keychain that says my name, theyre both perty. anyways, i'm gonna go to see kristens journal so i'll write when i get back to NJ.<3
¿Hey did you get some?
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poisonedxlove
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2004 2 July :: 3.46pm
:: Mood: dying
:: Music: none
it's been a while..
yea well... i don't exactly feel like updatng right now, just doing so because so this way you don't think i died or anything, but i am dying. i've been sick for the past week and i can't stop coughing.. it's horrible
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sk8erch1ck23
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2004 28 June :: 1.27pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: dora the explorer....(little cousin is watching it)
well, i'm in virginia williamsburg to be more specific, i'm visiting my cousins, then i'm going to va beach to see the other side of my family & we're staying in the same hotel we always stay in every year. nothing different. i'll be back july 9th, i already miss my boyfriend, & my friends. i have work the very next day i come back, i think we're leaving friday night, & getting back saturday morning, & i have work saturday at 2, so i might not even be able to see rian until i get off work which will be late, like 1230 100 in the morning. it sucks. but its what i gotta do...anyways...theres not much else to say, i gotta go because i'm on dial-up, & i have to make a phone call. i'll write again later. see ya.
courtesy came calling with her best friend common sense,
unaware that malice & manipulation had taken up residence.
caring came to the crime scene, but blood lust beat them back,
so apathy could laugh with his compadres, and anger could attack
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poisonedxlove
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2004 27 June :: 1.13am
:: Mood: tipsy
:: Music: staind
man...
okay.. it's saturday night/sunday morning... i have work tomorrow at 11:30, i had work today from 2:00 - 10:00.... it was cool, i met this new kid chris, and he was pretty cool... we sat around and talked for a while, and after close, we walked around together cleaning up and what not... and we talked... cause it was only his second day there and he didn't know anybody else but ryan, and ryan was with lisa... lets see... what else... i'm very happy yay! i'd rather not say why though.. not yet... last night after work i went to the movies with thayer... we went to see that vin deisel movie.. the chronicles of riddick or something.. omg he's so hott lol.. it was a good movie... we had alot of fun.. some little 13 year old kid got killed on rt 38 last night in between the mall and the movies... like right where me and my friends always cross.. yea its the second one in like 3 months.. i'm not crossing there anymore lmao... then tonight after work i went to samm's house after cleaning up at work and all... we hung out, then went outside and walked down the street, then came back and got some alcohol lol.. then walked around and got drunk and we were going to go to wendys but we never got around to it... blehh... i wanted wendys too lol.. oh well... this entry is going to be funny to look at tomorrow when i wake up and look at it and i'm sober lmao... but it was worth drinking cause it's the last time i'll see samm for seven weeks!!! bleh okay i'm done...
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poisonedxlove
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2004 23 June :: 5.44pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: whatever was in kristen's radio...
over kristen's...
blehh... i don't really feel like going into detail about what's been going on.. last friday i went to drew's party... it was alot of fun.. vince and alicia picked me up and i chilled w/ alicia, thayer, this kid alex, and this girl jo the whole night... saturday was heather's grad. party... i went there, tommy invited me to come horseback riding w/ him and krystal and barb.. then we went back to barbs... then krystal slept over... sunday i had work, monday i had work, tuesday kevin and kristen picked me up, we went to sam's, hung out with sam, bridget, rian, jordan, ashley a, and ang... then we got the cops called on us so we all had to go... then we dropped ang off and went driving around nj til 3:30 in the morning... through dirt roads in clayton/glassboro for a couple hours.. yea.. fun... kevin dropped me and kristen off here, and we stayed up all night, i took an hour nap at like 6... woke up again... we went downstairs, fell asleep at like 9:30ish.. woke up again at 11... then chris dropped gage off, we played w/ him.. he fell asleep, and we put on uptown girls... kristen fell asleep, movie was over so i came up here... now i'm bored writing in my journal feeling like absolute shit. i love him so much... and i miss him like crazy but idk if i can be with him... it hurts to say that but it's true... i'm sick of the off and on, fucking with my head shit... i can't do that anymore... it's all or nothing, i won't keep coming back.. i can't put myself through all the depression.. bleh.. enough for now...
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sk8erch1ck23
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2004 20 June :: 2.57am
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Chapter Three - Ever After<3
whats left to hope for, whats left to believe?
hmm...ok well lets see where to start? i didn't go to my last day of school...basically wednesday night i went to Krystans graduation ( rians sister ) & then i just didn't feel like going home or going to school since the 17th (the last day of school) was also rians 21st bday. so yeah i just didn't go, fuck that lol. its pointless. then uhmn friday, me rian & chris all went to Ocean City it was cool...i brought my video camera =). uhmn, so then saturday i had work all day & night...about 11 hours yeah..& now i'm still awake posting in here. so that brings us up to date.
chris brought this cd he burned, & on it he had a band called ever after, they are so fucking awesome, its like the definition of musical orgasm...yeah look for them on purevolume.com...they have a piano, its sick.
so anyway...i'm goin to be leavin for VA on the 27th...so right after work on saturday..since i will be getting home late i'll have to leave. then i don't come back for 12 days.. the 9th. yeah i'm gonna miss everyone, especially rian<3 =/ oh well it'll be ok..cause then after i get back it will only be like 17 days till our 1 year...i can't wait. i can't believe its already 1 year...its gone by so fast..i feel like it was just yesterday that i was sneaking out of the house to meet him :x i was such a rebel lmao. but we've come a long way...& hes finally quitting smoking for real...so i hope he makes it. anyways i'm tired i'll post in here later...or whatever...bye.
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