See You At The Bitter End

:: 2004 6 June :: 12.30am

I thought some of you might be amused by this.

1. What do you think caused your heterosexuality?
2. When and how did you decide that you were a heterosexual?
3. Is it possible that your heterosexuality is just a phase that you may grow out of?
4. Is it possible your heterosexuality stems from a neurotic fear of others of the same sex?
5. If you�ve never slept with a person of the same sex, is it possible that all you need is a good gay or lesbian lover?
6. To whom have you disclosed your heterosexual tendencies? How did he or she react?
7. Why do you heterosexuals feel compelled to seduce others into your lifestyle?
8. Why do you insist on flaunting your heterosexuality? Why can�t you just be what you are and keep quiet about it?
9. Would you want your children to be heterosexual knowing the problems that they�d face?
10. A disproportionate majority of child molesters are heterosexual. Do you consider it safe to expose your children to heterosexual teachers?
11. With all the societal support marriage receives, the divorce rate is spiraling. Why are there so few stable relationships among heterosexuals?
12. Why do heterosexuals place so much emphasis on sex?
13. Considering the menace of overpopulation, how could the human race survive if everyone were heterosexual like you?
14. Could you trust a heterosexual therapist to be objective? Don�t you fear (s)he might be inclined to influence you in the direction of her/his own leanings?
15. How can you become a whole person if you limit yourself to compulsive, exclusive heterosexuality, and fail to develop your natural healthy homosexual potential?
16. There seems to be very few happy heterosexuals. Techniques have been developed that might enable you to change if you really want to. Have you considered trying aversion therapy?

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:: 2004 5 June :: 9.15pm
:: Music: Nickolodean

It was pouring like 5 minutes ago, but no more...
Jimmy is a loser! I was the one that showed him how to do this! LOSER!

:: 2004 5 June :: 2.01am
:: Mood: unusual
:: Music: Celebrity Deathmatch

It is already midnight. Well...11:58. But close enough. I am on the point where I am almost tired, wanting to sit here for an hour, but just plain bored. It is kind of a hard feeling to work with.

I should go to bed. I have to get up at 11 tomorrow morning : - /

:: 2004 27 May :: 12.45pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: printer

WEEE!!!! I am at school "working" on my semester portfolio. My computer died!!!! ;_;...NICKOOOOO!!! FIX IT!!! Come to my bday party as well!! DAMN YOU!!! (Gwen says Hi)

Belll about to ring....tata!

I don't feel good : (

:: 2004 8 May :: 12.47am
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: tv

Updating here for a change!!
So...I went to Flight of Angels. Two of the three were excellent wth plots and acting and such...one kinda sucked. I found that one to be rather boring and hard to follow...oh well. I went with Tiphani and Lori...Maggie and Molly were there. I was kinda mean to Maggie, but then wasn't...oh well again :-p. Tommorrow: Van Helsing NOONISH!!! I wanted to talk to Nicko, but could not find him(or did not look very hard) and I must call him tommorrow!!! EARLY! Ok. I shall sleep now. :)

:: 2004 27 April :: 12.44am
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: none....but I thin tere is this strange buzzing noise...

Graham lives very far away. I got a ride from Jon today. He makse me smile. I need to invest in my own car or something...I am sick of bumming rides. I watched the second half of Firecracker...it was funny = ). Whitney is so adorable in this play. Oh yeah. Sleepy time. I got home at 10:15ish today. Booooo.

Oh yeah! I almost forgot! Everybody was freaking out about Ida, the drama ghost. She is mad or something...the air compressor turned on in the middle of the play....we kept losing ballons...just little stuff, but still.

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:: 2004 18 April :: 1.02pm
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: tv

I had a dream about a tornado hitting our school last night. When we first went there, you could see the wister and it looked like it was RIGHT next to it in the sky...then everything was flooding and we had to leave by floating on busses. For some reason, Gwen did not leave and I was freaking out about Gwen dying. I went to her mom's work (she worked on a cattle plant O_o...) and was freaking...then I woke up. Yup. I was scared.

Edit: I know what part of it means. Yay!

:: 2004 13 April :: 11.02pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: water running

I <3 Mishellle!!!
She is paying for my journal!!! I am keeping the Woohu!!! YAAYYY!!! And Nick...she is paying for yours too. Be happy or I will kick you. Yah.

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:: 2004 6 April :: 10.06pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Disney Channel

Graham crackers...
Today was actually a fairly good day...it started out bad, however. I was all tired...then Roxanne was upset...then we got a C- on our drama thing(one of the better of the day :-s)..then it went up after math. In English, Gwen, Kyle, and I just goofed off and half-wrote our 3rd grade stories. When we were leaving, Gwen reached and grabbed me and shocked me. Then Kyle reached and like shook me or something and shocked me more than Gwen. I asked why they kept shocking me and they responded with stuff like (Gwen): "You're electrifying!" (Kyle): You're shockingly beautiful!" and such chessy puns :-p. Oh well. It brightened my day ^_^. In Social Studies, I was near sleep while the teacher was in the back. 'Twas funny, though, because Mark (Stelling) sits in front of me and he was in the same state. Choir we watched Brother Bear...Science sucked as usual...not too bad I guess, though..Swimming Aly and I watched everyone swim..we got called the "mono brigade" or something. She has mono too. HAAAHAAAA.

I decided to stay after to help build set after school. 'Twas rather fun after I got over my immense tiredness and hunger. I screwed a lot...Christie and I got the title of the little screwers... O_o

I got a ride home from Jon Bell...he is so much nicer than I thought. BTW...THAT is Maggie's love. *eye roll* He does, however, have an awesome CD collection. We were listening to Blindside when he was driving me home for a little while, and I found it awesome. I like them a bit..I wanna here more. We got a LOT done on the set today. Woo!

Now I just found out Amanda has a crush on me STILL...*shifty shudder uncomfortable*...eep. GAA I am lying to her!! I told her I used to like her....I hate lying..I am too nice of a person...= ( I am shy and too nice...meaning I am a pacifist nonconfrontational freak..

Byebye...O_o

:: 2004 4 April :: 5.29pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: Microwave, little people, No Doubt in the distance

Bah.
Well, everything is all set and we can have a movie party here next weekend. My mom was surprising...she said yes when I first asked and actually sounded glad to have it here O_o. Comment if you want to/can come!

I slept until 3 today! That means I slept 13 and a half hours! (I got up from 11:30-noon)...So much for LOSING an hour of sleep tonight!

The little boy is telling a story to his sandwich about this guy and sandwich that got married, but he ended up eating the sandwich in the end O_o.

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:: 2004 2 April :: 10.58pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: O Brother, Where Art Thou?

Scaramoch, Scaramoch, will you do the fandango? Yay Queen!
We may be getting a Rottweiler puppy :-D ^_^, and other happy faces. We may also be getting new carpet tommorrow...this deep red stuff. It is pretty.

:: 2004 1 April :: 6.50pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Full House

Bwahhhahaaah!!
Nick is fuzzy again!!!! O_O

We sucked at sight reading.

:: 2004 31 March :: 10.40pm
:: Mood: depressed/just plain sad/tired
:: Music: White Stripes - Dead Leaves and the Dirty Ground...LTJ

Stupid fucking everyone(though I have nothing against Alex right now)
two
You can be both .Changing like the wind
You change your mood very often it depends on your
surroundings and your momental feelings.
Its like you would have two persons in yourself
You are very intensive...very happy or very sad.
You have a life but its very tortured.
Find the balance and youll feel better
.But its not bad to be like this if you are good
mooded everyone loves you .
But when you get bad mood the whole world should
hide from you .

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Very true for the most part...

BEAUTIFUL ICE PRINCESS/PRINCE .You need distance
between you and your partner in your
relationship. You are very difficult to get.
You have big requirements and this one you love
must try hard to get you. But after she/he melt
your heart she/he will be the most happy person
in the world. You need someone who shoes you
that you are special and it makes you feel
good to see that you are loved. She/He shall
know that you could easily get another
girl/boyfriend but you wont as long as you
love him. when she/he hurts you you will hurt
him too, but in general you dont get hurt. If
your partner cheated you ,you would react cold
and immediately (try to) forget him
PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always
message me or tell me how I can improve that
quiz. Ill sure write back.

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Ok. Damn pictures aren't working.

Everything is so LOUD right now! The tv seems to be rising, and I am listening to music, and the stupid people that live in this house are VERY loud and I am about to scream. I have tried going to sleep, but it did not work and I shall try again soon. I need my ear to pop.

Everything seemed to be going wrong today. I almost cried numerous times. I just want to be alone. I shall in a few minutes. I am seriously intolerable of people right now and as of late. I was about to kill, but then I stepped outside and breathed in the rain air and it helped immensely.

It seems as if everyone is against me lately. Either they are too close or too far away, never perfect. I don't want them and they are there or I want them and they are always no where to be seen. There are very few I can tolerate as of late. I just want to be left alone...

Fuck now I am about to cry...ohh here come the tears. My keyboard is almost dotted. I need more rain/air.

Oh...bye the way...Andy was Romeo and I was Juliet and it was the big "first meeting" scene. We got teased lots :-p.

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:: 2004 30 March :: 8.09pm
:: Mood: Tired
:: Music: News

I want my ears to pop.
I went to the doc, and starting tommorrow I am on Welbutrin or however it is spelled. I heard someone tell me how good it is, but I forget who. It turns put I was not supposed to participate at all in gym for the past month and I have...but now I have ten days off swimming which starts tommorrow.

My ear is making me really dizzy. I wish it would stop.

I think that is it.