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2004 29 March :: 6.26pm
:: Mood: miserable
:: Music: Linkin Park...Oo it is now the Rasmus!
The sun.
You all must check out this band if you haven't already. It is The Rasmus. I like them.
I officially HATE the sun. In gym we went outside. I got such a terrible fucking headache and felt so sick. The sun is the devil. It makes me sicker than I already am. It should die. I also can not stand to be in crowds lately. I used to love it, now I get all paranoid majorly. It stinks.
I love Gwen's mommy = ). She rocks.
On Thursday I am going out to lunch and stuff since it is district and I have to be at school at 3, but do not have rides anywhere so I have to stay.
ALL OF MY BALLS ARE STRIPPED ALMOST!!!!!! I AM GOING TO SCREAM!!
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2004 25 March :: 6.20pm
:: Mood: miserable
:: Music: Me coughing my lungs out...oww
Another of my stupid dreams nobody will care about.
It started out when I was in a library. I was waiting for Nicko...he finally showed up and we were supposed to do a research project about some weird country I was unfamiliar with. We had 3 hours to do resrearch, but the majority of the time we both just sat there...there was that uncomfortablesilence between us like when you are with someone you don't like or know very well. When I finally went out to the books, I found people such as Josh Barone and began to talk to them. Then Shelle came in and I abandoned everything else to go talk to her. A movei was shown for some strange reason, but everyone there went to watch it. When that was done, the library was closing. I had to find Nick because we still had nothing done. Mishelle waited with me, among others. We found his sister's little purple car(that does not exist), so we knew he had not yet left. He finally came out and I realized after Shelle left that I needed a ride home. We were waiting for his sister and the creepy Cradle of Filth picture that frightens me greatly popped up...but it was in child form and just staring at me. Nick told me that THING was friend's with Shea's little brother. I was completely freaking out right then. The sister came and she was driving a short yellow bus...so I rode that home.
It was very, very weird.......
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2004 24 March :: 6.28pm
:: Mood: miserable
:: Music: Full House
= (
I think I am dying. I feel so fucking terrible I am amazed I lasted all day. I was about to go home in first, but didn't. I only halfly tried on my drama "talent". I failed my Science test I think.
I have my prom ticket. I really hope I feel better by then. If not it will really suck. Anyone wanna come to my house after prom? The insane mom will be locked in a church.
Sleep.
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2004 21 March :: 10.05pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: Yellowcard
FUCK.
I have a new found love for Yellowcard and a recurring love for Taking Back Sunday. I love these bands and don't want to give them back to Alex.
Our play sucked. Better my money to go to our theatre department than CMR's, though.
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2004 20 March :: 3.49pm
:: Mood: depressed/contemplative/tired
:: Music: You're a shining star!...Can you feel the love tonight?
Don't mind me.
I think I made Mishelle's bday party hell. Sorry, Mishelle.
I may go to the play with Kelsey tonight. I hope I can.
So sick, so sick of being tired, and oh so tired of being sick....I love Taking Back Sunday. I am borrowing it from Alex. Along with other emo stuff. I feel emo. Yay emo!
I wish I knew what was wrong with me. I am not being myself at all. It seems like I am incapable of being bubbly or having any personality at all, or being like I usually am. I hate it. I am only tired, depressed, or apathetic. I slept for a long time last night and I am still tired.
I am going to go listen to emo and sleep.
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2004 18 March :: 6.47pm
:: Mood: depressed and bitchy
:: Music: No Doubt..*NSYNC - God must have spent a little more time on you
I am fucking peachy. How are you?
There was SEX on the school football field today O_O
Chrisitie has a crush on SETH!!! Seth has a crush on Christie! It is so cute!!!
I still need to write my resume for crew >'.'<
We are doing a "talent contest" in drama. I, being talentless me, am doing my SOI piece. Exciting, eh? I should find someone else to do something with, too.
I am pathetic. I should get over it.
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2004 16 March :: 6.18pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: FUSE
It is coming baaaaackkk!!!
I am now going to prom. Thank Kelsey.
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2004 16 March :: 7.52am
:: Mood: cynical
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday - Your Own Disaster...LTJ - Teenager in love..I want you to want me
Meh. Formally.
I went to bed about 7 last night. A full ten hour night!
I have been noticing stuff lately...Like how cute this one chick is....And she has the most awesome glasses! They are all like cat-eyed sorta and have sparkly jewel things on edges...She has orangeish-red hair as well. There is also another chick with BRIGHT red hair and she had red makeup when I saw her and she was so awesomely cute...Alright. Alex (JIMMY) is right...cute does sound young :-p. But she was!
With guys I am not even noticing looks anymore..well...noticing:yes, but caring:no...so I am gathering more crushes there...I am just too shy.
Which brings me to my next point. I am constantly pushing everyone away. I HATE IT. I am shy AND I push people away which means I lose alot more than I should. It fucking sucks how I can not stand to be close to anyone as much as I may want to. Quite depressing, really..
ITEDs (IOWAS!) start today. = )
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2004 14 March :: 11.19pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: Home movies
Damn little boy
The little boy was in a bad mood when he came home. My mom ended up slapping him because he was bad mouthin her, being disrespectful, and just talking uneducatedly. He kicked her back, so she slapped him again. He grabbed the bag of apples and threw them at her. Then they were all out brawlin...all on the floor...he kicking, she punching....Then they ended it, he got up and ran to John's house. (John is his friend)..He called his dad and he came and picked him up from there. The dad called the mom and she would not talk. The little boy called the mom and she talked to him, and he ended up talking for his dad...they were threatening her to take Marty as well as Harley and press charges against my mom...So then she hung up and would not answer any more. She called the cops and asked what to do. The only thing possible is for her to report the little boy as a runaway...so she is doing that. She went to her work to get the divorce papers and then down to the police station. I am all alone...
This may sound bad, but I want her to come back so she can do my hair. It looks bad :-p.
...I hope nothing bad happens...
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2004 14 March :: 1.24am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Dave the Barbarian!
Quiz time
Rain: You are the sound of rain. You have two
important sides. There is your strong, powerful
side and your calm, gentle side. Both are very
important. Rain also reflects a bit of darkness
in your personality. It isn't bad, just shows
that along with the good, you also can see bad,
which can come in handy. (please rate my quiz)
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You are guided by water. You are generally calm and
peaceful, but you can be very destructive
without even realizing it.(Rate my test)
What force is your soul?
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...I feel watery and wet....(DO NOT MISINTERPRET -_-)
your dark and mysterious..you have a hidden talent
but you don't tell anyone..its probably an art
of some kind...you don't let people get that
close to you because you've been hurt
alot...your tough and independant..your
actually alot like me....cool..please rate..
What emotion does your soul hold...(kinda for girls but either can take)
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You are Cleopatra of the Nile. The great
biographer of the time, Plutarch, wrote of
Cleopatra, 'Her actual beauty, it is said, was
not in itself so remarkable that none could be
compared with her, or that no one could see her
without being struck by it, but the contact of
her presence, if you lived with her, was
irresistible . . . It was a pleasure merely to
hear the sound of her voice, with which, like
an instrument of many strings, she could pass
from one language to another . . .' You have a
spark in you that draws other people to you.
Indeed, you are drawn to others because you are
always curious. People can talk to you; and
you have a passion in life to know, live, love,
and learn. Please rate my quiz.
What famous female ruler are you? (written for the girls)
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2004 13 March :: 7.02pm
:: Mood: Tired
:: Music: K99...I am too lazy to change it.
Lyke Oh My. God. Lyke totally freak my out I said right on!
Grunge! You're all about the music and would even
turn your back on fame just to stay true to
your roots... You reached your high in the
early '90s, but you're still making some good
stuff! Keep rocking!
What genre of rock are you?
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I am so tired.
I got an AP today. It has nakee people on front. O_O
We also got about a hundred burritos. There was a big sale going on.
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2004 12 March :: 12.23am
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: commercial
It was so weird...
Ok. I just got a phone call. Lemme type it out...
*ring ring*
Me: Hello?
Them: Hi.
Me: Hello?
Them: Who is this?
Me: ...Jessika...
Them: Hi, Jessika. Where is mom?
Me: At church
Them: This late?
Me: Yeah....she should be home any minute...
Them: What is your last name?
Me: ....Palmer....
Them: Oh shit. I have the wrong number! *laughter in background obnoxiously*
Me: Ok...bye...
*click on my part*
It was so weird....the voice was VERY familiar..I just can not place it. DAMNIT....It is making me frustrated!!!! The voice almost reminded me of my brother on a bad cell phone. Yet...not. It was like high school/college dude sounding. VERY strange.......GAAAAAA ;_;
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2004 11 March :: 9.43pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: South Park/Alanis - Thank you...Bittersweet Symphony
We are living in a world of smoke.....
Let's start our own popular crowd!!! And let the dead ducky come to the rescue when we wreck humanity with smiles on our faces!!!!
I just sent our poem to Tiph :-p. She found it very amusing.
You are Captain Jack Sparrow. Everyones favorite
con artist, you know how to manipulate peaople
and use them to help your own cause. But all in
all, you are very pure-hearted and have good
intentions. Although you tend to be a bit of a
loner, others around you admire you greatly.
You are incredibly smart and have the best
attitude: be true to yourself, no matter what
others think.
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I finished The Da Vinci Code tonight. I encourage everyone to read it. I am willing to lend it out if you need it, it is that good...
Nick! When is your break and what does your math schedule thing look like?
I really hope I get my movie tommorrow...
I have had like 3 crushes come and go within 3 and a half weeks....I wanna KEEP a crush! DAMNIT.
Science assessment was very easy, but I did not finish. Mr. Logan told us to stay after, so me and Hessler were like 10 mintues late for gym. It rocked = ).
And....that is all. FIN.
Oh no it isn't! Stupid people took away my Nicks, MTV and MTV2, comedy central, and noggin. But now they are back! WOOOOOO!!!! ^_^
Now I am done.
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2004 10 March :: 6.08pm
:: Mood: Pukish-weird
:: Music: Simple Plan -_-
People are dying, I think.
Well....I am sure that SOMEWHERE people are dying. Anyway.....in drama we are watching Westside Story, so all through math when I was trying to think I had "Mariaaa!!!!!!!" going through my head...good thing the math assessment was super easy. I beleive I got a 4. English we read and analyzed the..(bauh bauh bauh BAUH!) PROLOGUE...after all this crap, we STILL have not begun to read Romeo and Juliet..pissing me off slightly. Social studies boring..nothing happened. Choir we are singing a song about rain and I actually like it. In Science Annie, Kelsey P., and I had to do stupido lab of horsepower and then halfway through I got super sick and such..It sucked. In gym I chose basketball over volleyball again. I hate volleyball. However I still felt all sick and blah, so afterwards I felt worse. Got out at 2:40....busses did not seem to come...Luckily I got a ride home from Kaylene. I was told Kaylene and I both are on the cover of the yearbook..Nifty, eh?
BTW...Who has Holy Grail? Bring it to Kaylene's!!!!!!!!!!! You must you must you must! Then we watch that and Rocky Horror! (assuming I get it back from Graham)
....sleep is good...
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2004 10 March :: 6.01pm
:: Mood: Pukish-weird
:: Music: Simple Plan -_-
People are dying, I think.
Well....I am sure that SOMEWHERE people are dying. Anyway.....in drama we are watching Westside Story, so all through math when I was trying to think I had "Mariaaa!!!!!!!" going through my head...good thing the math assessment was super easy. I beleive I got a 4. English we read and analyzed the..(bauh bauh bauh BAUH!) PROLOGUE...after all this crap, we STILL have not begun to read Romeo and Juliet..pissing me off slightly. Social studies boring..nothing happened. Choir we are singing a song about rain and I actually like it. In Science Annie, Kelsey P., and I had to do stupido lab of horsepower and then halfway through I got super sick and such..It sucked. In gym I chose basketball over volleyball again. I hate volleyball. However I still felt all sick and blah, so afterwards I felt worse. Got out at 2:40....busses did not seem to come...Luckily I got a ride home from Kaylene. I was told Kaylene and I both are on the cover of the yearbook..Nifty, eh?
BTW...Who has Holy Grail? Bring it to Kaylene's!!!!!!!!!!! You must you must you must! Then we watch that and Rocky Horror! (assuming I get it back from Graham)
....sleep is good...
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