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2004 28 January :: 11.43pm
:: Mood: tired...rushed..
:: Music: Sabrina and typing and sounds of messenger beeping
I am still not done with Les Mis essay. Yay me! But almost.
I coughed up loads of chunky clotty blood today. It was rather gross.
I want to do the mock trial thing. But....I have nobody to go ith me. I WOULD ask Michelle...but noo...she wouldn't = (
I am curious still about AB.....we could have gotten Josh to fill in...it would have worked...But whatever...
I think I am getting sick. I feel as if I am about to puke and I have aches everywhere in my body. BOO.
Now that I have stayed home, I never want to go back to school.
Harley and Marty's grades went down alot. So the mom was pissed. Nearly every grade they got went down to a D. Most were C's and B's. I feel bad for them(almost)...I got all A's in 5th. Oh well.
*puke* is what I feel like doing.
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2004 28 January :: 12.54am
:: Mood: Ya know.....it is kinna cold around here ; )
:: Music: Daria = D
Mission!
K. I need a boyfriend for another guy. He seems desperate. Any suggestions?
On a different note, I worte the drama skit thing. I am new to that class.....I hope I did ok....I got bored at the end, so it has no conlusion. Oh well. I just need to type now....3 pages front and back...*Hopes length is ok*
I have to write an essay on Les Mis. *barf* It is due tommorrow and not written = ). I am going to say how like Jean's life became complete through the love of Cosette and hate of Javert because you need both to live a full life. *barf*
I have math, science(math skills!!!!), and history.
Which brings me to my next point. I seriouslt do not know why I have too much homework to do now..(my teachers are conspiring with the quizzes!!!), but I have decided to stay home tomorrow. I told my mom it was too cold for me to go to school. After a while she gave in, so yay I get to stay home.
Roxanne, if you want the skit, let me know soon so I can email it to you tonight or morning!!!
And last, NEVER sign up for Academic Bowl as Freshman. I thought it would go by grade/intelligence level for rounds. Thursday we go against Andy Salonen and them: Juniors...some of the smartest students in the school as well. And nearly all policy debaters. JOY.
Keep warm!
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2004 26 January :: 10.14pm
:: Mood: disgusted
:: Music: Black and white Andy Griffith Show! ^_^ I suck.
Dark magician. You love the dark because of it's
beauty and just the life that no-one else sees.
Mysterious, calm, quiet... But that doesn't
mean you're not friendly!
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Well.....what a coinkydink...... Nick? TAKE!
Drama is going to bug me incessantly. Stupid people in it. I think the class itself should be worth going through stupid people, though. I hope. My Science class rocks now. Gym will suck. I have Allyson (the new one) in 2 of my classes: English and gym. She seems awesome.
Alex(ander?) seems awesomely cool. I like Woohu friends. They rock.
I hate Ashli Brasda and Cassidy. And I sit by both of them in Choir. *shudder* Immaturity sucks and drives me up a wall. I literally begged Nitschke to change me, and she said talk to her tomorrow.
Askley K. and R. are out of my English class. YAYYY!!!!!
I seems rather anti-social nowadays. Yet I still do come across as friendly. And I am lost as to why.
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2004 24 January :: 5.22pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: XM commercial
Woohoo more me! = P
Unless I find a ride on time, I can not go to Mishelle's house. So probably not. Have fun without me! And Roxanne! And Gwen for a while!
Yesterday upon the stair,
I met a man that wasn't there.
He wasn't there again today.
I wish to hell he'd go away!
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2004 24 January :: 11.44am
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: Jimmy Neutron
Don't mind me updating lots....
Things lately have been...weird...
First, I can not seem to stay awake. I get up at 5, take a shower, then go back to sleep till 6:30. Then I get up, get dressed, and sleep till I have to leave. Then I fall asleep in first and second periods. I come home, and take a 3-4 hour nap. I can not help it...the next thing I know I had fallen asleep and it is like 7 or so. Then I go to bed around 9 and do it all over again. I am literally sleeping my life away.
I have had the STRANGEST thoughts(why is there an H in that word?!) and dreams lately..Like I had a dream today...it was very odd...and then I fell back asleep..and reamed again. This time I was talking to Shell and she slapped me for having a dream...like she would because she knows too much...and then I explained how it was nothing bad...just weird..then I told her about the dream I had had in my previous dream, yet I was still dreaming..then I woke up and could not remember the first dream at all. But it did not have very many friends in it. And part of it was like a normal day at school...yet it was different somehow..something was just very strange about it all...my thoughts have either been morbid or very contemplative. I don't have an example, they are just weird for me.
I need to get out of the house and go somewhere besides school.
Today my puppy came up to my room around 9 and would not leave me alone. Finally she got me to downstairs with her and she STILL won't leave me alone....
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2004 23 January :: 4.27pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Old Men hitting on young girls
You are a PHOENIX in your soul and your
wings make a statement. Huge and born of flame,
they burn with light and power and rebirth.
Ashes fall from your wingtips. You are an
amazingly strong person. You survive, even
flourish in adversity and hardship. A firm
believer in the phrase, 'Whatever doesn't kill
you only makes you stronger,' you rarely fear
failure. You know that any mistake you make
will teach you more about yourself and allow
you to 'rise from the ashes' as a still greater
being. Because of this, you rarely make the
same mistake twice, and are not among the most
forgiving people. You're extremely powerful and
wise, and are capable of fierce pride, passion,
and anger. Perhaps you're this way because you
were forced to survive a rough childhood. Or
maybe you just have a strong grasp on reality
and know that life is tough and the world is
cruel, and it takes strength and independence
to survive it. And independence is your
strongest point - you may care for others, and
even depend on them...but when it comes right
down to it, the only one you need is yourself.
Thus you trust your own intuition, and rely on
a mind almost as brilliant as the fire of your
wings to guide you.You are eternal and because
you have a strong sense of who and what you
are, no one can control your heart or mind, or
even really influence your thinking. A symbol
of rebirth and renewal, you tend to be a very
spiritual person with a serious mind - never
acting immature and harboring a superior
disgust of those who do. Likewise, humanity's
stupidity and tendency to want others to solve
their problems for them frustrates you
endlessly. Though you can be stubborn,
outspoken, and haughty, I admire you greatly.
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WOW it took me a long time to get this.....first Internet Explorer was not qorking and had to close, then I got sidetracked by various stuff......
SO happy semester is over. Drama on Monday! WOOO! I got a 68% on math final. = ) Luckily it changed my grade down a whole PERCENT, so I got 85. Yay. I got a's in all classes but math and debate(B's) so woohoo.
Tired. Very Tired.
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2004 22 January :: 6.58pm
:: Mood: Meh.
:: Music: Distillers and little girl
Today was shit.
First off, math test today drained my brain. And it was the first test. BAH. Then after school Shell and Roxanne could not ride the bus. Which just pissed me off. So I went to East alone. And they would not let me in. Mrs. Kloppel "suddenly has a new rule this year" that we can not come back. Yet they alwyas tell us to. So I found Katie and sat. For 40 fucking minutes. I enjoyed talking to the Bum, and Mrs. Howell. Ohh...and Mrs. O'Terro (or however her name is spelled) and she misses all of us AAHKBer's. OH YAH! It made me feel special. And she said it was not right that Maggie got 'recruited' for it this year. She sends her greetings. though. Then to top it all off, some 7th graders as I was leaving were all like "Are you GOTHIC???" I stood there puzzled for a sec then got pissed and was all like "YES. I sure am gothic. Maybe if you wait a second longer I will even suck your blood." *pissed off look at them again* As I was walknig dowen Central everyone was looking at me as if I was a freak of nature. So I went down to 5th instead.
DAMN I AM TIRED
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2004 20 January :: 12.25am
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: Squeaking of chair....no actual music now
Fuck you all!
GOD I am getting sick of mankind and the stupid "phases" it goes through. Everyone is doing everything they can to piss me off today, whether they know it or not. I mean seriously: GET A FUCKING CLUE! I am sick of pity, I give up on attemtping to be sympathetic, especially if you will never care in the end. FUCK YOU HOLY SHIT GOD ALMIGHTY GO TO HELL!!!!!!! ~Directed to about 4 people I can think of~
But I keep remembering something a judge wrote on one of my ballots: I made the audience uncomfortable with the way I talked about suicide. That makes me happy ^_^!
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2004 18 January :: 3.23am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: RHCP
I suck. But am so proud of myself! I barely messed up! But The judges put me lasst. All of em but one. Some of the pieces were downright boring. It makes me confident knowing that I am worse than them ; ). I got second one round...that was good...and then one of the judges that put me in last left me only good comments..which pissed me off...
And Duo finals and sems absolutely rocked. I loved the guys that got first. Can't wait till next year so I can do duo.
And Spencer and Tiph are goin out.
And Stacey(Weigum) has my baby. And is my whore. We work at the same corner.
And Rochelle is seriously a dirty whore. All the schools know it.
And Lion King rocks.
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2004 15 January :: 9.30pm
:: Music: *vaccuuummmm.....*
I am procrastinating.
Why can I not see my journal OR my friends? *sadwhimperwhine*
WOW am I ever procrastinating....I completely stumbled through my piece today and am STILL not working on it...not packed...homework not done..And don't you just LOVE how I am sitting here ranting instead of actually doing something? I know I do. I have such a problem with laziness....
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2004 13 January :: 8.25am
:: Mood: rushed
:: Music: Stupid Beyonce
Well...I getta go to Billings! With the piece I have practiced a whole once as of now.....*nervous*....and I am the ONLY SOI going....*nervouser*....
I have absolutley no aspect of time lately...yesterday it did not feel like Monday, but not any other day either...it felt kind of like an unknown day in neverending forever. When I was walking home(I got stranded at school!), I felt as if I was to nevere stop walking for I would never reach my destination.. hmm...
Last night I think Harley came in to my room or something..I could have been dreaming. He said something to the effect of "If mom were to want to talk to you with us as a family and have us start spending time together would you?" I said NO....but I think I may have been dreaming...I shall inquire of him in like 2 minutes though...time to go get dressed and such.
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2004 9 January :: 12.38am
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: commericals on FUSE
My pup is funny. GO PUPPY GO PUPPY GO!!!!
I officially love Prozac. I took 2 this morning and the hyper/not unhappy feeling lasted allll day. It rocks.
I got 2 more posts and 4 balls and a spike thing for my chin.
*Prozac, Prozac, Prozac, and razor blades. Razor blades, razorblades, and Prozac. The things that keep me happyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!*
New song. Sounds awesome. I bet you can just IMAGINE the awesomeosity of it, huh??!?!?!
Leave me alone. Nearly everyone around needs a writer. Not just me. So shut up.
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2004 7 January :: 11.42pm
My mom has thoroughly convinced me I am worthless and am not worth the light of day. I do not deserve anything nor will I ever amount to anything. The way it has always been. I might as well stop applying myself...it has no point.
On another note Gwen came over today for speech. We got hardly anything done. But she said my piece made her sad. Good I spose. But not that it matters kuz I am incapable.
The little people ate the dinner that was made, including mine. Now there is no food left in the house. I don't mind I guess. I am too fat. Better not to eat.
Now I should go leave and sleep my pointless life away. It is all I can do.
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2004 6 January :: 6.21pm
:: Mood: depressed...like usual....
:: Music: IMX
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Willy "Wonka" Wallen has cancer! I have been very sad lately. This does not particularly help.....
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2004 6 January :: 1.48am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Proud Family
Really. The stars are ugly.
Well...it is around 2 o' clock. I am WAAAAYYYYYY too awake. Pooey. I just frosted my cake.
Ancient Rome (going old school Hollywood, aren't
we?)
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Today Beth told me my hair makes me look as if I'm sad. I do not think it was my hair....but Beth is a sweetie anyhow. A lot oblivious to life around her, but a sweetie nonetheless.
Barbara was disgusting. SHe had this leather shirt thing that barely covered her and a mesh t shirt see through thingy with a zipper for no reason on top. Then there were "bondage pants" or the cheap Hot Topic style only she buys...it was particularly trashy looking. So bad that it "earned" a placed here. It was funny. Whenever she walked by everyone turned away and covered their eyes. And then the sister complained about the names that had come with it like 'hoe' and 'slut'. I heard more of cheap candy whore, but whatever. I bet she was trying to be "Goffik". Pathetic. Just thoguht I hadda rant about that for a second.
I WISH I COULD SLEEEEEEEEEEP!!!!!!!! ;_;
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