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2005 31 May :: 3.50pm
http://www.geocities.com/bakagnome/loz.mp3
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2005 29 May :: 4.21pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: straylight run - mistakes we knew we were making
high hopes = shit loads of vulnerability :)
still haven't heard from quest .. im startin to think i just may have made it .. but i dont wanna get cocky too soon hehe ...i had a dream yesterday that i checked my email and they had sent me a letter saying "srry ur just not what we're looking for wit this program, but thank u"... i woke up and i was like all poopy ... but then i checked my mail and guess what? still no news.. they decide the finalists next monday .. which also happens to be my baby's birthday ... hopefully it'll be a really really good day.. :D god i sure hope so.. but anyways ima see if i can get a hold of michael's loser butt self cuz he was sposed to email me the name of this one song i've been meaning to download.. oh wellz.. bye bye everyone.. work was exhausting and i could use a nice nap. :)
tonite's song: w/e the name of that new staind song turns out to be (grr michael :/ )
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2005 25 May :: 10.14pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: nothing
interpret it as u please...
is it bad that he makes me feel really good?
* do i feel bad? .. of course i do
* do i care? ... im not so sure anymore.. apathy has really started to take over..
tonite's song: helena by my chemical romance
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2005 24 May :: 9.42pm
i feel fat
i am fat
i need to stop eating
gotta run
damn it
im so fat
i will never be loved if im fat
must be thin and pure
thin and pure
like a cup
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2005 23 May :: 1.43pm
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: same as lyrics
yea yea i know im a loser for likin them but .. i can't help it .. im a sucker for good lyrics
Cute Without The 'E' (Cut From The Team) Lyrics
( Taking Back Sunday Lyrics )
Your lipstick, his collar.. don't bother Angel
I know exactly what goes on
When everything you'll get is
everything that you've wanted, princess
(well which would you prefer)
My finger on the trigger, or
(me face down, down across your floor)
Me face down, down across your floor
(me face down, down across your floor)
Well just so long as this thing's loaded
And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin
And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin
let's go...
Don't bother trying to explain Angel
I know exactly what goes on when you're on and
How about I'm outside of your window
(how about I'm outside of your window)
Watchin him keep the details covered
You're such a sucker (you're such a sucker)
for a sweet talker, yeah
And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin
(the only thing that I regret is that I, I never let you hold me back)
And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know you never loved me
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know you never loved me
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know...
Why can't I feel anything
from anyone other than you?
Why can't I feel anything
from anyone other than you?
And all of this was all your fault
And all of this
(I stay jealous)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
for this simple reason
I just need to keep you in mind
as something larger than life
(she'll destroy us all before she's through
and find a way to blame somebody else)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
for this simple reason
I just need to keep you in mind
as something larger than life
(she'll destroy us all before she's through
and find a way to blame somebody else)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
for this simple reason
I just need to keep you in mind
as something larger than life!
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The Blue Channel Lyrics
( Taking Back Sunday Lyrics )
And I'm not so sure
if I'm sure of anything anymore
Well this is the last night (this is the last night)
that you'll be keepin'
secrets from me
Just hit the lights before you leave
you know, the million things you had to say
sorry just, just might have found it's way in there
somehow, someway
But don't worry sweetie
cause I already know
And I'm not so sure
if I'm sure of anything anymore
Well this is the last night (this is the last night)
that you'll be keepin'
secrets from me
And you're so guilty it's disgusting
He's been sneakin underneath your sheets
and your hands
have been in places that they probably shouldn't go
but don't worry sweetie
cause I already know
Regardless if my pictures
they don't line your mirror
Regardless you know that
I'll still wait for your call
Regardless if my pictures
they don't line your mirror
Regardless you know that
I'll still wait for your call
(this is, this is the last time i still wait for your call)
Regardless if my pictures
they don't line your mirror
Regardless you know that
I'll still wait for your call
(honestly, honestly, honestly, honestly)
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2005 23 May :: 10.57am
:: Mood: glad to be home
:: Music: ohio is for lovers-hawthorne heights
miss me? ;)
California
by Copeland
I miss the way you sing low
So I can't hear your voice
Over the radio in my car
But you knew every word they sang
You know just the right things to say
The distance rips us farther and farther and farther away
I'll see you soon
If you're coming back this way again
Come back from California
All of us here in Florida
Are starved for your attention
starved for your attention
(x2)
Maybe I fell too fast
Maybe I pushed you away
Now you're gone
And I'm afraid that you're never coming back this way again
I'll see you soon if you come back here
I'll see you soon
To say that you want to see me too
Come back from California
All of us here in Florida
Are starved for your attention
Starved for your attention
(x2)
You know I won't mind if you monopolize all of my time
I won't say a thing at all
I won't say a word no
So come back from California
Come back from California
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2005 19 May :: 6.50pm
:: Mood: bitter..
:: Music: 3685 - the spill canvas
*sigh*
so i was talkin to rafael today... and well.. it got me kidna depressed... read.. it really bugged me ..
FSUStud35: where are you going to college
babaloo181: well the dream is columbia or cornell
babaloo181: but if all else fails .. uf
FSUStud35: why not fsu kid
babaloo181: well there's somebody there i would really rather never see again
FSUStud35: and who is that ?
babaloo181: eh i dont really wanna say.. it's complicated
FSUStud35: are they in my class ?
babaloo181: yea
FSUStud35: as long as its not me lol
babaloo181: haha aww no ur great buddy :D
FSUStud35: then it has to be erica hardin lol
babaloo181: how in the world..
babaloo181: ok now that's just fucking creepy
FSUStud35: what that i guessed it
babaloo181: yea
babaloo181: well her and colin used to go out.. and she has been after him the entire time we have been dating pretty much... but w/e
FSUStud35: oh so your collin is her collin
FSUStud35: ok
babaloo181: yea
babaloo181: except no.... not hers
just hearing him call colin... "hers" ... bugged the shit out of me... and just knowing that yea.. there was a time when he was hers... that just makes me really upset... im sick of feeling this way... i dont know y these feelings wont go away... she's gone... but it still fucking hurts... to tell u the truth.. a part of me still resents him for it ... i dont think our relationship will ever be the same... u know ... sometimes i think .. that no matter how long we last.. i'll never be truly happy .. because i know .. that even if it was just one time... at that exact moment... he became just like the rest..
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2005 16 May :: 5.20pm
:: Mood: relieved
:: Music: o by omarion -- i kinda like this song :) .. a bit kinky but eh not bad hehe
ORALS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!
so that's it! the hardest parts of my jr year are done! over with! finito! i was so fucking worried about that damn oral man.. i mean with work and colin in town.. i spent 0 time working on orals.. i didnt even look at my poems over the weekend... but today .. every chance i got .. i studied adn studied and studied... i got the poem Colossus.. omg i was so fucking happy... nishang, alex and me had like ripped that poem apart when we had to do it in class.. it was like the only one that i actually had already constructed a thesis for.. omg i was so happy i could cry... it was the weirdest fucking setting for an oral... it was in the library.. and apparently on monday's they hold some sort of yoga class.. so im sitting there trying to concentrate and some dude with a freaky ass soothing voice is going "put ur leg over your head.. yes that's it... now bring your tippy toes over your forehead..." WTF! hahahaha .. i couldn't focus.. i was too busy trying to envision wtf that position must've looked like... agh but in the middle of my oral.. i couldn't think of the word for literal and figurative.. i kept saying.. well the literary context of this is .. blah blah blah.. when that's not at all what i meant... but i know i did really well cuz like.. in class she told us that at the end.. she's gonna ask u questions to try and get u to see things in the poem that u didn't talk about.. and if there's nothng that u left unsaid or there's nothing significant that u overlooked.. all she asks u is.. "so.. did u like this piece?" .. and those were the exact words that came out of that woman's mouth when i finished my oral.. omg u dont understand .. im like in pure bliss rite now... its a feeling of like .. this HUGE burden justl ike lifted off of my shoulders...
ok moving on ... i have a huge math test tomorrow.. and i dont know that im gonna have enough time to review for it given that tonite im going to that college meeting thingy at 7 30... columbia, cornell, rice, brown, and some other school are gonna be there.. and they're gonna talk bout their admissions process and what each school has to offer... im excited.. it should be interesting..
im so lost in chemistry... she could be speaking fucking jibberish and i'd probably understand more than i do now... some shit about dipoles and lewis dot diagrams and vesper somethings.. im so confused.. it's like she speaks.. and my mind just turns to mush... but w/e .. chem is bullshit anyway.
i gotta read the scarlet letter in about a day... my california interview is this weekend.. i gotta get everything ready for that .. which reminds me i need to get an official transcript.... fuck.. i've got so much to do.. not to mention like 10 weeks worth of latin hw in like 2 weeks... agh... im so exhausted... one thing gets done.. and i've got like 50 gazillion things lingering in my head that i still have to get done.. omg when this year is over.. im gonna just ... sleep... yep.. that's all i truly want.. a long peaceful... 12 hour .. nap.... omg that sounds fucking "orgasmic" (as my baby would say)...
alrite well im done ranting and sighing and bitching about all the damn things i still have to do ... so i hope u guys rn't as swamped as i am.. and i hope things r going well for all of u ... nite nite.
tonite's song: the fidelity by inmemory
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2005 10 May :: 8.42pm
"Travis": yo wat the fuck is ur problem
"Danielle": i didnt say anything
"Danielle": i sweat
"Danielle": *sswear
"Travis": the who the fuck did
"Travis": then*
"Danielle": nate did
"Danielle": he was mad cause i wouldnt give kellies number
"Travis": y should i believe u
"Danielle": iono i really dont care if you believe me or not... i know im not lying...
"Danielle": i dont even know why i would do something like that.. .i dont want you... i really could care less abou tyou
"Danielle": no offense or anything
"Travis": non etaken but y would nate say something like dat bout me if u wouldnt give him her #
"Danielle": cause he kept saying he wants to fuck your girl and that he wants to break you guys up so he can have her
"Danielle": he said it in english and i wouldnt lie about that
"Travis": ok tom in the morning u me amber and nate r goin to have a talk and ur goin to tell amber everything u jus said to me
"Danielle": ok
"Travis": were goin to figure all this shit out
"Danielle": ok
"Travis" is away at 8:40 P.M.
i fckn hate drama. lol.
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2005 10 May :: 4.31pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: same as song posted
aww.... i miss u baby :(
Artist: Starting Line
Song: Stay Where I Can See You
Album: Based On A True Story (2005)
For months you've been away
You're here a couple days
I've got all of the time in the world
To do with what we please
If it were up to me
We'd have all of the time in the world
Just stay right where I can see you
When you go away I get so low
Like temperatures when they're at their coldest
When you go away I get so lonely
And I'm stranded by the side of the bed
I can name all 50 states
48 get in the way
From me being next to you (From me being next to you)
If it were up to me
We'd have everything we need
You'd have me, and I'd have you
Just stay right where I could be-
Anyone you want
I'm glad I got the job
We've got something in mind
And I've got all this time
When you go away I get so low
Like temperatures when they're at their coldest
When you go away I get so lonely
And I'm stranded by the side of the bed
Just stay right where I can see you
Just stay right where I can..where I can see you
When you go away I get so low
Like temperatures when they're at their coldest
When you go away I get so lonely
And I'm stranded by the 1! 2!
When you go away I get so low
Like temperatures when they're at their coldest
Once you go away I get so lonely
When you go away I get so lonely
And I'm stranded by the side of the bed
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The Spill Canvas X 3685
My empty promises
Led to our demise
And I could never tell you how I really feel
and for that I eternally apologize
I hope you never forget the tapping at your window
With the harsh cold and the jealousy
running through my bones
We were both selfish, but I think I was more
I would like to thank you, for showing me
A part of myself that I have never seen
Yeah, we were young and dumb, but it still was fun
And I guess these things just tend to fall apart
And I hope you feel the same
My empty promises
My empty promises
Brought us to an end
I just hurt you and I never looked back
now I have no logic to defend
I hope you never forget the tapping at your window
With the harsh cold and the jealousy
running through my bones
We were both selfish, but I think I was more
I would like to thank you, for showing me
A part of myself that I have never seen
Yeah, we were young and dumb, but it still was fun
And I guess these things just tend to fall apart
I would like to thank you, for showing me
A part of the world that I have never seen
Yeah, I was young and dumb, but it still was fun
I'm forever indebted to you
I hope you feel the same
You seem like such a big part
Of my life and my heart
But the truth is I've found something new
And she easily towers over you
You seem like such a big part
Of my life and my heart
But the truth is I've found something new
And she easily towers over you
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INMEMORY LYRICS
"The Fidelity"
This fall belongs to both of us
Let me take you to a place where you can scream out loud
All the words to your favorite songs
‘Cause that’s the least that I can do
For how much you love me
And I hope you’ve had the time of your life
Thank you for the memories
You’re the only one that can pick me apart
Too fragile to realize
You make me who I am, you’re everything that is real
In my life
I understand we both grew up
And there’s things you have to do
The only thing I ask of you if you ever fall in love again
I hope you find yourself
Someone who knows how to appreciate the way you laugh
And I’m always here for you
You’re the only one that can pick me apart
Too fragile to realize
You make me who I am
You’re everything that is real
In my life
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