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2005 22 March :: 11.46pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: nothing
thank god it's over and done with
so i did it .. i finally submitted that exhausting application... im so glad i finally finished it ... i did it wit over 20 min to spare... haha ::sigh:: the true art of procrastination... which comes from latin ironically enough... seeing as how that's where i do most of my procrastinating hehe ... but anyways.. yea .. i really hope i get in to that program.. it just seems so perfect for me.. i'll be soo disappointed if i dont.. i think my essays were really great.. im proud of that application. i saved a lot of the essays i wrote for it cuz i think they would be the kind of essays colleges ask in their applications.. but anyways i really should get some rest.. it's almost midnight and im awful tired... and i have to go to work tomorrow at 10: 45 .. which on spring break.. mite as well be 6 o clock in the freakin morning hehe .. nite everyone.. .wish me luck :)
tonite's song: so much by the spill canvas
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2005 22 March :: 7.16pm
curves set things off
sooth the soul
i feel dominated by angles, angles, angles.
screaming conformation
what happened to the curves.
curves that flow.
curves that sooth.
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2005 19 March :: 1.06pm
:: Mood: peaceful
:: Music: across five aprils: a year from now :D
you know you're having an amazing time.. when ur too busy savoring the moment.. to take out ur camera and capture it forever...
today has been one of the most beautiful days i've ever had.... i woke up at a bout 6 ish.. left for colin's house at 7 30 and got there at 8.. we drove to starbucks.. drank some coffee.. and then just cuddled in my car.... after a while .. we drove to mcdonalds to grab somethign to eat... but omg the weather was absolutely beautiful... it was breezy and sunny... aww man it's like the perfect day to go to the beach.. i wish we could go together... but after we ate i dropped him off at his house cuz i go to work at 2 15... aww man the drive home was sooo nice... i put my windows down.. blasted green day... and let out a huge WHOOOOOOOOOO! every now and then haha... aww man it was so wonderful... the best weather i've seen.. like ever.... im so pissed that i have to go to work.. all i wanna do today is like go to a pool and lay there in the sun wit the breeze.. and wit my baby laying next to me.. that would make today absolutely perfect... but anywayz... im off to work :( ... i hope everyone goes out and enjoys this beautiful day we're having... sigh.... if things go well we'll get to see each other later tonite too... i hope so... :) .... buhz byez :D
tonite's song: Daphne loves derby - part of my past
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2005 17 March :: 8.06pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: same as song
daphne loves derby rocks my socks <3
Part Of My Past
by Daphne Loves Derby
Make this ride as fast as I can
Tonight this road home feels a little longer
I hope you know that you were my best friend
Tonight I said goodbye, but I should have said more
Thanks for the best time of my life.
Come home, now that you're gone I've finally realized
That you were the best
Come home, I won't forget the times that we had
I'm wishing that you weren't a part of my past
Emptiness swallows this town
From now on I will be alone for good
Will you remember my name?
I'm hoping that I will hear from you soon
Thank you for everything
Come home, now that you're gone I've finally realized
That you were the best
Come home, I won't forget the times that we had
So please don't be a part of my past
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"If only I'd thought of the right words
I could have held on to your heart
If only I'd thought of the right words
I wouldn't be breaking apart
All my pictures of you"
--the cure--
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2005 14 March :: 5.10pm
A Year From Now
by Across Five Aprils
Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours,
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But will never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember, cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I would have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real,
You said they were,
What happened?
You were a priority,
Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
Knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember these things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said is in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
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2005 12 March :: 3.12pm
:: Mood: missing u..
:: Music: same as song
aww.. so pretty..
So much - The spill canvas
How does it feel to know you're everything I need
The butterflies in my stomach
they could bring me to my knees
How does it feel to know you're everything I want
I've got a hard time saying this
so I'll sing it in a song
Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt
When we become one
When we become one
When we become one
When we become one
How does it feel
How does it feel when we get locked into a stare?
Please don't come looking for me
when I get lost in the mess of your hair
How do you feel when everything you've known
gets thrown aside
Never fear, my dear, 'cause we have nothing left to hide
Oh I adore the way you carry yourself
With the grace of a thousand angels overhead
I love the way the galaxy starts to melt
Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose
just know that I'm right next to you
Hold on to me girl
If you feel your grip getting loose
Just know that I won't let you down
Well, I'm ready
Well, I'm ready
I am ready
To run away with you
Are you ready?
Are you ready?
Are you ready?
To run away with me
Pack your things we can leave today
Pack your things we can leave today
Say our goodbyes and get on the train
Say goodbye
Just you and I in the sweet unknown
We can just call each other our home
If I had to choose a way to die
it'd be with you
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your face
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your cherub face
How does it feel?
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2005 11 March :: 5.13pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: nothin
lookie it's my baby! :D
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2005 5 March :: 1.34pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
:: Music: same as song
aww.... this song made me cry when i first heard it :'(
Remember When
by Alan Jackson
Remember when I was young and so were you
And time stood still and love was all we knew
You were the first, so was I
We made love and then you cried
Remember when?
Remember when we vowed the vows, and walked the walk
Gave our hearts, made the start, and it was hard
We lived and learned, life threw curves
There was joy, there was hurt
Remember when?
Remember when old ones died and new were born
And life was changed, disassembled, rearranged
We came together, fell apart
And broke each others hearts
Remember when?
--- Instrumental ---
Remember when the sound of little feet, was the music we danced to week to week
Brought back the love, we found trust
Vowed we never give it up
Remember when?
Remember when thirty seemed so old
Now lookin' back, its just a steppin' stone
To where we are
Where we've been
Said we do it all again
Remember when?
Remember when we said when we turn gray
When the children grow up and move away
We won't be sad, we'll be glad
For all the life we've had
And we'll remember when.
Remember when?
Remember when?...
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2005 3 March :: 7.28pm
the scale said: 127.5
when i was 120 - i could handle it
122 - i could handle it
125 - borderline
127.5 - i lost it
i cant do this.
what happened to 115?
fuck food
im giving it up for lent
i dont care that im not getting any nutrients.
i dont.
i wanna be skinnie
and not FAT!!!!!
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2005 2 March :: 8.31pm
:: Mood: hopeful
:: Music: i have the gilmore girls theme song stuck in my head ... :/
oh poopy..
so it's official... colin's spending his summer in spain... i wrote an entry bout our summer and how things weren't workin out but i decided to delete it ... just cuz .. well i dont know ... i was mad and confused and i just wrote it to kind of organize my thoughts... this was a few days ago btw... but anyways last nite .. colin told his dad that since we couldn't find anything.. to go ahead and register him for the language immersion program in spain... that's such an awesome opportunity.. he's gonna love it.. im so excited for him.. i just wish i could go with him.. or we could have found something just as awesome that we could do together.. but w/e... things dont always work out the way u want them to... the good news about all this? it certainly put my ass back in gear... im 3/4's done with the quest application (15 pages) ... all i need are 3 essays, a photo, and a transcript... i've registered my recommenders and filled out all the basic info.. and done about 15 short answer questions.. its' a cool app though.. like u can tell they're really looking to get to know u as a whole individual.. they asked stuff like what kind of music do u like.. and what's ur greatest sense of inspiration .. and what makes u happiest.. and what's ur favorite keepsake.. just little things like that ... it's not ur usual... tell me why we should accept u .. so it's really refreshing.. i really like it. i hope i get in... it just seems like the perfec t opportunity.. if i dont however... im thinkin of just signing up for college classes at hcc... during the summer... i may have to quit my job if i get into that program though.. cuz it's 5 weeks... but maybe i can work something out.. i dunno i'll have to talk to my mom and stuff... we went to islands of adventure monday... it was such a blast... it was a much needed "vacation" from ib... i loved it... oh yea i have a track meet tomorrow.. and on saturday too.. wish me luck everyone :D ...but yea i just realized american idol is playing so i gtg... nite nite everyone :)
tonite's song: ironic by alanis morissette ( i think that's who sings it.. :/ )
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