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2005 3 February :: 7.48pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: you were always on my mind-willie nelson
"and it's been a while.."
::sigh:: gotta love staind :) .. so .. it HAS been quite a while since i've written in this dusty old thing.. i dunno.. i just haven't been in the mood.. in fact i dont think i even wrote in here when colin came a few weekends ago... well it was so wonderful seeing him again.. it amazes me how much i love that kid.. like every time i see him it just reminds me of how much i care for him and love spending time with him.. it's so nice.. and u know what's even better? he's comin next weekend.. and the weekend after that.. u know what that means? next weekend is the weekend before valentine's day.. and the one after that is the weekend before our 1 year anniversary.. i still can't believe we've been together for a year... that's so odd... like i think about it and im just like.. wow.. we've been thru a lot though.. like now that i think about it ... gosh i can't wait till the seniors leave.. it'll make my life so much easier.. i wont have to see her anymore... god i swear .. just seeing her makes the rest of my day completely unbearable... everything just goes downhill and i get this sick feeling in my stomach.. it's awful.. haha u know what i should do? hell im part italian.. get the mob on her ass.. haha oh god im such a dork.. im glad not many ppl read this journal cuz im such an idiot haha ... well anywayz.. everything's been going alrite.. hectic.. but alrite.. i just want this year to be over with.. i want high school to be over with.. all this tension and pressure.. i can't deal wit it .. and to top it all off my asthma's been acting up lately.. i had an asthma attack the other day at track practice... it's such a scary feeling.. it's almost like ur drowning and everytime u come up for air somebody shoves u rite back into the water... i can't help but cry everytime i get one.. cuz u just feel like every breath u take is ur last... oh man.. so scary.. like i dont think ppl actually understand how terrifying it is.. to literally not be able to breathe.. but yea i got this new medecine.. i just hope it works... otherwise i have to quit track... hmm let's see what else... man i haven't talked to michael in forever! .. like a month almost.. which is sooo weird cuz we used to talk like every day ... oh well i guess it wasn't that good of a friendship .. kinda makes me sad though cuz he was a good buddy of mine .. like we talked bout a lot of stuff :( .. oh wellz ... ppl change... hell look at george! ... u know i was thinkin bout him the other day and .. man that was such a waste of my time and energy! like .. that was so not a real relationship.. and it sure as hell wasn't love... it felt so real while it was happening though.. i hope i dont someday feel that way bout me and colin... then again i dont think colin would treat me like that ... but w/e... hmm what else is goin on... i have to work tomorrow from 5 30 to 9 45 .. and saturday's latin competition like all day.. agh.. i feel like i have absolutely no free time anymore.. like there's always something i should be doing ... oh wellz ... that's purdy much all i wanted to say.. so nite nite
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2005 1 February :: 8.38pm
{s}ex cures {c}ancer
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2005 30 January :: 11.59am
do they win
if you sit there and take it?
or
when you hit the roof and flip the fuck out on them?
when is it they win?
How do you win?
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babaloo181
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2005 28 January :: 9.18pm
got bored and took some surveys... :P
Favorite thing about your boyfriend?: | that's too hard.. umm.. agh i can't pick just one! | What color are his eyes?: | brown :) | What color is his hair?: | brown too .. aww he's got the softest hair! | Whats his favorite color?: | umm.. haha .. red? | Whats his favorite movie?: | oh that one wit the vietnamese whore... full metal jacket.. or the modern version of romeo and juliette | When your alone what do you do?: | ;) | Whens his birthday?: | june 6th | Whats his nationality?: | a mixture of things but... white | Does he play any sports?: | soccer | Whats his favorite number?: | hell if i know... 6? | Does he like candles?: | wtf... | Ever done anything kinky?: | let's just say there's a half empty bottle of whipped cream in my glove compartment ;) hehe | Taken a shower together?: | nope | Are you in love?: | very much so |
Survey about your boyfriend brought to you by BZOINK!
Last Cigarette:: | i put a cuban cigar in my mouth when i was like 6.. unlit.. does that count? haha dont leave a child alone :P | Last Alcoholic Drink:: | umm.. champagne like 5 new years ago | Last Car Ride:: | umm.. driving home from school | Last Kiss:: | colin.. last weekend .. :) .. aww i miss him | Last Good Cry:: | if by "good" you mean like meaningful.. then ... about 4 or 5 months ago | Last Library Book checked out:: | haha umm.. it's been a while... i believe it was catcher in the rye | Last Movie Seen in Theatres:: | meet the fockers :D | Last Book Read:: | king lear | Last Movie Rented:: | scary movie.. like 3 years ago :P .. i dont rent movies | Last Cuss Word Uttered:: | umm fuck? | Last Beverage Drank:: | water | Last Food Consumed:: | apple pie | Last Crush:: | wat before colin? umm... wow that was a long time ago.. prolly cesar | Last Phone Call:: | colin.. wait no.. shilpa | Last TV Show Watched:: | friends | Last Time Showered:: | yesterday afternoon.. haha im such a pig :P | Last Shoes Worn:: | care bear flip flops :D | Last CD Played:: | dashboard confessional | Last Item Bought:: | nutri grain bars | Last Download:: | cold by crossfade | Last Annoyance:: | asthma | Last Disappointment:: | umm..can't think of anything | Last Soda Drank:: | a looong time ago.. i gave that up | Last Thing Written:: | ^^ | Last Key Used:: | ^ | Last Word Spoken:: | *cough* .. <--does that count? | Last Sleep:: | 11 last nite ... mmm.. sleep :) | Last IM:: | yara | Last Sexual Fantasy:: | hehe *sheepish grin* :P | Last Weird Encounter:: | that weird kid who knew my sn but lived in michigan and had no idea who i was... creepy | Last Ice Cream Eaten:: | cookie dough :D | Last Time Amused:: | tiffany made this cool oragami thing the other day.. wow.. it was cool | Last Time Wanting To Die:: | .. i try not to think bout that sort of thing | Last Time In Love:: | rite now :) | Last Time Hugged:: | a few hours ago | Last Time Scolded:: | a few minutes ago | Last Time Resentful:: | i dunno.. can't think of anything | Last Chair Sat In:: | my comp chair | Last Lipstick Used:: | dont wear lipstick | Last Underwear Worn:: | they're from victoria secret and they say angel on em wit lil diamonds.. and they're black :) | Last Bra Worn:: | my black lacy one :) | Last Shirt Worn:: | colin's france shirt | Last Webpage Visited:: | some random dude's journal |
"Last" Survey brought to you by BZOINK!
What is your favorite.. | gum: | extra the light green kind or winterfresh | restaurant: | umm... dont really have one.. we dont eat out much | drink: | chocolate milkshake.. mmm! | season: | fall-.. it's not too hot.. it's breezy.. but not so cold that i get sick.. see? it's perfect! | type of weather: | warm and breezy | emotion: | love and comfort | thing to do on a half day: | catch up on sleep | late-night activity: | play scrabble :P | sport: | haha let's get real | city: | ny... can't wait to visit someday | store: | charlotte russe | When was the last time you.. | cried: | yesterday when i had my asthma attack.. man that was scary | played a sport: | yesterday at track practice | laughed: | when shilpa called | hugged someone: | this afternoon | kissed someone: | last weekend wit my baby :) | felt depressed: | all this week for some reason | felt elated: | last weekend | felt overworked: | psh.. im in ib... it's the story of my life | faked sick: | i can't remember ever really doin that.. | lied: | umm... a few days ago i guess.. nothing major | What was the last.. | word you said: | "coje" | thing you ate: | apple pie | song you listened to: | look what you've done by jet | thing you drank: | water | place you went to: | school | movie you saw: | at the movies? meet the fockers... outside of that? dead poets society | movie you rented: | agh look at the other survey | concert you attended: | i never have | Who was the last person you.. | hugged: | rafael | cried over: | colin | kissed: | colin | danced with: | umm.. ppl at homecoming i guess | shared a secret with: | shilpa? | had a sleepover with: | im not allowed to have those cuz my mom thinks ill get raped.. sigh.. hispanics | called: | shilpa | went to a movie with: | colin | saw: | my mom.. | were angry with: | my mom.. | couldn't take your eyes off of: | aww.. my baby :) | obsessed over: | ^^ | Have you ever.. | danced in the rain: | yep | kissed someone: | yep | done drugs: | no | drank alcohol: | no | slept around: | nope | partied 'til the sun came up: | haha im such a loser.. no | had a movie marathon: | yea | gone too far on a dare: | not really | spun until you were immensely dizzy: | haha yea! wit hoola hoops! except i twirled as it twirled... it was a blast.. | taken a survey quite like this before: | umm yea actually |
The Favorites, Have-You-Evers.. and Last Times! Oh, the variety! brought to you by BZOINK!
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2005 25 January :: 6.19pm
:: Mood: in pain.. agh track stinks
:: Music: i'm moving on by rascal flatts
another day.. another waste of time :P
..hmm i know it's a little late for this seeing as how new years was like a month ago.. but w/e i found this on blondiegirl05's journal and i thought it was really cute :)
1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
hmm.. a lot of things ... but i guess the coolest one was going on a 2 week boarding camp at usf.. that was a blast
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
actually... seeing as how i do the whole grapes thing.. we dont really make resolutions as much as we make wishes.. and well at least one of mine came true... i met colin :)
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
yep my aunt
4. Did anyone close to you die?
nope.. thank god
5. What countries did you visit?
psh none.. we're so broke :P
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
i'd like to be have more drive .. cuz im so lazy man... it's really a shame haha
7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
february 22 :)
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
probably going and placing at latin forum and french congres.. oh and losing weight :D
9. What was your biggest failure?
being more wild and crazy.. haha psh that one went down the pooper :P
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
a few asthma attacks.. but eh wat else is new?
11. What was the best thing you bought?
umm... well like besides just clothes.. probably my car.. eventhough i didnt really buy that... but it was bought FOR me ... so it kinda works hehe
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
my mom.. i think she was nicer this year... good
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
ehhl ... her name isn't even worth uttering...
14. Where did most of your money go?
clothes.. and school crap
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
... finding someone i was really happy wit ...
16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
lagwagon- brown-eyed girl ... aww.. it will forever make me just.. smile
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Happier
ii. thinner or fatter? thinner.. woot!
iii. richer or poorer? richer.. heck i have a job now woot!
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
seen colin
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
procrastinating
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
I spent it in miami wit my family.. it was alrite
22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
yea.. actually i did... ::smile::
23. How many one-night stands?
None
24. What was your favorite TV program?
prolly degrassi or law and order: svu .. didnt really watch much tv this year... that's so odd for me
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
yep
26. What was the best book you read?
probably the awakening.. at first.. i didnt really care for it.. but after studying it and really like dissecting all the fine points annd techniques of the novel... i realized it's really a wonderfully-written piece.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
cauterize and matchbook romance
28. What did you want and get?
a serious relationship
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
fifty first dates... :)
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i turned 17... and i got presents from most of my really good friends.. it was actually really nice
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
colin staying in tampa..sigh..
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
haha umm fashion? .. well i had to buy all new clothes cuz i lost weight ... but other than that....i dont really care bout that kinda crap
34. What kept you sane?
music, shilpa, yara, and colin
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
usher... i wasn't all over jt this year hehe im proud :P
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
prolly gay marriages and the election
37. Who did you miss?
... colin... of course... but that's not gonna change...
38. Who was the best new person you met?
well most of the ppl i didnt meet i just got to know them a whole lot better... prolly becca, natalia, tom, michael, and rachael
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
dont ever count on things to stay the same... this world we're livin in is in a constant state of change... so be prepared for anything.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"i've loved like i should, but lived like i shouldn't, i had to lose everything to find out, maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road... i'm moving on.."
--rascal flatts "i'm moving on" .. great song
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2005 20 January :: 7.08pm
im tired.. im not in the mood to do psych.. im sick... im stressed .. and all i wanna do is sleep. agh .. bye.
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2005 19 January :: 5.34pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: la pelicula by aventura
damn.. wat a kick ass song
Cold
by Crossfade
Looking back at me I see that I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I知 always wrapped up in things I cannot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong like a drug that gets me high
What I really meant to say
Is I知 sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say
Is I知 sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so
Cold to you, I知 sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You can see me stand on my own again cause now I can see
You are the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high
What I really meant to say
Is I知 sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say
Is I知 sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold
I never meant to be, so cold
I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep it always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me there痴 just no hope
I never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say
Is I知 sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say
Is I知 sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold
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2005 17 January :: 10.03pm
good night, sleep tight, my gun
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2005 17 January :: 3.35pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: you by switchfoot
aww
"it's not my fault you're the love of my life and i just can't help but buckle at the knees every time you kiss me and look into my eyes..."
-- my baby
i heart cawen :)
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2005 15 January :: 11.13pm
i try...
or mayb i dont.
lets ask the magic 8 ball.
it knows all the answers
to the riddles.
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