.helloworldit'smeagain.
Ohgodohgod. So.

I'm back/baby\. Malaysia couldn't saddle me forlorn & for long.

How I miss the You-Ess. It doesn't stay in the 9tees at nite.

[howdoesitfeel]
Let's fucking. rock.

.//avindicationoftherightsofwomen.
.. women are, in fact, so much degraded by mistaken notions of female excellence, that I do not mean to add a paradox when I assert, that this artificial weakness produces a propensity to tyrannize, and gives birth to cunning, the natural opponent of strencth, which leads them to play off those contemptible infantine aies that ndermine esteem even whilst they excite desire. Let men become more chaste and modest, and if women do not grow wiser in the same ratio, it will be clear that they have weaker understandings. It seems scarcely neccessary to say, that I now speak of the sex in general. Many individuals have more sense than their male relatives; and, as nothing preponderates where there is a constant struggle for an equilibrium, without it has naturally more gravity, some women govern their husbands without degrading themselves, because intellect will always govern.

[always]thefuckinggoth
I wish there were a white rose in my heart. Then, with vines & tendrils & petals & blooms it would burst out. & then everyone would think it so

charming.

Not.

thatonegirloutofreachandoutoftouch
People worry constantly of rapists.//pedophiles\\o-files.

But there's a girl I know who I |c|w|sh|ould simply strap down and harry. & rape. Her name is common|Her parents are my friends.|That girl is too good for that boy.

So common. Too good for too bad //twobad\\. Somewhere along the line I'll see to it I tell her. But not now.

Just gave her a gift of hematite. Necklace. and bracelet. She's beyond me. 7teen is too young.

I would give it all just to see her smile just.for.me.

.//The blushing gashes press together. The lips of the cut cease to kiss. And the razor seperates the lovers.

Where.thefuck.

...Did I let myself end up?

anyotherway|anyotherday
i return to bushland sundaysunday[lalaaaaaaaaa, lalalala] can't trust that day. maybe this time they won't FUCKUPMYFLIGHT. & won't go haha mea chinesea man, sranty eyes ahaaaa, eeta dog to supporta famiree.

..because the truth is, i lack a |proper| family & it don't matter what i eat. but i do eat anything i don't have to cook or catch.

i'm going to go bang my head against a wall and start calling the construction workers fucking morons. they don't understand english very well. how's that for-a funnee chinesea man, HARRUUUUUUUUUUUU!?11

.mangled[andiguessijusthaven'tgotthe]guts.
just..reopened the hole for my tonguering. bymyself, that is.

i tried to take a picture of the hole, of [the blood] and nearly passed out. shock[andsurprise]isuppose. what the fuck happened to the person who used to stick his thumb in someone's heart? wipe away blood from gashes to put in lastminute stitches? laugh and tell people to be calm, becalmplease, stop crying?

i don't ever remember hearing my heartbeat so fast. it grew like a pain over my chest and i only heard.saw.felt. whitenoise. everywhere. i thought i was having a heart attack.

iguesstheywon. i lose.

i don't think i've ever felt worse about admmmitting to defeat.

.[whatta]wonderfulworld.
you know that [sound[noise[feeling] when you scratch dry skin? it wouldn't be a question if i were sure of myself. but this is more for myself to recordrewingandreflect because i sure as hell won't be this calm again.notforawhile.

i *just* found out the man who my ex-fiance[e] is living with purposefully fucked things up between us. and poured bad to[into] her. and this.andthat.and.

soithink.when i come home./with my knives\. i will kill him. and go back to malaysia. and never feel the [hearse]worse for it. and never step foot in this fucking cuntree again. the funnyfunnyhaha thing is that i never expect to get charged with murder. he's a waste of breath and i fucking intend on taking it away from him.

bigwords. less than two weeks until i'm back in the states. let's see how well i do.

rushin-arushin-arushin-arouuuuund
palmitches=moneysoon?
that would be nice.

headache. this headache is brought to you by GUESSWHO. hivile. youvilevile.
ssssssssssssssssssssssss.

i miss working as an EMT. malaysia is so differingring-rent from americuh and just. wow. fuck. it's so fucking busy here. i don't think anybody believes me about my heritage/profession/voice/etcetera but. grandma's sick, it's a fairy tale of the only grandson who inherits the fortune. the grandson is not, however, supposed to go to malaysia and tell people to stop conn[ive]ing him out of money.

my name is art. but i'm artistically challenged.
i wish i could draw Vile as I see him. a nagha with littlelittlearms and blades for hands. a beaklike mouth with longblacktongue. spines going down his back like a mane to the snaketail. allwhite with pink stripes and beadyredeyes.

ohgod. i love [&hate] him so. i see the tail and want it to twist around me until i suffocate.

feesupdatemeansshittome
i stayed this long, i ain't leaving now.

..but where the fuck are you guys? seriously. i'm getting lonely and resorting [read:vacationing] to stabbing my hand with a pen every so often.

i nearly typed 'sab' and thought of suspensionrings.

noreally. you guys were my only frieeeeeends. sadsadsad. now i'm going to have to make my journal all cutesy and shit to attract flies[people] so i can suck them dry of VITALJUICES. like jamba juice. lifejuice. mmmvampires.

iwasn'trambling. maybe i should step off the podium. shit.

edit: i hope everyone knows how they got removed from the woohu server. im going to go cry. i miss crowebasalt and whatthefuck, i don't know how to get a hold of her.

ehnywhun?

backhereinamerica
nobody remains here. Andy said it best. times have changed and now all of woohu is silent.

....

....WHUUUUUUUUUUUUUN EZ THEE LONELEEIST NUHMBAR THAT EWE'LL EVAR DOOOUUUUUUUUUU...

but at least i'm back in america after a fucking TIE-PHOON delayed a flight for three days. fukcnig tifoon omgfuxxz.

suckmyeverdead[whitesnake]
coming back to americuh on.thatdate. which i conviniently forgot. as for now, i feel lazy and i want a small gun. the humidity is eating.me.BRAIN.

[nottoanyoneherethankyou]:don't think you're better than us, you pinkpolkadotwhitecunt, because i will FUCK.YOU.UP. deragatory statements i can only take in small batches before i decide you and your pussyposse can go fuck yourself on railroad spikes.

go sucka cock and get glockedandclocked. ANGRYLOUDNOISES.