you people make me laugh teribbly hard.

to my bear: you can get through this emo time of yours, you can.

muaha. my day kicked. im doing a whole lot of nothing in most of my classes and its amazing.
kisses
-emolay

this is the first time in a while that i havent felt completely alone. its weird that a bunch of people i hardly know can make me feel more welcomed then my good friends.

tonight kicked.

kisses.

happy birfday to my lover, bear.

there are some things in this world that make me want to cry and not believe in anyone or anything anymore.

theres feelings of hatred and regret that i cant stop anymore. its so hard to find the good anymore. i want it to be like when we were litte, happy. i never want to have to grow up from what i see, its too fucking hard

fuck
its amazing how one person can bring something to my attention and i start to realize its actually true. and that it fills me with fucking anger meant for a lot of people...

i realized someone i thought was perfect is the complete opposite.

tap on my window knock on my door i want to make you feel beautfiul
look for the girl with the broken smile
ask her is she wants to stay a while
and she will be loved

i know that goodbye means nothing at all
comes back and begs me to catch her everytime she falls

look for the girl with the broken smile
ask her is she wants to stay a while
and she will be loved

please dont try so hard to say goodbye...

i'll do anything i can the wrong way
i was so tired this morning i thought i was going to pass out..

then i arrive to my second period, with my drugged up teacher of course, and walk to grab a ho :).

after school went to get my grade up in geometry and then here i am.

kisses, specially to you

what...am.....i....doing...
i am such a freaking loser...i dont even know what im doing...whoa...

happy national pink week. eat a pink food :)

i never knew what getting my heart broken actually felt like before, i didnt understand that it actually feels like a crack...right down the center...and that its going to be a pain to fix.

my linsey and my bear make my days so much better its indescribable. carrie is always there for me as well. i love you guys with all my heart.

no it really won't be okay. you can stop pretending for my sake...i already understand that its only a lie

fuck, this song always makes me really lonely....

still waiting for something to happen, me to change, people to change...something. i can feel it, the air or something is changing...i just cant tell what.

it makes me so sad that its imposibble to put it into words....i sound like a miserable lovesick person, i sure as hell hope im not....oh well.

up on the rooftops
listening to punk rock
nobody believed us
this coudl be our one shot
this was all we had