Homecoming
Allll right a lot of ppl said they didnt like homecoming but i guess since i didnt go last year , i really liked it. it was great! haha dani and anna kept trying to get me to dance but i wouldnt. finally i just kinda said screw it and did though so its all good after we went to Ruby Tuesdays and it was kickass yayyay my mother started swearing at me and what not when i called her to come pick me up cause i didnt have a ride home anymore....like it was my fault or something. oh well im learning to ignore her and its working very well :) today i went to cheerleading and no one was there so i left ha and i slept a lot today....thats all

homecoming game tonight
Fall fall away
fall fall away
but dont stray too far.
my hearts in disaray.
its broken and bleeding.
lost and confused.
scared and vulnerable.
im trying to make it better for you.
just for you.
so you can be a part of me.
i have to stop my ways.
its so fucking hard.
please, just wait for me.
until then
fall fall away
but dont stray to far.
-carrie

she seems to know exactly what i feel and she feels it too it seems. so i think her writing (really good writing that it is) makes sense for me too...so there ya go.

bah
gahgah gah...homecoming is tommorow, tonights the game. it should be okay i suppose. i kinda dont wanna go to homecoming but w/e its all good. i hope you feel better my little charles, i heart you with my insides like woah. uhm..nothing interesting lately....well nothing id put in my journal anyway ha. PEACE

i didnt sleep last night, i couldnt sleep, afraid my nightmares would come true. my whole life is a giant nightmare. getting hurt is the only way to live. hes going to break up with me if i do it again? it shouldnt be this hard, its not supposed to be this hard

...CUBS...
haha wow this weekend was good so far. the game was actually really good, it makes me happy that Chicago actually won something:). we stayed at the NICEST hotel ..fountain bleu or somethign like that..but anyway...tahts all i actually did all my homework. no school tommorow thank you lord. i hope i see lenny and charles and annie! LOVE YOU GUYS

grades
i know im stupid and everything to stress out over my grades. i know im doing good and everything but...gr. i know i coudl do better and it pisses me off that i just dont try. i have a fucking B in geometry and if i had STUDIED id have like 100. oh well...blah linseys house after school then movies then linseys again...then i leave for miami tommorow for the cubs game..wo...hu. yeah monday no school...then its homecoming week. should be grand, PEACE

GR
who the hell sings ballroom blitz?!!?!? argh this is going to bother the fuck outta me...anyway. went over to linseys yesterday, chris and andrew were there....yeah i guess thats enough said about that. cheerleading camp was...cheerlike, we have a kickass routine though. uhm, ive discovered i can put my hair in a ponytail now, therefore i must chop it off really really soon before i decide to grow it out again, harhar. uhm...nothing else really. oh charles go get your man you hot senior boy attracter. haha thats all now, PEACE

p.s. but seriously who sings ballroom blitz? please comment if you know becuase im going insane

'I wish there was something i could say to erase each and everythign that you've been through...'
last night i went to the movies with lenny and such. we were supposed to go the mall after school but jordan made us miss the bus, that crazy weekend boy. well....im so happy right now, last night was great. well great except for the part when i ran into colin and he said how much i hurt blahblah...i wish everyone would understand why i did what i did. but i know they can't so, im sorry. but to the good part of last night, i went to see school of rock wth linsey and chris but they started all making out so i left to find some nonattached ppl ha. well i didnt find anyone but i saw collin and he was looking for giles so i walked aroudn with him for a while till i saw andrew :). yeah...but i really can't believe how happy i am, i dont know why i am...well i do but i feel like i dont deserve to feel like this. cheerleading camp today until 9 blahblahblhablhab but we have monday off so it makes up for it. thats all, everyone i understand if you hate me and dont want to talk to me right now but just know that im sorry and i never wanted to hurt anyone.

:)
:) :) :) yesterday was great, went to linseys house after school...did uh...homework, ha ye right she did it and i copied later, is it sad that i have better grade then her? lol i love you lenny i joke i joke, uhm...nothing much else happened :0) uhm...yeah thats it...goign to the mall today after school, and stupid boys they are, are MAKING me go to the movies sheesh ha
love everyone so much it hurts :)
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