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2004 1 April :: 3.45 pm
:: Mood: aroused
:: Music: eve 6, its stuck in my head
dani danced in leaves!
its windy out and it makes me smile really, really big.
me dani rj melody and then the rest of the class had a discussion on being bicurious haha it was amazing. then rj me and melody threw leaves in the wind and danison danced in them!
oh, bear and lil ashlie and others came to the libary, it was fantastic. i kiss you all.
after school lennile and i went to noble and barnes to get her a book and coffee yay. we saw the pretty...o0o my i must say *orgasms*. yes, and here i am.
'want to put my tender heart in a blender watch spin in to a beautiful oblivion.'
6 mug of juices |
pimp juice? |
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2004 1 April :: 8.32 am
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: sounds of drama
haha im sitting on mr. smiths computer now..yup this class is truly amazing. muahah.
last night was so nifty!!! i love the chatroom nonsense, bear was there and lenny and lil ahslie one and louie and even fro. oh my it was entertaining.
The OC was intense last night...sheesh.
6 mug of juices |
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2004 31 March :: 11.57 am
:: Mood: fake
stuck
last night was teribble, so much is wrong that there aren't enough words to explain it. i'm sorry to whoever i burdened with my problems. i do thank you for listening though, it meant a lot to me.
i get the impression that i can't say or do anything right. if i talk to one person im ignoring another, if im friends with one im not with the other...i dont want to have to choose between anything that i love equally as much.
everyone i know is having problems. if i could take all of them away, feel them for myself id be happy. i just don't want my friends to hurt, none of them deserve the pain they get.
....you have no idea how much you hurt me everyday. i cant stand being near you because so much has changed. i wish id never met you,no ...i wish youd never met me. i wouldnt hurt you anymore then...and i wouldnt hurt either
2 mug of juices |
pimp juice? |
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2004 30 March :: 12.39 pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: talking
goodness i just have so much to do and it makes me crazy, i hate having all this homework. it makes me stressed as a crack whore.
i have so mch due tommorow its crazy.
lunch was funny today, aylssa was looking at peoples nipples with arielle...good times. lol good scientific study. ...mohawk boy is attractive beyond believe i want to rape him all over...you heard.
4 mug of juices |
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2004 29 March :: 1.13 pm
:: Mood: alone
:: Music: some movie
so i didn't go to school today. i didn't feel like dealing with you all.
i'm so fucking sick of me screwing everything up. why can't i do ONE thing right? its so fucking annoying. nothing i do or say, or try to do or say is enough. i don't want to know you anymore, i just hurt you....everyone i hurt everyone.
1 mug of juice |
pimp juice? |
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2004 28 March :: 8.33 pm
:: Mood: akward/tired/glittery
alright, so whoevers idea it was to braid 150 cheerleaders hair in one night can go screw themselves...anyway
competition this weekend, stupid fucking deduction because of FRANKIE thats right the lil carebear boy. oh well we places 6th the frist day and i didn't stay for awards today...we might have won but oh well ill find out later.
im sure so many people missed me...or, not.
p.s. i just found out we placed 6th...that makes me so fucking mad, i hate my fliyer right now. she is a whore.
p.s.s. this girl on my squad dislocated her knee cap at practice 10 minutes before we went on, her knee was on the side of her leg. kayla ruffner got a concussion today right before we went on. all around HORIBBLE weekend
6 mug of juices |
pimp juice? |
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2004 26 March :: 5.40 am
:: Mood: dread
:: Music: dashboard
close lips another goodnight kiss is robbed of all its passion
i leave for Tampa today, gone all weekend again. stupid nonsense.
last night was pretty good, i played music trivian on the phone haha good times.
i'm attempting to do my bio homework which...isn't goin to well.
7 mug of juices |
pimp juice? |
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2004 25 March :: 6.20 pm
'i never said i'd take this lying down'
never shall i forget that nocturnal silence which deprived me, for all eternity, of the desire to live. Never shall i forget those moments which murdered my God and my soul and turned my dreams to dust. Never shall i forget these things, even if i am condemned to live as long as God Himself. Never.
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2004 25 March :: 6.08 pm
:: Mood: horny
:: Music: taking back sunday-you know how i do
today was intense.
all day me dani, RJ, kyle ann, alyssa, and loren worked on cinderlla. oh man it was lots of half naked people and my boobs not fitting into any dresses.
after school i played with my darling andrew and dani and maria and then convinced danison and melons to not go to lacross. me and dani alone spent 12 bucks on food from dairy queen. rock on my love. i then went to the lacross game whihc was...fun...yeah. then lenny drove me home and here i am.
i love that the first minute i getinto my house i'm already bitched at. you wonder why i stay in my room? figure it the fuck out
2 mug of juices |
pimp juice? |
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2004 24 March :: 4.59 pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: goldfinger-dunno
my motherly was being silly so i couldn't hang out with shoshi today. oh well, maybe next time.
linsey droved me to barnes and noble to get a book and coffee and we ended up goign to get food for me because im fat. we had a talk and we are all better now. i love my darling linsey and i hope we stay friends forever, thanx my love for our chat.
'you say that i'm the only one, the one your looking for. try and keep a straight face when you laugh.'
1 mug of juice |
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2004 24 March :: 5.50 am
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: eh
i close my eyes and even when im sleeping im alright because you were in my live, once upon a time.
i'm sorry for trying to solve things and settle my feelings. why i ever got involved in anything at all is my own fucking stupidity. there are some things i should know well enough to stay away from, people to stay away from. i guess everythings okay, as long as i was the only one hurt in the process. as long as everyone else is happy....thats all that matters, right.
2 mug of juices |
pimp juice? |
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2004 23 March :: 3.18 pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: eh
i really hate being stuck in the middle of something, ecspecially when its my fault in the first place.
i guess today was okay. nothing special or earth shattering... yeah.
2 mug of juices |
pimp juice? |
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2004 22 March :: 3.42 pm
:: Mood: pained
theres nothing to say. i feel trapped and suffocated by my own fucking stupidity. how could i ever think it was true? gr.
spring break is over, its been over for a while sort of. i didn't get to spend nearly enough time with a lot of people, my fault again.
i think things change too suddenly, the changes should really give us all a little bit of a warning.
2 mug of juices |
pimp juice? |
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2004 21 March :: 10.31 pm
:: Mood: hurt
'now son, why would you steal a snickers bar?' ...the nougat?
dani, you are so gay for thinking that movies sucked....fruitloop.
today was ...okay. we places 2nd, gayyyyy but oh well. tonight was good sort of. i went to the moies with the baby danison and ran into lou and nick and said hi then went away from that. we saw taking lives, oh my i jumped so much and dani didn't help the situation.
...im not mad, i promise. im just a little hurt and confused. i love you.
2 mug of juices |
pimp juice? |
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2004 20 March :: 5.33 pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: no
i got home about and hour ago. i tried calling linsey but she was a little distracted i guess. im assuming were still hanging out tonight? i hope so.
im tired but i slept for a whole hour so it makes me happy a little.
im just thinking about things, wondering how people feel. i guess asking some people how they feel would be smart, too bad im not smart.
1 mug of juice |
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