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2005 30 May :: 11.18 pm
How disappointing. Trying to take your life away. Does it even matter to you how people that love you are going to feel? No, it doesn`t matter how many times we say it. You just don`t listen. You`ve had someone that you love taken away. So just pretend you are in our shoes. We love you. And you try to kill yourself. Which is even worse then just passing away. It makes me feel like I`m worthless in your heart. That no matter how many times I say that I care for you and that I love you, you just can`t seem to hear me. Do you really want to leave all your friends that much.? Do you have so much hatred and grief all around you that you can`t seem to find a way out beside suicide.?
Bad things happen to everybody. Some more to others. But to live life, you`ve got to deal with it and move on. If you die, you won`t get to see tomorrow and what is held inside it. I understand that some people can`t help but be depressed and can`t seem to see the brighter side of things. But you aren`t like that. You are mostly happy and excited. Don`t try to suicide again. Do you think you will make your family any happier.? All it would do is bring us grief. More grief. Even more until our eyes gouge out.
Don`t cut yourself either. It disgusts me. How people think cutting themselves make them feel better. It`s like if they want more attention to their sad lives. I`m sorry if I seem to a hypocrite or a bossy bitchy stupid girl, but I don`t like seeing people getting hurt.
Please don`t try to suicide again. I hope you won`t try to suicide again. I wish you won`t try to suicide again.
Honestly to tell you the truth. You were the strongest person I knew.
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2003 3 September :: 10.12 pm
Got the new Hyesung and MinWoo CD. <3
Got Gackt`s Cresent and Love Letter CD. <3
Got SE7EN`s Must Listen CD. <3
Got 17k on Gaia. <3
The stupid rollback gave me like 1700 back but Lost my horns. ):. WTF. But I got my March `O5. But then I opened it. Decided not to sell Kiki Kitty until it like reaches it`s breaking point. Or when I have too. Stupid rollback didn`t have any effect.
I wish my school burned too. BURN BABY BURN. DISCO INFERNO BABY. (:
Watched Soccer Games today. It was much more interesting then I thought it was. (: Going again next week. yaye.
Went to Great America on Friday. It was fun, But I hate Roller Coasters. They scare me and Make my heart hurt. And that`s a no no. D;
Changed the date on today`s journal entry. (: First day meeting Kikyou and Haruka. OMGIREMEMBER. No. I found a paper thingy.
I thought this was STUPID
I cannot believe how incredibly stupid you are. I mean rock-hard stupid. Dehydrated-rock-hard stupid. Stupid so stupid that it goes way beyond the stupid we know into a whole different dimension of stupid. You are trans-stupid stupid. Meta-stupid. Stupid collapsed on itself so far that even the neutrons have collapsed. Stupid gotten so dense that intellect can escape. Singularity stupid. Blazing hot mid-day sund on Mercury stupid. You emit more stupid in one second than our entire galaxy emits in a year. Quasar stupid. Your writing has to be a troll. Nothing in our universe can really be this stupid. Perhaps this some primodial fragment from the original big bang of stupid. some pure essence of a stupid so uncontaminated by anything else as to be beyond the laws of physics that we know. I`m sorry. I can`t go on. This is an epiphany of stupid for me. After this, you may not hear from me again for a while. I don`t have enougth strength left to deride youignorant questions and half baked comments about unimportant trivia or any of the rest of this drivel. DUH.
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jasmine |
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