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2006 5 September :: 2.28pm
I want to know everything in the entire world.
I want to meet everyone in the entire world.
Most of all, I want to feel everything I am able to feel.
Step out of the darkness,
And into the light.
The brightness may blind you,
But the chance is worthwhile.
michelle
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2006 4 September :: 8.33pm
:: Mood: calm
happy labor day.
mine was/is.
except they closed the cafeteria this weekend.
jackasses.
:)
the moths are fliting around the light-so close to a death that they cannot resist.
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2006 1 September :: 1.01pm
So, last night my roommates came home drunk, again. They opened the fridge and all of their beers crashed on the floor, making a loud noise. Then the RA's came in and looked around, and needless to say, although i wasn't drinking, i got my name taken.
This is my roommates' second offense in a week. They got an illegal drug violation the first night they were here. My other roommate is moving out due to finances, so i figure I'll be living alone here in a couple weeks. You get three violations and you are done at CMU. heh.
Anyway, told the parents so if they got a call they would know what's going on. It's all good. Hopefully. The worst thing that is going to happen is that I'll get a 150 dollar fine, which I'm not going to pay for because I didn't do anything. Whatever.
michelle
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2006 31 August :: 1.07pm
:: Mood: contemplative
So pretty much just chillin here in the library for a while. My next class is at three (my biology lecture). I really love this library. It's pretty neat.
When I woke up this morning, there was a guy sleeping on my living room floor. It was one of my roommates friends, but they had already left for class, Hollie and I just locked him in when we left.
Whatever.
The two of them (my two roommates) polished off eight beers last night. I showed them how to open them (they were glass bottles) on the edge of the desk.
I wonder what their livers are going to look like in twenty years.
it's pretty cool, i guess.
-michelle
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2006 30 August :: 3.25pm
:: Mood: pensive
We Wear the Mask
We wear the mask that grins and lies,
It hides our cheeks and shades our eyes—
This debt we pay to human guile;
With torn and bleeding hearts we smile,
And mouth with myriad subtleties.
Why should the world be over-wise,
In counting all our tears and sighs?
Nay, let them only see us, while
We wear the mask.
We smile, but, O great Christ, our cries
To thee from tortured souls arise.
We sing, but oh the clay is vile
Beneath our feet, and long the mile;
But let the world dream otherwise,
We wear the mask!
-Paul Dunbar
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2006 30 August :: 2.58pm
Okay, I have all my financial shit figured out. Right now I owe about two hundred dollars-which I can totally deal with. Whew!
Well, I believe I'm going to be in my hall government, so next year i can be a RA and get free room and board.
Lovely.
Michelle
[edit] And I only had to wait for an hour and fourty minutes in line!
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2006 30 August :: 10.38am
:: Mood: aggravated
Ugh.
i have to figure out all of this financial shit today.
The financial aid office is stupid, stupid, stupid.
They need to actually apply my financial aid to my account so i can take classes. Hmm, that's a new idea right there.
But, I have to go over and talk to them before my english class at noon.
Blah.
michelle
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2006 29 August :: 11.20am
I'm here. I'm gone. I've moved into my house in Kzoo. It's nothing exciting at this point. I just got a job at Bob Evans down here and I start Friday. I'm coming to G.Rap. tomorrow night to go clubbing, tentatively. There are many things that I meant to accomplish before I left my hometown that never got done. Ah well. I will see you all again soon.
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2006 28 August :: 10.16am
Plan B is now available without a prescription.
How did that ever happen with a Republican President? To tell you the truth, I don't care. I'm just glad it's happened.
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2006 28 August :: 10.03am
:: Mood: envious
I just had my first class- computers and society. It's a huge lecture class with about 250 people in it.
I feel so sheltered here sometimes. In the library the book shelves move along a track so they can be squished together or moved, to allow for more books in less space. I just found it so cool, considering the cedar library is about the size of my dorm room. Just little things like that make me feel like I was cheated out of some things growing up in cedar.
I'm getting along a little better with everyone. It is known in the towers that my floor is the party floor. As soon as the elevator doors open you can feel the bass. You can't really hear the bass (it's too loud), but you can defineately feel it. Our RA is cool too. He pretty much told us that he doesn't care what we do, as long as we don't drink in the dorm. A bunch of us were in the hallway Saturday night, defineatly not sober, talking to him. I made a sign and put it on his door that says,
" I want to be the little man who turns the light on and off in the fridge."
I do good work.
Next, I have my English class at noon. I'm actually excited about that, and hopefully everything goes well, considering English is most likely going to be my major.
When I was reading Jane Eyre in the study room yesterday, I met a really nice guy who lives down the hall. There are some cool people here at Central.
-Michelle
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2006 25 August :: 12.04pm
:: Mood: impressed
So, here at CMU now. Good fun. I'm in the library with Jackie.
I'm going to have to get use to all of this, I'm so tired from all the walking I've done already today.
I miss everyone already!
I have an ensemble audition on Tuesday! Classes start monday. I've gotten all of my books and things like that. It's quite exciting.
More to come, though, not as frequent as i might have hoped: until classes start i have to walk all the way to the library to update. I'm starting to hate moving. :)
michelle
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2006 23 August :: 3.47pm
:: Mood: intimidated
:: Music: I'll follow you into the dark - death cab
I'm leaving for Central tomorrow after my dentist appointment.
We went to IHOP last night, and then to Meijer, and then to the cemetery. Creepy shit.
Summer is over.
No more drunken nights of should be regrets, no more nights getting the shit scared out of us at the cemetery, no more lake parties, no more camping, no more going to work with a hang over.
Well, the last one, maybe...or not.
We'll see. I'm not quite sure what to make of this whole 'college' thing yet.
For some, an institution of higher education, for many others, well, what can I say? It's a party school after all.
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2006 20 August :: 8.29am
:: Mood: exhausted
This is my last week here for a long time.
I called in sick today for work because, lucky me, I have a bad ass cold.
I'm leaving Thursday sometime. If you want to hang out, or give me kisses, or give me flowers, or give me presents, or write long nonsensical poems, or just want to have general relations with me, give me a ring before then.
Jessie, I know which one you want to do :).
Tomorrow is my last day of work, and fittingly I'm working until the desk closes.
Who knew!
Where are we going? We're going to a party, a birthday party, you're birthday party! Happy birthday darling, we love you
very
very
very
very
much.
Good morning everyone! Have a wonderful day.
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2006 10 August :: 7.40am
She threw a fucking rock at us....
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2006 4 August :: 8.57am
I'm home from camping. It was full of experiences, some of which I had never partaken in before.
It was extremely hot. I went swimming. I slept. I ate. I made friends. I fried criss cross potatoes in a wok.
milk....milk was a bad idea.
michelle
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2006 31 July :: 7.17pm
Camping with matt and rueben and katie and joe tomorrow.
ah the bliss.
eating mother's stir fry. tastes odd. first home cooked meal in days.
callouses forming on my finger tips. beautiful music to my ears.
Plan B may be available without a prescription.
michelle
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2006 30 July :: 10.53pm
:: Mood: complacent
:: Music: Johnny Cash
two more days.. until I am happy once more. I'm a little anxious. I can't believe it's been a month already. My summer has wasted away too quickly. Only twenty-some days until I "blow this joint" called Cedar Springs. I shall never return for more than days at a time. I doubt I'll miss a thing. I hope everything works out.. for me and everyone else.
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2006 28 July :: 10.29pm
:: Mood: depressed
I can't help but feel that I'm wasting my life.
I'm wasting my talent.
I'm wasting.
I'm wasted.
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2006 26 July :: 6.27pm
:: Mood: worried
I had a picnic with Kae and Aaron today.
Lovely rain.
I would be a toaster, so I could take two slices at once.
Sometimes I catch a glimpse,
Of the world which I see,
A beautiful scene, magical,
You could never know what I mean.
"Sometimes I think this cycle never ends, we slide from top to bottom then we turn and climb again..."
I listened to Transatlanticism for the first time today. It was beautiful.
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2006 22 July :: 6.46am
:: Mood: listless
I haven't slept in 28 hours, and if I go to bed soon I'm looking at about four hours of sleep before the park picnic and then work until 10 tonight.
I had my CMU orientation yesterday morning. Very informative. I got some of the classes I wanted, the others I dropped and added the correct ones. Twelve credit hours, not bad.
BIO 101 (and lab)
CSP 10something (computers and society, i know...but i had to fill a gen ed requirement)
ENG 235 American Literature
COM10something, intro to speech and communications.
All fun things. No ensembles, no music classes right now. Because I had to change schools so quickly, I can't be in their music program until next year. However, I may still pick up my entry level music classes and an ensemble next semester, until then, studying by myself is the only option I have.
We went to IHOP and played mau. I drank real coffee for the first time in my life, with a lot of cream and sugar mind you. The waiter made us triple strength coffee (three bags of coffee grounds in the pot). That shit really gets you. I believe that is the reason why I am not tired at this time.
Driving home from IHOP I witness the most beautiful sunrise, so, I took out my writing journal and compiled a few thoughts I will share with you here.
July 22 2006 6:30a
The dew soaks thorugh my clothing as I sit here, witness to this event. So few times have I been so aware of this constant change of my home. Something so beautiful would be more cherished if it were rare. We prize the true diamond because it is rare, but would we not just as easily be careless with it if it were common to us? Would we not use it as an adornment fabricated to eventually break to keep the economy going. The slogan would not be "Diamonds are Forever," rather they would be quite common place and often disposed of, losing all significance of importance. Beauty is only acclaimed in the rarest of forms. A perfect sunflower is often only left for the birds to admire.
This magnificent event before me may be prized by another people, another culture, because of its rarity, such as in the north. The sun sets for half the year, and is risen for half the year. Do you think they are not joyous after six months of darkness when the sun rises, illuminating their world? It seems beauty and admiration are only warrented for the rare, but never the equally admirable but common.
-michelle
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