being bored is bad for your health

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:: 2005 30 January :: 9.06pm

:: 2005 30 January :: 11.46am
:: Music: Saints and Sailors

this weekend was fun. now i have three fucking papers to write that i havent even started, and i have to work tonight. i fucking hate my life.

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:: 2005 29 January :: 4.06pm

The performances are over, and here are the results:

Piccolo Duet ........ I
Flute Solo
(unaccompanied)..I
Flute Quartet........I

We got a standing ovation from the judge after our quartet, it was so cool. She loved it, and it was the best we have ever played it. I'm going to State for my solo, obviously, and I'm sure that we are also doing our duet and quartet at State. I hope they all get one's there, too. That would make me very happy.

Now that that is all done, I'm very happy, but tired. I cleaned the house when I got home, and now i'm trying to get my work schedule for next week.
Well, good bye :)
michelle

:: 2005 27 January :: 7.39pm

Rueben,

Call me tomorrow after four if you can. I miss you. :(

I really do.

:: 2005 27 January :: 7.32pm

There are so many things I want to say.....i just don't have the energy, ya know?

Sometimes I don't feel like defending myself, I just want to tell it like it is and just have people be okay with it. No explaination necessary.

Things are never going to be like that. We have to keep fighting until the end, for the things we want, the things we believe are right, the things that make us happy. Moments of peace are few and far between these days.

And solo and ensemble is two days away.

-michelle-

:: 2005 26 January :: 8.57pm

okay, so i now have crutches........for a little

i sprained or strained a tendon in my knee, so the doctor gave me crutches and prescription MOTRIN and told me to use as needed. my knee is already moving a bit more, almost enough to walk on, but i cant stand the pressure yet. so, i dont think its too bad. at least i hope its not to bad. it still hurts, but even thats gone down. so yeah, it sucks.

so, the music for the musical is really freakin high. not all that hard, but way freakin high. i really dont want to drop it down an octave, but i think im gonna have to. which really pisses me off more than anything else, because if im gonna do something, i want it done right.

but yeah, whatever.

saturday is solo ensemble at mona shores.im scared in a way, but not like freaking out scared. i just dont want anyone in the trio to embarrass themselves. i dont mean that to sound really mean, but i know it happens, and i really dont want it to. oh well, shit happens

so other than that, i dont think i have anything else to say.

im gone,
-me

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:: 2005 26 January :: 7.21pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: Variations on a Korean Folk Song

Solo and ensemble in a couple of days. Blah. I just practiced for an hour. Got some things on the duet worked out, my solo, I cannot find anything else to work on for it. It just IS. My whole score is going to depend on whether I can find that THING or not. I hope I will.

We had pit practice today. That was terrible exciting, except, not really. And Jess, don't worry, you were doing great today. No one knows what they are doing, so don't worry about it, just have fun.

Saxophone solos would be the bomb, if I could play them. I think I'm going to start practicing Sax starting monday, because I don't want to practice too much before solo and ensemble. There's about two months before the musical, and I'll have it good and learned by then.

I am so multi instrumental.

I think it would help if I knew what I was doing.

After talking with Michael Monday at work, I just feel, happy. He just is that kind of person that can just make so many things better just by talking your ears off and not letting you get a word in. He's a great guy, but I like my Rueben better.

History is a bit better, educational wise, yet, I almost miss the way it use to be, just because I didn't have to do ANYTHING, and I could do all my homework.

Teacher assisting for general chem is a hoot. They did a lab today and I got to help them and mix chemicals. 12 molar HCl is not some stuff you want to get on you (it has a tendency to burn holes in your skin within a few minutes of exposure). I got to dilute that today. The fumes are nasty. Ah well, finished my AP chem lab. Our class is a lot of fun because it's so small, not to say we don't miss those who use to be there, but everything is a lot more on track now.

Tomorrow Mrs. Spinella is helping me with my solo after school. Hopefully she'll approve, and I'll be set. Friday I'm practicing after school with Dani for our piccolo duet. That has gotten laid by the wayside in recent weeks, just because the quartet and both our solos are more important, and we've agreed on that. It's just a throw away, something to warm up with, really, to get use to the judging. I bet it'll go to state.

-michelle-

:: 2005 26 January :: 6.15pm

time just loves to pass in the most aweful ways with me.

:: 2005 25 January :: 8.05pm
:: Music: The Used- Yesterday's Feelings

i have a problem making decisions. i never realized this before. i can't even decide if i regret what i did. it's quite an odd feeling. i had previously made one decision: that the future was not something for me. i don't want one. now, im being told that im being given one anyways and asked what i plan to do with it. such a tedious task, but then all of life is tedious. i hate my life. im sorry if you hate yours.

damn you.

:: 2005 24 January :: 3.23pm

This is going to be a very looong week. I work tonight until ten thirty, or until the lot is clean, but i don't think they can keep me much past that because i'm a minor. Tomorrow I have lessons after school in Howard City. Wednesday I have a debate meeting and pit practice. Thursday, all work for my solo and ensemble things. We're playing them for the class Thursday. Friday debate, and maybe something else. And, in the culmination, I get to wake up at five thirty Saturday morning to go to Mona Shores for district solo and ensemble. My first performance (piccolo duet) is at 8:08 am. My solo is around 9:30, and our quartet is at 11:27am. Then I'm done. Done Done Done Done Done.

I really can't wait.
Well, then I'll probably have state solo and ensemble, which, of course, is the day after the last day of the show, which i have pit rehearsal EVERY DAY for the two weeks before. Where is all the time?

Oh, and flute choir is comming up.

Oh my.

Well, no one can say that I'm not well rounded in my extra curricular activities and work experiences.
I actually miss those days when I came home from school and watched tv and was bored. I always wished I had some activity to do, something that was fun.

I think I bit over did myself, don't you?

Ah, well, going to go eat something and straighten my hair. And watch tv, and relax, and chill, and whatever.....just not think about going to work and how cold and horrible it's going to be clearing the lot by myself.

ughh.

-michelle-

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:: 2005 23 January :: 1.41pm
:: Music: the killers

your head is full of crap

you are all making somthing out of something so completely redundant, it's really nothing. dumbasses. what difference does it make?

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:: 2005 23 January :: 12.48am

Shadow
Your element is Shadow: Indifferent, unusual,
gentle and a complete mystery. No one tends to
know quite what to think of you because you
camouflage your emotions so incredibly well,
almost as well as your thoughts. You are
unpredictable in that no one knows exactly what
your going to do or what your capable of and
you've made sure they never will. You are quite
the wallflower but deep down inside is a kind
and very intelligent person. You are capable of
love but unless you let some light into your
shadowed life you'll have a hard time with your
relationships. People are a mystery only
because they all seem too superficial, you
would rather be somewhere else, away from all
the noise perhaps putting your feelings into a
form of art, maybe writing your feelings into a
poem or journal, or perhaps painting a picture.
The shadows make you feel comfortable and you
don't like to step outside your comfort zone or
let anyone else in, the spotlight terrifies
you. You are truly a mystery.

.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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:: 2005 22 January :: 8.57pm

hey everyone, im back. miss me? i didnt think so. but anyways...its good to be back. really, it is. but anyways......i've been busy. done alot of stuff, both stupid and......well, mostly stupid. um.. yeah, i dont have much to say.......

im gone,
-me

charlessumnerthatsickfuck

:: 2005 22 January :: 7.39pm

six times more boys than girls, in the united states, commit suicide. Reach out to whom ever you can. GIve aid whenever you can. not just to ur friends. Give ur attention, make people feel valuable. these are rules i have been trying to live my life by. from today on i will just try to live my life with more warmth for every being.

stay_c

:: 2005 20 January :: 8.30pm
:: Mood: blank

Blank
BLANK

That's what I feel lately. Inside, outside, everything is just Blank to me. Not quite empty, there's something there I just can't tell what.

70billion

:: 2005 20 January :: 4.02pm

HEllo everyone, If anyone is looking for something to do on friday my band has a free show @ hungery hearts Cafe. The show will start around 8 or 830, we will probley go on 9 930ish, it is located on Fulton between I think lane and just before johnball park zoo. We are playing with Look Ma, Ultra Ego, and some boy band. This cafe has no Idea what they are in for and we will probley never be able to play there again so it should be fun, if any one has qeustions about the show you can give me a call @ 1616 915 7426 if I dont awnser I might be in class or my phone is dead but if you leave me a message I will call you back

:: 2005 19 January :: 1.10pm

"But greed is a bottomless pit
And all freedom's a joke, we're just taking a piss
And the whole world must watch
The sad comic display
If you're still free, start running away
'Cuz we're coming for ya
We're gonna read them out"
- Bright Eyes "One Foot In Front of the Other"

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:: 2005 19 January :: 7.00am

Well another snow day....when am I ever going to get my AP chem exam done?

Well, this morning was nice. I woke rueben up a little bit ago because he spent the night, with all the to do over his dad and all, and Zach came and got him a few minutes ago to carpool to GRCC.

It's really wonderful seening the person you love first thing in the morning, even if we don't exactly looking our chipperest.

Now I'm listening to flute music and freezing my ass off in this corner.

I hope this does something for Manwel (okay, i really don't know how to spell it, but that's how you say it).

And Ema. I bet he did a lot of this for her. She's the cutest baby I've ever seen.

-michelle-

:: 2005 18 January :: 7.37am
:: Mood: calm

So we have a two hour delay for some unknown reason.

This means I'll have a lot less time to complete my AP chem exam, that's only half finished (after 2 days of working on it).

This means that I got an extra hour of sleep, I'll be awake when I get to school, and I get to catch up on Good Morning American.

Gotta love those 66 year old women who give birth and those college presidents who say women don't have the aptitude to be at the top of the science and mathmatical fields.
I think he was from Harvard, but how should I know? According to him, I probably don't have the aptitidue to listen to the tv.

Ah, well, have to go and straighten my hair into oblivion. I swear someday all my hair is just going to fall out because I do so much crap to it. Oh well, then I can just give more away to locks of love.

-michelle-

p.s. First day without modern business!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel like a new person.