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m&ms487

:: 2004 30 November :: 12.10pm

I am such a selfish bitch.

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m&ms487

:: 2004 29 November :: 10.41pm
:: Mood: depressed

At play practice I was very hyper. Now I've crashed into oblivion.

Good night.

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stay_c

:: 2004 27 November :: 4.36pm





You Are the Peacemaker



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You are emotionally stable and willing to find common ground with others.

Your friends and family often look to you to be the mediator when there is conflict.

You are easy going and accepting. You take things as they come.

Avoding conflict at all costs, you're content when things are calm.





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empath

:: 2004 27 November :: 3.47pm
:: Music: the used

im terribly jealous and bitter.

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stay_c

:: 2004 24 November :: 9.08pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Trans Siberian Orchestra

This snow is awesome, yet depressing...




You Are the Stuffing




You're complicated and complex, yet all your pieces fit together.
People miss you if you're gone - but they're not sure why.




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m&ms487

:: 2004 24 November :: 5.08pm

It's snowing outside.

It was a very eventful drive home this afternoon from play practice. I rear ended a guy at 17 mile road and white creek at the stop light, because, well, my car wouldn't stop. Everything is fine now, though. He just looked at his car, nothing happened because i hit him going like 10 miles an hour, and he drove off, and i drove home going 25 miles an hour.

What a wonderful day.

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charlessumnerthatsickfuck

:: 2004 23 November :: 11.37am

yea! steph's here! right nowshe's asleep in my loft. i'm going to t leave and when she wakes up she'll be alone in a strange place... mwhahahha. no it's all i just hope that she doesn't get board here. we went out w/ rob's family. they're cool. in a bondage-and independence way. well, i gotta shower, and for once w/ o the aid of a plastic bag covering my cast! yea
oh, jessa, congrates. i have a gift for you. can we make an exchange of porn/string theory dvd/ and queen dvd for it?

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m&ms487

:: 2004 22 November :: 12.15pm
:: Mood: blah

I'm sick, and I'm in modern business, and I just typed a paragraph at 109 words per minute.

I want to go to bed.

I should have never done what I did. I'm stupid. I'm so fucking stupid. But you know, now that I did, it's not going to matter, and it's just gonna be bad, and god, why am I so stupid? I knew if I just held on for a little while, it would all be fine, and maybe it would be an out, but no. Now theres nothing.
Stupid stupid stupid me.

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stay_c

:: 2004 22 November :: 9.50am
:: Mood: hungover

I should be sleeping
i had an awesome weekend. drew came up here to big rapids to go hunting with his cousin jack. i stayed with him at jacks saturday and sunday night. i spent all day sunday sleeping off saturday nights drunkeness, and so far to day i just want to sleep off last night (although it wasn't as bad) and drew wants us to come back up here again next weekend too..... i don't know how well i'll be able to handle this but i'm sure gonna try!

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empath

:: 2004 22 November :: 7.57am

I've come to the conclusion that im coming out of the hole i was in. more of a ditch than a hole really. yes. perhaps i'll be happy for an extended period of time. perhaps.

also, it dawned on me that these days that just keep passing are slowly making me older. you too. i hadn't really thought about it before. i'll be seventeen shortly. that seems so old. i want time to stop.

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m&ms487

:: 2004 21 November :: 10.09am
:: Mood: curious

{the future of us all}

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to have a family and be a mother. I know it would be hard, but what is the purpose to all life? To create more life. That is the lasting legacy. Not to mention, getting there is also fun.

Someday I want a house and a family and maybe a cute little dog. Not right now, of course, because i'm still young, I still have a lot of things to do with my life before then, but unlike a year ago, I can picture it all now, and that makes me happy.

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m&ms487

:: 2004 19 November :: 10.17am
:: Mood: groggy

I'm sick today (I once wrote a poem called that in fifth grade...I'm a freak)
So, I stayed home today, because, lets just say, last night wasn't the most pleasant nights. I have the stomach flu or something of that sorts. It's very, uncomfortable.

I took off all my make up a few minutes ago, and now I look like a little twelve year old. Always fun, is it not?

Today is Rueben and I's 6 months. That seems like a really long time, it's half a year. It's the longest I've ever had a boyfriend. I don't even forsee this relationship being cut short anytime soon, no matter what anyone does, says, etc. I'm a very lucky girl. I think I can sum it all up in one quick equation:

Rueben = Very Good

I'm scheduled to work today, but I'm not sure if I'm going to. It's from 4-8:30. My luck, they'll put me on carts and I'll die. I already feel like I'm going to, so, I mean, what's the difference? And it's out of the question to ask NOT to be put on carts. In fact, if i did ask, then they would probably just put me out there for spite. They're all like that, you know.

We got our chair placements yesterday. I beat out 20 other flutes, and I am first chair. It's crazy how close it all was. I guess I got a perfect score on my sight reading - the best out of the whole band. I really don't understand how that could be, but I must underestimate myself.

Until we meet again.

Michelle

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empath

:: 2004 19 November :: 8.08am

they gave us back our freedom
:)

i can travel and entertain again! YAAAY!

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m&ms487

:: 2004 17 November :: 9.01pm
:: Mood: calm

ONE thing made me happy today.
The FIRST thing all day.

Thank you, my dear.

but other than that the day sucked, starting at lunch, and ending, well, when i go to sleep.

The serpent never sleeps and is never far from pleasant dreams.

I've learned that by now.

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70billion

:: 2004 17 November :: 2.10pm
:: Mood: hopeful
:: Music: Unearth-endless

Forever December
Last night forever december had their unoffical last show. The band is still friends, Dusty Kyle and groerge are going to be still playing with each other, Im not sure if they are going to stay as forever december or not, the might just find a new drummer and bassist.

Randy and I have a new project called "There Eyes Where Watching God" we are very exicted about it. we are a 4 piece
Justin Wenz-Vocals
Spencer O-giutar
Randy-Bass, Vocals
me-Drums, vocals.
Starting Nov 29th we go into the studio and record a 3 song demo, we have a show Feb 5 @ skelletones.

I would like to thank the kids that were at the show, I had a lot of fun. I sorry more of you could have been there but I didnt know it was our last show until I got to the venue.
"well thats about all I have to say about that"

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m&ms487

:: 2004 16 November :: 11.52am
:: Mood: contemplative

You can Do anything, I know it, and you know it, and the day you find out how special you really are, you're going to leave me behind.
So, last weekend was quite, not good. I went to work Saturday at one in the afternoon for a four and a half hour shift. I was given the curbside beeper (when old people or people with too many groceries need help out to their cars, the cashiers press a button and I help them to their car and put there groceries in the car and such) and I there was this one really weird lady who kept her change in old cigarette packs and was really old and sad looking that i had to help out to her car. I did, because, well, that's my job. When we got out to her car, it was really gross, it was filled with stuff, and was all ratty and smelled like cigarettes. Then it happened. She started talking to me about her life, about how her son was having surgery, her daughter was murdered, her husband died a long time ago, and she was all alone, and she was afraid to go in her house, and the guy across the street with an alcoholic wife would bring her mail to her and in her words, "he grabs me and hurts me" and by now I was feeling really bad, but i had to get back inside because, well, i was working. I told her this, and she said, "I understand, you don't want to listen to a pain the ass like me" and when i tried to assure her that wasn't it, she started talking about how she wasn't even strong enough to wash her own hair, so when she comes to the store to be around people, they all look at her like she's nasty and such. By this point, I had stood there about twenty minutes. The whole time I was trying to reassure her that everything was going to be okay. The last thing she said to me before i walked away was, "I just wish they would have buried me in the coffin with my husband when he died". This did it for me. I was walking backing into the store and I burst into tears. I had to go ask Carolyn if i could go on break and I went in the bathroom and cried for my whole fifteen minute break. I cried for me, I cried for her, I cried because life shouldn't have to be like that. People shouldn't have to be scared about other people, or to be home alone, or to be alive. Especially someone who has lived that long. When I first saw her I made the assumption that she was one of those really nasty old ladies, but when she was crying in that car telling me all this, I felt ashamed that I could ever think that way about another human being. She was just as much of a person as I, and deserved as much respect. Probably even more.

Some people are not clean, or have good manners, or look "pretty" or act with the best of manners, but that doesn't mean that they aren't PEOPLE. They deserve a chance to be with us. If there is a problem that you can't stand, then you have the right not to be around them, but prejudgements only enforce isolation. It keeps you from learning about who you are, who you could be. What if you were that old lady, how would you feel? You had nothing left. Nothing, everyone you had ever loved or lived for was gone, and you were all alone, and couldn't even wash your own hair.

Would you talk to you?

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m&ms487

:: 2004 14 November :: 6.17pm

I'm so tired. I just want to fall away.

School tomorrow, and then the next day, and the next and the next...

does this torture ever end?

Oh, yeah, we die

I have to get off the internet so jessie can call me.

I want to tell her about my horrible weekend, perhaps i'll share it here sometime.

And rueben, call me tomorrow (monday) after 4:30 if you're home and you don't have to work, or get a hold of me somehow.
I love you.

-michelle-

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m&ms487

:: 2004 13 November :: 10.46am

What is going on?

Why is all this happening?

Can't we all just be in little school again and have those kinds of problems, like going through puburty and being afraid to ask someone "out".

Gee whiz.

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empath

:: 2004 12 November :: 12.32pm

Happy Birthday, Kate!!

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charlessumnerthatsickfuck

:: 2004 10 November :: 5.57pm
:: Music: Jamie Cullum

ticket for sale
i'm selling my football ticket for this sat so i can buy jessa a wedding present. so if get a good price, your gift won't be made of popsickel sticks. It was beautifull on campus today. I went to a lecture i'm not enrolled in. just b/c it was interesting, it's about social inequality. todays lecture debated the causes, characteristics(if any), and treatement of criminals. basically it was determinded that only stupid criminals get caught, and only minoritys are punished. did you know that the majority of illegal drug distributors and consumers are caucasion? but the majority of people in jail for drug related crimes are black and hispanic. humm... how does that work out? i can't pay for a lawyer, and i'm not savvy enough to lay low when using drugs so i go to jail. 95 percent of crime committers walk free. i love free knowlege. the class is so big that the professor fails to notice that i'm not in the class. today he sent around an attendence sheet. i signed it "haywood U. bloweme" ok, we're going to diner. see ya later ya'll

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