being bored is bad for your health

:: 2004 9 October :: 12.58pm

"you're alright, no matter what anyone says." - random guy

:: 2004 8 October :: 8.23am

at school
just say anything.

i wish i could write.
alas, wishing accomplishes nothing.

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cowsgomoo!!!

:: 2004 6 October :: 10.50am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: -

none really...........just sitting in the library during english

oh yeah, im kinda back.........

:: 2004 4 October :: 4.42pm

I'm leaving for band in about an hour. Eating first, then going. My section doesn't know what they're in for, especially a certain one of them. They are getting bitched at, and not from me, either, which is a change.

I'll be back on after band, for all those adoring fans who wanted to know ;)

michelle

:: 2004 30 September :: 6.03pm
:: Mood: curious

I so badly want to know what I'm doing. I don't understand any of this. Lost. Lost in the crowd. Searching for something, searching for nothing perhaps.

Only one true escape, but I don't necessarily want that to become habit. There is no security, but I don't feel that. I feel like things are how they have always been, and I guess I'm scared that when the reality does hit, I won't be ready for it. So many big decisions are being made right now, and there is nothing I can do about them. The future is unclear, and there are so many things that I want to do that I know I won't have time to accomplish. For some reason, when I was little, I never thought about what I would be when I grew up. I mean, there were always the "I want to be a princess" but I could never see myself being twenty or thirty. Perhaps I knew something that I don't want to know. I keep on thinking, for some reason, that I don't have enough time, that I don't have enough time to say what I want to say or do what I want to do. Could I be percieving that I don't? That I'll die young, and I'm okay with it? I don't mean that I'm purposly going to do anything, but the thought just occurred to me that perhaps my mind and body know something so unconscious that I hadn't realized it until now. Of course, I'll probably end up living until i'm 100, but there is still that feeling of not enough time for anything, and I'm not talking about today or next week, I'm talking about in a lifetime.

That's some fucked up shit right there.

In other news, I totally belittled Mr. Carr today. We had a test and I wrote a three page essay (normally one half page) about how white males caused the Civil War and they are stupid egotistical jerks. I wonder if he'll get it. Probably not. The man teaches History and Federal Government and he spelled "Censorship" with and "S" instead of a "C". Smart, huh?

Tried out for the play yesterday, I'll know tomorrow the part that I got. Hopefully it'll be a good one. No jinxing myself here.

I guess everything will be okay, in time.

Michelle

:: 2004 30 September :: 5.57pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Irving Berlin/ Nat King Cole - What'll I Do?

Why is everyone falling apart? I don't know what to do to help them all. I don't know what to do. I just don't. I know I can take care of myself, but I'm scared for you, all of you.

You make me hurt for you and I want to be happy, and I want you to be happy.

But maybe sometimes we can't get what we want, now can we?

stay_c

:: 2004 29 September :: 9.06pm

I love you Stroken! I"m sorry I didn't share my ice cream with you. Next time I'll send you some. And I'll somehow involve sex, soda, and puppies too.

:: 2004 27 September :: 4.05pm

the more you try to fix it, the worse its going to get.

:: 2004 26 September :: 10.59am
:: Mood: who cares
:: Music: it doesn't matter

don't you dare complain. you're reactions are wrong. you're emotions are off so just stop it.

please.

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KryieKougar

:: 2004 26 September :: 12.36am

CONGRATUATIONS TO THE 2004-05 RED FLANNEL QUEEN AND COURT!!!

queen: Erica Childs

court: Becky Visser (band geek that i love)
Lindsey Gates
Danilllie (i know that isn't spelled right) Millering
Jamie Innis (colorguard)

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:: 2004 24 September :: 10.01pm
:: Mood: cold

It's not that way.......

charlessumnerthatsickfuck

:: 2004 23 September :: 10.59pm
:: Music: the sounds of thirst Thursday

shhhhh.... i\\\'ve got a secrete
i'm in love... he's the best, he has magical hands, 4 times over magical...

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:: 2004 23 September :: 7.47pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: boys dont cry

She just can't wait for this all to be OVER.
gaah.

:: 2004 21 September :: 8.32pm

so much can happen in only days, but none of it changes the way things are. they just continue and be stressful. i find myslef in a bad mood more often than not lately. i apologize to those who have noticed.

:: 2004 19 September :: 8.50pm
:: Mood: blah

I just got home from work....I did carts for four and a half hours. That was fun. Actually, it was the best time that i've done it so far, no one tried to run me over (by accident or on purpose), none of my carts got loose (tight!), and I never had any times when my corrals were overly full, or my holding spaces were too empty, plus it was around seventy, so it wasn't too terribly hot.

This weekend went by fast. I don't know how I'm suppose to have time..for anything. Of course, that's right, I don't. Oh gee.

Maybe I should go to bed so I can wake up for another WONDERFUL day of school. You know, IT IS JUST SO refreshing to walk into a building everyday that reminds you of a prison, oh, and guess what!?! Feels like one too. Oh, and a quick tip, if you drop your soap, don't pick it up. You never know who'll pull up your thong.

I hate that, girls with really low jeans, and thongs half way up their back..but hey, what am I talking about, a small percentage of my school, right? Yeah, 99% is a small number.

Eh, i'm being very.......moody today, I must go to bed, then.
Good night.

Oh, and Rueben, I'll be home around three, call me then!

charlessumnerthatsickfuck

:: 2004 14 September :: 12.44am

Ok, let's take a poll on interpretation
How many of you think jessa's 9-13 post is derogatory towards college?
How many of you think jessa is supporting attending college?

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cshawks2003

:: 2004 13 September :: 8.20pm
:: Mood: moody
:: Music: Arrasando ~~~ Thalia

Grrr....
Its been a long time since I've updated...but I dont' have much going on besides work and school. It's kinda weird goin to gvsu Monday, Wednesday and Friday but working tues thurs and saturday. Right now I am at discussions...wohoo **sarcastic**...I am so bored...I was supposed to talk to a friend but he is busy with other stuff grr...I like my other friend jon who is here with us but I wanna talk to my friend mike and I am not getting a chance too....GRRRRRRR I am just kinda moody....oh well...I guess thats about it for now I am just so bored...thats why I'm updating this lol...something I never do...oh well I guess thats it...cya all laters

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:: 2004 12 September :: 3.19pm

I'm so tired, it's like summer never even existed. This is the part that i hate about school, oh, and that whole "we'll lock you up for seven hours a day using fluorescent lighting so we can kill your spirit, and your eyes!"

:: 2004 8 September :: 7.31pm

Her eyes closed slowly in quiet rememberance. The thoughts of then slowly crept into her mind. The scenes, that happened so long ago, but seem like yesterday. She thinks of those feelings that she felt, that still remain. Somewhere deep inside her she can tell she's still waiting, still wondering why it all lingers. The purpose of it all is so unclear. The echoes of a million voices reverberate in her head. Which one will she choose? She knows one voice speaks louder than the others, and she clings to it, but still wants away from it. She knows there is a dangerous part of herself, that will do anything to rebound, even if it means destroying all that has been achieved, or at least, appears as such. She wants what she shouldn't, and grieves for what she had, no matter the cost. She is confused at this all, but still cannot understand, and cannot comprehend, so all she can do is patiently wait, until the day arrives, where the choices will be made, and the future will be fortold.