i got this from stef's journal... she posted it a long time ago...but i think it's cool :)
past
first grade teacher's name: Mrs. Mench
last words you said: um.. i think i asked my mom what she wanted
last song you sang: verve pipe.. the freshmen
what's in your cd player: ben folds five.. whatever and ever amen
what color socks are you wearing: i'm not wearing socks! ha!
what's under your bed: God only knows
what time did you wake up today: around 7 am for church

future
where do you want to go: northwestern in chicago
what is your career going to be: something to do with music education/preformance
where are you going to live: eh.. i don't know.. somewhere tropical if it were up to me
how many kids do you want: i don't know!!!
what kind of car will you have: some kind of SUV to cart people around in

current mood: tired
current music: verve pipe.. the freshmen
current taste: life savers
current hair: pulled back with little clips and into a bun
current clothes: abercrombie low rise jeans with a yellow tank top with a white button down shirt over it.. what i had on for the concert
current annoyance: my grandma
current smell: my clinique happy perfume
current longing: for warm weather and summer
current desktop picture: a tropical oasis sunset with a hammock
current favorite artist: they're more like a group but.. ben folds five
current book: ferenheight 451 for english class
current colour of toenails: bright pink
current worry: that i'm going to feel really akward sitting in the percussion section for the rest of the year because of marching band
current crush: you know!
current time- 5:35 pm
current wish: that my mom's friend fights breast cancer
current hate: some people.. i won't name names
current situation: heck..there are too many

1. what's the story behind your username? well.. the first part is easy.. it's my first name. beans came from band camp 2002... it just stuck. i should have used trippy beans...my drumline name..but i dind't think of that
2. name five of your favorite foods: french fries, smoothies, pineapple, strawberries, chocolate bunnies :)
3. have you ever had a makeover? oh yeah.. don't get me started
4. name all members of the beatles. absolutly not
5. what's the longest time you've stayed out of the country/where? i think when we went to mexico for a week.
6. one thing you're grateful for today? my friends, family and faith

ahhh
we saw unfaithful instead becaue spiderman's time was wrong in the paper so we would have been too late. oh well.. unfaithful was really good...so it was worth it. for my friends... i love you all so very much. i feel bad when you fight despite your differences. i forgive you when you are mean or when you do something stupid. i listin to your problems and i want to help you. i have fun with you and i cry with you. my friends mean everything to me, so if you are my friend... i just wanted you to know (if you didn't already) how much i care about you and love you. i'm going to bed... good night and sweet dreams. :)

i don't know what i'm even doing
alrighty.. i think i'm going to see spiderman with my parents... but i'm not sure yet. that may be my best bet for the night but matt has nothing to do and i feel bad for him. ahhh.. i want *you know who* to email me back!!! but he emailed me first so is he required to send something back?????? gosh i'm a dork sometimes! oh well... you already knew that. well if i'm going to the movies i have to go get ready so... have fun tonight kids! love ya!

wow...i had the funnest day!!!!!! ahhahahah
ok... fridays must be like my fun days or something because this is the 2nd friday in a row that's been sooo much fun. stef and i went to the coffee house but they threw all of us out because the old lady (with the soaked boob! haha) said we were too loud and her friday regulars don't come in because of us. last time i checked...we were pretty regular on friday! oh well we went to the corner bar and had more fun without her and her coffee. stef dropped me off at home and then gunnie and matt picked me up about an hour and a half later for joy ride! wow..that was alot of fun despite the pain i'm in. i met charlie. he's a really nice guy. :) so my elbow must have gotten scratched in the mosh pit because i found blood on my arm when i got home. my feet kill too from people stepping on them. i really don't care though because i had an absolute blast. wow! matt and gunnie stayed for a while at my place after. so thanks to all the fun people that made my night a riot. i'm heading off to bed and to the frige... i'm really hungry too... good night kids... LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!

what a fun day!
i had such a fun fun day!!! well.. i can't really put into words what happened... i guess you had to be there when adrian and mikey were playing in the rain in their skivies and having a mud fight. anyway..then i tried to wrestle sean..but that didn't work and i ended up in the air a few times...hhhmmm...it was really fun. then i ended up seeing you know who in the gym. i was too timid to say hello however. i'm a gump. then danielle and angeeh showed up for pit at my house when i didn't think they were coming. they did..and we had great fun. we played our pit drills on my piano so it all works out!!! well..i'm gonna get going..sorry so short latley. love ya's ...gnasd*

hehehehehe
i got my varsity letter for band today!!!! i'm so happy! and wow..those diserts were soooo good! i'm off to bed! love ya and good night!

:(
well.. i'm sitting here sick, instead of golfing at the conference. this makes me mad because i really wanted to go for once! but no.... i have to be all sick. oh well. i'm on the verge of tears because i'm
a.listing to my favorite song witch always makes me cry
b.thinking stef doesn't have much school left and i'm missing most of it because of sickness and golf
c.i want to be at school (i'd be in 5th hour right now.. if you know what that means!!)
d.i want everything to be ok
e.i don't think i'll be able to golf friday because i'm way behind in geometry and biology and we are finishing the pig disection on friday.. i can't miss that
f.i just really miss the good times and the good old days.
that's about it. i absoultly love the sound of an acoustic guitar. it's so beautiful. and piano.. and flute... gosh i can't wait to get better. well i'm gonna go.. i'm going back to bed.. i feel awful. love ya's :)

Incubus- I wish you were here
I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds
strewn across a blue plain
I lean against the wind
pretending I am weightless
and in this moment I am happy, happy...

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here

I lay my head unto the sand
the sky resembles a backlit canopy
with holes punched in it
I'm counting UFO's, I signal them with my lighter
and in this moment I am happy, happy...

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here

The world is a roller coaster
and I am not strapped in
maybe I should always care
but my hands are busy in the air

I wish you were here
I wish you were...

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here

wish you were here...

mmm...meat!!! mmm... fiberglass!!!! mmm... muscles!!!! mmm...metal!!!!!
wow... i haven't had this much fun in a very long time. stef and i went on another adventure and had a blast! we left school together and went to her house so i could see her dress and so she could change her clothes. then we went to my house so i could change and get money and stuff. we then realized i left my flute at school and i need it for tomorrow. so... we went back there to get it (no freeing squirell's though). then we went to ric's coffee for smoothies and cookies and tod meet "the group" there. what fun. we decided we needed feathers and birds so we went to hobby lobby. the mall was by far the most fun. we were like bumping into each other and other people and running around the mall being so loud. we got the funniest looks from people. but we didn't CARE!!!!! haha. overall i had an ultimate blast! i'm on call all day tomorrow incase stef needs moral support or some sort of help. so i've got flute choir practice in the morning and the concert is at 7:30 at night. ssoooo all you prom goers... have fun, be safe and don't drink and drive. love you all... gn!

AAHHH.. I'M HAPPY!
i am so happy! everything is chaos and i'm so messed up and confused. but you know what... i don't care. i'm happy and i don't care. i'm not going to worry about all the crap. i'm going to just let things come and go as they are. i am not going to continue to let things get me down anymore. that is crap. i'm sick of crying all the time. life is too short and it's not worth it at all. i've stated my case. those are my feelings, what i've been up to the past few days will be posted on later notice. good night :).. oh yeah.. love you!