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2004 21 January :: 6.35 pm
BUBBLE BATH!
ah life is seemingly sucking slightly...eh i want to go to morp but noone wants to go with me then the niki thing...yeah rumor is she is in a nut house for trying to kill her mom....if i were her i would have tried myself.
my mom is making me dye my hair red again...eh i shall go do that now. semester tests are easy.
its amazing how in 5 min you can go from normal to depressed and old memories ...eh i want to cry but i havent cried since mikki died and i plann to keep it that way.
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2004 19 January :: 10.18 pm
NIKI IS MISSING FOR REAL
OK niki is nowhere to be found and my parent wont tell me about the movie party and trevor keeps slapping my ass in shop class...AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGG...
i want to cry really badly...eh all of its all jumbled. 3 of 4 of my closet friends are gone ashley,dara and now niki....eh ggrrrrrr...this makes me sad and i feel like crying....
MORP is comming up and i wish to go who wants to come? no prom dresses or tuxes ,just jeads and tees! my fave kinda dance no fus or anything.
Semester tests start tomarrow this should be cool.o.o chinese food for lunch!im a happy camper. eh i need to work on my art...buh bye
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2004 18 January :: 10.08 pm
omg...i hate this......bryan is an ass so is my father.
Josh and justin are making life complicated.o.o
i have to do homework but before i go i shall tell you of my latest work of art:
its 3 by3 peices of paper,there is a buuble that goes off the paper on the l and r sides. at the top of the bubble is storm clouds.in the middle is the outer crust of the earth/cliffs that stretch accross the whole bubble. there is a tornado that goes from the clouds to the pains/crust/cliffs. just 1 cm from the bottom of the bubble is a chunck of rock with a rose hovering over it.its raining only around the rose,and the stem of the rose is a ladder. the area between the rose rock and cliffs/crust/plain you can see stars.
yeah i shall work on that.
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2004 17 January :: 10.13 pm
STUPID ASS BRYAN
GOD DAMNIT BRYAN IS AN ASS HOLE BY ALL MEANS.....damn him with all the power of nature.....ok i told him i had a crush on a guy that wasnt him and then he called me a cunt,whore and a bitch.-.- and he wonders why im pissed at him half the time.I should shoot him a bow and arrow several times then kick him in the balls hard. o.o DAMN HIM!!!!!!!!.......yes the movie party is teadering......
roxy made my pants for me!!!!!! happy day!!!!!they are cool and i shall make them pretty with fabric paint...my hair is nolonger blue....now its like rainbowish!!! I LOOOVE IT!!!!!!!my hands are pink from doin roxys hair.heh
must go do homework.......niki is missing!!!!!OMG IM WOPRRIED ABOUT HER.i called her and her mom answered and then told me niki is in the best place she can be now.......omg i dont trust her mother!
i shall now go prettfy my pants..and yell at bryan some more.
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2004 16 January :: 9.16 pm
building walls
heh i have walled myself up in my mind.......help......yeah i got bored so there are about 4 or 5 mental walls with cirtain groups names on them.....heh im tired of them and they are stupid....heh i get paid tomarrow for babysitting tomarrow and sunday!!!!!!!!!yay.....roxy and i shall be messing with a pair of my pants and making them coolieo.....i need to get out and have some fun!!!!!!!
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2004 14 January :: 8.07 pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: my dad on the phone
eh...my head....
my head HURTS...and im becoming very aggitated very quickly....*twitch* my hand are cold but im burning up...ow...*twitch*
hehe i like pop.....eh so much to do...ok the movie party is planned for the friday after semester tests...yeah it shall help us relax and not be so pingy....yeah study study study..eh sometimes i just want to smack my teachers....
Artemis is a cool goddess i think i relate to her very well,yes we both like archury...heh...i shall go now.
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2004 12 January :: 6.58 pm
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: Evanesence-Whisper
eh...
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...e............e...............................e.....heh a waist of space but i needed to get that out...ive been bouncing off the walls all day due to 2 things 1 Diet pepsi and 2 Dr.Pepper!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....soo much suger in ones system make you uh um a little insane for a bit....yeah its a good thing i walked home orelse i would be bouncing off the walls like earlier...*twitch* yeah we are playing james bond music in orchestra!!!!!YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!happy yeah its fun we are also doing Night on Bald Mountain!good song! yeah but not as much fun as the JAMES BOND MUSIC! heh
buubles....are pretty...........light.
i got to go cook dinner for my dad so yeah
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2004 11 January :: 12.56 pm
:: Mood: touched
:: Music: garbage- SHUT YOUR MOUTH
my mom left....
my mom went to wisconsin and first thing this morning while i was making my breakfast my dad started yelling at me about the computer.......he only does that if my mom isnt here...she wont be home till friday...*twitch* im going to go insane.....*twitch* its annoying cause he cant figure out that i dont listen to him when he yells...
it should be easy when two people love eachother truly.......----------------------------------------
heh thats how i feel^
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2004 8 January :: 10.10 pm
:: Music: the X
HEH
Ok so yeah im really tired and what not...grrrr.....too many things going on
!!!!!! grrrrrrrrrr...yeah i havent been on latly due to my incarseration.....eh i need my e-mail or else i have no way of talking to a few people which makes me mad!!!!!hmmm we took another one of those career things...guess what i got!AEROSPACE ENGINEER....who would have guessed? i mean really its only been my chose career for what 2 years now....*twitch* i hate wasting time on stupid things that are repetative......like the Lewis and clark feild trips to the interpretive center...eh...they tour guid would get mad at me why?well here is usually how it goes:
Who discovered america?
Nobody the indians always knew it was here.
Shush you..now anybody the else?
ME while raiseing my arm like im an explorer pointing the horizon: ERIC the RED!
NO!!!Columbas
Me: oo the insane man from spain?
....yeah and then they sent me to the back of the group......heh
im an evil bitch....yeah a couple days ago i found out why i had few friends 4-7 grade..or at least one of the reasons....so one was telling people i was a witch......*raises eyebrow*....hmmmm......
Bubbly thoughts today....hmmm...mixed thoughts on raab but he dosent care so thats ok.....
Cant wait till semester tests...heh half days all week thuse we are all going to the best wok for lunch...mmmmmm
im okish latley now that josh barone and i have political discussions during lunch instead of eating...yeah....driving people crays*cough rochelle cough* hehehe...
so much to say and like 10 min to type it!!!!!...ashley is now married and happy..they left to go meet ronnies family in florida today..yeah i hope they drive safe.she smokes now....cough cough..yeah im gonna die from an asthma attack because of too friggin much smoke....
movie party anyone? i think next weekend at my house friday night.....maybe must talk to my parents....yeah so this is my update for the week i shall now stop rambling and leave...
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2004 6 January :: 9.09 pm
Yeah if i get caught right now illl bee in sooo much trouble...yeah im grounded from the comp till the weekend...why you ask? the fight with Bryan *insert eyeroll* just because i broke his nose....by the by he deserved it!He was trying to for my door open and come in and talk to me..mom and dad where comming up the stairs so i told him to leave and he said no not till i did what he wanted and i told him i will hafta punch ya if ya dont go he said go ahead so i hit him in the nose with not much force..he kinda ran into my hand yeah...so heh i BROKE it ...seves him....
ashley getting married tomarrow so yeah ill update on sat or maybe fri...bye bye
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2004 3 January :: 5.12 pm
You are The Star- Hopefull, inspirational and
optimistic therefore ready to take on each new
challenge. Adventurous and confident,
preferring to work on own objectives. Excellent
communicationn skills. Clearly percieves the
larger picture. Reaches for dreams
Which Tarot Card is your significator?
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hmmm...yeah i still angry person
grrr my parents should be shot!!! grrrr....yeah i finished the silent strength of stones...good book and animal farm...yeah eh...and emotional quotient is my next.....i need a new sketch pad....
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2004 3 January :: 1.55 pm
:: Music: something on the x
sleep
o.o grrr i got in a fight with a friend last night....yeah he dosent understand im not one to confess feelings to almost no one...yeah so he was all pissed at me cause i didnt like him a cirtain way that i had LED him to believe...and when he asked why i told i was slightly interested in someone else and hes like so you are gonna go fuck their brains out now right? i wanted to hit him so friggin hard cause that pissed my off and i went off in this whole thing of abstenance till marrrige was the thing for me...but yeah so i stormed off and locked myself in his car......heh he gave me the keys....then he was all like talk about someone who cant get over a guy so i yelled back WE NEVER DATED MORON LISTEN...yeah i was really pissed off...so we sat me in the car himleaning on my car door alll pissed off for like an hour....*twitch* most guys are starting to PISS ME OFF....yeah....so i walked home cause we where just up at target cause he wanted to buy an xmas gift for ashley and needed help...he followed me all the way home with his car.....i was very childish but i dont care he really pisserd me off...like to the point that if i hadent had anger managment for a while i would have decked him....
i woke up this morning to my dad trying to get me to move from the couch to my bedroom and i mad him mad cause it was like 7 and i didnt move...i didnt really move till about 11...yeah i was tired and drained due to tomuch emotion in one day...rar...so now i must go take down xmas decorations.....yesh....
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2004 2 January :: 11.08 pm
:: Music: head bangers ball stuffs
Hoosha
Yeah i have babysitting almost all of sunday and saturday is my only day i can do anything!!!!GRRRRR
Yeah my parent forgot about me ...i went bowling today and we finished up about 5:10ish and my parents didnt come till bout 5:45ish..and my dad got home that day at 2:45......yeah....so i was really pissed cause it was about 2 bellow..then when i got home my parents argued for about 30 mins till i told them to shut up and get overit....it was over the fact my dad hadent made dinner....*insert eye roll* yeah so i talked to dara for a bit and that made me feel beter......
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2004 1 January :: 5.30 pm
Playing games.
My skin tingels from your touch but when i turn to face you your not there.
I can here your voice but never find the sorce.
I wish to see you but you hide.
You wish me to think you just a person of my imagination but i know you are there.
Why do you hide?
why do you torture me?
Why is it you are the only one who can really see me?
Why do you have to be the only person i cant see?
Why is it you are the only person who can find me?
Why do you haunt mydreams?
why why why
Why dont you save me?
yes i just wrote that like right now so it prolly sucks but i neede to get a lot of emotion out....eh..aloneness SUCKS...yes but one must keep going because tomnarrow is another day.
I dont know if i have a ride to my thingy tomarrow!!!!!......gwen!!!!i shall call her else i will not go!
MY HAIR MATCHES MY WOOHU BACKROUND COLOR....
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2004 1 January :: 4.51 pm
hmmm
My father and i got in another damned fight again...*rolls eyes* he is mad at me for being mad at him because all he has done for the past week was bash me...grrrr.....yes so last night while i couldnt fall asleep i though about all the time and people up until now....bad idea...i reminded myself of how alone i felt during elementary school...but also how fun it was....massive soccer games..running around playing match maker...sailor moon games..horses..art...playing jarrasic park on the play ground was a lot of fun....wall ball....four square....DODGE BALL!!!!! loved that game...still do....but all my friends that i had i had one in my grade that i can remember talking to all the time...i hade 2 or 3 i would talk to now and then but adrien was my bud...and since ashley wento to lewis and clark i spent alot of time on the soccer feild....hmmm....yes then came middle school....the land of rumors and stupid people....6th grade was funish....7th grade i wanted to beat tonya edler and 8th grade as well but in 7th people called me a witch...lol and 8th was ok cept for Mrs.Lelen passing away....who as followed by ashley that summer and then Mikki this year...yeah.....i miss to many people dara left and now im kinda really bleh so now my dad is being an ass i must go buh bye.
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