:: 2004 11 August :: 6.57 pm

So today i woke up around 5ish and was out working till 11:30....came home and showered and got ready..then headed to the mall...and was REALLY hyper till like the middle of the time there. So it was gwen, kayleen, nick and i...and it was fun...gwen was being a putz...lol..so i bought some dripping candels which i beat people with today...mwahhahahahahaha.....but yeah...so nick walked with me till the end on the mall then walked back and through the mall. I walked home and got call a fucker for some reason..then when i got home i got on the tredmil for 45 min...and now i am extreamly tired...in that i have expended all of my energy...damn.

lie

:: 2004 10 August :: 9.49 pm

So last night i had a strange dream..........Nicko was a vampire and it was my fault but damon did it.It kidda sucked...cause nick was mad at me and damon was mad at nick for being mad at me and i was just angry at damon cause he was a moron....yeah.....so lots of anger in that dream...then it melted to this concert with this cute itallian guy singing and i started to cry for somereason and he took it offensivly( how he saw me i do not know)....so he left...then i told his mom i was sorry and hadent ment to do that...it was weird...cause then i went with them back to italy...and hung with him and his gf for a while then left and fought the goblin king with nicko...who was still a vampire...jessika, gwen...who was a pixi...and roxan who was a talking fox...it was fun......so when it was over we all sat down amdist the fire scorched ground. Then we all got up...and everything we touch or walked on grew flowers and grass....and all the machines or building we touched turned to crystals...like emerald ,diamound and amathist...it was really cool....then i woke up...and it was noon.


My mom and i went to applebees and shopko..i have flipflops and pants and chapstick andhead bands!!!!!!!!!!yay...!!!!!!!

I feeel like going to the mall tomarrow...who wants to come with?

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:: 2004 9 August :: 9.18 pm

So today i woke up and watered HJ's lawn...then came home,slept,walked to gfh, mowed a lawn, then went to the library and walked back...and that was Roxan's and my day....yes...she is leaving tomarrow....


For the past couple days i have been happy and its nice....a little frustrated with my dad ...but other then that its been good....hes be pulling stuff like when i said thanks he gave me this whole speal about how i was ungreatful and didnt need what he gave me*eye roll*..i'll deal....

Someone needs to have a movie party....yeah it'll be the last of the summer prolly.......

My parents are thinking of actually getting me a car *gasp*

lie

:: 2004 6 August :: 11.09 pm

So roxan is staying with me for a week....started wednesday evening....its been fun....

Found a cute pink..PINK...shirt that says skate on it and an orange and white striped spegetie/halter ish thingy...its also cute...bought them both....i loooove them.....i was going to get this other pink one...but gwen made sure i understood that my boobs looked big in it...so it stayed on the shelf...i need no more attention in that area....

So we are going camping tomarrow and roxy and raab are out seeing a movie...so i am all alone...booo....actually..space is good...

I have been staring at the sky alot latley...bah...i wish to visit the andromeda galaxt some day...even though its 3 or 4 lightyears away....i dont care..i wanna go.

My typeing is getting considerably faster...and i will need it for next year....40 words a minute..not bad but i am still having troubles....

What would be a good non-fiction book to read? I have no clue...so any suggestions is greatly appreciated....

I need to go run around in the rain next it happens.....i miss doing that.

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:: 2004 4 August :: 1.26 pm

OMG...i looked over my journal...and realized im a fucking whiney drama queen...sad really...amazingly enough half those entries didnt even seem like i would be the person to write them...

So weve put together a pad for the boat....yay.....bah.......

So today i was talking with my dad and he suggested that some of us go to the fair again...i dont know why...but he suggested it...i dunno...

lie

:: 2004 4 August :: 12.16 am

Well...today...i got up ,mowed highwood lawn and next door's lawn, revamped my room/closet and called dara.LIfe is good.

Oh a couple of days ago i finished To kill a mocking bird...we need to have a movie party...with a criticaly acclaimed movie made before 1989:D

Who wants to meet me at the mall tomarrow or the day after? Any takers? ill call gwen and kayleen and roxy...but e-mail or comment if you wanna come...nvm ill just call everyone.

For once in a long time i am content with life and the people i am forced to have contact with....ahhh.



I've been around the world and found that only stupid people are breeding.(jessika).. says:
But, Nick is amusing to slap/...

i wanna hold you high and steal your pain(me) says:
:O

i wanna hold you high and steal your pain says:
slap nick

I've been around the world and found that only stupid people are breeding... says:
He makes a nice sound

I've been around the world and found that only stupid people are breeding... says:
lol

i wanna hold you high and steal your pain says:
it amuses me as well

I've been around the world and found that only stupid people are breeding... says:
(DISREGARD)

I've been around the world and found that only stupid people are breeding... says:
(GOD DISREGARD THE DIRTY!)

i wanna hold you high and steal your pain says:
lol

i wanna hold you high and steal your pain says:
you like the sounds nicko makes....

I've been around the world and found that only stupid people are breeding... says:
But I do......

I've been around the world and found that only stupid people are breeding... says:
0:)


and that concludes jessikas moment on my journal for today...amusing...yet weird....


DARA SAYS HELLO! from the corn feild.

So im happy, my room is not cluddered...so my mind is clear....ahhhh.


But stablility is still scarce at home...i miss ashley and dara and niki and jessik.....but she will be home soon...bah....

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:: 2004 2 August :: 3.49 pm

So once again.
It seems tody everything fell apart again....lets star with yesterday...

My parents decided to go to the fair but i had to meet kim...so there was a long lecture about how the things i plan dont matter and yeah.
So i meet her at Snider Drug and we eat luch...i almost got sick because they gave me a butterscoch milkshake instead of peanut butter...toooooooo....sweeeeeet.
We walk to her house and the like, work a little, chill....and decide i am to sleep over. Then this guy mike calls and kims on the phone for like an hour and i decied to sit down stair s and sort through her beads....she had acidentaly spilt them accros her floor so she swept them up and put them back in the thingy unsorted...the box was a devider box about the size of a text book...and i had them sorted and put away before she was off the phone....tey were very tiny beads....and that was my tedious activity for the day.
I went and visited jessika too, (she lives accross the ally from kim) and it was nice. Went back to kims...we watch The last Samurie and ate pizza....i liked the movie..and we went to get blizzards...it was fun...turns out the mike kid is a total durt bag...but since the info came from cody wreck...i dont trust it. Then we talked,did some belly dancing..and went to bed.
Got up and got a phone call from my dad...first arguement of the day at 8:30....and i wasnt even home.....then did go home at like 10:30.

Got home and decided today was the day i will put my desk together, i asked for my dads help...and he flipped out....so now the peices are just in my room........so i went for a walk...im tired of fighting with my dad.

The trip to minnesota is comming up...that should be interesting...i dont think it will be very fun...its a vacation for mom dad michael and gail..but for me...im just allowed to go so i can baby sit all my cousins.....damn my parents....arg...

Oh kim coppied the Time Machine soundtrack and gave it to me...im happy.

about that atleast.....

I have to come up with a proposel question by thursday...and have no clue what to do......bah....

I want some god damned stability....cause there is rarely any here.

My dad told me the other day that he was tired of hearing people say i was a good kid...last i knew...people saying that to parents was a good thing.My dad just thinks im shit.And when i talked to my mom about it she said get used to it you'll never been good enough for him.Its true, ill never be a good enough person for my dad to be proud of....

now you all know why i hate being home.

lie

:: 2004 31 July :: 11.14 pm
:: Music: modest mouse

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:: 2004 28 July :: 9.57 pm

I got a desk...my mom finally bought me one....so im happy...

Today was fun..i was sad tiphani couldnt come..pooh....but yeah we walked around and did our thing....and jessika and gwen pointed out these ugly shoes ...bah...

So i got my mom the phone ,dialed it,got her coffee,then creamer,then a spoon...and now shes making sure i know how large my ugly ass is. Thanks a load mom...and confidence level has gone back down to the floor. You see its alot different when some person im not related to or am friends with says stuff like that...but when my mom starts attacking me.....*sigh*....just goes to show how fucking sensitive and understanding parents are.








well....my good day has just disepated into the ongoing nightmare called my family.

lie

:: 2004 28 July :: 12.16 am

bah
So last night i stayed at roxys and we had fun...she cried alot because of lary....yeah....we went to the mall today and then to larys and he wasnt home so we walked to henreys and they wernt there...so we find a pay phone and call him on his cell and hes at the mall looking for us..rooxy starts crying again because the bob yelled at her and bah...then i walked home...and watched radio. it was sad and i cried.....

i have been working on the proposel with mrs. thomas and kim... now i have 2 pages due thursday.

Thursday evening i am helping ashley at a dog show and then staying the night!!!!!Yay...the friday i go home get everything done...and go back to the fair.


MY focus has been way off latley.....everything i should have done by now isnt........heh....i would like life to be as simple as it had seemed today ...i sat in a park and watched some kids play..felt a cool breeze on my face and the rain ....it was nice...and i just sat there...and wanted to be like that forever..no worries...no competing from things...just simplicity.










pop six squish ah ah sisseroh...lipshitz.

lie

:: 2004 26 July :: 5.51 pm

So i have a sun burn on my lips...yeah......

jessika came over and i did her hair...its now maroon...and i did some streaks in my hair...so its prple/blond/red/brown.

Jessika wants a boyfrined....

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:: 2004 22 July :: 8.26 pm

Your soul is OPEN-MINDED. Although you do have
strong opinions and make decisions, you never
make them without thinking first of not only
everything that is, but those that may not be
as well. People trust that you'll willingly
hear them out and understand when they tell you
something, and you are well-liked for it. You
are often the mediator in disputes and your
desire to do what is right overcomes all else.
You are an understanding and admirable soul.


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Yeah...so life...is interesting as usual....alot of things have yet to be discussed with anyone except myself...and are all in my journal..so bear with me.

Ive been driving myself insane all day....burnt myself several times..and almost got myself killed...yeah...let me search this cloud for its silver lining really quickly....found it.....camping trip saturday!!!!!!!!!!!! yay.....too bad kayleen cant come and nicko dosent really want to....oh well their loss...this will be awsome!


Your Heart is Red


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amazingly enough...mine was black the last time i took that quiz.


PINK
woah! You punk dude! In the celebrity world you're
known for you're outrageous moves and
hillarious stunts - you're music is not that
bad either! You don't care about what others
think of you as long as you stay true to
yourself, nothing else matters! I predict that
you'll have many more years of fame to come and
will enjoy most of it - just try and not have
as many divorces!! Good Luck!


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mwahhahahahahah!

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:: 2004 21 July :: 9.05 pm
:: Music: moon baby

lie

:: 2004 21 July :: 12.02 am

Mwahhahahahahahaha.
Ok so i spent the night at roxys last night,we watch secil B Demented and look at her spectrum books...and we were look at this one picture, of a robot. She saw a robot with a cupcake..and i saw it standing next to a belly up fish in a bowl.....then we read the title..."Mr. Bubbles birthday" so we were both depressed and laughing...and roxan is saying " i though it was a happy picture.."...it cracked me up.

So we get up at 1 got to my house at 3 then to the mall ..then to bobs and then i walk home by myself.I get home..argue with parents and then find out i have bunko. I go ...and win! Oh yeah!!!!! I won an Embosser , Music themed rub ons and Quilling paper....yes so im happy..i had 5 bunkos...yeah.

Im amazingly tired today. Then i noticed how some people have been acting latley and things just started clicking in my head...yeah...ive realized somethings.

I have to get up at 8 so i can be to east by 9 and work on our proposel to get telescope time ,on kitt peak ,tomarrow. Kim and i are working with mrs. Thomas..so its been fun.Kimmer still has a thing for Zack...poor misled girl...and yeah...

It bryans 17th B-day today!!!!!Happy B-day bryan!!!

So overall life has been good..im amazed...i miss people from camp though...alot....it was awsome this year..i was amazed.

And all that jazz.

lie

:: 2004 18 July :: 8.52 pm
:: Mood: sleepy

Tainted love

You are Colombia. You rock in that special way only
the squeaky can.


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...but i dont squeak.......


So ive been functioning off of 3 hours of sleep....yeah...we went for Aurbys at 3am and didnt get back to parkdale till 4:45...sun was comming up and yeah.Oh and also earlier that night we drove out to power and back in an old transit bus from colorado.

Today had spurs and sadels it was fun.

So the camping trip ....ok...well 2 out of the 5 people i invited arnt comming 1 due to family trip , other due to stuff. So yeah....gwen and jessika are going or plan to...and ashley might not go....bah...it all kinna died...

Once i ran to you,
now i run from you.

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