When We Live

:: 2004 20 March :: 3.50pm

I'd really love it if y'all came to OUR play tonight...

:: 2004 20 March :: 3.49pm
:: Mood: depressed/contemplative/tired
:: Music: You're a shining star!...Can you feel the love tonight?

Don't mind me.
I think I made Mishelle's bday party hell. Sorry, Mishelle.

I may go to the play with Kelsey tonight. I hope I can.

So sick, so sick of being tired, and oh so tired of being sick....I love Taking Back Sunday. I am borrowing it from Alex. Along with other emo stuff. I feel emo. Yay emo!

I wish I knew what was wrong with me. I am not being myself at all. It seems like I am incapable of being bubbly or having any personality at all, or being like I usually am. I hate it. I am only tired, depressed, or apathetic. I slept for a long time last night and I am still tired.

I am going to go listen to emo and sleep.

:: 2004 18 March :: 6.47pm
:: Mood: depressed and bitchy
:: Music: No Doubt..*NSYNC - God must have spent a little more time on you

I am fucking peachy. How are you?
There was SEX on the school football field today O_O

Chrisitie has a crush on SETH!!! Seth has a crush on Christie! It is so cute!!!

I still need to write my resume for crew >'.'<

We are doing a "talent contest" in drama. I, being talentless me, am doing my SOI piece. Exciting, eh? I should find someone else to do something with, too.

I am pathetic. I should get over it.

:: 2004 16 March :: 6.18pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: FUSE

It is coming baaaaackkk!!!
I am now going to prom. Thank Kelsey.

:: 2004 16 March :: 6.38am
:: Mood: really tired
:: Music: VH1

the play will kill me...
Yeah... I had soccer yesterday, then I had to rush over to play rehearsal, which was 4 hours long last night... I was at school until 11 for a little bell ringing... WHY did I sign up for sound crew? Oh, right, I was doing my civic duty to the drama crew, because someone has to do the crap job.
Oh, and apparantly, I'm now going to OUR prom with Quincy, and I'm supposedly going as Frank... yes... I don't think we've got the details quite worked out on that...
g'day!

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:: 2004 16 March :: 7.52am
:: Mood: cynical
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday - Your Own Disaster...LTJ - Teenager in love..I want you to want me

Meh. Formally.
I went to bed about 7 last night. A full ten hour night!

I have been noticing stuff lately...Like how cute this one chick is....And she has the most awesome glasses! They are all like cat-eyed sorta and have sparkly jewel things on edges...She has orangeish-red hair as well. There is also another chick with BRIGHT red hair and she had red makeup when I saw her and she was so awesomely cute...Alright. Alex (JIMMY) is right...cute does sound young :-p. But she was!

With guys I am not even noticing looks anymore..well...noticing:yes, but caring:no...so I am gathering more crushes there...I am just too shy.

Which brings me to my next point. I am constantly pushing everyone away. I HATE IT. I am shy AND I push people away which means I lose alot more than I should. It fucking sucks how I can not stand to be close to anyone as much as I may want to. Quite depressing, really..

ITEDs (IOWAS!) start today. = )

:: 2004 14 March :: 9.31pm

but I guess this whole journal crap won't matter much, considering woohu will probably close down anyway within the next month.

:: 2004 14 March :: 9.28pm
:: Mood: dismembered
:: Music: The Matrix

it's hard to say what tragedy is
Yeah, the world seems to crumble around us, and it seems we don't have much room to walk anymore. But, hey, we always asked for our solitude. Ironic, how our insanities come from sane complaints.
I read the Trib article today about testing going on in the next few weeks... God... I'm already pissed about Iowas coming up, but then it hit me that NCLB tests are coming too... Fuck... I don't know if I've got much faith in the sophomores... They're the group that decides on sink or swim of the school... Not to mention my parents' occupations... Alexander, you may hate me for this one, but look what the republicans started this time. And I can't fucking believe that they got support for all this... Stress...
And I just noticed today that my music for Symphonic tryouts is missing... I really hope there are more copies...
Oh, and just fucking wonderful. My mother finally found out that I have an online journal:
Lacey: "What are you doing right now?"
Me: "I'm on my journal."
She: "Oh, well I need to print something off later" *walks upstairs*
mom: *rushing down stairs* "What is this?
Me: my journal
she: why is it online
me: because I'm too lazy to put it on paper
she: who can read it?
me: nobody, unless I want them to
she: like who?
me: like Michelle, Jessika, and Roxanne
she: is this the thing that got you in trouble with Schylar?
me: no **thinking: what the fuck?**
carrying on in the convo, me pissed at her, she unhappy with the whole idea
So then, Lacey comes back down, and I bitch on her, because I've been trying to keep this journal quiet, because I know my parents are too fucking stupid to understand some things need to be kept quiet to them. She's all "well, you didn't tell me you wanted to keep it secret from them."
"there are a lot of things I tell you that I don't want them to know."
"well, you didn't say it straight out"
"whatever"
And how the fuck would my mom know about what's been going on with me and schylar unless lacey said something... FUCK! I can't trust anyone again. It's all screwed.

:: 2004 14 March :: 11.19pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: Home movies

Damn little boy
The little boy was in a bad mood when he came home. My mom ended up slapping him because he was bad mouthin her, being disrespectful, and just talking uneducatedly. He kicked her back, so she slapped him again. He grabbed the bag of apples and threw them at her. Then they were all out brawlin...all on the floor...he kicking, she punching....Then they ended it, he got up and ran to John's house. (John is his friend)..He called his dad and he came and picked him up from there. The dad called the mom and she would not talk. The little boy called the mom and she talked to him, and he ended up talking for his dad...they were threatening her to take Marty as well as Harley and press charges against my mom...So then she hung up and would not answer any more. She called the cops and asked what to do. The only thing possible is for her to report the little boy as a runaway...so she is doing that. She went to her work to get the divorce papers and then down to the police station. I am all alone...

This may sound bad, but I want her to come back so she can do my hair. It looks bad :-p.

...I hope nothing bad happens...

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:: 2004 14 March :: 1.24am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Dave the Barbarian!

Quiz time
HASH(0x88a48a0)
Rain: You are the sound of rain. You have two
important sides. There is your strong, powerful
side and your calm, gentle side. Both are very
important. Rain also reflects a bit of darkness
in your personality. It isn't bad, just shows
that along with the good, you also can see bad,
which can come in handy. (please rate my quiz)

What Sound Are You?(now w/ pics)
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Water
You are guided by water. You are generally calm and
peaceful, but you can be very destructive
without even realizing it.(Rate my test)

What force is your soul?
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...I feel watery and wet....(DO NOT MISINTERPRET -_-)

hhrfyj
your dark and mysterious..you have a hidden talent
but you don't tell anyone..its probably an art
of some kind...you don't let people get that
close to you because you've been hurt
alot...your tough and independant..your
actually alot like me....cool..please rate..

What emotion does your soul hold...(kinda for girls but either can take)
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You are Cleopatra of the Nile. The great
biographer of the time, Plutarch, wrote of
Cleopatra, 'Her actual beauty, it is said, was
not in itself so remarkable that none could be
compared with her, or that no one could see her
without being struck by it, but the contact of
her presence, if you lived with her, was
irresistible . . . It was a pleasure merely to
hear the sound of her voice, with which, like
an instrument of many strings, she could pass
from one language to another . . .' You have a
spark in you that draws other people to you.
Indeed, you are drawn to others because you are
always curious. People can talk to you; and
you have a passion in life to know, live, love,
and learn. Please rate my quiz.

What famous female ruler are you? (written for the girls)
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:: 2004 13 March :: 9.11pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: "Milk" - Garbage

this is life...
Grey Vibes
Your Energy is Grey. Your thoughts are unclear,
muddled, and confusing. Dark thoughts or
depression may be clouding your true colors.
It may be that you have been hurt and rejected,
or maybe you are just manipulative, dark, and
evil.

What color is your energy?
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nef...
Couldn't have had a better day... ha...
Since the tourneys are over, I have to say the weekends seem pretty dull... Life at home is very dragging... and since I won't bother with my homework right now... oy... Can't say I've been too successful with chatroom conversations either... well... that's it... blah... death...

:: 2004 13 March :: 7.02pm
:: Mood: Tired
:: Music: K99...I am too lazy to change it.

Lyke Oh My. God. Lyke totally freak my out I said right on!
Nirvana
Grunge! You're all about the music and would even
turn your back on fame just to stay true to
your roots... You reached your high in the
early '90s, but you're still making some good
stuff! Keep rocking!

What genre of rock are you?
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I am so tired.

I got an AP today. It has nakee people on front. O_O

We also got about a hundred burritos. There was a big sale going on.

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:: 2004 11 March :: 11.31pm
:: Mood: sleepydrunk
:: Music: "There's a Light" - Rocky Horror

pretty good stuff
Screw the day, it was hardly important.
It's the secrets behind it that made it worth living.
And since the secrets are truely secretive,
It seems y'all won't know their meaning.
But, just to let you know
I'm still listening.
A little wiser this time.
(at least, mehopes)
And I'm ready to hear
What you tell me.
But your questions may be
Too heavy for my heart.
Don't worry, though.
We have our time to work through it.
Life is short,
But adolescences seems to be eternal.
Maybe we'll see the meaning together,
And maybe we'll see the end.
It's all a matter of direction.
And maybe there is a Fate to guide us,
But it might be our actions only.
The sun set, but the fire still burns.
Phoenix or not, you seem eternal.

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