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silversoldier

:: 2004 2 November :: 1.28pm
:: Mood: uncommited
:: Music: "I Can See It" - The Fantasticks

Time never moves at desired speed.
I've really been wishing today would go by extremely fast... instead I've been given a potluck of empty free time in school.

We had a group discussion in English over Jane Eyre today. It was horrible, simply because she required every person to put in input. Though I understand her desire to incorporate everyone (after all, this was a graded discussion), the group was rather hollow in ideas. Unfortunate, quite.

Stephanie was back from surgery today, so I now have to shuttle her to/ from the first four periods. It would be a grand old time if I didn't have to come up with conversation every time I see her. The time in the elevator is inevitably going to be silent... Speaking of the elevator, I'm afraid it will break down one of the times I'm in it... frightening.

In band, we (luckily) didn't get reamed by Mr. Kellogg today. I greatly feared he would be on us for how crappy the show turned out. Fortunately, he decided to completely ignore the show. (I hear he was bitching on every other period today, though.)

Chemistry was a self-guided review today. We're doing molar conversion factors... fairly easy stuff, honestly, so I had a lot of down time.

Health was horrible, simply because we started our discussion on suicide today. I've had too many experiences relating to that to want to have a discussion with a bunch of prig students.

Spanish (as always) nothing happened at all. What can I say? We're still in first-year review, so it's a pretty straightforward time.

And so we come to now. I have a whole period open to whatever I choose, because people are apparently behind in Computer literacy. It's a bloody easy class, and horrendously slow. So here I sit, updating my journal instead of getting extra credit. Horrible kid am I.

I hope we finish blocking for the play today. It's amazing how much work has been put into it, and yet we've barely started the second act. I could puke. Oh well, fun things will come, such as me being set on fire, or placed in a monkey suit and beaten (again, this is quite a strange play).

lie


silversoldier

:: 2004 1 November :: 8.53pm
:: Mood: inconsequential
:: Music: "Danse Macabre" - Saint-Saens

Discussions with a long-fated traveller
Seeing that I finally finished Jane Eyre and the parents aren't at the house, I figured this would be as good a time as ever to update. Sure it's been forever since this path has been taken, but at least I've taken the time to re-visit it.
Rather than try to recall the last two months of my life, I'll just not do it, and y'all can pretend like I was dead or something during that time period. That's about how I was feeling, anyway.
This year was an immensely fun Halloween (except that Jessimika was grounded... such is the life). Of course, I can't remember too many of my Halloweens, and last year was spent recovering from a surgery. Real tough comparison, eh? Since I spent about three minutes getting my costume together (the majority of my time had actually been spent doing constructive things, such as washing myself, and the like), I ended up going as a psycho with Bugs Bunny for a head and an Elizabethan dagger as my weapon. Originality is duly noted.
We had dinner at Cattin's and (thankfully) they put us in the back of the restaurant. I wouldn't have been able to stand the smoke. Most of my time at Cattins, I was utterly amazed at how convincing of a woman Colton can be (well, minus the hairy arms). Honestly, he could pull it off, I mean, he fooled the folks at the haunted house.
After Cattin's we went to Holiday Village to get in line for their haunted house. Gwen and I agreed to be partners through it, since we are naturally clingy when we get scared. Unfortunately, we were told we had to go single-file, so I had to drag Gwen behind me while the rest of the group practically ran in front of us. The house wasn't really a scary one. I only jumped twice, once because I couldn't move out of the way of one of the guys with a saw, and the other because some guy hit one of the steel barrels extremely hard when it was right behind me. Oh, and the William Shatner mask really bothered me... Halloween the movie...
Then we went off to the Kranz haunted house, but decided not to stay because the line was too long and just about everyone was smoking around us. We drove to my house, where we sat for about thirty minutes, then went trick-or-treating around the neighborhood. It was so hilarious to see people's reaction to a bunch of highschoolers asking for candy.
Oh! I guess I haven't officially announced that I'm in The Fantasticks. Woohoo! My first musical, my first time on stage in a major high school production (I don't consider one-acts all that special), and I get the lead. It's madness, I tell you. "I'll drink and gamble. I'll grow a mustache!" - my favorite line
Rehearsals haven't been too bad, though after two and a half weeks we still haven't finished blocking. Plus we don't have the actual stage built yet (it's an intimate play, so instead of using the auditorium stage, we're building a platform in the pit, one that couldn't be built until after all the fall concerts were finished).The play is absolutely fun... quirky... and definitely a product of the sixties... but amazingly fun.
Excuse me for a second... this mosquito bite on my arm just exploded... I don't know how... but I should probably clean it out...
Well that's slightly painful... and still bleeding... but I live on.
I'm truly, desperately, sappilly looking for a relationship. Though I've found the last three years of singleness quite a content time in my life, I'm restless for something to happen. Probably just a burst of sexual energy... I don't know, but I'm certainly feeling something right now.

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emotherapy

:: 2004 29 October :: 9.55pm
:: Music: Brand New...Soco Amaretto Lime

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♥♥
stormy

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silversoldier

:: 2004 29 October :: 2.22pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: class

silly me
Well, since I've failed to update for three months (?)(!) I'd figure I'd say something here. What a bloody house of ill-repute this journal has become.
Not that I don't want to fill y'all in on all the details right now, but there are only about three minutes left in the period, and I need to log off. I intend to give a really long update this weekend though. Sorry, but this is what a musical does to a schedual. Horrible, eh?

lie


Jessika

:: 2004 14 October :: 3.08pm

AT SCHOOL!

lie


Jessika

:: 2004 1 October :: 1.21pm

Stand, Bison down the field. Fight ‘til the end. We’ll never change our course, until the very end. Rah rah rah roll up the score Great Falls; we’ll have to win. Stand Bison down the field and smash the others, smash the others in.

For ROchelle

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Jessika

:: 2004 28 September :: 3.02pm

“I can resist everything except temptation.”

Inspirational thought from typing class :)

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Jessika

:: 2004 16 September :: 10.42pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: buzzzzzzz

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR >_<
Yeah. I am actually doing something right now. It sucks. I should do the rest of my speech improv goddammit!!! >_

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Jessika

:: 2004 6 September :: 12.50am
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: Poison - Something to Believe In

Whadya think?
The question of the night:

Should I dye my hair blonde?


So far the majority says yes. Sandra is willing to do it and add red highlights as well. It will be a pretty big jump, as my hair is currently a medium brown..I guess more on the dark side.

On another note: I made M&M cookies. And corn. It was a great combo. :-)

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Jessika

:: 2004 1 September :: 10.08pm
:: Mood: *sniffle*
:: Music: Sugarcult - Hate Every Beautiful Day

I hate sick.
The government today announced that it is changing its emblem
from an Eagle to a condom because it more accurately reflects the government's political stance.
A condom allows for inflation, halts production,destroys the
next generation, protects a bunch of pricks, and gives you
a sense of security while you're actually being screwed.

That made me laugh a lot.


I feel pretty shitty still. 5 days into the school year and I have already stayed home. It made me feel about 25% better, though. I HATE Geometry. I don't understand it so it sucks. I am pretty awesome at Algebra, but Geometry....I can see myself getting like a C. At least I can fail that but still go into Alg. 2 trig honors next year. My teachers pity people lioke me that can only stay in one branch of math.

I don't want to write my English paper. Topic: how justice is defeated by prejudice in To Kill a Mockingbird. Brady suggested using conscience as the basis, so it will be pretty simple. I just don't want to do it. Or my Geometry paper. Or the test on the book tomorrow. I want to do speech and drama and choir (once I can breathe again). That's it. Oh, and sleeping is good, too. ..I think I shall go do that.


Haahahaaaaaaaa..I was looking through past entries. I came across this response to Nick going all poetic on me:

How's this for poetic!??!?!

Cookies
Life is a cookie.
Warm, gooey;
Only, however, when fresh from the oven.

Crumbly when old.
Burn them and they also crumble.

Chocolate chips become obstacles in the oven that is life.

Haahaaaa. That totally rules you, Nick. You'd never believe it, but it only took me 30 seconds to think of, too :-D

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silversoldier

:: 2004 28 August :: 5.00pm
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: Debussy

A big juicy long one
[Edit: fixed the music website]

Well... my subject sounds like a pornographic statement, but I'm referring to the length of this post. It's been roughly three weeks since an update (at least on LiveJournal), so logically this post should be long and full of detail.

Music link (well, the address, as I'm too lazy to encode a link): for those of you that I've raved so much about Debussy as of late (I guess that would be Michelle... and anyone who wants to check it out, I suppose).
http://www.kunstderfuge.com/debussy.htm
I reccomend everything, though there's at least two hours of music on the sight. I also reccomend you only listen to the live quality versions because it's the best I've ever heard from a MIDI file.

I just picked a scab on my head...

Today has been a sit-in of sorts, so I figured it was time for me to update, what with all the exciting (?) things going on in my life.... Damn, I have to actually remember these things...
Our AYSO team lost the championship... annoying because I tend to take a lot of blame as sweeper. I'm like a goalie that way, I think every team mistake is my fault... mainly because I'm the only one who communicates much on the field, so a miscommunication is my fault.

God, these Debussy etudes are beautiful.

The Once and Future King wasn't such a bad book... some interesting things in it... subtleties really. I decided to watch Camelot for my book to movie comparison... very different. Camelot, being a musical, is horribly upbeat for such a tragic story. And all the characters are naiive caricatures. Generally an annoyance after such a great book, though some of the musical pieces aren't too bad.
I decided to wait until the last two days of break to write the essay, though, and it turned out horribly. I have only one quote from the book, a three word quote from the movie... It follows no format at all (actually, I'm proud of myself for breaking the rules... I just wish I could have had more time to make a GOOD rule breaking essay). The chapter that I wrote for the book was well-done, though. I had great exposition, and showed I understood the plot layout and character actions of the book... I just changed my writing style throughout it. I started out writing what I intended to be suitable for children, and at the end I had wolves fighting each other, blood spewing from their jugulars, and snapping bones... I think I messed up a bit.
Luckily, after talking with many other people in class, I figure that if Mrs. Stubbs were to grade on a curve, I could have an A to start out with... not that she will.

Soccer tryouts: We only had 26 boys try out this year, and one is already out because he has tendinitis in his knees (Anthony Johnson... I figure one of you knows him). I was pretty average in terms of competition... for a while at least. Around Wednesday, my knees (yes knees, not knee... explanation coming) started giving me trouble. I wore the brace for my left knee, and things were fine for it. However, my right knee was extremely tense, and even icing it every day wasn't helping. Because of my injury (or at least I'm telling myself this), I'm on JV again this year. Annoying: 1. Adam Frugé is our coach again... I had a horrible time with him last year. He did not recognize me as a competent player at all. 2. Many freshmen made varsity who... well, they don't have much skill at all. One of them is on varsity simply because we need goalies... not that he's any good.
So, teams were announced Friday morning (oh, we do two-a-days... lots of running), and Friday night I went to practice thinking, "Fine, I don't have to work as hard because I made JV." Well, we were doing 1v1's and the kid I was going against got past me. So, I turned to catch up, stepped off on my right foot, and my knee gave out. Just bloody wonderful.
I went to Monarc the next day to get it checked out. The guy who did my analysis said that I've probably got a bruised or torn miniscus. So, I'm supposed to rest it for a week, then come back in for a follow up the next Saturday (that would be today... another explanation) to see whether I can start playing again or if I should get an MRI. I also got a prescription for 800mg ibuprofen. I thought it would make me loopy, as 200mg Motrin gets to me... but sadly, it doesn't.

Band: The band had two early practices last week because of the football game on the second day of school. The practices were voluntary, and the game ended up being voluntary because of the poor attendance at the practices.

Soccer: We had our car wash last Saturday. I stood out in the street holding a sign. It was good that my hands were full because it prevented me from making obscene gestures at the people who were making them at me. (This was also after my weak knee incident... I stood for four hours in the heat on 10th on weak legs... Some things just couldn't be better.)
I spent all of this week as equipment manager for the team. Instead of running around and hurting my knee, I instead carry around fairly heavy equipment bags to strain myself instead. I'm not sure which would be better. There's a freshman on the team who I think might be gay... or horribly deprived of attention and male role models. He's quiet, but he follows guys around. He's a bit strange... but he's got a nice body :P No, I don't think I could date a freshman. It's amazing what a school can do to you, but I really cannot socialize well with freshmen. They generally piss me off. Well, except for Vinnie. He's a crazy kid.
Big news: The JV team tied varsity this year. That's something that's never happened in the past. JV hasn't even scored on varsity before. And I had NOTHING to do with it. I'm sitting sideline right now. On Wednesday I went in to Dr. Houlihan (my family doc). He did a really crappy assesment of my knee, then took some X-rays. He thinks that I've only pulled a ligament, not anything with my miniscus. So, he arranged for me to get a brace for my right knee. This annoys me, because MONARC was much more thorough, and told me that a knee brace can actually do further damage to a miniscus injury (I trust them much more... they've been more successful with treating my other knee). Unfortunately, MONARC is not covered by our insurance, so I have to go with Dr. Houlihan because my parents will not pay the money for a better treatment. I have a feeling I could run into some serious trouble in a few months with this.

Wow, I've finally made it to the first day of school. And it only took me an hour to remember/type down the preceeding. I hope the link hasn't gone inactive because I'm not willing to retype all this.
English: nothing special... I've already mentioned Once and Future King... that's about it from that class. Band: I MADE IT TO SYMPHONIC BAND!!!! Sometimes one can be a real winner. We've only been playing pep band music right now, but we've got a full schedule this year.

Ah... I just loaded Claire de Lune on the computer... one of the most beautiful piano pieces EVER.

Science: I've got my mom this year. We've agreed to not acknowledge our relationship. Health/P.E.: There's a guy in my class that transferred from Belt. He's pretty good looking, and he looks as though he even fits my social group choice. I feel bad that I didn't really talk to him much because 1. I'm horribly lustful 2. He looked rather lonely. Ah, well, there's a year ahead of us. Spanish: I've got Mr. McNulty. I'm not sure if I'm happy or pissed off. He's a really funny guy, but I don't think he realizes that his humor can cause a lot of damage (for example: he's got a quote from Mein Kampf that is humorous, but does not support the foreign language at all). And his pronunciation is horrible. But he drills verbs, something that few Spanish teachers will do. Computer lit.: This class should be my easiest, though I hate working with Microsoft anything. I've grown up on Apple, and I find it so much easier to work with. Geometry: I have Geometry for the last class of the day... I'll probably fail the class because I won't be awake for it. Our teacher Mr. Olson is one of the taller folks in the school, and his classroom has a platform that he teaches from. He and the platform are at least seven and a half feet tall. It's hard to look at. I'll likely not make eye contact at all this year, for fear of eyestrain.

And that's been the past three weeks as best I remember them... not very well, I'm sure.

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Jessika

:: 2004 28 August :: 1.25am
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: Alice

I think I need sleep
I am downloading Disney music and it rocks. I love Disney.

I have my speech and debate paperwork! YYYAAAAYYYY!!! Once I pay my activity fee, I can begin practice! I don't think I am going to do ld this year. Maybe later. Speech is so much better, though I love to debate. I don't want to put forth the work of writing my own case, though. >_<
I love Quinn. She is so cute and CLEAN :-D. Clean and oranized is a good factor about a head coach. My duo pieces are coming very soon!

CHARLIE AND BRYCE are in my gym class >_< but...Roxanne has Bailey and Jordyn in her math class, so I don't feel so bad.

I have most classes with Tim and Rochelle. Wooo!

And,....my life is boring and school made me tired. I also need to buy a bra tomorrow.

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silversoldier

:: 2004 27 August :: 6.21am

Seeing that I've left this thing to decay over the last few weeks, I guess I could update sometime... but not now.

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Jessika

:: 2004 26 August :: 7.47am
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: weird buzzing

BRRR :(
Why is it soo cold??? It is still the supposed hottest month of summer! Why can't it be at least WARM?? I am wearing a skirt today. And will freeze my ass off. Can't wait.

So...today is the first day of school. Joy. I did not finish my English. I still need to read a book and write 4 more journal entries. I was typing them, but it was in the middle of stuff, and my columns and entire journal format got fucked up. So, I fixed it and will just write the damn things.
I have 7 am today. After all that confusion, I still have to go. I don't even know what room it is in...resourceful me :-s.
I can't wait to see who my new music teacher is. For some reason, that has been eating me since the beginning of August. Very odd.
I am hungry though I ate a bowl of cereal. Boo. I hate being hungry.

I like my Monty Python review, but the one on The Exorcist completely sucks. How exciting, eh? :-p. But...I think I am more of a Monty Python type write than Exorcist. If that made sense to you. It did to me. I am better than you. :-)

I am soo excited for school...which is very very sad.

I get picked up at 6:35 today. Right now it is 5:45.

I set my alarm for 5 (just the time I usually get up for school), and actually got up, but when I came downstairs, I found out it was really 4:40. I was up VERY VERY early today. I will be dead by 6th period. MY LAST CLASS :-D (which I am changing. I want a 7th.)

lie


Jessika

:: 2004 14 August :: 10.32pm
:: Mood: determined
:: Music: beatles - california dreamin

I DROVE THE MUTHA-EFFING TRANS AM!!!!!! THAT THING IS SOOOO FUCKING COOL!!!

I can't wait til' I get it. Who cares if it's not until my uncle dies. I can still hope he will be generous...or plot evilly and hope it works.



I come home tomorrow. I hope we go to the mazes first =D. Stuff needs to be done. I now have 26 bucks. How shall I spend it?

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