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:: 2004 18 July :: 3.05am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Bright Eyes - Lover I don't have to love <33333

This made me giggle. *giggle*

Gay Bear

Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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I have to be at the museum in 12 hours. x_x...I want to stay home = (.

I got quite sick from the heat or somethnig today. It was bad. I felt terrible.

I wanna lover I don't have to love! I want a [boy] that's to sad to give a fuck. There is the kid with the chemicals. I thought he said he'd meet us here but I'm not sure...

I want a lover I don't have to love. I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk. Where's the kid with the chemicals? I got a hunger and I can't seem to get full. I need some meaning I can memorize. The kind I have always seems to slip my mind......

jessika

:: 2004 17 July :: 9.39pm
:: Mood: hot
:: Music: water running

It is very hot here. Especially in my room. I have been getting sick because of the heat really bad today. I need to go lie down again...but it has to be in heat.

I have a 28 pound watermelon in my fridge.

:: 2004 10 July :: 10.27pm
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: mom

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers) Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers) Low
Level 2 (Lustful) Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous) High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious) Moderate
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy) Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics) Very High
Level 7 (Violent) Extreme
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers) Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous) Moderate

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

WOW! If I remember right, I was in the 5th level last time...I have gotten eviler or something in the past few months. Like....2 whole levels eviler.

Alone
Lonliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but
its there, and your friends can see it. You
constantly feel alone, and need to do things to
fill your time. Your afraid to tell people
this, but sooner or later it gets out in a bad
way, and you think you screwed up everything.
And when you are in love is when you are sad
the most. (Please Vote)

What Emotion Dominates you?
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Disorder Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

These have made me feel very low today.....:-(. Oh well! I have chicken!!!!!!!!!!!!! *happy happy joy joy!!!*

:: 2004 9 July :: 6.19pm
:: Mood: indifferent
:: Music: "Memory" - Sugar Cult

a few random notes
Alone
Lonliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but
its there, and your friends can see it. You
constantly feel alone, and need to do things to
fill your time. Your afraid to tell people
this, but sooner or later it gets out in a bad
way, and you think you screwed up everything.
And when you are in love is when you are sad
the most. (Please Vote)

What Emotion Dominates you?
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Sometimes lonliness doesn't equal sadness. But, for the most part I see that as true...
I've made a secretarial decision on my journals: My Woohu account will be for personal updates, while my LJ will be for community posts. yay me. I'll still reply to LJ posts, but will be putting none up.
It's looking as though I'm not going to do any birthday celebration. 1) I'm lazy. 2) I feel like poo. 3) I don't like celebrating myself on any occasion.

I've just been called for dinner. eeee.

:: 2004 8 July :: 12.43pm
:: Mood: disillusioned
:: Music: "Take Me Out" - Franz Ferdinand

Entrance of another change
Well, I've had complaints that my text is hard to read, so I might fix it at some point... might... I'll probably just do a color change.
I'm slightly pissed right now, because I came downstairs to see this Prokofiev piece I printed off yesterday spread out on the piano bench, pages folded over, out of order, and I'm thinking how could this have happened, because I'm the only one in the house that goes around the piano... annoyance.
Things were slightly uncomfortable on Tuesday. Tiphani was her normal self, which I've come to see as painfully analytical at times. Jessika was not so cheery and had a fork... not the best combination, it turns out. And Michelle and I exchanged sorry childhood stories. Lovely day, bleak mood.
Yesterday, I was cleaning my room, as it really could use it for the summer. Not in the best mood at all for cleaning a room, but one must live with it. I've just got this want to get out this summer. It's really interesting, as the last two summers I had little to do and didn't want to go much of anywhere, and this summer I'm doing quite a bit and still want more. Give the horse an inch and he'll try for a mile. I found my graffiti page from health and decided to start back up on it. It's not looking too bad at the moment. Certainly the most colorful art sketch I've done in a while.
I also had a game last night. I guess we ended up winning, but it felt like we lost. I worked really hard, because I was supposed to play sweeper, but my stopper played sweeper, so I played stopper/sweeper to cover for him. And in the fourth quarter I was played at center mid.... I never play center mid. I've played wing, because I can run the line and have a fairly good cross. But I don't play center mid. Plus, I had to cover as stopper as well, because the kid playing stopper then was also playing sweeper. I should stop with the rec league.
And on another soccer note, I'm going to high school practice tonight. I skipped the first two (not that they're manditory, though I did get a very friendly threat to show up in my inbox). So, I'm going to go die tonight, because I've had horrible reactions with my asthma recently, my knee problems have put me out of shape and out of mindset, my recent abdominal cramps (really a funny thing for me to say, but serious pain), and at the game last night my left hip started aching. I'm not doing so well at all. But I'll go try, boy0 yes. This could be a horrible mistake to go back.
I should probably get back to cleaning my room or playing piano so I seem somewhat productive around here. Now that they've taken down the plastic curtain in the kitchen my allergies have gone insane, because they never cleaned up their sawdust or any of that. I've yet to decide on birthday celebrations... I should do that today.

:: 2004 8 July :: 12.44pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: Stupid fucking puppies

FUCK YOU!
I decided to not go on the camping trip, but right now I am on the edge of a decision. Persausion can do wonders.
Top 4 reasons for me not to go:
1. I wouldn't feel wanted.
2. Another person could go in my place or
3. There would be more room without me.
4. I don't really want to.
That is that.

Lately I have been getting some "vibes" from ~~some~~ a bunch of people. It seems I have been making your life too hard. I have been contributing to the hell your life currently is. And guess what? I don't fucking care anymore. I gave up caring for your emotions just recently. I realized you could care less how often you make me want to cry. It is just a game to you. What are friends for? Not this. So I give up on caring. If something about me is funny, then why not laugh about it? ~~Nobody~~ you don't get hurt in the end, right? Right. I wish I could gain some courtesy. But..Oh Jessika, you had something on your tooth so we sat their laughing about it instead of telling you...THANKS. The best years of my life, right? Of course.

The best part about this is that nobody will know what I am talking about. Figures.

13 truthsooth sayers | lie

:: 2004 6 July :: 12.20am

Curiouser and curiouser...
What HTML codes work here?

This one?

How

bout

this

one?

~~strikeout?~~

Eh?

BIG!

That's all for now :-)

:: 2004 5 July :: 1.59pm
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: Ballroom Blitz

Subjects suck.
Though Mishelle has an imagination that takes her a little ways (She goes over there --> ...no...more...more....keep going..THERE), Taco Boy sure was hot......

I am offically sick of rain. Quite amazing.

We need to go downtown. Tiphani is coming with. How about this or next week? I am forever free now.

I was at the museum this morning. Got up at 7:30. Left at 8:20. Arrived much sooner than I thought I would at a few before 9. Followed a tour. Played with chalk and crayons. Found out the preschoolers cancelled. Waited outside for about 20 minutes. 20 minutes too long. Went home. The end.

I want a grilled cheese sandwich. No breakfast is not good.

:: 2004 5 July :: 12.03am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Family Guy

stuff
OMG!!! Family Guy is actually on while I'm awake.
Well, it was rainy at the parade, which made marching in a t-shirt and shorts miserable, but we amazingly did rather well. Then we went out to the Amigo Lounge for lunch. I never realized until today that there's a guy with a sombrero as their logo. I always thought it looked like a big angry tomato. Abstract mind, eh?
I'm amazed that they didn't say anything about RHPS during I love the 70's 1975 yesterday (I've never watched the 70's series... what can I say?). It's one of the biggest things ever, and it got upstaged by Monty Python. A close second in the movie world, but something tells me singing transvestites deserve a place in Vh1 productions.
Went to the city fireworks display and watched it from Central Bridge. It was an O.K. show, but not the best ever. I think they had some malfunctions in the computer system, because there were some good sized gaps in launches. Oh well, the finish was good.
Then, we came home and set off stuff in the rain. Um, the only problem piece tonight was a starball that shot into our bushes. And I got a few fuse burns, but nothing too special.
So, the mother's gone to Missoula for two weeks, I'm only here for one more week. Um... I should probably re-start Once and Future King... should...
I really want to choreograph a dance routine... but I'm not moving as well as I used to. That's certainly a setback. Not to mention I've got very few dance albums. Whatever, I'll find something to do.

5 truthsooth sayers | lie

:: 2004 4 July :: 4.20pm
:: Mood: allergic
:: Music: people talking

Happy 4th of Jooliiie!!!!
Merry day of independence! I could go off about the irony of that, but I choose not to. :-)

Yesterday I took my driving test. It was funny. Mr. Ekert totally cut Annie massive amounts of slack...so un-Mr. Ekertish. First, she could not remember her birthdate due to nerves. She forgot to signal 2 right turns and ran a yellow light instead of stopping. She did not SMOG, either. Mr. Ekert missed one of her not singalling and not smoging. She totally should have failed :-p. I thought I ran over the curb on a sharp turn (Automatic fail), but I just tapped it. Whew. I ended with 16 on the district and 6 on the state. 7 was successful. Therefore, I had a pass with a point to spare. Weeeeee!!!

Today I went to the parade. It was rainign through out pretty much the entire thing. The baton twirlers and the Republican float things equally sucked. They were terrible. I wanted to kick the stupid elephant. Stupid thing. I liked the Footloose (being put on this sumemr by Summer Musicale! I wanna see!), and karaoke (sp? O_o) flots most. Where did you come from, where did you go? Where did you come from Cotton-eye Joe? Most hick song I know, yet I completely love it.....
After that we went to the park and had lunch with the Set-Free people. Tonight Mishelle's. My hair shall be sacraficed. And now I have to take out the puppy. BOO. stupid dog. :-/

2 truthsooth sayers | lie

:: 2004 3 July :: 1.21pm

horoscope

Cancer - Horoscope for June 28 - July 4

This week is highlighted by a positive difference in your close love relationship.

You are likely to sense a heightened state of expression and feeling coming from your mate or loved one.

The emotions you feel now may lead you on a new path of discovery, specifically with regard to your attitude toward intimacy, love, and companionship.

If you are currently unattached, you might draw others to you now who reawaken some of your deeper feelings and memories with respect to love and previous relationships.

The love and guidance you receive from others can help squelch any fears or anxieties which hold you back from accepting love and affection.

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The only truth in this horoscope is that I still am wary on love. There has been no comfort over the issue.

:: 2004 3 July :: 12.54pm
:: Mood: energetic
:: Music: "Maple Leaf Rag" - Scott Joplin

Advancements in personal lifestyle
I really intended to update on Wednesday, but the huge-ass storm that came through on Tuesday (I don't know what it was like for you folks, but it was quite spectacular here) and screwed up our cable connection. The service man originally wasn't going to come in until July 12, but apparently he was feeling generous (or extremely underbooked) and came in last night.
The big news from Wednesday: I passed my driving test with only one minor (turned too sharply while backing into a dirt-turned-mud road and couldn't back up any further because of the condition of the ground). But, as is standard with Mr. O'Hara, I was told the one month or ten hours, whichever occurs first, of practice with parents should happen. Well, seeing that I can't get my license until I'm fifteen, which is precisely one week from today, I have to practice anyway. The other delay is, the Tenth is a Saturday, I'm leaving on the Sunday following for a week, and not getting back until the next Saturday. So, it will be at least another two weeks before I can go to the DMV to receive my license.
I've been watching Wimbolden for the sole purpose of watching Andy Roddick run around the court :P. Unfortunately, I didn't get to see the result of the semi-final match.
Thursday:
Bought the Jamie Cullum CD to expand my relatively small jazz world. I don't know how I missed Michelle at the mall because I'm sure I was there at the same time as her. Also while I was there I bought the original Tony Hawk Pro Skater for a whole $3.00. Outdated gaming is extremely cheap. Unfortunately I don't have any controller paks for my N64, which is required to save a game on THPS (something that I was aware of, but had not the money to spend... a whole $5.00 more), so I tend to spend about two hours at a time on the game, realize I'm beginning to go cross-eyed, and decide it would be good to end my run.
Also Thursday I had an AYSO game (in the event that you don't know, Jimmy, AYSO is much less organized in Montana than in California).... Yeah, we won, but that's because we have people that have played club and high school league. Then I went off to Patriot Marching Band practice. We're going to look horrible, as always. Middle schoolers don't have the right attention span and discipline to learn how to march in two days, and since they make up the majority of the band (because most high schoolers are aware that this band sucks to be in.... I felt like doing civic duty for once and helping the poor children) there is little form to the band. It's a good way to build patience. I had both a band director and some kid who marches behind me tell me that I was off from the rest of the line, when in fact, I was the only person in my line to keep four-step spacing, while the rest tend to march up the ass of the person in front of them. Whatever. I know high school band is less stressful.
My parents have been out car shopping with my sister. I still don't understand the logic of this. She's going to Ashland, Oregon, for schooling. Well, USO is more than half of the town. She can walk from one end of the town to the other without breaking a sweat. But she's going to get a new car while I'm stuck driving my parents vehicles. A Windstar and an Intrepid.... They've got too much space for a high schooler. But my sister has to have something for the road. Their money, not mine.
I've been thinking about actually having a party, seeing that my birthday will fall when I'm in town for once. Actually, it has been for two years already, but for one we were painting the living room, and the other was when my dad developed kidney stones... Not the best time for a social gathering. It almost feels wrong to do something... It's not in my nature.
Cameron's doing well in BMX right now. I haven't had a chance to talk to him, but I've followed him in the paper.

:: 2004 1 July :: 11.07pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: pounding

;_;
Some people are stupid. I think they are intentionally trying to piss me off..figures.

I don't want to get flamed right now. I don't think anybody reads any of my journals, but just by the miracle chance they get bored I will not say anything. I have so much I can say...And this is why I get anger management problems on rare occasions.

:: 2004 1 July :: 12.31am
:: Mood: not well...sickish
:: Music: people bouncing

horoscope!

Gemini - Horoscope for June 28 - July 4

This week you are likely to be headstrong and rash at times.

Wild and daring physical activities (or just plain recklessness and impatience) can put you into dangerous situations.

Your drive for freedom, independence, and absolute authority over your own life is quite strong.

You tend to be very abrupt and inconsiderate of others.

It's best for you not to try to cooperate or slow down your pace to suit other people too much.

You need to follow your own rhythm.

You are likely to actually act on some of the more unusual or "crazy" impulses you feel from time to time: you crave excitement.

You may not feel free and can resent others who you believe inhibit your freedom and originality.

Take the time to explain your position and others may be better able to accommodate you.

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Gemini - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

Your lively, outgoing attitude attracts people to you everywhere you go.

You can talk your way into - and out of - any situation you desire.

You're adaptable enough to flirt with anyone - and people tend to fight over you.

Your negative traits:

You get easily bored in relationships, and tend to jump from person to person.

You tend to be a bit of a player - and have a high tolerance for drama in relationships.

Not the most emphathetic person, you tend to tell lovers to "get over" their problems.

Your ideal partner:

Is intelligent and quick witted enough to keep you interested.

Is a bit of a shape shifter, providing you with the variety you crave.

An open minded person, who's willling to have a non-traditional relationship.

Your dating style:

Exciting. If your date shows you a new experience (like Egyptian food or scuba diving), you're very happy.

Your seduction style:

Experimental: it's rare that you try the same thing twice.

Ultra kinky - you do stuff that's not even in books yet.

Hot and cold... sometimes you're just not into the whole sex thing.

Tips for the future:

Settle down a little. Sometimes good things come with time - so don't let people go so fast.

Acknowledge that you're a player and flirt. If your mate can't live with this, find someone who can.

Give your partner a little more attention. You don't have to be a social butterfly all the time.

Best place to meet someone online:

Match.com - enough sexy singles for you to find a new playmate when you get restless

Best color to attract mate: Sunny yellow

Best day for a date: Wednesday

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