When We Live

:: 2004 7 April :: 9.37pm

I've moved to the LJ community.
screen name is: roses_on_fire

:: 2004 6 April :: 9.44pm
:: Mood: extremely tired
:: Music: personal mix

oh, I should be asleep...
It's amazing how much a little injury like this can tire a person... I'm having an extremely hard time making it through these school days...
Let's see... We're watching the mod-version of Romeo & Juliet (with DiCaprio), because Notti doesn't think she'll have enough time to prepare for parent-teacher conferences... yeah, we've done much more than the GFH groups have done... seeing as we haven't even read the prologue yet... oy...
Biology... I was all alone today, since the Sophomores had to take the NCLB tests... so I peeled away skin from the throat and chest of a pig... what a great way to spend my free time...
No math today (NCLB tests in McLean's room)... very nice... I saw Lucien at lunch today... He's given up on his mission of flirtation with me. I'm kind of happy... I wouldn't want to be with much of an older guy right now... hmm... social studies... I am so friggin pissed at Cislo... he lost my research paper on Serbia during WWI... that took so long to do, and I don't have the files saved on my computer (a fact that goes beyond my understanding). We listened to our recording of festival... The band may have sounded good... but we could have used a better percussion group... oy... Questions in spanish.. that was about it... and we did coloring in health (!)?
Then, we started blocking for the play today... that didn't work out so well for me, because on my first two entrances I hop up on this box... and I really can't do any hopping for another week or so... so we're just faking it for the time being... I'm so happy with the cast I'm with... it sounds like we're doing much better than any other one-acts. I think we could take the show! so happy... so tired...

:: 2004 6 April :: 10.06pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Disney Channel

Graham crackers...
Today was actually a fairly good day...it started out bad, however. I was all tired...then Roxanne was upset...then we got a C- on our drama thing(one of the better of the day :-s)..then it went up after math. In English, Gwen, Kyle, and I just goofed off and half-wrote our 3rd grade stories. When we were leaving, Gwen reached and grabbed me and shocked me. Then Kyle reached and like shook me or something and shocked me more than Gwen. I asked why they kept shocking me and they responded with stuff like (Gwen): "You're electrifying!" (Kyle): You're shockingly beautiful!" and such chessy puns :-p. Oh well. It brightened my day ^_^. In Social Studies, I was near sleep while the teacher was in the back. 'Twas funny, though, because Mark (Stelling) sits in front of me and he was in the same state. Choir we watched Brother Bear...Science sucked as usual...not too bad I guess, though..Swimming Aly and I watched everyone swim..we got called the "mono brigade" or something. She has mono too. HAAAHAAAA.

I decided to stay after to help build set after school. 'Twas rather fun after I got over my immense tiredness and hunger. I screwed a lot...Christie and I got the title of the little screwers... O_o

I got a ride home from Jon Bell...he is so much nicer than I thought. BTW...THAT is Maggie's love. *eye roll* He does, however, have an awesome CD collection. We were listening to Blindside when he was driving me home for a little while, and I found it awesome. I like them a bit..I wanna here more. We got a LOT done on the set today. Woo!

Now I just found out Amanda has a crush on me STILL...*shifty shudder uncomfortable*...eep. GAA I am lying to her!! I told her I used to like her....I hate lying..I am too nice of a person...= ( I am shy and too nice...meaning I am a pacifist nonconfrontational freak..

Byebye...O_o

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:: 2004 4 April :: 5.29pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: Microwave, little people, No Doubt in the distance

Bah.
Well, everything is all set and we can have a movie party here next weekend. My mom was surprising...she said yes when I first asked and actually sounded glad to have it here O_o. Comment if you want to/can come!

I slept until 3 today! That means I slept 13 and a half hours! (I got up from 11:30-noon)...So much for LOSING an hour of sleep tonight!

The little boy is telling a story to his sandwich about this guy and sandwich that got married, but he ended up eating the sandwich in the end O_o.

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:: 2004 4 April :: 8.50am
:: Mood: eh...
:: Music: "Seasons Song"

luck did run out...
I've gotten this bad omen building up all week... first, I make symphonic, then, I get a part in the play, next, our band and my solo do well at district... I just kept thinking, god, something really bad has to bring this all down...
Well, yesterday... First game of the Thunderbolts season, not more than five minutes into the game, this kid just rams into me ('twas very illegal, too), knocks me on my ass, and I hear something in my knee pop... not to mention as I walk off the field the pain and the strange sensation that one of my leg bones feels very loose... Well, I went to get it checked, apparently nothing serious, I just strained my MCL, and I have to wear one of those huge ass braces for the next week and a half, and every time I work out for the month after... good thing we don't have games next week...

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:: 2004 2 April :: 10.58pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: O Brother, Where Art Thou?

Scaramoch, Scaramoch, will you do the fandango? Yay Queen!
We may be getting a Rottweiler puppy :-D ^_^, and other happy faces. We may also be getting new carpet tommorrow...this deep red stuff. It is pretty.

:: 2004 1 April :: 6.50pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Full House

Bwahhhahaaah!!
Nick is fuzzy again!!!! O_O

We sucked at sight reading.

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:: 2004 31 March :: 10.40pm
:: Mood: depressed/just plain sad/tired
:: Music: White Stripes - Dead Leaves and the Dirty Ground...LTJ

Stupid fucking everyone(though I have nothing against Alex right now)
two
You can be both .Changing like the wind
You change your mood very often it depends on your
surroundings and your momental feelings.
Its like you would have two persons in yourself
You are very intensive...very happy or very sad.
You have a life but its very tortured.
Find the balance and youll feel better
.But its not bad to be like this if you are good
mooded everyone loves you .
But when you get bad mood the whole world should
hide from you .

~Is your life a lie?-9 Results+Beautiful Pictures~
brought to you by Quizilla

Very true for the most part...

BEAUTIFUL ICE PRINCESS/PRINCE .You need distance
between you and your partner in your
relationship. You are very difficult to get.
You have big requirements and this one you love
must try hard to get you. But after she/he melt
your heart she/he will be the most happy person
in the world. You need someone who shoes you
that you are special and it makes you feel
good to see that you are loved. She/He shall
know that you could easily get another
girl/boyfriend but you wont as long as you
love him. when she/he hurts you you will hurt
him too, but in general you dont get hurt. If
your partner cheated you ,you would react cold
and immediately (try to) forget him
PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always
message me or tell me how I can improve that
quiz. Ill sure write back.

~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need? With PICS! For girls and boys!~
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Ok. Damn pictures aren't working.

Everything is so LOUD right now! The tv seems to be rising, and I am listening to music, and the stupid people that live in this house are VERY loud and I am about to scream. I have tried going to sleep, but it did not work and I shall try again soon. I need my ear to pop.

Everything seemed to be going wrong today. I almost cried numerous times. I just want to be alone. I shall in a few minutes. I am seriously intolerable of people right now and as of late. I was about to kill, but then I stepped outside and breathed in the rain air and it helped immensely.

It seems as if everyone is against me lately. Either they are too close or too far away, never perfect. I don't want them and they are there or I want them and they are always no where to be seen. There are very few I can tolerate as of late. I just want to be left alone...

Fuck now I am about to cry...ohh here come the tears. My keyboard is almost dotted. I need more rain/air.

Oh...bye the way...Andy was Romeo and I was Juliet and it was the big "first meeting" scene. We got teased lots :-p.

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:: 2004 30 March :: 8.09pm
:: Mood: Tired
:: Music: News

I want my ears to pop.
I went to the doc, and starting tommorrow I am on Welbutrin or however it is spelled. I heard someone tell me how good it is, but I forget who. It turns put I was not supposed to participate at all in gym for the past month and I have...but now I have ten days off swimming which starts tommorrow.

My ear is making me really dizzy. I wish it would stop.

I think that is it.

:: 2004 29 March :: 6.26pm
:: Mood: miserable
:: Music: Linkin Park...Oo it is now the Rasmus!

The sun.
You all must check out this band if you haven't already. It is The Rasmus. I like them.

I officially HATE the sun. In gym we went outside. I got such a terrible fucking headache and felt so sick. The sun is the devil. It makes me sicker than I already am. It should die. I also can not stand to be in crowds lately. I used to love it, now I get all paranoid majorly. It stinks.

I love Gwen's mommy = ). She rocks.

On Thursday I am going out to lunch and stuff since it is district and I have to be at school at 3, but do not have rides anywhere so I have to stay.

ALL OF MY BALLS ARE STRIPPED ALMOST!!!!!! I AM GOING TO SCREAM!!

:: 2004 28 March :: 4.01pm
:: Mood: kinda spooked...
:: Music: 28 Days Later soundtrack

blah...
Yeah, I just bought the soundtrack about an hour ago... yay me! And, I'm basically home alone: my sister's sleeping, meaning no one will be concious while I'm here until six... whoopee?
seriously, I forgot how eerie the soundtrack is... I mean, it can be great for interp, but it's also really one of those send a chill up your spine things...

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:: 2004 27 March :: 8.12pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: classical piano

prom night
holy fuck... I've spent the afternoon setting the table (in the most formal way possible) for my sister's prom meal, party of 10, now 12. And, she plays the most terrible host, so the rest of the family makes up for her skills there in. So, as they eat, I finally get a moment to rest; however, I won't be eating myself until at least 9:30... oy... that's life as a servant. Anywho, I'm exhausted, and Zach will be using my room tonight... so, I'll be poorly rested for the morrow sun.

:: 2004 26 March :: 6.19am
:: Mood: still tired
:: Music: VH1

sorry about not updating
I truly have been swamped by homework recently, so yeah... Anywho, um, my mouse has a broken foot (biology), and!!! we start pig disections today. hahaha to all you kids at GFH, because they cut that from YOUR program :P.
Jessika, I have about ten lines written for a poem about you... and so far I haven't mentioned anything that represents you yet... but don't worry, it will come around.
Oh... and I've recently realized how insecure I've become... yesterday, our lunches were cut back ten minutes (behavior, garbage, neighborhood complaints... what can I say, we must be bad people)... plus, we could either go out to eat, or eat in the cafeteria ONLY. Good god, I may be skipping lunch again, because my severe aversion to crowd really was a problem yesterday... really...
And the night before that, I had a really nice dream, though it did point out another insecurity. All it was about was me walking around school with Jeff's arms around me, and all I could say was "hold me tighter..." I'm really starting to get worried about my love situation. I just feel like I've got no one to talk to anymore (which I know is bull shit, because *mostly* all of you are willing to listen to my rants).. plus, I've really been wanting a cuddle buddy for a while **eee! how feminine of me!**
Oh, and I don't think I did so well on my tryout for Symphonic... tear tear... but, hey! I'll still get into some band.

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:: 2004 25 March :: 6.20pm
:: Mood: miserable
:: Music: Me coughing my lungs out...oww

Another of my stupid dreams nobody will care about.
It started out when I was in a library. I was waiting for Nicko...he finally showed up and we were supposed to do a research project about some weird country I was unfamiliar with. We had 3 hours to do resrearch, but the majority of the time we both just sat there...there was that uncomfortablesilence between us like when you are with someone you don't like or know very well. When I finally went out to the books, I found people such as Josh Barone and began to talk to them. Then Shelle came in and I abandoned everything else to go talk to her. A movei was shown for some strange reason, but everyone there went to watch it. When that was done, the library was closing. I had to find Nick because we still had nothing done. Mishelle waited with me, among others. We found his sister's little purple car(that does not exist), so we knew he had not yet left. He finally came out and I realized after Shelle left that I needed a ride home. We were waiting for his sister and the creepy Cradle of Filth picture that frightens me greatly popped up...but it was in child form and just staring at me. Nick told me that THING was friend's with Shea's little brother. I was completely freaking out right then. The sister came and she was driving a short yellow bus...so I rode that home.

It was very, very weird.......

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:: 2004 24 March :: 6.28pm
:: Mood: miserable
:: Music: Full House

= (
I think I am dying. I feel so fucking terrible I am amazed I lasted all day. I was about to go home in first, but didn't. I only halfly tried on my drama "talent". I failed my Science test I think.

I have my prom ticket. I really hope I feel better by then. If not it will really suck. Anyone wanna come to my house after prom? The insane mom will be locked in a church.

Sleep.