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:: 2005 9 June :: 10.35pm
:: Music: Tiger Army - Wander Alone

Shards of glass, in the palms of our hands

I love getting lost, and then miraculously finding our way home. Who ever heard of Coral, anyway? It's a creepy town. I suggest you don't go there, everyone just looks at you funny. We knew we didn't belong, and it made us stay longer.

Oh, so, anyway. Mark's ex wife is out to kill my family. Seriously. She came here with the cops today, asking for a bunch of stuff we didn't even have, nor knew existed. Mark is in Canada until Saturday, so even if we did have it, we wouldn't know where it was or anything. And she was being really rude to my mom, so the cops told her to calm down and that she couldn't talk like that, then made her leave. She threatened to come back at night and do something. So I think I'll sleep with one eye open tonight.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 8 June :: 8.31pm
:: Music: Mars Volta - Televators

Stalk the ground

I have a new favorite song. Well, I think it's my first favorite song. Ever. I've never been able to choose before this, but now it's clear. I suggest you download it, upload it, buy it, steal it, whatever you have to do. Just get it.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 7 June :: 11.24pm

we just watched this interview with brad pitt and the work he's doing in africa... i mean yeah thats great... but you have to BE rich to help like that. yeah he's doing amazing things over there, but that still doesnt change the fact that just ONE of his outfits costs enough to feed an entire village over there.

i dont know...

but one thing i DO know is im getting fat... and i dont mean the PH kind.... i mean the gross disgusting go on a diet fat. i hate watching tv and seeing all the perfect stomachs... screw them and their perfect stomachs.. im a busy teenager who works almost everyday and still has other responsibilities to tend to... to bad if i cant go out and run a mile in this smothering heat... its not like i can come home to a pool or air conditioning.. why would i WANT to excersize!? YEAH... thats what i'll tell myself.... its not MY fault... its the heat. Genious.

GOAL #5,095,999,999: learn to spell damn it!

WHY must bugs crawl all over the computer screen.... little idiots.. im JUST going to kill them...

im tired, and hot..... GAWD is it hot...

ok bugs.. you're goin DOWN.....

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 7 June :: 11.32am
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: Nine Inch Nails - The Becoming

Regeneration

My computer is amazing. I don't even know where to start. The guy took everything off of it and started fresh. He tripled our memory and gave us anti-virus and anti-spyware for free. I was so used to have a 400x640 screen resolution that everything just seems so big now that I have a normal one again. My color is now 32 bit instead of the crappy 16 I was stuck with. I have sound again. Oh god...it's awesome.

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I'm thinking about downloading BearShare or Kazaa now that I have anti-virus software. I'm still not sure about it though. I'd love to be able to download music again, but I'd hate to risk getting more viruses. Hmm...tough decision. Ah, fuck it.

Ok, I tried it. It said that I had to have this 'Save!' thing downloaded too, and it would show me great deals on websites. No thanks.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 7 June :: 12.23am

hmmm..... meet the rest of the family?

maybe its nerves.. but to me its like i've come so far... why go further eh?

i know they want to meet me and wonder why they havent yet... but to bad, its not MY fault that havent gotten to know me the past 17 years. so im not gonna feel obligated... but then again, thats just me being a teenager, because in all reality i think i want to... alot. not for closure... for a place to start.

LOL at brandi, roni, and ashley...... you girls are to much... te he he... TEN pairs of flip flops! holllllly cow! aww, i love you girls!

hmmm... im bored with this now..

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 6 June :: 12.28pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Theory of a Deadman

Numb from the shock

I still can't believe it happened. I am still amazed. The reality of it all hasn't even hit me yet. I'm sore.

We're taking the computer in to be looked at today, finally. I don't know when I'll get it back, or even if it'll have to stay there for awhile or not. So, if anyone needs to reach me, you can call my home or cell phones. 696.8751 and 799.2701.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 5 June :: 11.28am

yesterday was my birthday... and a good day it was.

my mom got me a car stereo and other stuff...
my dad got me a digital camera..
and keegan got me this picture of Paris that i've been wanting for months... i never expected it.. i was freaking out when i saw it... *loves on it

in the morning keegan took me to build a bear.. and we made a monkey... i named it kitty cuz thats what i call him.. laughs. him being keegan of course...

hmmm.. well that was that... and now im off to maybe go shopping..
have a good summer dolls.

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anachronism

:: 2005 5 June :: 11.22am

Happy Birthday Erika.. yesterday. I love you.

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anachronism

:: 2005 3 June :: 12.06pm

Remember.
These are some pictures from freshmen year to present. And my most recent quotes. Remember and enjoy.

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Quotes
I'll shit on your chest! -Jay Ruster

I am the Lincoln log master! -Bradley Blair

What kind of cat is it? -Liz Artecki
Dead. -Jay Ruster

I can hear you refusing to put pants on to your mom. -Lisa Leonard

I swallowed my poo. -Kate Shelton

Little poos in your mouth, what's not to love? -Liz Thornington

I'm all like, "Awwe." Then I see their face and I'm like, "Dear God!" -Stacy

I don't even know if dinosaurs exist! -Lisa Leonard

Think above your belt buckle! -Mr.Hazel

I love rubbing shit on my face. -Sydney

I shit and piss at the same time. -Jay Ruster

What's going down? -Ben Birk
Your mom! -Stacy

You have to call her in! (Her as in the dog) -Mom
Come on, dumbshit! -Dad

I abuse drugs! If Tylenol starts giving me shit I pour it down the drain! -Jay Ruster

I am gonna fuck you in the ass with my black mumba! -Jay Ruster

How hard is your dick, Brad? -Jay Ruster

You're putting on a licked shoe. -Lisa Leonard

If that whole hand theory is true about penises I think my penis would be all right. -Stacy

Do you think you're going to have sex with James? -Stacy
Probably.. -Jordan Porter
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Did you all ready have sex with James? -Stacy
Yes. -Jordan

It smells like sex in here! -Nate
How do you know what sex smells like? Are you fixing to fornicate? -Bradley Blair

I don't like guy porn. -Stacy
Oh, I forgot you don't like penises. -Bradley Blair

Hey, could you take me home? Oh, and a blowjob would be nice too. -Ron
There ya go. Just be casual, throw it in there. Be like, "Road head is fine too."-Stacy
That doesn't really work when she's the one driving. -Ron Wheaton

I used to look at porn all the time. Back when I found out the internet held infinite amounts of it I was like, 'I'm gonna see ALL of it!' -Ron Wheaton

Let's have a barbecue and invite everyone!! -Will
I'm going. -Mark
You're not going! -Will

I've tried to be nice, I can't. -My Dad

Vaginas have always confused me. -Stacy

You didn't expcet that did you, huh huh?! -Stacy
Ok, no Stacy I didn't expect to get jabbed in the eye with Chewbacca, ok? -Matt

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 2 June :: 3.10pm
:: Music: Nine Inch Nails - Reptile

05/31/2005 Exam 2 final exam 81/80 101.25 A

I am...utterly amazed. I have no idea how I pulled that off. Well, yeah I do. Thank you again, Allison.

Went shopping today. Got 2 shirts, 2 pairs of pants, 3 cds and a Spicy Chicken Burrito.

This has been an awesome day, ~~and the best part is yet to come~~.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 1 June :: 3.24pm
:: Music: Sevendust - Xmas Day

Correlate brain and mouth

So...what do we do now?
It really doesn't seem like we're on summer vacation already. A lot of you probably feel the same way. I'm pretty sure this is the earliest we've ever gotten out, so, it will also be the longest summer we've ever had. I'm excited. It should prove to be a great summer.

I've really learned a lot this year. Not so much in school either, but more in life. I've gotten to know a lot of new people, had a lot of different experiences. Gotten drunk for the first time. Gotten high for the first time. Those may not be the best things to do, but they were fun. Saw my first concert, which was awesome. Gotten introduced to a lot of new music, which I love most of.

I've really changed on a whole, too. I'd like to think I am smarter. A little stronger. Maybe funnier, to some people anyway, who can understand my humor. I think all of this mixed with having friends who can drive, and me on my way to getting my own license, and me getting a job so I actually have money, will make this a pretty good summer.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 31 May :: 10.36am

once again... another perfect weekend.

OH my gosh, yesterday me and keegan went and saw Madagascar... i dont think i've ever laughed so hard at a cartoon... it was hilarious. te he he....

my room is just full of roses... i hang all my flowers upside down.. and now i have a dozen hanging from my ceiling, 3 random roses in random places, and a vase FULL off rose buds and petals... im such a lucky girl! :)

i even CLEANED my room this weekend... WOW. it looks so good... im willing to bet i have the coolest room EVER.. pshh.. its true.

tomorrow can not come fast enough for me... it doesnt feel like the end of school... but thank god it is. i have never been more ready for the year to end. i hate that... but i cant help it... school can die. next year will be good though..... our senior year is gonna fly by.. im gonna cry when its over even though i hate it so much. when its over, its gone, and its just a memory..... and to lose all the people we've grown up with is gonna be both, a blessing... and extremely hard.

i must say though.... im ready to say goodbye to many of them. *smiles.

my birthdays saturday... it really snuck up on me this year. birthdays are overated.... you turn a year older.. thats it. i like getting new stuff and feeling special because "its your BIRTHDAY" but in all reality... who came up with this idea to celebrate the day we were born? everyone goes through it... its not like its special just for you... everybody has a birthday... mine is just one more. but ehhh... another excuse to eat cake is ok by me.

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anachronism

:: 2005 30 May :: 4.35pm

Two days.

two.fucking.days.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 29 May :: 5.41pm
:: Music: Breaking Benjamin

Crumble

I'm not getting my hopes up.
Or anything else.

I will take what comes to me, seeing as how I don't have much say, or control in what happens.

That really should have had a happy ambiance to it than it did, since I'm actually in a great mood.

My hands and back are sore. My legs are also. Ok, my whole body is sore. I can't say that I don't like it though. I love this feeling. My hands are raw. My blisters have turned to callouses. I've dug at least fifty feets worth of trenches that are one foot deep. I don't really understand why, but I did it anyway. I think it's for the gutters, or sprinkler system. It is nice work though.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 27 May :: 9.30pm
:: Music: The Shins - Young Pilgrims

~~Get some~~

Once again, a perfect night is blown to shit.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 27 May :: 12.16am

i forgot to tell of tuesday...

so i walk out to my car in the morning.. .and when i get in there's a rose on my seat. because tuesday was 6 months.... i had no idea when he got out there to do it.. but it was so sweet.

i have my senate meeting.. go up to my locker, and suprise.. there's a rose in my locker... im like awwwww.

3rd hour i walked in and there was one on my computer.

keegan picked me up for lunch, and there was a rose in his car... he then brought me to the park (where he asked me to be his girlfriend on the first snowfall of the season.... how perfect is that!..) where we sat and ate our BBQ snackers because we've become obsessed with them.

after 5th hour i found another rose in my locker, and then when he picked me up he had another one in his car. that made six... and it was by far one of the sweetest things i've ever experienced... awww.

we dont really make a big deal out of months and such.. but this was just so sweet, and half a year.... and even though so far it isnt my longest relationship... its my best relationship because i can FEEL the depth to it. all he has to do is squeeze my hand or merely look over at me while he's driving.. and im just overcome with this incredible emotion. but its more than that.... because at times i forget that keegans my boyfriend... he's more of a best friend. he knows my secrets, i can girl talk with him... and he LISTENS, only occasionally making fun of me, i can wear anything or look anyway... and most importantly... he just genuinly cares. thats what friends do... im just lucky to have a boyfriend that fulfills both roles.

today i went into kent city with his mom because he wasnt home yet, and we just gabbed the whole way there.... i had to pick up a skirt from alyssa, it was so cool. im just so comfortable around his family... i FEEL like im part of the family! that means so much to me ,that alot of times im just included no questions asked. just simple things, like they're all going out to dinner and she asks... well isnt erika comming? it just makes me smile is all... and i cana be giddy, im a teenager, thats my job.

UGH.. erika GO to bed.
"fine"

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 26 May :: 11.59pm

graduation tonight...

its hard to knowingly let people go. to see them for the last time as they go on their way... but i could be happier for them.

my best friend graduated tonight, and i couldn't possibly be sad for me and the reasons that I'LL miss him... but instead proud of the person he's become and IS going to become.

i cant seem to find the energy to get off the computer and go to sleep.. instead i'll sit here mindless for a few more minutes.

shelby graduated from pre-school today.... she thought it was pretty cool that her and keegan graduated on the same day. that little girl idolizes keegan i swear.... all the time its "keegan this" "keegan that" "the worm dance" laughs.... she gets a kick out of all the different dance stuff he does... then again so do i... giggles*

my mom and i got into it again about car insurance tonight... bahhh.. whatever.. i havent paid it for 11 months.. why start now, and why bug me about it?

well... i guess know is the time where i yawn profusely.. misuse a couple of words, and jump in bed.

i went to gorters for a little bit tonight.... *smiles. he's a good guy.

night kids.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 26 May :: 11.04pm
:: Music: System of a Down - Violent Pornography

Apathetic and willing

Two exams down, one to go. I'm not sure how well I did on either of the ones I took today. I hope I did all right. What am I saying? I don't fucking care. Even if I fail the exams, I'll still pass the classes.

Apathy is a good thing to have, it really takes the stress out of life. I'm pretty sure it's the only thing that lets me sleep at night.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 25 May :: 5.20pm
:: Mood: apathetic
:: Music: Tool

Eat.Donut.Off.Member.

I just threw that essay together in less than an hour. My writing skills mixed with my extreme apathy should get me about a B. I'm happy with a C, even. I'm just so sick of school and everything, I don't even care anymore.

Three days of school left, just three days. It seems like we were just saying, "only four more weeks!" Each year seems to go by faster and faster. I like it.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 24 May :: 5.48pm
:: Music: Chevelle - Get Some

Quite strange

I just realized I haven't played hacky sack since I've lived here. I better start playing more.

I have a shitload of homework to do. It's all for english, too. I have to ~~finish To Kill a Mockingbird (retarded book) and then do some pre-writing~~, and make an outline. I finished the crossed out stuff. I just realized I should probably write my first draft, since we only have about 30 minutes to write the whole essay. Grr..

Exams...not too scared about them. The only one I'm sort of scared of is the math one, but it's multiple choice so I should be good. Government will be a piece of cake, once I fill out that sheet he gave us. Science will be easy, since we get to use everything we've done the whole year, and being the smart guy I am, I've kept everything. I just have to sort through it and find what is and isn't important.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 23 May :: 5.14pm
:: Music: Midtown

Peek-a-boo

I've just returned the optomotrist, or whatever the hell it is. I got my glasses. They're pretty kick ass. I also went to Taco Bell. I've had it three times in the past week. I'm in heaven.

My subtle-ness is amazingly successful.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 22 May :: 4.42pm
:: Music: System of a Down - Revenga

See that satellite? It's a star.

I'm home alone, everyone went shopping for bedding. I hate gloomy, gray days like this. They make me feel tired. I know if it was nice out, I would be bursting with energry. But when it's like this...blah.

I think next weekend could end up being an early start to one of the best summers of all time. Lets just hope everything works out.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 22 May :: 1.43pm

ok erika.. lets try and not be overdramatic..

gahh i cant help it. i hate living here.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 21 May :: 9.39am
:: Music: A Perfect Circle

Dodge this

I went with Josh and his brother last night to see Episode III, and it was better than I expected. Lots of light saber battles, which are the only good parts of any of the movies. I just hate how they ruin half the movie by talking about the Republic and the Senate and all that shit. Who cares about democracy? Just show me someone getting their limbs chopped off, that's all I want.

Yoda is badass.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 21 May :: 2.31am

yet again.. another long friday.

tonight wasnt bad at all though, metron was.. but metron always is. after that i went to lazerskate for our naplean dynamite late nighter... that was great. keegans dance crew came up and break danced, and vince and bobby came up and they rapped.. it was sooo fun.. had to have been the funnest night of work that i've ever experienced.

i just got home from keegans house, vince and bobby are over there... it makes me so happy that the 4 of us can hang out together, and its totally fine. that i can feel like just one of the friends or one of the guys is awesome... cuz i love those guys. when i see em' i just get all like awwwww then my stomach turns all over because im just so excited to see them..... im a nerd, i know this.

i have a lot to update.. but ehh.. whatcha gonna do right? im tired and we have a red flannel thing at the golf course early in the morning... bring on the.... errmmm... golfers? suuure.. that works. tomorrows gonna be jam packed... but im to tired and lazy to talk about it..

night loves.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 20 May :: 3.42pm
:: Music: Tool

Let go

I just realized how I feel about you.
You make me sick.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 19 May :: 4.42pm
:: Music: Tool

Oh fuck..

So the hair cut was a disaster.
Oh well, hair grows. I just hate how it curls out at the end. I'm going back to get it fixed tomorrow.

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I took a nap around 6:30, I just woke up and it's 11 o'clock. Great, now I won't be able to fall asleep.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 19 May :: 2.03pm

chemistry can burn in hell.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 18 May :: 6.08pm
:: Music: Clutch - Rock and Roll Outlaw

Get up in ma bit-nass

I got my eyes checked today. It seems they've gotten better since I last got glasses, which was about three years ago. I figured they were worse, since I haven't worn them in about two years because I tried my glasses on a few weeks ago and it was sort of blurry, but the guy said they were better. I'm not getting contacts, I decided on glasses because I found a pair that I actually like this time. I forgot how bad my eyes are, but when I looked through that little thing that they have, it was amazing how much clearer everything became. It'll be a lot better driving once I can actually see more than twenty feet ahead of me.

The lady who talked to us about insurance and what pair of glasses I wanted was this really cool black lady with dreds. She was making jokes, that were actually funny unlike most doctor people's jokes, and my mom just couldn't stop laughing.

Oh, and I got Taco Bell on the way home. Mmm...I love it. Spicy Chicken Burritos are the best.

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anachronism

:: 2005 18 May :: 5.48pm
:: Music: Eisley

Chop ya in yo dome, fool.
Got cable today and it's hella cool.
Almost as cool as me.
And that's saying a lot.

Today was good.
5 months, my Bradely! I loove youuu.

Shit yeah.

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