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:: 2006 22 January :: 7.23pm
:: Music: Tom Petty

Can I have your tonsils?
This weekend was really good, beside getting made fun of for sounding like a little boy who just hit puberty. Ah well, I'll be a good sport and admit that it was funny.

Saturday night Lisa picked me up and we headed down to Skelles, excuse me, "The Euclid" *rolls eyes* and Devin was there, luckily. I think he was really happy and surprised to see us 'cause we didn't plan on hanging out. Anyway, Dani met us there, then we all headed to Big Nasty's house. Have I mentioned that I fucking love Big Nasty before? Well just in case I haven't.. I LOVE BIG NASTY. All right, anyway.. we hung out there for a while then went to Jimi's and Torrell's house to chill. After that we just drove around until like 4am then crashed at Lisa's for the night. After sleeping in until around 1pm we decided to head down town again. We as in Lisa, Devin, and I. Dani headed home early to sleep for the day. Yeah, so today was a lot of fun too. Overall the weekend was just awesome. I love my friends. I really do. [Ashley: I can't wait until you can join us again. We miss you!]

He is just so great. I'm so comfortable around him. I could see us becoming great friends and him being an important part of my life. He really cares about me. And I can't wait for him to see that I care as well.

Spring Hill is pretty soon. I guess I'm excited, but not really.

The [Advanced Drama] play is soon as well. I'm so nervous about it, yet very excited at the same time. Please go. It's going to be awesome if we get our shit together. And for once I have more than one line. I have two damn pages all to myself.

Anyway, I have tons of things to say, but you've heard it all before and it's all over thought bullshit that I don't need to ramble on about. So yeah, tomorrow starts a new semester. Yay.

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:: 2006 21 January :: 1.03pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: Chiodos - All Nereids Beware

Nine Months

Today will be amazing.

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:: 2006 20 January :: 7.19pm

Don't tell anyone, but...
Ashley is a ROBOT!

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:: 2006 20 January :: 3.23pm

I feel like death.

Edit>> I guess I'm going to Ashley's now so we can be sick together, lol. We're gonna watch movies and just enjoy the germs filling up the room. :)

I think my voice will be completely gone by tomorrow.

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:: 2006 18 January :: 3.52pm

Today turned out all right. I didn't exactly start the morning off well, but I tried to get over it and just get through the day.

Last night was a lot of fun. I went shopping for some people, then hung out with Lisa, Chris, and Devin. I love how whenever Devin and I hang out we never do anything, but we still end up laughing the entire time and just having fun. And nooo, we're not dating, just to clear that up for some people who've been asking. I just love being around him and we're good friends. I mean do you really have to be dating to have sex? Really now, ahahaha.. I crack myself up.

So, I get to Econ today and we get our tests back... 102% BIOTCH.
I cannot believe it. I was $7,000 off, when we were only allowed to be $1,000 off! Did he just not notice?! Ahaha.. hey, I am not complaining. I am passing that class and I'm extremely happy about it.
I am excited for the new semester simply because that class is OVER.

Anyway, Dani's going to be getting me and we're gonna go visit poor Ashley in hopes of making her feel better!

Today was good. I need to just remember I have so much to look forward to and stop living in the past. It's over and I need to accept that. Hey, I'm working on it.

Oh, and Jess.. thanks for the poem. It made me smile, haha. I love you, my bitch. :)

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:: 2006 18 January :: 1.22pm

I miss someone that doesn't even exist anymore.

:: 2006 18 January :: 12.39am
:: Music: Bright Eyes

Insomnia? No.

I want to go to bed, but my blanket is in the dryer, and apparently we have no other blankets in this house. I put my bedding in the washer earlier today, but I forgot to dry it until about 20 minutes ago. So now I'm here, bored and exhausted, hoping we have another day off tomorrow. If we don't, I'm sure I'll be falling asleep in class.

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:: 2006 17 January :: 10.50pm

That kid is great and he deserves people to give him a chance.

Why do people judge on looks all of the time?
Try to understand a person for once.

I'm just pissed and surprised.

Ya know what? He's an awesome kid. And I'm sorry that you don't see that. Just because someone isn't like you doesn't mean that there's something wrong with them. It means they're different and that's it.

I'm so fed up with all these people. Just, grow the fuck up. Being shallow will get you no where.

Ughh.. I don't even know. Nothing I say can express how entirely mad I am. Just.. change how you look at people. CHANGE. No, you're not perfect.

You're far from it.

Edit>> No, RON I am NOT talking about a retard or deformed person. He's normal!

:: 2006 17 January :: 12.57pm

I love YOU freezing rain.

Having the day off is nice, but I am awfully bored. It's quite all right though, I'll take a day of boredom to have a three day week.

When will we sing a new song, a new song? We're all asking the same damn question, POD. You suck and all your music sounds the same.

Bah. I can't wait for this year to be over. One more semester. I can't believe it. I'm a senior! Crazy. I really wish I could figure out what I am doing after High School though.

I'll get it.

Econ better be my only class with exams this week or I'm gonna have to kill a bitch.

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brokenmentality

:: 2006 17 January :: 11.40am

damn ice. im greatful school was canceled... but if it would have been snowing i would have checked the weather BEFORE i got ready (well ready as in washed my face and brushed my teeth.... but STILL awake enough to be angry about getting up) this is ridiculous. middle of winter and it rains. psh.

i was watching the news this morning....

"a chocolate new orleans?" are you kidding me! why is it that racism starts at the top of the chain?! pathetic.

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:: 2006 16 January :: 1.00am
:: Music: Pink Floyd - Hey You

I have decided that Big Nasty is easily the coolest person on this earth.
I mean he fucking turned his room mates room into a bike course and has bike races. How does that not make you cool? I want to live with that kid for the rest of my life. Not because I have some crush on him or any shit like that, I just love to hear him talk, haha.

Anyway, this weekend was awesome, yet incredibly lame at the same time.

The laser light show was cool.

I am sick and I need sleep. I hope it's not the plague.

I miss you, Ashley! Get better soon, my dear.

Night assholes.

brokenmentality

:: 2006 15 January :: 10.20pm

i LOVE every other saturday...... they're always perfect. ALWAYS, and yesterday was no exception. i say everyother saturday because i dont work every other saturday and keegan never works saturdays.. so we get to be together all day long.

we're both semi broke right now.. so for most the day we just lounged around his house. i got teh 8th season of friends, his mom made one of my favorite dinners (tatertot caserole) and it was just nice to be home all day. then we met stacy, dani, dustin, devin, and brandi downtown and saw that pink floyd laser show at the planetarium (sp). which was most deffinately an acid trip... lol. i dont think you get the full effect if you're not stoned.... which heaven knows we werent... laughs* but it was pretty cool. WAY to much stimulation for the eyes though. ouuuch. after that me and keegan went to oasis which was wonderful. we got there around 12 and had the greek room reserved which i've been wanting to see since prom last year. it was amazing. (keegan popped his OTHER shoulder out of joint a few days ago.. so its been pretty sore.. hense us going to oasis and me having an "excuse" to get a new bathing suit.... giggles) but yeah... it was awesome. i thought it was an indoor room, but we walked in and theres murals all over the walls and a fire place and statues.... but no ceiling. it was just beautiful. the perfect end to the perfect night. then we went home and fell asleep and got up this morning to go to a new church. we're looking for a church. we went to Sparta babtist this morning... which was nice, but we wanna try a bunch of different ones.. so if you have an suggestions... comment. we're looking for a contemporary service with contemp. music. and we're not looking to become involved with a youth group... just sundays.

everything just feels so right. not only are we going on 14 strong months.. but we're still so incredibly happy. never have we almost "broke up", because we're mature enough to handle our arguments. i've never felt this way before. EVER. i thought i did once... i though THAT was love... and i couldnt have been more wrong. now, i find myself falling in love with my best friend... and although its a process that may take anywhere from a month to a couple years to fully develop... im looking so forward to that moment that i've been dreaming of my whole life.. where i can look that ONE person in the eyes express that age old 3 letter phrase that people have been saying since the dawn of time.

we're so on track with eachother. and i think its awesome that we're growing spiritually together.

*smiles* i admire you!

:: 2006 14 January :: 1.12pm
:: Music: Pink Floyd

Nothing interesting.
I'm going to Spring Hill. So, let me know if you're going and if you know anyone else that is. It doesn't really matter, I'm just curious.

Anyway.. I am excited for the laser light show tonight. I've never been to one, I hope it's cool.

Edit>> If you got senior pictures, I'd like one pleeeaassee. Even if we're not like really good friends. People tend to forget to give me a picture. *angry face

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:: 2006 13 January :: 10.07pm

Tonight was fun.
I hung out with Sammie, Leah, and Courtany. We met up with a bunch of random guys I didn't know. It was pretty damn awkward, because they were all churchy and the girls there like hated us. But, Tim was cool. Like.. yeah.. I want to get to know Tim.. hahaha. Yeah.. let's just leave it at that. Ok, he's SEXY. I said it. There.

Anyway, I like hanging out with old friends and getting to know new people. It's so crazy how I seem to make new friends every week. I love it. I'm sad that it wasn't like this sooner.

Mishy.. it BETTER have been me. Cross your fingers for me, ahaha. Maybe we can watch Batman Begins and HIYA sometime. :)

Tomorrow is gonna be fun.

I really need to figure myself out.

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brokenmentality

:: 2006 13 January :: 8.58am

ok, so yesterday i was furious.
but i realize that it wasnt about talent....

and at least becky and i gave a piece of our minds and got to see the large animal turn red in the face and squirm like the pathetic lowly person she is.

AND i schedualed a facial yesterday... and after that, who could be upset?!

my skin feels so rejuvinated. everybody should experience one!

orgasmic... really.

*giggles.... later kids

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:: 2006 12 January :: 3.42pm

Blah, blah, BLAH.
Wow. Talk about egos.

You all need to get over yourselves. Honestly.
It's all highschool politics. Nothing's ever fair.
And that is that.

As for you. I can name at least ten people better than you right off the top of my head. You suck. But, just keep kissing up and being fake, it's cool.

It's so nice outside today. It's like spring.. but, I'm trying not to get too excited. It's supposed to snow Saturday.. :(

I can't wait for this weekend.
Pink Floyd and Big Nasty's. Can't get much better than that, haha.
Oh, and you're a bitch. =)

And JA Titan can go to hell! Actually.. I kind've enjoy it.. *winks

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:: 2006 11 January :: 9.05pm

Only new classes:
1) Communications-Young
[Fuck yeah. Seeing his perdy face bright and early will make me get up every morning, for sure.]
2)Wars-Hazel

Let me know if you're in either.

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:: 2006 11 January :: 3.15pm

You're not funny, you're just an asshole.

brokenmentality

:: 2006 10 January :: 9.43pm

i tried out today. i reallly want wendy. sooo incredibly bad. but i guess we'll see what happens.

talk about one hell of a night... and nobody could EVER know what i mean by that.

:: 2006 9 January :: 9.03pm
:: Music: Pink Floyd

I have come to the conclusion, and reshaped it.

It is finally done and I will never look back on or think about it ever again.

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:: 2006 8 January :: 10.53pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: The Strokes - Razorblade

The caution and fear of growing up displayed with pillow and blanket forts

This weekend was pretty good, except for the past few hours when I was doing my homework. This research assignment is driving me mad. I need one more outside source, and I need to figure out how to cite the ones I already have.

I'm trying out for the musical on Tuesday. We're singing Tribute by Tenacious D. Oh, and I'm also learning out to play the guitar. It'll take awhile, but I think it will be cool once I get good.

Oh, and if anyone works at a fast food restaurant and wants to be on Hawk Talk, let me know.

:: 2006 8 January :: 9.37pm

It's all in good fun, kids.

Read more..

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:: 2006 6 January :: 10.49pm

Tired.
I love this.

He's making me realize that I am not perfect and I have to get over myself. I mean.. like, I can't just dish things out and not take them back. He doesn't just let me say what I want and then be all sweet back. He's blunt. He's honest. He's militant. And I like it. I don't need some fake ass, lovey dovey attitude.

And it's not like he's an asshole to me. It's not that at all. He just isn't fake and doesn't let me get away with being a bitch without him being a dick back. It just works and I like it.

I don't care if I sound crazy. I am very lippy and I need someone to let me know it.

Goodnight.
I can't wait for tomorrow.

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brokenmentality

:: 2006 6 January :: 9.14am

i just about have the best most wonderfulest boyfriend in the entire world.

everyday he amazes me in a whole new way.

last night my sister was sick. (she's 5) and if you know me at all... im the same as my mom. we dont take to well to.... errmmm.. you know ( i dont even like to say it) i remember this because it was the same way when i was growing up. call it weak stomachs i guess...... but keegan stayed at our house last night and helped take care of shelby.

everytime she had to get sick he stood behind her stroking her little back and telling her that it would all be ok. then he cleaned her little face off and talked to her about random things to get her mind off it. just watching how good he is with her makes me want to melt. he could have just left, no one asked him to stay... but he cares about her so much that he wanted to help.. and he wanted to help my mom.

how many guys would do that? i really did get a good one and will by no means let him go.

and waking up this morning was so much nicer knowing i had someone by my side.

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:: 2006 5 January :: 9.42pm

Devin asked me out and...

I said no.
Now, don't get any ideas. It was handled well and I had my reasons. I told him we need to hang out a few more times and when he knows, and I mean really knows, he can ask me in person.

I want things to go right with all of this.
And I want to be entirely honest with him.
He completely understood and thought it was for the best.
He said he didn't even want to ask me this way, he just felt like he had to and couldn't wait.
I understand completely, because I feel like I want to be with him as well. But, I know it's not smart for either of us right now.

We'll see what happens.
He's so great and I want things to go perfectly and to last. I don't want some lame one month thing.
So, in the end handling it how I did was a very good idea.
I don't want to lose this kid and I won't. Whether we date or stay friends, I want him there. And he will be.

With all that said, goodnight.
I am so glad tomorrow is Friday.

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:: 2006 4 January :: 9.11pm

Hah.
...

Devin: You hate me apparently..
Stacy: I didn't say that!
Devin: Stacy: Ew, no I hate you!
Stacy: Hahaha.
Devin: Got you there!
Stacy: Yeah, pretty much.

Hahaha.

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:: 2006 4 January :: 3.26pm

Awe, Mikey (Brad's cousin) got me a printer for Christmas! He ordered one offline and got it sent to my house (it's a Canon and it's so nice!) I got home and there was this huge box on my bed, haha.

It's such a thoughtful gift. He knows I want to be a photographer and I take most of my pictures digitally so he wanted to get me a nice printer for making a portfolio (to eventually get a job in the photography field). I can't wait to use it.

I am just so excited. Thanks Mikey! It's nice to know at least one person from that family doesn't hate me.

I love how unselfish some people are. He doesn't even want anything back, except some of the pictures I've taken. :)

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:: 2006 3 January :: 9.10pm

He got me gummy worms. Oh yeah, that shows he cares. You'd understand if you knew how I felt about sour gummy worms. I think he just didn't want to die.

I love how he's always laughing and smiling. He just puts me in a constant good mood. It's like he can't be cranky. Awe man, I miss him all ready.

I'm so lame.

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:: 2006 2 January :: 9.43pm

Awe, he told me that he likes me.
And that the entire night he wanted to kiss me, but he was afraid.

I feel like I'm in 8th grade again and I like it. Haha.

I love when things begin to start. It's scary, but I love it.

I'm excited in the dorkiest way. :)

:: 2006 2 January :: 7.59pm
:: Music: Arrested Development

Cereal in an Ash Tray

This has been the best Christmas Break ever.

New Years Eve day Amanda took me to Lake Michigan and we walked along the beach. It was glorious! And we saw the Ringer and Fun with Dick and Jane. She also bought be Arrested Development Season One DVDs, which we watched all of last night.

I also used all of my Best Buy gift cards and the 100 dollars that I had to buy an mp3 player. Let me tell you something...

it is AWESOME!

15000 songs is more than enough.
For now.

See you tomorrow.

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