The Hand Me Downs. Ya gotta love it. So Me Sarah, Lil, Elyse, and Clayton all went to the Creepy Crawl tonight to see Steve's band play. They were ok. For being their first gig they were actually pretty good. Then again i was kinda busy staring at Brandon the whole time...ahh wow. So i offically love Lil and Sarah and Elyse. I hated them at the time, but now they're definitely my favorites. So they decide they're going to go talk to Brandon. So Lil, being the bold person she is, walks up to him and says something like, "hey, can i have your number for my friend Allie?" So i'm like about to die and he just points at me. So Sarah drags me over to them and he just hugged me. And again, i thought i would die. Just right there, fall over dead. So Lil ends up getting his nuumber for me. And they left, but i missed that part so i was just kinda standing there confused. He had gone to talk to someone real quick and when he came back he was like where are your friends? And i said i thought they had left, and i guess i should go too. So he waved bye but then just like held out his arms. And so he hugged me and for the third time, i thought i was gonna die. So i turned back around after i had walked a few feet and he just gave me this wonderful smile. Hehe. So i'm a little giddy at the moment. But i should really sleep...they're making me do cheerleading shit tomorrow...and i have to run, and do volley ball, and basket ball...argh...till then.

Ahh today has been really slow, but really fast at the same time. Everyone finally started moving a little after 2 and we just sat around for another 2 hours or so. Brian and Ben showed up around 4:30 and we were all still in our pajamas. It started raining so we all went and ran around in the rain for a while, that was fun. Brian turned 16 yesterday and he has a car now...which is always a plus. It's a nice car too...hell if i know what kind...well, i know it was red.

Oh, Steve and Paul called me today and they got a gig at the Creepy Crawl for Tuesday night. I was so excited for them. I really hope something really good happens to them, like they make it big or something. I love Steve, he's just such an all around good guy.

So tonight was just...insane. We had decided to go bowling. So we go bowling and saw Austin Powers...heh wow. That's really a great movie. Sarah and i decided to be "sneeky" if you will, and ended up gettin high. Let me tell you, that movie is a hella lot funnier when you're slightly shit faced. So i'm getting yelled at now, they want me to go outside and watch the meteor showers (sp?) Argh, i have to get up and do this sport camp deal at Ursuline tomorrow...wow, good...

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So it's after 12 and the father is makin me get up before 10. He says i have to clean my room before Sarah and Elyse and Lil get here. HAH! That's gonna happen. Maybe for Elyse, just so she doesn't get a bad impression right away, but not for Lil and Sarah. I have to get Beau a birthday present tomorrow too. He's 18. That's kind of scary. I've known that kid my whole life. And i always thought we would stay little forever. Unfortunetly, we really grew apart. I know exactly when it happend too. Sigh, i hope that doesn't happen to me with my friends...anyway, i'm thinken about getting him a cd. Maybe Ben Kweller? He's one of my current favorites...eh, fuck it, that's what he's getting wether he likes it or not. Heh, i'm such a nice person.

So Duke 45 and Just Add Water and two other bands are coming to the Pageant the 17th and i wanna go. Tickets are only 7 bucks too...good thing i have someone to go with...

I talked to Matt today. He im'd me and i seriously think i giggled a little. I felt like such a little girl, but it was just nice to know that he wanted to talk to me. Joey wrote me back too. He said the rest of his trip wasn't that great and i felt bad for him. Heh, i think he said me Lizz and Matt were the "party starters" hah. That's right, because i'm such an outgoing person...that's ok, he's a sweet boy and he likes good music. How come all the good one's live so far away...damn, damn, damn.

Hmm if i go to sleep now i'll get 10 hours...heh right.

So i went out to dinner with the 'rents and my Grandma tonight. It wasn't as strange and awkward as i had imagined it would be. My dad wasn't being an ass hole and the food was good. Grandma was making sense and my mom wasn't having one of her mood swings. So i sat there and nodded when people asked me questions, and i told them all about how i got my books and everything for school. And they all told me how grown up i am, and what a "lovely young woman" i'm turning into. I had to laugh. I was sitting there in a cutesy little purple dress with black finger nail polish. Some lovely young woman i am.

I feel like changing something for some reason. Like my hair color or just something. I felt so plain and ordinary the other day. But, i knew i wasn't. I would look at who i was with and look at myself and laugh. But for some reason i just felt like a no body. Or just another ordinary face in the crowd. Unfortunately for me, Ursuline isn't a fan of "unatural" hair colors so i suppose that's out of the question. I could just show up with pink tips again like i did at TCS. Heh, that was fun.

Argh, i'm really not a fan of the unifrom i have to wear. I suppose it's cute. Heh, Aaron told me i probably look like jail bait in it. That made me laugh. I just feel like someone should hand me some bag pipes or something and i should start saying "lass" or "lads". Maybe i'm over exaggerating and it's not as bad as i think it is...yea, that's it.

I got my pictures back from Warped Tour and some pictures from Mexico. They turned out pretty good, i was happy. There's a great picture of me and Mike from MXPX. I was REAL happy that one turned out. And for once, i didn't look half bad in a picture...what a concept! Hah.

I suppose i should try this whole sleep deal. I reall don't want to, but if i'm supposed to be all cheery around the father tomorrow i suppose i should atleast get 9 hours in. Heh, i'm so lazy.

Today has gone by so fast. I really didn't do anything, but it just seemed to go away. Last night i went and saw Less Than Jake with Rachel and Amanda. Nathan was there, but i didn't see him. It was a really great set. They didn't play for very long though. Their opening acts were pretty good too. The first one, Whippersnapper sucked hella, but Teen Idols and Sugarcult kicked ass. I couldn't help but think about Matt. And how he almost pushed me in the pool when i told him i was going. "they're my third favorite band! i can't believe you're going!" add a British accent to that and you've got Matt. I hope he writes me back soon...i'm sure he's still really jetlagged. 10 hours, yuck.

Sarah and Elyse are comin into town next week. It should be cool to see them, i'm excited. I talked to Elyse last night, heh she's so cute. She seemed really happy to be coming. I have to do this sports camp thing that week unfortunately but it's in the morning and they probably won't even be awake by the time i get back home anyway.

Ahh, i'm still so tired. And i'm still really missing Mexico. Every time i look at the clock it's like wow, i could be on a beach right now. Or at night, after 11 it's like wow, i could be at a club dancing with hot boys. Argh, i'll just have to go back....heh.

I need to call Lizz. Last time we talked she was not okay. I don't know what happened to her though. I think she just got really stressed out when she realized that school would be starting soon and she has cheerleading stuff to deal with. Poor girl, i really should call her. Her and Sarah, i need to cal her too...she's on, but not talking...hmm. Maybe i should go make those phone calls...

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Ahh Mexico...
I got home from Mexico today...i haven\'t really talked to anyone though. Sarah was going out with some people so we didn\'t really get to talk. So many amazing things happened though. It was like a fairy tale at times.
There was a club in the hotel that anyone could get into, so Lizz, Kellie, Allison and I went everynight. You only have to be 18 to drink...or be able to flirt with the bartender. We met so many people, I have no idea how old anyone really is. None of us actually told the truth, but i had my fair share of alchohal that\'s for damn sure.
It was really cool though because random people would come up and you\'d just start dancing. I danced with seriously one of the hottest guys i\'ve ever seen... so i was happy. He was always around the blonde nazi though. I think she got kind of mad that i stepped on her turf...hah.
So We met many people, i mentioned that. But among them was Matt. He\'s so wonderful. He\'s from England and has the hottest accent ever...he\'s not to bad lookin either...lizz kind of claimed him for her own though. She has to, it\'s like her nature or something. She only really pissed me off once this week though which was good. We were talking to these guys in the pool, Matt being one of them and they started talking more to me or something like that and she got like all pissy. So we were all messin around in the pool, trying to includer her, but she had to mope around on her raft and make stupid coments trying to embarass me. But, later, after Matt had left. We were talking to these guys from CO and they asked how old i was and i said 16. And Lizz, trying to steal some glory was just like oh, i won\'t say anything. So of course they were all like wait, wut? And she would just laugh and flip her hair and giggle a nothing....grr. So we got passed the age deal and we started talking about schools. I said i went to an all girls catholic highschool...which will be true. And of course, she had to say something about that too. Tyler, one of the guys...just being stupid asked something about when my first lesbian experience was and Lizz just started laughing and was like ohh i can\'t take it anymore, you lie so much. And starts saying all this crap about how she\'s been telling the truth the whole time and about how i was the only one lying and i was like wut the fuck is going on. So she was like she\'s really 14 and she\'s been lying the whole time, i\'m the only one that\'s been truthful which was a bullshit lie in itself and so i started to say something and she was all lie, \"oh my god, chill drama queen.\" and i really wantes to shoot her. Right then and there. So of course she succeeded in making me look like an idiot and prety much got me to tell them about sarah. Which, somehow turned into me telling them on my own...yea, i don\'t tell anyone. I really didn\'t like her that day. But, like always, she got her attention back and had guys all over her thay night. If i remember correctly, she spent alot of the night pretty much on top of Matt...and she also decided that he was \"hers\". Now, that\'s fne. wutever. But she\'s a walking contradiction. I had met this guy Jordan and because she talked to him first she decided that we should share him or something. Tho, i don\'t think she even liked him at all. So she gets to know matt and so did i and we were talking about him and she was like yea, he\'s mine, back off. It just made me so mad. I asked him to dance and she glard at me the whole time...a few songs later he came up behind me and put his arms around my weist while she was standing right next to me...i don\'t think she was too thriled.
we got over it.The Nazi was usually the one with all the guys around her, and i\'m gong to sound like a bitch...but the last two night...that was def. not the case. So skipping to this morning...we went to the club our last night and we all decide to watch the sunrise on the beach. Lizz and i still had to pack but she ended up passing out around 3. However, i\'ve been up since 9:00 Tuesday morning..i\'m just a little tired...i slept maybe a half hour combined on the plane and bus...maybe. But anyway, so we said we would meet all these people at the pool entrance at 5:00am. So i wake Lizz up and we go over to the pool entrance and there\'s no one there. So we\'re thinken well fuck, we got stood up. But Matt and Tyler did end up showing up. So we walked over to the beach and all just kinda sat there and watch the most gorgeous sunrise ever. Lizz, of course. Made herself right at home sitting inbetween Matt\'s legs, and Tyler and i just kinda watched the oceean. It was strange ya know? It was like wow, i feel like i\'m with Aaron in a really weird way. I guess only because of the age difference. Matt eneded up throwing me in the ocean and Tyler dragged me out even farther. It was so cold. Heh, but he would just put his arms around my weist and tickle me. So we got out around 6:45ish and Tyler pushed me into the pool. Heh. So we swam around in the pool for a little while and he would just hold my weist. He could hold both of my hands in one of his and i felt like such a little girl. They all teased me because i finally told everyone my real age and they all told me how young i was and all that greatness. Lizz loved every minute of it. Everyone believe i was 16. Travis was the only one that sai the lowest i could pass for was 14. And of course she was like see he knew you were lying and proceeded to get friendly with him. I\'m bitching too much. Maybe i\'m jelous. That would be unfortunate. Eh...

I need sleep, i haven\'t slept in too long. Mexico was amazing...the mother said that next summer, if matt and i stayed in touch he and his sister katie could come stay with us...hehe.

What obscure band are you?

I am so fucking tired i'm having troubles functioning. I went to my mom's midnight dress rehersal last night at Muny for Camelot. Wow, way too many gay hot boys...eh i saw Michael, he made me smile. So the run through actually went pretty quick, it usually goes 12-5. But we ended at like 4:30. So we get home at around 5:30 because she stopped and talked to people. Yea, i'm rambling...so i woke up around 12 because ray called. She and Lil are comin over at 3:30. Yea, good thing i'm dressed and everything...

Ahhh, i leave for Mexico wednesday. That should be fun. Neither one of my parents there...ahh i'm lookin forward to that one. All you have to do is be able to see over the bar...heh. Good deal.

Yea, so my mom just left for rehersal and my pops is out of town. Heh. Good, good. Opening night is tomorrow so no one will be here from 10-12...hmm. Tomorrow could be a fun day...Oh, i forgot i'm not supposed to have guys over or drink...right, that's gonna happen. Funny, Aaron's the only one that can be here when no one else is. Does that confuse anyone else or is just me?

Yea, so i need to do wash, and i need to get myself clothed. I wonder what i'm doing tonight. I'm sure Sarah and Lil have something planned...

I got my tickets!!!! I got my Incubus tickets...yea i'm excited.

God, this day has been really...well, i don't know what's it's been. I read ray's journal and was so happy for her. Chris is so hot, and i'm so glad she got to spend last night with him. Hah, i'm jelous man. We should get together this week...

1.Full Name: Allison Irene Wehrsten

2. Were you named after anyone: Hah, well sort of. My parents got the
Allison part from the man they were buying carpet from. He said something
about having to pick up his daughter Allison somewhere. They both liked
it, and now that's me. The Irene is my Grammy's name though.

3. Do you wish on stars: Definitely.

4. Which finger is your favorite: I don't think anyone has ever asked
me this before. I don't really have a favorite...

5. When did you last cry: Unfortunately, not too long ago. I think it
was just last week.

6. Do you like your handwriting: I change it so much I'm really not sure
what it's lookin like at the moment. But yea, i would say so. It's very
bubbly heh.

7. What is your favorite lunchmeat: Again, i don't think anyones ever
asked this before. I'm a fan of turkey though.

8. Any bad habits: Heh of course, who doesn't? Umm, i stopped biting my
nails so i can't say that one. But i guess i manipulate people...which
is something i really need to stop.

9. What is your most embarrassing CD: Heh wow. I was definitely a teeny
bopper at a time so any of those are pretty bad...those days are over thank
God, but probably a Hanson cd or something...

10. If you were another person, would you be friends with you? Ya know,
i don't think so. I don't understand why people hang out with me at all.
Maybe they just feel sorry for me because i am seriously the biggest dork
you'd ever meet.

11. Are you a daredevil: Depends on the dare.

12. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell: Yea, i hate to admit
that.

13. Do looks matter: Not so much. They help, but you can't judge people
on that.

14. Have you ever mis-used a word and it sounded absolutely stupid: Yea,
on like a daily basis.

15. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow: You
mean some people don't think so?

16. Do fish have feelings: Sure, i think everything has some sort of feeling.

17. Are you trendy: I guess i can be. But not really. I couldn't tell
you the "latest trends" with some fahsion designer or something. As long
as it fits, and isn't ass ugly, it works.

18. How do you release anger? I write. Or yell, whichever comes first.

19. Where is your second home: Hmm, Lizz or Lauren's probably. Then again
i can always crash at Meg's...

20. Do you trust others easily: Hah that's a no.

21. What was your favorite toy as a child: Wow, umm...maybe my Legos...?

22. What class in school do you think is totally useless: How about every
class at TCS...?

23. Do you like sappy love songs: Eh, not so much. They can be cute if
it's like you and your guys "song" but to just listen to...maybe not.

24. Have you ever been on radio or television: Why yes, i have.

25. Do you have a journal: I do indeed. I switched to the online version
because people kept finding my other one...not a good situation.

26. Do you use sarcasm a lot: All the time.

27. Have you ever been in a mosh pit: Definitely have. Hell i was at Warped
Tour wut do you expect. It was hella fun...until you get stepped on...or
landed on...

28. What do you look for in a guy/girl: Ahh the famous question, I look
for a guy who enjoys long walks on the beach and picnics in the park...ok,
heh for real. I guess just someone i can trust and talk to. Nothin too
special, just an all around good guy.

29. What are your nicknames: Allie, Alz, Allisana, Panda, Princess Anna..don't
ask, wut else..oh Snickers! hah

30. Would you bunjee jump: Yea, that would be cool.

31. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off: Usually not.

32. What are you worried about right now? Too many things...

33. Do you ever wear overalls: Hah not since i was about 5.

34. Do you think that you are strong physically: Mmm, not so much. Mentally yea. Physically maybe not.

35. What's your favorite ice cream flavor: Gotta love the Phish Food...and good ol Vanilla can be good. I'm a fan of Heath and cookie dough too.

36. What's your favorite color: Any shade of blue and really light pinks or really dark reds.

37. What is your least favorite thing in the world: People who can't speak for themselves, or I guess don't know how. But i supposed that would be the saddest thing...i guess my least favorite thing in the world would be all the wonderful flaws i have, or needles.

38. How many wisdom teeth do you have: 3 maybe? I really don't know. They hurt like a bitch...

39. Are you in love with anyone: I would like to think so.

40. How many people have a crush on you right now: Umm, well. I've never really thought about it. I hope one person for sure...but i wouldn't guess anyone else.

41. Who do you miss most right now: All of my friends.

42. Do you want everyone you send this to, to send it back: Sure, why not.

43. What scares u most: Dying, and needles. Funny i keep getting things pierced...hmm...

Wow, i haven't written in a while...alot has happened though. At the moment nothing, but this week has just beein insane. Monday night happened...that was interesting. Nathan didn't "agree" with the whole thing which made me laugh. I'll never be able to figure that kid out. I was supposed to call him today...

So Sarah's over at Lil's now. She got home yesterday or maybe the day before. I haven't seen her in ever.

Last night the tension in this house was so fucking strong i wanted to scream to try and break it. My Grammy got sick again and so my aunt freaking out along with my mom and they were all "we might have to take her to the hospital again" and my dad is such a fucking dick. He's all pissed off because he's awake after 10 and has to get up to go to work. And he's bitchin at my mom because the house wasn't cleaned and it's like christ, settle down, she works too. But of course he works the hardest out of all of us and we've never been able to appreciate that. My ass. So he was being such a fucker i wanted to scream and yell at him but i just sat there. The Carbon Monoxide detector kept going off and he was giving my mom shit over that and it's like yea, good call. Becasue she can help that and all. I wish i wasn't scared to stand up to him. He just intimidates the fuck out of me. And i hate it. I hate that he can talk me down to nothing and make me feel so stupid. And i hate that he always wins. That's what i hate the most. That, and he's the only person i'm afraid to argue with. I feel the most sorry for my mom. She has to put up with my random mood swings and my dad's constant complaining. And she works outside all day at the Muny. I really don't know how she does it.
So after my mom figured out what was going on with my Grammy my dad had to make a whole scene about how he didn't get to go to sleep and all this crap because my mom wanted him awake and it's like well hey, you're almost right. So he stomped upstairs and slammed his bedroom door. Oh yes, his bedroom door. It's wonderful, my parents don't sleep in the same room anymore which i found out was a big secret. I swear to God. Either one of them is going to kill the other or they're getting divorced. They've already decided that they aren't living together when i'm in college. My mom's goin back to New York and my Dad's going to live on a farm...don't ask. But yea, so i don't know what the hell that's all about, but that's what they wanted to do, and that's what they tell peoeple so...i don't know.

Ahh, i'm supposed to be cleaning. My mom's having some 40 people over tonight and i'm the lucky little bitch that has to have everything ready for her when she gets home. I really, really don't want to. Now now. I'm so tired, and there's people at my house that i don't know and i just want to go hide under my covers and sleep for a long, long time. Damn, i have to clean the pool too. Grr.

Yesterday was good during the day. Poor Lizzie though. Andrew broke up with her and she was crying and came and stayed with me and Sarah. Then again she just talked on the phone for some 5 hours with a new clan of guys, but i guess that's what she needed. So we went to the mall and I kinda felt bad for Ray. She didn't know anyone first of all, and my friends aren't exactly you're average lookin kids. I failed to mention to her that Paul had a mowhake. Heh. I think she was surprised. But Lizz, on the other hand. Srpung right back and claimed Steve as her next victim. Which is wonderful, but unfortunate at the same time. I kinda had my eye on Steve...oh well. Not like i could get him anyway. Hah i'll just keep workin on Brandon...HAH that's even funnier. Oh well, i can dream...

Damn. I still have so much shit to do today, and i haven't even really started.

Incubus tickets go on sale tomorrow. I'm excited. I really wanna go, and i realy want good seats. But Lisa said she wanted to sit on the lawn...which is cool. But I wanna be upfront ya know? Ahh, i'll talk to someone. Maybe Nathan would go with me...heh. Well i should probably get goin...the dishes are calling...

Answer questions using lyrics from only one band.

Band: Incubus

1. Are you male or female?:

Bat your eyes girl,
be other worldy,
count your blessings,
seduce a stranger.


2. Describe yourself?:

Stranger then a gang of drunken mimes.

I like to stink a little bit,
just to keep you on your toes yes. (lol)


3. How do they feel about you?:

Like a bottle with the cork stuck,
you're true ingredients are trapped up inside.
Through the cloudy glass we catch a glimpse of you.
I guess the hard shell represents your pride.
Oh, if only it could be different,
we could uncover the you, you deny.


4. How do you feel about yourself?:

I haven't felt the way
I feel today
in so long it's hard for me to specify.


5. Describe your girlfriend/boyfriend?:

How do you do it?
Make me feel like i do.

I think i was dreaming up some thoughts that were seemingly possible...with you.
So i call you on the tin can phone,
we rendezvous at a quarter-two,
and make sure we're alone.
I may have found a way for you and i to finally fly free
when we get there, we're gonna go far away.


6. What would you rather be doing?:

Floating down a river named emotion.


7. Describe where you live?:

The sky resembles a backlit canopy,
with holes punched in it.


8. Describe how you live?:

I'm born
I'm alive
I breathe.
In a moment or two I realize,
that the sphere upon i reside,
is asleep on its feet.
Should I go back to sleep?
We orbit the sun,
I grow up.
My open eyes see...
A zombified, somnabulist society.

Whatever tomorrow brings i'll be there,
with open arms and open eyes, yea.


9. Describe how you love?:

Could you show me dear...something i've not seen?
Something infinitely interesting.
There's something about the way you move.
I see your mouth in slow motion when you sing.
More subtle than something, someone contrives.
Your movements echo that I have seen the real thing.


10. Share a few words of wisdom?:

If you let them make you,
they'll make you papier mache.
At a distance you're strong,
until the wind comes then you crumble and blow away.
If you let them fuck you,
there will be no foreplay.
But rest assured,
they'll screw you complete 'til your ass is blue and grey.
You should make amends with you.
If only for better health.
But if you really want to live,
why not try and Make Yourself?