:: 2006 4 January :: 10.01 pm

I want to get a part-time job somewhere else and drop down to part-time at BK. Does that sound stupid?

1 bye | okay

:: 2006 4 January :: 3.16 pm
:: Mood: frustrated

why does it have to be so difficult?
Okay, here's my problem. Of course, I don't want to be stuck working at some dead end job for the rest of my life. I want to go to college, GRCC to be specific. I know what I want to do too: english and secondary education. But the problem is that I just don't understand how the whole system of college works (semesters, tuition hours, majors, minors, transfer, etc.), and why it costs so much fucking money. I mean, how can anyone in their right minds afford this shit. I looked at the only thing I saw that had a price, which was tuition hours, and it said that for a resident they'd have to pay 69.50/hour of "contact" with "an instructor or tutorial or laboratory equipment." So, if a class is two hours long (or however it works, I still don't know), I'd have to pay 139 dollars?!? What the hell is that? And I assume that I'd have to have a ton of classes throughout the semesters, or however it works (still don't know). And what if I have to pay for other basic classes, like math. Does that cost an arm and a leg too? I wish there was a person I could talk to or a website I could go to that would explain the basics to me, so I could start planning on going, that's IF I can find someway to afford it. It just can't be that expensive, if so many people are going to college. Yes, anyone who understands how college works must think I'm a fucking idiot, but I'm really flustrated right now. I've been all over the GRCC website, and I still don't know anything, and it makes me feel really stupid. Just really fucking stupid. I know I NEED to go to college. I want to go to college.

Anyone who knows anything about it, please explain it to me.

8 byes | okay

:: 2006 1 January :: 12.58 am

2006
Happy New Year. Time to start a bunch of resoultions.

And yes, I have a ton.

And this year, I hope to actually keep half of them.

okay

:: 2005 27 December :: 7.15 pm

I finally know everything that has happened so far.

Damn you Severus Snape.

1 bye | okay

:: 2005 24 December :: 2.04 am

Fun night. Definitely gonna go again next time.

2 byes | okay

:: 2005 23 December :: 8.09 pm

Fuck.

Just. Fuck.

Yeah, that's about it.

Also, I wonder what'll happen if I actually start taking chances.

Oh, Merry Christmas.

okay

:: 2005 21 December :: 4.47 pm
:: Mood: jealous
:: Music: Dance, Dance - Fall Out Boy

2 byes | okay

:: 2005 21 December :: 6.09 am

Your 2005 Song Is

Mr. Brightside by The Killers "It started out with a kiss How did it end up like this It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss" Let's just say you're happy to be done with 2005!

1 bye | okay

:: 2005 24 November :: 2.26 pm

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression of me?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
32. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
33. Are you going to put this on your Woohu and see what I say about you?
34. Who do you think loves me?

2 byes | okay

:: 2005 21 November :: 12.06 am

im probably not gonna be doing woohu much anymore, cuz i just started a myspace and ill most likely be doing everything on there... same with my xanga too.

1 bye | okay

:: 2005 20 November :: 10.26 pm

BK is really starting to get to me, and not in a good way. i mean, its not my coworkers cuz i love all of them. its really not the business aspect, cuz im getting more and more used to the whole managing thing and how to take care of the store. no, its more of the monotonous things i have to do every single day that's just making work so boring. every night i go in and its the same damn thing. take orders... deal with pissy customers... make sandwiches... clean steamer... clean dining room... close store... its just getting so dull that there's no fun in it anymore, no challenge. i think the only solution is to start looking for a new job. something to break up the repitition. i have a lot of thinking to do, and nothing is set in stone yet.

i went to see the wizard of oz at the highschool on saturday. i cheered on cherie, ben, shannon, and even saw a few people i remembered from when i was in school. it was cool.

Dec. 1st is gonna be awesome

lyrics:

I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted

okay

:: 2005 16 November :: 4.14 pm

nothing much

1 bye | okay

:: 2005 10 November :: 12.54 am

HAHA and I thought I was the weirdest one at BK...

way wrong...

5 byes | okay

:: 2005 7 November :: 7.12 pm
:: Mood: annoyed

hmp... childish...
the whole situation just pisses me off. i promise myself right now that i will forever forget the idea of it and just move on. cause thinking of the idea only causes more emotional stress and more gossip, which are the two things i hate the most and yet, i can't seem to get away from. sometimes, i just wish that everything in life was right in front of me, and nothing was hidden or secretive.

todd is right. i need to get out.

...three more weeks until im independent...

1 bye | okay

:: 2005 4 November :: 12.58 am
:: Mood: content

finally, a real (meaningful) entry
everything is good actually. no complaints. well, there are a few here and there, but for the most part, im happy. im on nights, i have my license, and im gonna have a car. and for the first time in my life, i feel accepted. a part of something. i feel included, and its a good feeling.

10 byes | okay