:: 2004 14 July :: 5.54 pm

at sallys came down as it is the last chance i will get to see her before she goes on holiday, but i get paid whilst she is away so that should be kool as i might even have me own place again by time she gets back but its looking as though it wont be til the end of next month as i cant really afford to pay out £500 for bond etc, so im gonna get steves tv, pay off my fine and any debts i have.

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:: 2004 12 July :: 8.33 am

got the morning off work so i could go home and get me stuff out the house, cant get in until after 5 tho and our dad is gonna come down at 7 to pick me up with it all. gonna go stay with him til the end of the month then get trevor to get me a new place. considering getting sally to move in with me but she dont want to until she starts uni next year even tho she dont know where she is going to go yet

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:: 2004 11 July :: 6.38 pm

door was kicked in again last night, frog's CD walman got nicked and £20 from selling pot can't even get into the house now as the door has been boarded up, gonna have to go stay with our dad til the end of the month which i really dont want to do but left with no choice as sally is going on holiday next week. I wish she wasn't going. I've finally had enough of frog and the partys and the general shit that comes with living with him so im gona get a plaace on me own at the end of the month when i get paid. Staying another night at sally's as i really didn't want to spend it at pete's gonna get the bus to work in the morning. oh well. gonna go hug her and snuggle up now, then go to sleep as soon as her dad goes to bed.

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:: 2004 10 July :: 12.58 pm

I've had enough, im moving out at the ed of the month, last night the window got smashed again, the key got nicked and the front door got kicked in, i don't need this shit now that im working so im going to have a word with trevor and get a place of my own at the end of the month.

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:: 2004 9 July :: 3.08 pm

tried to give up smoking but i ended up getting twitchy and very irritable and i wold rather die young than spend a few months like that. I love sally to bits but no matter what i seem to do anymore she says i'm acting like a nob or not showing her respect. WTF?? if she fucking told me at the time then i might be able to do something about it but not if she don't tell me at all. for fucks sake sally use ya noggan.

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:: 2004 7 July :: 8.10 am

work is getting better as we are actually doing stuff we need to know now, cocks are still pissing me off tho, going to sallys on friday night and gonna spend the whole weekend should be nice

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:: 2004 4 July :: 7.38 am

came to sally's as had nothing to do and i wanted to spend the time with her, me her n her sister are going to the fair in hartlepool today as there are rides etc should be a good laugh, back at work tomorrow but found out off andy that i missed two tests but he said they are easy so ill probably have to do them on monday. sally has decided she is gonna go to uni in durham but she will need a car to get there, hopefully her parents will sort her out as my money will be going to pay a margage by then, as a car is my least priority, but her parents said they will sort something out.

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:: 2004 3 July :: 8.34 am

pretty shitty night last night. went to the isaacs and the arena quite boring found out about several people who fancy me and jody said she want's to shag me again.....'sorry, im being faithful.' Waiting for a phone call off our dad he is going to come down and give eme some money as i am broke for the whole month cos of this new job so he is bringing my bday money down yay, pay of me debts. Work is getting me stressed ouot already as the majority of the people there are a pack of wankers and pissing me off, got attacked on wednesday night split me lip and my neck hurts when i move it. plank of wood across the right hand side of my face and a steel bar across my neck, then the little scruffy townie cunts walked off as i didn't even flinch and they dont understand how i managed it. LOL. ignorance is bliss. sally wants me to go to her's tonight but i dont know if i will or not as i really cant afford the bus fare, but it would be nice to spsend some time alone together.

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:: 2004 28 June :: 4.42 am

Okay, found out sally had a live journal yesterday not that bothered about it now, but i was very pissed off when i first found out as she told me she hadn't wrote in it when she had and alot of it was slagging me off but that was all from the past. Can she ever be entirely honest with me?? Meaning no lies and no secrets i need this sally and i hop and pray to god that you can do it for me.

P.s. Kitchen is fine but kids come before puppy LOL

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:: 2004 27 June :: 9.08 am

she always complains when i get pissed off when i find out something she has been keeping from me, but if she didn't keep them from me i wouldn't get pissed off. she seen mike a few days ago and avoided him in town. she didn't tell me about that, she has a live journal aswell as her woohu account, she didnt tell me about that and there is alot of stuff wrote in there that isn't in woohu, we agreed no secrets but its obvious now that there is secrets and she cant stick by our agreement......close to saying goodbye again cos of this, may sound stupid but when we agreed to it it meant alot to me and i have stuck by it. does she even give a shit??

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:: 2004 27 June :: 8.54 am

at sally's at the moment been helping her dad sort the garage out, n just nearly broke my back carrying 25kg of compost, starting work 2morra, looking froward to it, but still dont really know what me n sally are gonna do as unless when it comes to going i can get a transfer then i wont be going it's as simple as that.

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:: 2004 25 June :: 5.12 am

problems work has caused already
now i am starting work i dont want to leave boro as this is the first time in the last 5 years ive had my life sorted out and been happy with the way things are going, sally is still on about leaving though, and i cant leave the job as if i quit then i won't even be able to claim jobseekers for 6 months, which means i will be screwed. She still wants to leave if she has to but if she does that will mean the end of us. I don't want that to happen but its the only way it can happen, unless she changes her mind and decides to stay here in which case i can support us both on my wages until she finishes whatever but i can't wait around for years for her if she does go, so our options are either she stays or we end, tis pretty shitty really, if i go with her im literaly skint for 6 month's, and i know fine well she would not be able to support me even if i would let her but if she stayed it would mean that we could still be together, but she would just have to stay and change her mind of what she wants to do.....or get transport for a job or uni somewhere else, leeds is an hour's drive and she could always do that on a morning and night. These are the only possible futures i can see for us and at the moment they are looking very bleak unless she learns to give a little..... or a lot. with me i would be giving up everything if i where to up and leave she could always get a proper full-time job and give up on uni for a few years until we got housing n stuff sorted out, and then she could go to uni and do what she wants

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:: 2004 23 June :: 4.42 am

Sally came down last night, it was pretty boring as i was knackered, woke up about 4am and couldnt get back to sleep, gonna get me body clock sorted out by monday, so i will be up in time to start work

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:: 2004 22 June :: 7.30 am

life
For the first time in my life i am truely happy. I have a wonderful girlfriend who loves me, I start work at garlands on monday, and its a very good wage, I am happy with everything, the one downside at the moment is I'm gonna be skint til the end of next month as i wont be getting paid til then but apart from that everything is perfect. oh and living with frog but now that im working i can change taht very quickly. Probably gonna move to a different area, but now im working I don't want to leave middlesbrough. Which might cause a problem as I know sally wants to go to leeds or where ever as she is going to go to uni but I have finally got my life sorted out and i want to keep it that way, I'm going to start saving up while im working there and by the end of the year hopefully i'll be able to get a morgage in a nicer area.

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:: 2004 20 June :: 11.09 pm

sally
this weekend has made me realise that i am the happiest i have ever been. i want to spend every waking moment with her and every chance i get. got home tonight and noticed that sally had left her ring there again so i put it on so it wouldn't go missing. just watched the day after tomorrow with steve n peeps, the last time i seen it was when i went to the pictures with sally and i found myself thinking of her through the entire movie and kissing her ring, i know it may sound soppy but hey whats a guy to do when he's in love, the whole weekend has been practically perfect and i wish it had never ended.

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