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2004 17 January :: 7.55pm
:: Mood: discontent
:: Music: Diving (Cosmic Gate Vocal), by 4 Strings
*Sigh*
Well, I was just over at Hunter's house playing video games with him, Logan, Ross and DJ. We played Vampire the Masqurade today for RPG. *Is still sad because she had to leave Hunter and walk home in the dark.* Okay, well it was -almost- dark. a half-light so to say. The sun was quickly fading behind the rockies. I think I atleast amuse Hunter. That's something. I got a bit over half way home and realized I left my friggen sketch book! Oh well. It gives me an excuse to go back tommorow... *Sighs again* Love bites big time. I noticed he watched me a little today, I'm not sure if he was annoyed, or just watching, or what...
I love the way he smiles. It's quirky and wonderful. He's so great. I love the way his voice sounds, it's low note striking a chord within my soul. I love the way his mind works, turning out beautiful thoughts, almost as beautiful as he is.
I showed him that poem I wrote, the one about spinning...He said that's how he felt when he broke up with his ex-girlfriend. -_x
Caro is a super lame-o. Oh yes, she is. *Finds her gun-- not like she has one--And shoots herself through the skull*
~Caro, the Lame ass loser.
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2004 16 January :: 8.54pm
Ahg. Feel like I'm going to throw up. I feel this vast emptyness. I taste blood. I've been tasting blood a lot, but it's sweet blood, like sugar is added. I wonder if that's how it would tast if you were a pyre, drinking blood all the time. That sounds weird I know. But anyway, I feel weird, and my head is spinning, like I'm falling through space. I can hardly type. I don't know what it is, what I'm lacking to give me this hole in me. It's indescribable. What could be causing this? Please tell me...I wnat to know what you think
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2004 16 January :: 8.32pm
Gah. I had a horrible dream lastnight. I don't want to talk about it. -_- gahhhhhhh.
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2004 15 January :: 1.02pm
Please ignore the title of my last post. It's called Spinning
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2004 15 January :: 12.19pm
:: Mood: confused
Last night I dreamed about Hunter. Yes, big surprise. That's not the point. In the dream at one point we shared a brief kiss, and I could feel it, even with my eyes half open. I wish my mind would stop tormenting me. I've never had dreams like this about other guys, and of all times this is the one where I can't do anything about it! When I have these dreams I don't know whether to love them or scream or cry. *Sighs* I just am not sure what to do.
~Caro, the confused and tormented.
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2004 14 January :: 8.52pm
:: Music: Diving, by 4 Strings
Great. Another -larger- hole in my arm. -___- Aiiiiiiiiiii. Jah. I'm a bit peeved. I can't think of what to write. I'm sorry.
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2004 13 January :: 9.28pm
Songs
4 Strings
Take Me Away (into The Night)
Summary Big Markets History Full History
Lyrics Music Sheets & Notes Info from Amazon
Submitted by Catherine
Shining light
Another day turns into night
Eternal fire
Waited all my life
Take me away
A million miles away from here
Take me away
Find a place for you and me
You're taking me higher
High as I could be
Take me away
Forever you and me
Take me away
Tears I cried
Kept them all inside
I needed time
To make up my mind
Take me away
A million miles away from here
Take me away
Find a place for you and me
You're taking me higher
High as I could be
Take me away
Forever you and me
Take me away
Take me away
A million miles away from here
Take me away
Find a place for you and me
You're taking me higher
High as I could be
Take me away
Forever you and me
Take me away
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2004 13 January :: 1.03pm
:: Music: Take me away (Into the night), by 4 Strings
Takin' me higher,
High as I could be,
Take me away,
Forever you and me...
www.launch.yahoo.com Make your own station. It r0x0rz.
I heard from Nee lastnight, it was a happy moment.
I have four e-mail adresses right now.
One of which will die eventualy, I'm sure. That's neothereisnospoon@yahoo.com
Other than that I have my main adress, insanepyrovampy@yahoo.com
I have two new adresses, one of which I shall keep private, and the newest KnightOfTechno@yahoo.com which I only have because of launchcast radio. So if you want to e-mail me, please e-mail me at insanepyrovampy@yahoo.com
List of things I wish I could stop doing:
Falling down
Thinking about Hunter, though I love him to death
Drawing crummily
Losing stuff
Puting off reading my book
Sucking at Kingdom Hearts
Sucking at FFVII
Sucking at life in general
Crying.
~Caro
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2004 12 January :: 7.05pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Numb, by Linkin Park
Second post today
*Looks at a heart shaped chocolate and sighs.* Murf. *Breaks the chocolate in half and eats it* Gah. ; . ; *Cries about Hunter* Oh well. I might go to his school next year. Yay! But that doesn't help me feel better right now, particularly since I have nothing better to do than sit around and think about him sisnce I really cant walk far without falling down, cause I'm still toxic on lithium!
-_- grrr.... I love him so much! *Cries*
On the up-side, I got new music for in here.
~Caro, the Uber-Fallen
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2004 12 January :: 2.12pm
Sirens…
There are always sirens…
It seems like I hear them all the time,
Cause I do.
Night or day.
I hear that sound I hate and fear,
That sound I loath.
But it never stops.
I lie in my bed and I hear that sound,
see the flashing lights.
Sirens.
They haunt me.
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2004 11 January :: 6.41pm
D'ya ever just feel like shit, mentaly and physicaly? Ever not been able to stand or walk without falling over? Ever done something REALLY stupid? Ever been cut off from your best friend just like that? All at the same time? Well then there's some off chanse you know how I feel. Lucky you!
~Caro, the Damned.
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2004 9 January :: 2.28pm
yippy skittles -_-
I'm working on Hana's birthday prezzy, which I shall not tell you what it is. I can't seem to make myself be happy. Tomorow is RPG. I'll see Hunter there. If that doesn't make me happy, nothing will. Exept of course if Nee showed up at my doorstep. That would make me happy.
I beat the Gaurd armor in your name, Nee. That's the only way I could beat it.
~Caro
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2004 8 January :: 8.50pm
I've been staring at that e-mail for too long now. Just too long. I stare at it with the intensity of a thousand suns, wishing it would change. Please change. Let me know everything is all right, that we can still talk, that it'll all go back to normal. Let it be a stupid joke. Let me hear your voice. Please. Make that e-mail change.
I miss you Nee. I want to tell you I finaly found the Third District in traverse town, Give me tips on the boss, just like before. I wish I could hold you tight, I wish we could laugh about the holes in my arm and the gash on my finger. I miss you.
Nee....
~Caro, the confused
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2004 7 January :: 9.40pm
*Holds up her middle finger on her left hand*
Lok at this! *Pulls down her shirt sleeve to show three marks left by needles. On her finger there is a slash* Marks of a lithium level take. *Lowers her arm* They couldn't find a vein and so after three trys they did a finger draw. I had so much fun at the hospital, as you can tell. *Glares* At least the conversation was good. I got a really cool guy named Erich (Pronounced like Eric) So, whee. Aw, shite. Blurred vision. I have to go, I can't see.
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2004 6 January :: 7.15pm
:: Mood: pissed off
The worst thing ever
Well, the worst thing that could possibly happen ever happened. My best friend (Nee-chan, 14outtanone) has been forbiden to talk to me by her pshyc-idiot. We need eachother! He says she's "Developing my symptoms" which isn't actualy possible. Her grandma told her doc I'm schitzophrenic which is miles away from either of the things people think I am: Schitzo-effective disorder or more likely Bi-Polar two. *Glares* This is morronic! It's stupid!
On top of that I'm home from school cause I'm dizzy, falling over, have a fever, double vision and, in the words of my sister, "Kracked Out" periods.
And I had a wonderful dream about Hunter last night. -_- And it was romantic.
Nee, I'm not sure what to do about all this, but it will work out. I promise. *Huggles you*
~Caro
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