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2003 24 December :: 1.24pm
:: Mood: Chipper
:: Music: The Smurf Song
Spa-00t!
It's Christmas Eve and I'm going to the mall! YAY! I think I'll go to Suncoast finaly. Just forget myself for a while, Stop worrying about Hunter, Hana, Math class, Homework, Anything at all, just have a good time for the first time in ages. Gods allmighty, I feel great. I just poured out a lot in responce to a comment posted by Nee on the post below this one (I think). You should check it out. I fell so much better. Thank you Nee for giving me the oportunity.
~Caro
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2003 23 December :: 10.35pm
Just got back from Hana's (3rd post)
I had a wonderful time at Hana's. It was lovely, actually. We sat around and watched her brother play video games. Tee hee ^_^
As I have stated before, I hve my reasons to be loyal as a dog (And as serving as one) to her. She's cool. My dad says to get closer to Hunter in a friend way and bide my time. I think I shall try. But I tell you It's hard.
~Caro, the loyal Dog.
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2003 23 December :: 3.04pm
The poem (Second post today)
She fell backwards on her bed and sighed.
How could she?
She thought they were friends.
Let us start at the beginning.
She was in love
With this guy.
He wasn’t just any guy,
No,
We was intelligent,
Funny,
A bit crazy,
Good looking…
She could list a thousand more things that she loved about him,
Go on for days.
But there was a problem.
For she loved one other:
Her best friend, Tein.
‘Twas the Christmas Ball at school,
She had brought him a rose,
Was finally going to tell him.
She stopped dead.
Tein was flirting with him.
Worst of all,
He was flirting back.
They kissed.
She gasped.
He and Tein looked at her.
Her lip trembled.
She dropped the rose,
Turned,
And ran,
Eyeliner running down her cheeks.
She ran for home,
Fast as she could.
She stopped only to remove her high heels
And then she ran again.
Feet torn and bleeding she tore open the door
And fled to her room.
She fell backwards on her bed and sighed.
How could she?
She thought they were friends.
Tein knew she liked him.
Betrayal.
But she wouldn’t let Tein know how she felt.
She loved Tein,
No matter what.
She could do nothing.
She was betrayed.
Nothing.
A while later the phone rang.
“Hello?”
“Hey.”
It was Tein.
“Oh, Hi Tein.”
“Dude, why did you run out like that?”
“Oh, I didn’t feel well.”
“Oh, okay. Well, I’ll see you over break or something.”
“Yea, okay…”
“Bye!” *Click*
She cried herself to sleep.
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2003 23 December :: 2.36pm
Weeeeeeeell, Hana never called back. *Sigh* Ah, well. It happens.
I was up till 12:18 am lastnight and slept till 11:30.
I still want that phone to ring...Though it's time I gave up.
TOMMOROW IS CHRISTMAS EVE!!!!!!!!!!
yay! weeee...
Something to look forward to.
I think I may be too loyal. I have this horrible feeling I may get stabbed in the back...
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2003 22 December :: 8.21pm
Third post today
Righty oh. We're having computer problems
-____-
I wrote a poem a betrayal (Dun worry, I havan't been betrayed.)
Hana called and talked about Hunter for a looong ass time. "Oh, god, he was sooo flirting with me!" ; . ;
I SAW HIM FIRST!
Let me tell you this tryed my patience. Also we were supposed to get together tonight so I can give her her gift. She hasn't called back yet.
I hate the feeling of beeing expendible. "Can you take me to the studio?" "Sure" "Can I borrow five bucks?" "Sure" Talk to me about anything, even about how the guy I love was "Flirting" with you, I won't ever waver. I may feel like I'm gonna barf, but I won't tell you that.
So you want to get together? But you don't want to walk here? Okay, I'll come over there. *Sigh* Just remember How very much I love Hana (As a friend). I'd do almost anything for her.
Exept maybe give up Hunter...
~Caro, The lost and Loyal
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2003 22 December :: 1.52pm
Second post of the day
The morning at that.
Yea. Life is hard. I feel used by my friends often times, but I love those friends no matter what. Even if they do get the guy I love, I won't hate them. I don't want friendships to end like that. My sister (Aimee) says that the best way to loose a friend is over a guy. I don't want that to happen. I can't think of anything that is likely to happen that could end my friendship with someone (That they would do). I love my friends dearly, could never let that happen. But I'm in love...So what should I do?
~Caro, the confuzed and loyal
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2003 22 December :: 12.37pm
:: Mood: discontent
Heartbreak hotel
Well, my sister and I are both guests of the heartbreak hotel. The guy she's in love with has said that he loves her but wants to try a long distance relationship with this bitch who isn't even nice to him. -____- grr. I'm still wanting with all my soul for that phone to ring. ; . ; It's not allright. It's not okay. I'm just a looser.
~Caro
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2003 21 December :: 11.44pm
A hole
There is a hole in my soul. I can feel it in my chest; this vast gaping emptyness. All suddenly feels wrong. I want to throw up. This hole...It hurts, mentaly and physicaly. I can physicaly feel it. I want to make this clear. It is proof of a hole in my soul. What can fill this hole? Is it Hunter who can fill the emptyness in my essence? Or is it something else? Perhaps he can... But I may never know. Will this emptyness go on for all of eternity? Help...
Please ring....
This is just sad. It's 9:50 the next night and I still want that Gods CURSED phone to ring! Damnit! Ring! *Crys* Ring!
Just...
Ring....
~Caro, the empty
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2003 21 December :: 11.40pm
Just to prove what a looser I am I am wearing the One Ring and can recite the whole poem-not the abbreviated one from the movie but the whole poem-from memory. I'm doomed.
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2003 21 December :: 12.51pm
I changed my music. w00t. But it doesn't make my life any less pathetic.
Please ring....
My parents want me to go to breakfast with them but I'm still waiting for that phone to ring.
Besides that I'm not hungry. I feel sick. Stressed.
Please ring...
~Caro, the pathetic looser.
Please ring....
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2003 21 December :: 12.46pm
I am pathetic
I'm still hoping the phone will ring.....
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2003 20 December :: 10.48pm
I’m Like a deer in front of the semi-truck that is reality.
It never rang
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2003 20 December :: 4.09pm
:: Mood: listless
:: Music: Everywhere, Michelle Branch
Please ring
Cause you're everywhere to me,
When I close my eyes it's you I see,
You're all the things that make me believe,
I'm not alone...
This is how I feel about Hunter.
Maybe now you'll know.
So we were doing RPG today and we were all going to go back to Allison's (Hunter, DJ and Remy's) and I was going to watch Remy for Allison while she was out, but mum came and took me home. She said I could not stay unsupervised with boys. SoI told Remy to call me if plans were going to continue that way and if Allison would be there for a while. I want that phone to ring so badly, but I know it won't happen. Please ring...
When I close my eyes it's you I see.....
You're all the things that meke me beleive,
I'm not alone....
Please ring...
~Caro, The confuzed.
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2003 17 December :: 6.03pm
:: Mood: aggravated
Yea.
Well, I'm still working on my novel-short story-thingy. Gods. I am so tired. It's nuts. Oh, and I might not get to go to a movie with school because I might not get my fucking homework done, or maybe I won't get my Gods Damned Test finished! Yea. Every time I look at that test my mind freezes like Windows 95. ; . ; IT'S NOT FAIR. This I tell you. I have earned going to the fucking movie more than anyone! Gah. Yea.
Sandi dyed her blode hair brown. She wore it over one eye yesterday like Pentaice! =^.^= Eee! Yea. Only Nee knows what that means. Oh well! ^_^;; yea.
Must work on HW. *Tired* e.e \
~Caro, the really sucky math-doer
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2003 15 December :: 3.51pm
Righty-o. I've added more to my book. I think I'll type up some of it and put it in here...
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