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H2OforDuo

:: 2003 14 December :: 12.51pm

Gah. even Destruct-O-match isn't helping me feel better.

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H2OforDuo

:: 2003 14 December :: 12.29pm

Just got back from a walk I didn't want to go on,
Tired,
Sweaty,
Dirty,
Wet,
Mudy
and pissed.

However I had an interesting conversation with the wind.
[Alex: Indeed. ]

~~~~
Her eyes flew open,
Heart beating far to fast,
Oh how fast.
She jolted upright,
A scream in her throat.
She bit it back.
They musn't know the terror she felt,
Never let them know about the visions,
Visions of horror.
They would hate her,
She knew they would,
Simply because she was different.
The las vision she had showed up on the news a week later,
A bombing in sector six,
Hundreds killed,
Thousands wounded.
She mopped the sweat from her brow and laid back down,
Just her nightmares
and her.

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H2OforDuo

:: 2003 13 December :: 5.29pm

My poetry
I can't stop shaking...

Here is some poetry I've writen. please coment on them. I want feedback. If you have questions, please ask.
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She ran,
Crashing through the brush,
Eyes wide with terror,
Gleaming purple in the moonlight sifting through the trees.
She looked back,
Heard the hoof beats barely over the pounding of her own heart.
She ducked into the ditch,
Screaming as she fell into unseen thorns
Which tore her flesh.
A horse neighed nearby,
Hooves pounded,
Closer,
Closer…
She ripped from the thorns,
now scratched and bloody,
she ran once more,
Knowing she would die at the hands of her assailant.
Faster she ran,
Hot breath of the huge black horse on her neck.
Red predatory eyes stared at her from behind.
The horse reared,
Knocking her on her ripped up back,
Shards of glass ripping her back more.
Hooves came down,
Smashing one of her hands.
Her scream was heard all over the woods.
She rolled as the horse reared again.
The black clothed rider jumped off.
He placed a foot on her chest,
smirked,
And ran his sword through her chest.
The girl stared with huge eyes as her blood soaked into the sand.
The rider grinned at her
And watched her die,
His sword still in her chest.
His horse blinked those eyes and seemed to smile wickedly.
The man pulled his weapon from her dead corpse.
Running ash colored fingers down the bloody blade
He laughed,
Bringing her blood to his lips,
Savoring the metallic taste.
He cut a cross into her chest with a sickening smile on those bloodstained lips.
Fingers and blade once more clean,
He left her body a grim spectacle for passer by-s to see,
With a bloody cross and a crown of those thorns which had given her life away,
The innocent is slaughtered once more.

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Flash Flood


Flash flood,
Unexpected tears.
I think of my predicament with you,
My skin is unpermiable,
Wont soak up the rivers on my cheeks.
They stare.
“What are you crying about?”
I choke.
“Nothing”
I dam up my tears.
“Nothing at all.”
I wipe my eyes and go back to my science,
They shrug.
If only they knew.
But I want no relationships shattered like glass.
If only it could be…
You occupy my mind every day.
If only you knew,
But maybe you do,
And I don’t know how to tell.
You make my head spin,
But deep down I think I might like it.
_______________________________

Depression


I’m falling
Into that pit…
Falling,
Falling.
I land with a muted –thump-.
It’s dark here…
So dark.
I look up;
I must have fallen a long way
Because I can’t see a light at the top,
Yet somehow it’s getting darker.
Something is twining around my wrists,
And ankles:
Despair.
I struggle against the bonds,
Twisting,
Pulling…
I’m pulled through the bottom,
Screaming as the blackness envelops me,
Trying to claw out,
But I am lost in this black pit of woe.

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H2OforDuo

:: 2003 13 December :: 4.11pm
:: Mood: tired

I just got back from RPG.
I found this necklase I bought a while back in my purse once I got there and thought "I don't really want this, maybe Hunter would like it." So I gave it to him. He loved it. I was stuned. The other guys liked it too! *Sigh* So, I wonder if he is becoming less oblivious. I know that Hana likes him too, but I've been wondering if we like him for the same reasons...Well, there is no way to tell. I dun wanna piss her off. We're friends, and want it to stay that way.

Hope will live!
XD
RPG inside joke.

So we all know that I'm madly in love with Hunter. If only he knew. He's so intelegent and kind. He's funny, he's imaginative, he's-well, I'd list all these things but it would take me a while ^_^; The point is, he's wonderful.


Thank you Nei fer the icon! I love it!

I've been a bit down for various reasons, you know how it is. Today I drew an angel that was held up by strings like a puppet. yea. I need someone to catch me. I think I'll type up some of my poetry and put it here. Well, I'm off to do that.

~Caro, the Lost and Fallen

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H2OforDuo

:: 2003 11 December :: 3.26pm

Well, I have begun writing another book, I hope this one gets off the ground.
I have a wonderful book about haunted castles, but it makes me more paranoid than usual.
I've been having moodswings lately and the uncomfortable feeling that something is most definately wrong in a very serious way.\
I have not heard from Nei in a while, but last time I heard from her she was ailing. Get well soon Nei.
What am I to do about Hunter? Hana will hate me if I end up going out with him...

I had a preformance last night. Wee.
In perfomance art we are learning to play the Digerydoo[sp?]. It is fun!
I wish I could write more, but I am tired...

~Caro, the Lost, Fallen and Broken

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H2OforDuo

:: 2003 7 December :: 9.45am

Well, I think Hunter might be starting to figure out I love him, which makes me so happy and yet so nervous... I guess I shoulden't freak out just yet. Hunter, if you're reading this, please let me know...

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H2OforDuo

:: 2003 4 December :: 5.23pm

Well, I have to go to school tomorow. I had a breakdown in the car earlyer because I have so much on my mind. Luci is suposedly coming over, oh..wait...She coming. -damn them all to hell- Gah...so tired...

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H2OforDuo

:: 2003 4 December :: 9.59am

eep. O.O
EEP! I keep hering this weird howling like the wind, BUT IT'S NOT WINDY!


Here i am at home again. stiiiiill sick.

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H2OforDuo

:: 2003 3 December :: 4.44pm

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this is my way to live

What about yours?

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quite result
Quiet Girl


What kind of little girl were YOU?
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H2OforDuo

:: 2003 3 December :: 4.15pm
:: Mood: S I C K a s H E L L ! ! ! !

*Barf*
Well, I still havent -actualy- thrown up. I've been dry wretching which, wouldent you just know, is worse for you. ;.; Mum and I saw Brother Bear, which for a recent Disney film was quite good. woah. Scary, eh? Gah...I hate the lightheaded feeling.

Nei, I need your address.

~Caro, the utterly sick and Fallen.

*Runs to the bathroom*

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H2OforDuo

:: 2003 2 December :: 3.12am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Havana Mix part 1 by Paul Okenfold[sp?]

*Sigh* for some reason I've been thinking about Hunter a lot. I also realized that being with Hunter could wreck my relationship with hana. ; . ; I'm just doomed.

Other than that I'm just really depressed.

I'm rather sick but cant seem to keep still. *Twitch* yea. I'm skrewed big time.


~Caro, the Lost and Fallen

PS it was 11 am when I wrote the last posts.

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H2OforDuo

:: 2003 2 December :: 1.38pm

third post of the morning
I had a dream lastnight in which Nei came to live here. Next door in fact. It was quite odd, really...But I woke up and wished it was true.

Yea. o.0

~Caro, the lost and Fallen

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H2OforDuo

:: 2003 2 December :: 1.29pm

Yes! It is the CHRISTMAS LIST OF |)00|\/| !!
Christmas list of |)00|\/|

Soundtracks
Soundtrack to Kingdom Hearts (WAY High Priority)
Soundtrack to Final Fantasy X (10) (WAY High Priority)
Soundtrack to The nightmare before Christmas (High Priority)
Soundtrack to Totoro
Soundtrack to Princess Mononoke
Soundtrack to Neon-Genesis Evangelion
Soundtrack to Harry Potter and the chamber of secrets (Low priority)
Soundtrack to Star Wars Episode V: The Empire strikes back
Soundtrack to The Pirates of the Caribbean

Other CDs
In terms of CDs I basically want lots and lots of techno
I also want stuff by the following artists:
The Foo Fighters
VNV Nation
Symphony X
Linkin Park
Switchfoot
Rage Against the Machine
Nine Inch Nails (Not the album called Broken)
AFI
Tangerine Dream

And some specific albums:
Faceless by Godsmack


Games (Play Station 2)
Final Fantasy X
Kingdom Hearts (High Priority)

DVDs
The Nightmare Before Christmas
Kiki’s Delivery Service
The Animatrix
The Matrix (1)
The Lord Of The Rings: The Two Tower special edition (wide screen)
Neon-Genesis Evangelion Box Set (Low Priority)
Pirates of the Caribbean
Monty Python and The Holy Grail (low priority)

Books (Authors names may be misspelled)
Trickster’s Choice by Tamora Peirce (High Priority)
Interview With a Vampire by Anne Rice


Manga/Graphic Novels
Johnny the Homicidal Maniac








Makeup
Lip colors:
From goodgoth.com :
Ravens Ghost
Ossified
Faust
Coffin Varnish
Blotto


Art Stuff and Such
Air brushing kit (for my anime) (WAY HIGH priority)


Misc.
Red Lightsaber (High Quality Like from FAO Schwarz) (High Priority)
Nightmare Before Christmas stuff

Clothing
Some cool wings I could wear with a lot of my clothes. (High priority)
Clothes of a gothic or punk style (Or medieval) Would be nice, along with jewelry along those lines. ALSO Earrings. Ankhs are cool for jewelry of all sorts. www.goodgoth.com is a good place to look for clothing and jewelry as well as Shoes and boots
I really want a cool velvet cloak

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H2OforDuo

:: 2003 2 December :: 12.56pm

*Sips gingerale carefuly* (yay)
Well, here I am at home. (yay). Unfourtunately I feel like shit. (not yay). I keep dry-wretching, which is no fun whatsoever. (not yay). On top of that Mum is depressed because Luci is gone. (Not yay)
So...yea. End of post. I'm too sedated[sp?] to think. (not yay)

~Caro, the lost and fallen

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H2OforDuo

:: 2003 1 December :: 8.15pm

Did I menton P,T&L moved out? yea...

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