im soo sad today. it feels like some1 is steppin on my heart. and i feel like im going to throw up. all b/c of one sily thing that cud easily b fixed if i cud talk to sum1. but no. wont answer the fone... wont call me... i cant talk about it anymore.
my mom and jennifer are still in Hollywood, FL b/c they won over a thousand dollars last nite, and won a free room 2nite and 2 free rooms sumtime next month. so they are stayin tonite then 2morrow coming home but on the way stoppin at the mall and buying us stuff. they sayd that they are relly proud of me and taylor cuz we cleaned and didnt get mad at them wen we heard they were stayin longer and we "will be rewarded greatly when they get back" so im happy (only bout that tho!) and next month i get to go to the hard rock hotel and get away from this crappy house for the weekend.
well im gona go. theres nothing good to say, so ill jst shutup.
jennyfer

blah!
im so tired 2day. ive been doin stuff nonstop(except bout an hour between the three) all day. first golf from 8:30 to 11:30, then str8 to cypress from 12 to 4. and finally wendy;s at 5:30 b4 sectionals from 6 to 730. now im at home. extremely tired and very irritable. the littlest things that normally wouldnt make me made do. and im trying to not do wat i usually do in this mood which is get relly mad at every1. plus my shoulders/ neck has hurt bad all day and isnt helpin my situation. well thats it cuz my arm hurts 2.
jennyfer.

im sittin at home. with no1 except my mom whos asleep. every1 else went out to breakfast. i didnt wana go cuz i dont like any breakfast food so i didnt relly no why on earth i shud go. so now im sittin here, bored, and eatin swedish fish. my eye starteed hurting b4 so i tryed to get my contact out but a little piece of it is still in my eye. so now i have another contact in, plus the piece that broke off the other one. im not sure how im gona get it out... so im jst gona wait til itfalls out or sumthin i duno.
today im baking for my fam. mini brownies and peanut butter cookies. tommorow i have to make brownies for a sectional.
nothin has relly been happenin this week. besides teh fact that my house is a disaster. theres too many ppl in my house. and ya no the sad thing is, we havent had the house to ourselves in over 2 months. i dont think it will b like that ever again either. cuz my moms friend and kids stay here constantly.. theres nothing i can do about it either cuz wenever i tlk to my mom about it she says they are gona be at our house no matter wat i say cuz she likes them here. well i hate it. i jst hope that once skool starts that they go back home. either that or ill be spending ALOT of time at skool and at friends houses.
that is all.
jennyfer

not feelin to good..
today wasnt so grt. vry tired i guess. but bad things happen alot to me. and im gettin kinda tired of it. i dont know wat to do. so ill jst "pretend" to be happy forever

AHHH!
happy 4th of July. minus the happy part. cuz its anything but. its a total borefest at my house with about 20 ppl here annoyin the crap outta me. cant even watch tv cuz ppl have to watch "Cribs" very gay show.... also, i miss matt alot. every1 is annoyin me and i want to jst escape outa here and go sumwhere else.

im very happy... too much to go to bed. soim gona sit here happily and do nothing!bye!

i jst got home from key west about 4 hrs. ago. it was fun. explain more later cuz theres sumthing rong with the laptops keyboard....
jennyfer

well 2day was a pretty good day. had band practice till 12, then at 2 i went to volunteer at the hospital day care. that went ok. except for the annoance of sum of the kids, and was made worse b/c i was extremly tired from a number of diff things. i relly need to go to bed early 2nite.... i dont know if i can stand bein this annoyed at dumb things 2morrow. esp. since i have to volunteer oncee again, but this time at central transportation. nothin much else to say.... wel there is, but i wont say it on here.
im off to read my horoscope
Jennyfer

ya know wat i have to say??? ..... kahochiewa!!!!!

lol.. i have no idea.
for the first time in i think my entire life i CAN NOT wait for school to start again. wen we were in skool, i jst went along with things and there wasnt that many problems (except for 1 that more than jst me was having). now i feel totally insane.
jennyfer

as to my last post......still contemplating what to do... very hard and confusing.
this morning i woke up at 9 cuz my mom and her friend were leaving to go to their friends house to put rocks down. i got mcdonalds but then my mom came home and they got wings... so as u can imagine i was quite upset to learn i did not get any b/c i have mcd. not cool. i wud have not gotten mcd in hte first place on account that i HATE fast food with a passion and try not to eat it(except during marching season wen its a necessesary)!
a little while later i made my bro take me to publix and i came home and started to make homemade carmel sauce and hot fudge. not good idea. during the process i got grossed out... the carmel didnt want to become "carmelized" and i droped the spoon into the pot. considering im a blonde... i tried to get it out with a measuring cup that was nearby(??????) not good... cuz wen i was bringin it out the concoption spilt all over me and my sister (esp. me tho) and im wearin a skort so it was on my legs.... i tried to get it off quick, but not enof. i have a burn on my hand but on my legs theres three spots where it was soo hot that the skin came off.. kinda gross....
the rest of the nite i read my book... takin a pizza break in the middle ( MY FAVORITE!!!)
now im jst sittin here, tired and not wantin to read anymore with sum annoyin ass music on in the background.
im gona go fix that problem.
Jennyfer.

for months (well acually 4) i wanted sumthin to happen. i swear this alwys happens to me 2. i keep wishin for sumthing. then it happens. and what do i do? get relly mad and upset and not like it. its not like its sumthing i told sum1 to do and they finally did it.... its sumthing i was wishin to happen. now im mad. i dont know wat to do. and everything is crazi.
i dont know if that makes one ounce of sence (sp?) but oh well.
Jennyfer

dont know what to do...
i know, i havent writtin in here in like forever. well acually jst a month and 2 days.mostly cuz b4 recently ive had nothing to talk about. my life was totally boring, and i was working relly hard trying to keep up friendships while doing everything i could to do good the last weeks of skool. everything turned out pretty good tho. its finally summer, and im not too bored this time. i have hw for AP History to get done, and i wana make sure its good considering we have the whole summer to do it. and im not going to complain cuz i was the one who wanted the class. i will succeed, b/c i want to. and i can guarentee i wont give up.
this summer is going good so far. i went to nyc for a week as soon as skool got out. had a couple of days to relax. then this week started. i went to golf yesterday for an hour with sarah. pretty fun even tho i suck! hehe. its okay tho i think ill get btr soon(hopefully). then last nite i was up till 2 am. first on the fone, and then i couldnt get to sleep. i cant stop thinkin about this one thing. one second im thinking about the good part, next im telling myself "NO! dont do that" its the worst. then today i had to wake up at 7:30. thats not good for me.... i get very annoyed at dumb things wen i dont get to sleep at a normal time and have to wake up early. then i went babysitting. came home to find they ate all my brownies i was waiting the entire morning for.... then got in a fite with my mom and didnt leave my room until jst now. only cuz she left to do work.

i dont understand why i get what ive wanted for MONTHS and im not extremely happy. im way too unsure of wat to do and im scrd.

lovez,
jennyfer!!!!
-forever im happy....even when life goes down the drain.